Demon Tenshi: I know I should have updated sooner, but Christmas was on and my family wouldn't let me go to the internet…they said something about being stuck on the computer for hours and hours…. --
The First Love: CH 2: Unforgettable Memory
Half the week has passed; Kagome was in her normal life back in Tokyo. She had been through a lot of emotions, but even how much her friends have tried to make her hate Inuyasha, she just couldn't. They all said that she was too good for him and all the excuses girls make. But if they understood why she loves him, then they would know, why she just couldn't hate him. No, she couldn't, not after what he has done for her. He had saved her life, which is more than what any guy could offer. He had nearly lost his by most of the time.
No, she would not hate him...but she would try to not love him the way he couldn't love her. 'I have to face the facts, we were never meant to be.' She was already getting use of him not being around and living everyday of her life not even thinking of him once in a whole day.
On Friday was her last day before she comes back for Inuyasha; she was having such a great day. She did the things that made her one normal happy girl, she hang around with her friends and studied at night and was pretty much happy, but still the smile she gave...they were fake. She knew that maybe, with this new heartbreak, she would get older.
"Hey mom!!! I'm home!!!! Is dinner ready??"
"Yes dear!!! Well.... Inuyasha dropped by today and said that you should be home by tomorrow since it has been a week!"
"I guess she'll be back tomorrow, oh shit I forgot to tell Kikyou what I have been planning!!!" Inuyasha said talking to himself as he got off the well's mouth.
"FORGOT what??? Huh? Inuyasha?"
Miroku suddenly appeared. "Shit Miroku don't ever do that!!!!!"
Miroku started to laugh and Inuyasha looked at him confuse. "So you finally decided!!!! Its about time, she could have gotten over you by now!!!"
"What are you talking about Miroku!!!"
"Sango told me, that maybe... Lady Kagome might one day have enough of you."
Miroku gave Inuyasha a cheering up smile since he saw Inuyasha got sad when he heard what he told him. Inuyasha look down and was nearly heart broken of the thought of Kagome not returning his feelings when he admits it to her.
"Don't worry she might still have some feelings for you, I mean she really is a loving person and if it has disappeared you can try to gain it again."
"Feh! I don't care." Inuyasha said, turning his face to the side, while clenching his fist. "She doesn't have to love me..."
Miroku and Inuyasha walked up to Kaede's hut and eat then went to sleep. Inuyasha couldn't sleep at all he wanted to see Kagome's face and he wanted to tell her the truth and wanted to smell her powerful scent that has been empowering him since he met her.
It has been a week since the time he saw Inuyasha, yet those images of her still haunted him, calling out to him. In many ways it annoyed him, but he tried not to show it.
Rin came running to him and said "Sesshoumaru, Jaken is being mean!!!!"
"How so Rin?" Sesshoumaru tried to forget about his brother's woman and tried to think about what Rin had said to him.
"He said that I will never have any mother and father!!! And that I'll always be alone!!!" Rin said sadly.
"Is this true Jaken?" Sesshoumaru glared at Jaken with his cold eyes.
Jaken was so scared and replied. "I am sorry master. Forgive this Jaken."
"Do you think that she will be alone?"
"Yes Lord since she doesn't have a family and all."
"She does have a family." Sesshoumaru look at the crying girl.
"I do?!" Rin said with a smile. "Does this mean that Sesshoumaru will find a mate and be Rin's father?"
Sesshoumaru was shocked, but didn't want to make Rin sad. "Yes Rin...I will try to find a mate..." Sesshoumaru said these words and left. It was about time he found a mate anyway, but still he knew that they were no suitable ones.
Before he could leave Jaken asked him a question.
"Lord Sesshoumaru do you want me then to prepare the night for you to choose your mate?"
"Fine." He said stoically, hearing Rin's happy giggles. He knew that he wouldn't actually find a mate, he would just do this 'night' thing and tell Rin afterwards that he couldn't find anyone. At least she would think that he tried, right?
