Hey! I didn't die! Thanks for the reviews. Yeah.. so I'm grounded for this stupid-ass reason and am now at my friend Samie's…. typing this out… So thank Samie for letting me do this. Thank her damnit! Ok read now! Also, there's Kingdom Hearts in here.

Disclaimer: If I owned it it'd be boy/boy. And it's not…sadly.

CH. 5 Where he's been.

"What are you here for anyway?"

"I'm looking for someone."

"Me too! I'm looking for my two best friends."

/Familiar voices .. I've heard them before. Somewhere./

"Have you ever heard of Ansem?"

"No, who's that?"

/Another voice, so familiar./

"Come on Leon! We gotta help Sora!"

/Leon…? So that's me? So .. Sora/

Wrenching my eyes 'open' I noticed darkness. No light anywhere.

"Am I … am I alive?"

No one answered. I remembered this place. It wasn't so long ago really.

/My world … it wasn't destroyed. That's why I was the only one I knew./

"Hey man. I got a new Gummi block for you."

/The only one … from home … the only one in that town … in Traverse Town./

"Leon""Leon"

"Leon"

"Leon"

"Hey Squall"

/Who … is talking? Should I …. Should I know … this …. This person/

"I'm sorry for all I've done; but more importantly, you need to wake up."

/Why? Why should I? 'Wake up?' Why the hell would I want to wake up … up to a world of pain … and suffering .. alone./

"Come on, Squall! Please! Just…wake up. Please."

"Leon, I'll make sure we see each other again. I consider you a friend, so I'll see you again."

/How long ago … did Sora say that? It was before the darkness … so long ago./

"Come on, Squall!"

I jerked up, the darkness receded; putting me face-to-face with Sefier.

"Woah-" Sefier smiled, not his usual arrogant smirk, but a real smile.

I blinked. /What's going on/

"I knew you'd wake up."

"Balamb?" /Is that where I am/

"Heh. Yeah. I brought you here after you killed Ultmecia."

/Ultmeica? .. The darkness!"

Squall moved and tried to hit Sefier, causing him to start falling off the bed and having Sefier catch him.

"What the hell was that!" Sefier softened. "Look, I know you must be pissed. I went against Garden and tried to kill you, but really Squall … you can beat me up or kill me when you're better."

"I don't want want to get better!" I wrenched out of his hold, falling back onto the bed.

Sefier blinked in confusion. "What do you mean you don't want to get better? You're still weak. I had Dr. K look you over and she said-"

/Look me over? Did she see/ " I didn't want to be saved either!" From the look on Sefier's face, I'd say he got pretty pissed when I said that.

"So you're telling me," He was growling the words at me through clenched teeth, "that you wanted to die?" Yeah, he was pissed.

"Yes, if you must know. I wanted to DIE!" Sefier growled and stood from the chair beside my bed. "I have NOTHING to live for!"

It took Sefier's widening eyes, halting step, and a sob to realize I was crying.

"Squall." I looked up through my tears and my hair to see Sefier looking helpless.

I put my hands over my eyes and leaned forward a bit to hide my face. /Nothing … I gave everything away./

I jerked back to being aware of my surroundings when I felt a hand on the back of my head; followed by another on my shoulder. Both pushed me forward and up into another's body. I stiffened.

"You have me," I think I went into shock. /Sefier? I have … Sefier/ "even if you hate me." He squeezed me, pushing me further into his embrace. "You can live to kill me if you want … if you hate me."

"Sefier?" I was so tired, weak, and cold. I shuddered.

"I won't let you die. Even if it's what you want most, more than anything else, I won't let you have it. I'm a selfish bastard and I'll fight to get what I want … and I want you to live Squall."

"Death is the only thing I want." This time it was Sefier who stiffened.

"Well, I won't let you have it."

"How do you expect to keep it from me?" I wasn't mocking him. It was a simple question.

Sefier pulled away – just enough to look me in the eye.

It seems my run-in with darkness has allowed me to see into another's heart. I was able to clearly see his determination.

"I'll find a way." He smirked, showing he already knew of a way… and I wasn't going to like it.

"I need to die." Anger.

"I'm not going to let-"

"I need to! I don't want to be like them! The only way not to is Death!" I snapped back, fear evident in every word. Fear, anger, and a determination – if not to make him understand, then to end my life anyway.

"Squall." He seemed nervous. It looked like he was trying to understand my need. "What are you so afraid of?"

At that moment my vision swam and I fell into Sefier. /It wouldn't matter if I told you. You still wouldn't understand./

Darkness swept across my vision as spells caressed my mind.

"Squall! What's wrong! SQUALL!" I hardly felt Sefier laying me back down and vaguely heard him calling me.

"Dr. K.!"

/She can't help. No one can. Especially you, Sefier/ my mind mocked.

/The darkness has come to enslave me. Death will be mine. If not in one sense then in another./

My vision blackened completely. If I died, I would die smiling.

Ok, hope ya'll liked the Fluffy Sapp. Thank Samie again! Also, please send more love! I'm still grounded so it'll be a while before I update again. So after I write Ch. 6, Don't expect to hear from me for a while.