I woke up in the morning to Shippou bouncing on my bed. I growled at him and he landed near my face.
"About time Leigha!" he yelled wrapping his little arms around my neck.
"What do you mean?" I asked, confused.
"You were asleep a long, long time. But I'm happy your awake now! I was worried!" he replied.
Shippou bounced off my bed and ran out of the room. He came back a few minnutes later with Inuyasha on his heals. Inuyasha kneeled by my bed and looked into my eyes. He looked worried, but I couldn't tell why. I was fine, as far as I could tell anyway.
"H-how long was I out for?" I asked, a little scared.
"Not too long, but I was worried." he answered.
"But..." I turned my head and saw a woman standing in the doorway, "we knew you would make it." she finnished.
Inuyasha turned to the girl in the doorway and stood up, slowly inching toward her.
"Inuyasha?" I questioned, but it's as if I wasn't even there.
He kept walking toward her, silently inching his way to her. She just stared back at him. They were only inches away know.
"I-inu.....yasha?"I said again. The way he looked at her earlier....it scared me....it was as if he loved her, yet loathed her at the same time. Loved her, that's what scared me.
"No, Inuyasha." she said placing her outstretched hand on his chest so he could move any closer. "I have not come here......for that. Nor will I ever again." she said, her cold eyes locking on his.
Inuyasha took staggering step back, the expression on his face hurt me, he was in pain.
"I came here to announce my new allience. My new allience with a demon lord." she said.
Inuyasha was still in pain, and now in shock. I didn't want to watch this, I wanted to leave, run away, but I had no energy. I slowly lifted myself off my bed a staggred to the balcony. I turned back to see if Inuyasha had even realized I'd gone yet. He hadn't. He was oblivious to everything, everything but the woman in front of him.
".....my allience with Lord Sesshomaru..." she continued. I gasped.
"But.......but why Kikyou?!" Inuyasha yelled.
Kikyou didn't answer, instead she just walked away, leaving Inuyasha standing there, frozen in his place.
"Please don't leave Kikyou. I need you," he whispered.
A tear silently slid down my cheek as I opened the balcony door and walked out. I sat on the railing, flipping my legs over the edge, letting my feet dangle over the open garden.
'He really cares for this woman. He cared enough to say he needed her, and he keeps his emotions deep within him....he never said he needed me.... ,' ...these were the thoughts running through my head.
I looked up into the sky, letting my tears fall to the railing below me. On push and I would be gone, I would fall twenty feet into the garden below. One little push and it would all be over. I slowly leaned forward looking at the garden below me. I lightly pushed off the railing with my hand, freefalling into the garden. I was ten feet away before a bright green light consumed me and a blacked out.
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I woke up to a cold cloth against my face. I looked up into Sango's face. She smiled and hugged me. I looked around, I was in my room. How....how was I in my room? I fell twenty feet onto hard ground, how did I survive. Then I realized...I never really felt myself hitting the ground. How though? How did I make it?
"What happened Leigha? Who did that to you?" Sango asked, realeasing my from her grasp.
I turned my head and she placed her hands on my shoulders.
"What happened? Who did this?!" Sango yelled.
"I did it! I jumped!" I yelled back.
"But....but why?" she asked,
"I wanted to die...I WANT to die!" I yelled struggling under her grasp.
Her eyes went wide and her grasp on me loosened. I rolled out of bed and walked to the window.
"Why?" she asked.
"Lots of reasons....you wouldn't understand," I replied.
"Try me," she said.
"I have depression, and it was getting a lot better. I was happy, but things happened and I fell...I fell fast back into all the pain." I said.
"What happened?" Sango asked.
"You...you just wouldn't..." I started.
"Don't tell me I won't understand...just tell me what happened," Sango said.
"I was jealous Sango. Inuyasha...he...and the girl...she...." I tried to say it but I couldn't find the words.
"Kikyou showed up didn't she?" Sango asked. I nodded.
"I understand....I've felt the same way before," she put her head down.
"You have?" I asked, walking back toward the bed.
"Of course I have. How couldn't I? Having to watch Miroku flirt with all those women....it hurts," she replied.
"Miroku?!" I asked.
"Yeah, I know, never would have guessed huh?" she said.
"I thought you hated eachother,'' I laughed.
"Yeah, well most times I do, lately," she said.
I gave her a hug before walking back to the window.
"You....you love Inuyasha?" she asked.
I sighed. "Yeah, I do."
"Boys and love....they're great...but they aren't worth killing yourself over." she said.
"I have depression, I can't help it!" I retorted.
"Excusses," she said.
"You don't know shit about it so just shut the hell up!" I yelled.
I ran to the balcony and tore open the door, throwing it off its hinges, I took a step out and colapsed.
I heard Sango yelling my name, and I felt her shaking me, trying to keep me conscious....but...I couldn't.......
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"Inuyasha! She tried to kill herself because of you! And still....you defend Kikyou! What is wrong with you! Do you even care about Leigha!" Sango screamed.