"As you wish Lord Sesshoumaru. It will be exactly next week." Then Sesshoumaru stopped Jaken by saying.
"Jaken, invite the hanyou."
"Lord Sesshoumaru, which hanyou? Do you mean your half..." Sesshoumaru interrupted him.
"Do not continue if you want to keep your head. Yes...that hanyou and his friends I want them to see me with my new mate." 'If I find one.' He thought. ".....Wait, I'll invite them myself..."
Rin was very happy and jump around the castle. Sesshoumaru got ready to leave to invite his brother, but inside he knew that wasn't the point. He wanted to know where the human woman was, he wanted to know what was that feeling he felt when he was felt her emotions. But that was all...
Kagome smiled as she lifted herself up from the well. She saw the form of the hanyou boy. His face somehow looked different and she wondered what happened. "Hello, Inuyasha." She said cheerfully, wanting to break the awkward moment.
"Feh." He breathes out in his normal rude tone. "Come on, we better get going." He just turned around and started to walk away. But before he could leave, Inuyasha felt a soft tender hand grabbed his. He turned around and saw that Kagome was holding it and smiling at him. "What is it, now?" He asked rudely.
Kagome signed, trying her best not to lose her cheerfulness. She held his hand in place and then closed her eyes. "I wanted to tell you that...I want to remain your friend." She said the words slowly and meaning it. A cold wind pass by as she saw Inuyasha's eyes widen in amazement. But she would stay still for his reply. She knew what she was telling and it was the truth. Even maybe she love him... She wanted to remain his friend. Maybe he wasn't prepared for the love she had to give, but she couldn't stay still and wait forever.
Inuyasha couldn't believe it. Was it true? What she said? If it were, maybe he had fallen into something deeper. It all changed. Now, she was prepared to be just his friend. Nothing more... Nothing less... It was...strange. How he finally admitted to himself that he did love her, more than Kikyou, that she would say such a thing. It felt like she had given up on him... "Kagome..." He couldn't help but let her name slip out of his mouth. "I love you..." He admitted.
Hearing those words come out of his mouth, Kagome dropped his hands, not expecting that he would say them, here, now, when she had set him free. Why was Inuyasha doing this? Why did he want to torture her as much?
He went closer to her form. "It's true...I love you." He whispered, loud enough for her to hear. "Do you think I'm foolish?"
From the corner, Kikyou saw them. She could see that her reincarnation was very quiet and so was Inuyasha. She didn't like it, she felt as if something had just happened. So running as fast as she could, Kikyou ran to hug Inuyasha, ruining the awkward moment. "Inuyasha!!" As she got closer, she jumped and hug Inuyasha from behind.
"Kikyou..." He regarded, as he felt her embraced from behind. He wanted to hit himself; he should have known she would be here, at this place.
"I missed you so much since you have told me about your TRUE feelings for me!!" Kikyou said. "I know, I love you, too. Have you told her that you don't love her? Is she trying to seduce you?" Kikyou let an evil smirk cross her face as she looked at Kagome from behind Inuyasha's back.
"Kikyou... Stop..." Inuyasha wanted to explain, that Kikyou had gotten it all wrong. That he didn't love Kikyou at all, but before even completing his sentence, Kagome spoke.
"Don't worry Kikyou.... I won't take him, in fact he just told me how he feels about you..." Kagome tried to understand, and what she thought was, maybe Inuyasha was lying to her, trying to keep her hope up...but maybe she was just a fool and heard him wrong. But now, she was sure...they are not meant for each other.
".... Kagome..." Inuyasha whispered sadly, not being able to stand up or say anything.
"Well...that's a good copy, now leave me and my Inuyasha alone, I am happy that he finally told you how he really feels...about me." Kikyou gave her usual stupid smile, making Kagome want to slap her face, but Kagome held back. She didn't want to make a scene and that was not all, she had already told Inuyasha that she would stay his friend. So she shouldn't react, right? She had to her word.