"Of course I care about her," he said calmly.
"Then what the hell were you doing with Kikyou!" Sango yelled. Inuyasha didn't answer.
"Do you care for Kikyou?" Sango asked.
"I love Kikyou! I love her and always will!" Inuyasha yelled.
"What about Leigha!?" Sango asked,'
"What about her?" Inuyasha growled.
"I can not believe you! SIT!" Sango yelled.
Inuyasha slammed head-first into the ground.As Sango ran out of the room.
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I opened my eyes...once again returning from my blackout. This time though....Miroku was at my bedside.
"I'm glad you're alright." he said, "Don't get upset over Kikyou, that bitch isn't worth it."
"Who is she?" I asked, wanting to know more about her.
"Inuyasha's old girlfriend. The priestess who used to protect the moonstone...before it was divided. Kikyou wanted to use Inuyasha's power for her own domination. Inuyasha would do anything for Kikyou. Sesshomaru saw right through her though. You see, Sesshomaru and Inuyasha used to be very close, best friends actually, but Kikyou ripped them apart. She was in love with Sesshomaru, but he despised her, so, she decided, to get to him through Inuyasha all the while plotting her domination. Sesshomaru killed Kikyou, to save his brother....but Inuyasha wouldn't believe him about Kikyou. So, Inuyasha hated him, wouldn't talk to him, even attacked him, and its been this way ever since," Miroku said.
"But, if Kikyou died..." I started.
"She was resurected....by an evil priestess trying to get the moon stone," he responded.
"So...Inuyasha....he still....loves her?" I asked, scared of the answer.
"Yeah, he does. I'm sorry," he responded. I turned my face and tears slid down my face. Miroku noticed this and left.
I walked out onto the balcony, letting my tears fall to the garden below. I just stood there for a while...crying. I turned to leave when I saw a flash of white out of the corner of my eye. I turned to look and felt a strong pair of arms encirlce me.
I looked up and saw Sesshomaru's concerned face staring back at me. I lowered my head and fell back into his embrace.
Sesshomaru turned me and lifted my head so he could look in my eyes.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"Kikyou showed up today," I said, as new tears formed in my eyes.
He pulled me into a tight hug.
"I'm sorry Leigha, I'm sorry that bastard hurt you," Sesshomaru whispered, pulling me as close as humanly possible.
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"I'm going to ask you this...and then....I'll drop it... Do you love Leigha?" Sango asked.
"Yes, I do." Inuyasha answered.
"Ok then....who's more important?" She asked.
"I...i don't know."
"Ok, they're about to die...you can only save one...do you save Leigha...or the dead, clay, miko bitch?" Sango said.
Inuyasha just stood there, while Sango glared at him, waiting for him to answer. Inuyasha ran a hand through his long, silver hair and sighed heavily.
"ANSWER ME!" Sango yelled impatiently.
"Leigha...I'd save Leigha." he responded.
"Good, now go tell HER that." Sango said smugly.
"I can't, not after what happened yesterday with Kikyou..... she won't even look at me!" He snapped.
"Then go fix it!" Sango yelled.
Inuyasha hung his head in defeat.
Sango placed a hand on his back leading him to the door.
"Go," she whispered.
Then, he left the room..in search of the woman he loved.
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I looked into Sesshomaru's vibrant, caring eyes. They were mesmerizing. I could feel him inching his way closer. Wiping a stray tear off my cheek he closed the distance and kissed me.
I felt a presence behind us, so I turned around and looked into my room to see Inuyasha standing there...a pained expression danced across his face. He turned and ran. I cried.
"Don't cry Leigha. He deserves it for what he did to you," Sesshomaru said.
"No, it's not ok, I did the same thing he did, how does it make it any better?!" I yelled.
"Leave Sesshomaru, just leave, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I keep hurting people," I cried, running into my room.
Sesshomaru stood there for a minnute, and then left.
I grabbed my bag out of the closet and packed up all my clothse and other things I might need. I crept into Shippou's room, he was asleep. I kneeled next to him and kissed his forehead.
"Goodbye Shippou, I'll miss you. I love you, be good for Sango," I whispered.
I crept back out of the room and closed the door. I walked back to my room one last time and pulled out a diary from under my bed. I grabed a nearby pen and started writing.
Sango- Thank you for being my friend, I will miss you, and I hope to see you again someday.
Miroku- Thanks for caring and taking care of me. Promise me to stay with Sango, she loves you too.
Shippou- You were like a brother to me. I will always remember you, be good for them, they will take good care of you hunny. Goodbye.
Inuyasha-I'm sorry for all the times I hurt you, I realize now that we just weren't meant for eachother. You should be with Kikyou, no matter how much it hurts me. Goodbye Inuyasha.
I ripped out the page and placed on my bed. I walked out of my room and to the back door near the garden. I turned back to the house.
"Goodbye," I whispered.
I closed the door and walked off into the night.