(A/N: Just to tell you that KIKYOU IS A SLUT!!!! A WHORE!! And every thing that she could be is just plain disgusting!! MWUHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Oh and she has a HUGE FOOT!!! Size 30!!! If you have seen the first ending theme song of Inuyasha the series they show you her BIG FOOT!!! God!! It's fucking huge!!!)
Giving the best smile she could, Kagome started to run off. "Well, I better let you two have some privacy. See you later...Inuyasha." She tried to say these words happily, but as soon as she left, tears couldn't be help as they slid down slowly on her cheeks.
Kagome could feel her muscles strained their best for her to run as fast as she could, as she ran, she didn't notice that there was a fallen tree branch on the way and she tripped, making Kagome cry even more. What even made her feel sadder was it started to rain. 'At least, no one would know if I cry or not.'
Inuyasha stood frozen to where he stands. Somehow, he knew that running after Kagome would be pointless if Kikyou didn't know his true feelings. For now, Kagome was broken, because of her.
"Now that she is gone for good, you and me can live happily once again, when we find Naraku." Kikyou embraced Inuyasha tighter, she slowly turned him around, as she saw his eyes blank. For some reason, his eyes were in another world.
As Kikyou turned him around, he saw her eyes. But then everything became blurry, as he felt Kikyou's lips upon his, he didn't close his eyes, he remembered something instead.
-----FLASHBACK-----
Inuyasha ran as fast as he could. He needed to catch up to her, Kagome. He saw the tears that were on her face. She had tried to smile, by saying, "Sorry, I didn't mean to ruined the moment, well, I'll go now." But as soon as she turned her back he smelt it...tears. Why had he been so stupid? How could he let himself get caught? Again?
"Kagome!" Inuyasha screamed, trying to find her. How could he let her get hurt so much? Why did she have to show up at that time? 'Was it so wrong to kiss Kikyou?' He asked himself. As Inuyasha ran, he saw her...Kagome. He could see the side of her face; she was standing near the God Tree, her face looking up at it. The tears that had covered her face were now wiped away, living traces of it.
Inuyasha started to walk closer slowly; trying to make sure she was ok. "Kagome...?" He tried to walk carefully close to her, trying to make sure she won't run away. Then he saw her looked down, as he smelt that she was trying her very best to not spill any tears.
"So it is true..." She started, her voice serene as ever. "If I fell in love with you that much, I would hurt, just as much." Kagome turned her head to look towards him, as she tried her best to smile. "I know now...it's funny, how I didn't realised it before." Kagome turned her body to completely face him. "It's OK if I get hurt..." She said, now walking towards him.
Then when she was a step away, Kagome reached up her hand and placed one of her hands on each of his shoulders, as she continued to speak. "Because now...I know that...the most formidable enemy is the one inside my heart. So...maybe this dreadfully painful feeling will remain, but at least now, I really have proof, that I really do love you." She smiled, a sad smile. "So it is ok if I get hurt... Because I also know that, the most valuable weapon to fight this formidable enemy...is inside my heart. "
----END OF FLASHBACK----
Coming back to the real world, Inuyasha could feel Kikyou's lips on his, but this lips, they were so cold, so disgusting...as he could taste the clay. Placing his hands on her shoulders, Inuyasha pushed Kikyou away and he watched as she stumbled a few meters away. She had an angry look on her face, as if she was just rejected.
He never realised it before, but what she was telling him, they were true. Because now, as he stand here next to Kikyou, all he could feel was pain and love. Pain that showed to him that he did fact love her. He didn't want to see her tears, he never wanted any of that. It was just, long ago, as a hanyou boy, he thought he fell in love with the creature that would accept him for who he was and he made a stupid promised after that.
But the only thing was... This is now, he didn't love that creature that seduced him now. She was dead and he should have accepted that long ago. The creature he made a stupid promise to was now dead, and this creature before him is nothing but the copy. A stinking copy that is made out of clay without its real soul, that needs other souls to live.
"Kikyou...." He said harshly. He maybe didn't want to hurt her feelings, but he never would want to hurt Kagome's again. And the simple fact was, the reason Kagome was hurt was because of this clay copy in front of him. For this copy, does not have its own soul and could probably never have its own, for she is nothing a but a thing.
"Yes...my love." She felt something very wrong, like she did something wrong. But she tried to ignore that feeling; she had her man now, right?
Inuyasha wanted to snarl at what she was calling him. My love... Those words shouldn't come out of the mouth of such a thing, especially if it was address to him. "I don't want to hurt your feelings," he said trying to stay calm. "But, you have hurt enough." He turned his face to the side, not wanting to see her shocked face. "I'm in love with her," he admitted. "Not you," he added, and to assure her, he lifted up his face and faced her in the face, showing his eyes that held nothing but the truth.
Kikyou was shocked. "But you just told me that yo-you..."
"That day, I was telling you that I have made my decision that I want to be with her." Kikyou was so surprised and confused. The hanyou would actually choose that reincarnation over her? The true thing, how dare he?
"Why did she run off then?" Kikyou asked, pointing the fact that Kagome ran away.
"I told her the truth, but when you came she believe that I was just lying to her." Inuyasha explained. Maybe it will hurt this image of Kikyou, but he reminded himself, that this wasn't Kikyou. And if it was, then he wanted to ask himself a question. How could he love a creature like her?
"Don't do this...she doesn't deserve you..."
Inuyasha's eyes widen in surprise. 'She doesn't deserve me?' He asked himself. If that was true, then why did he feel like an ass? Why did he feel like he wanted to break down and apologise a million times over to her? "No...Kikyou...I don't deserve her. Strange, when you realise how much you love something... You just have to realise it when maybe it is too late." Inuyasha looked away and Kikyou was very angry, her eyes showing the real Kikyou.
"Look, Inuyasha!!! She won't come back to you anyway - just let her be!!! You belong to me!!!" Kikyou was going to hug Inuyasha, but he stepped back and said.
"Two years, Kikyou. Don't you think it's enough? Don't you think, that I have hurt her enough? I have to try, I LOVE HER!!!" Inuyasha looked at Kikyou's eyes and she was very upset. "I promised to you, I will protect you, but I didn't tell you that I loved you...I need her...sorry...I have to go!" Inuyasha ran away and looked for Kagome hoping that it wouldn't be too late.
The pounding sound of the rain ran through her ears, not noticing anything around her. How could she be so foolish? How could she ever believe that he would LOVE HER in return? She wasn't the real thing; she was nothing but a copy. So why should she think of such things?
"I knew it was just all a lie... I knew that he couldn't have possibly love me... It is stupid...I fell for another Inuyasha's classic..." Yet, even as she said those words, she couldn't help but think that maybe, those words that he had said to her...maybe they could've been true. But she tried her best to ignore it, never again. She was in the middle of a forest and drops herself crying on the ground.
"The rain it won't stop, I have to step up." As she was crying she heard someone behind her moving closer. "Inu...yasha?" She didn't to hope it was he; she didn't want him to see her like that...
(A/N: If you want to hear this song, then I suggest you email me...I will give you the name of the site I got it from!!! And you download it there!! Give me the name of this song... It is in Japanese and it is such a sad song. email me at: )
---------Background music starts---------
Song: Namida wa Shitte iru (Tears Know)
------Kimi ga namida ni yureru toki
Dousureba iin darou
Sora wo miagetemo
Kokoro ga itai
---When you did nothing but weep,
---I was also at a loss.
---I looked up at the sky
---And my heart was in pain.------
"...Please just leave..." Kagome said, there was something painful in her heart. She places her hand on her chest. The person seems to have long silver hair and went closer to her... She could only see so little of his face. He seemed to resemble Inuyasha, so she made up her mind that it has to be Inuyasha.
------Kizu tsukanakute ii koto ni
Dare mo ga fureteshimau
Mizu no tsumetasa ni
Odoroku toki no you ni
---When you are uninjured
---You can be hit at anytime by anyone.
---It is the same surprise as when
---Touching cold water.
---I'm only next to you------
"...Inuyasha just leave me alone please..." Kagome begged.
------Tonari ni iru dake de
Nanimo dekinai kedo
Arittake no egao kimi dake ni
Kakaete okuruyo donna toki mo
---And I can't do anything, but
---For you only I'll make a present of
---All the happiness in my smiling face,
---Carrying you anytime.------
"Do not address I, as that hanyou." As the voice speaks she had heard this voice before, but didn't try to guess. There simply was no point.
"Who... are you?" Kagome asked.
------Shinjite ii yo yume wa yattekuru
Kimi no tame dake ni
Naitemo ii yo donna kanashimimo
Tsubasa ni kawaru no sa sono mune de
---You can believe your dreams are coming
---Just for you.
---You can cry because you can make any sadness
---Into wings in your heart.------
"Human, stand up." The voice ordered.
"Se..ssh..oumaru.....?" Kagome was about to look up when Sesshoumaru bend towards her face near the ground.
------Dareka wo mamoru koto nante
Kantan ni dekinai ne
Kimi ni furuame mo
Tomerarenai yo
---Protecting someone
---Is not an easy thing to do, is it?
---I can't stop the rain
---From falling on your head either.------
"...Huh?" Kagome stared at his golden eyes with wonder.
"Miko..." He could feel it again, her emotions, it was covering her, and engulfing him. As he felt it, he could feel them all... Pain, sorrow, regret, but out of all of them, he didn't expect to still feel something else. It was love...
"Everything will be fine..." She said, her heart sinking. Kagome looked up at him, as she saw his stoical face. Tears ran down her cheeks. "Maybe... I will hurt... But this is just...my love." She tried her best to stand up, while she nearly tripped down again by the wet ground. "I knew this..."
------Dakedo akirametaku wa nai
Chippokena yuuki demo
Itsuka honto no
Tsuyosa ni nareru naraba
---Even with only a little courage--
---I don't want to give up.
---Someday, if I become used to my
---Real strength...------
"...I knew that I would hurt, just as much as I love him." She said more to herself than to him as she looked up at him. "But in the end...I still love him."
Sesshoumaru, for the first time in his life, helped a ningen. He didn't try to think about it, but he knew that he would have to deal with the consequences later. She was so fragile at this state, yet, he dislike humans and he shouldn't help this one, but maybe...something has changed. He helped her stand up. And as the rain dropped on both of their forms, Kagome looked up at him.
For the first times in days, even though Kagome has been tired and had always pretended to be happy, for the first time, she gave a person she hardly knew, a smile. But this smile wasn't like the fake ones - this was a true smile. For now, she no longer needs to try to pretend strong. For now, as she sat on the cold, wet, hard ground, she felt naked.
As he helped her stand up, he saw her looked at him and for the first time in his life, he saw the most enchanting thing. He saw her smile, at him... Not at the hanyou, not at her friends, this smile, it was sad, but he could tell something about it - it was true. He looked at her sapphire orbs, he never really stared at them or noticed them, but now as he looked upon her, he could see that she was indeed...enchanting.
------ Chiisana chou de sae
Umi wo koeteyukeru
"Itsuka, kitto" sonna kotoba shika
Ienai jibun ga kuyashii kedo
---Even a small butterfly
---Can cross an ocean.
---"Someday, for sure," is all I can tell you,
---But that frustrates me.------
"...Thank you Sesshoumaru...." Kagome said as she leaned against his shoulder.
In many other states, he would have just pushed the woman away, but as he looked down at her beaten form. He knew that, that wouldn't just be right. She was different...and he meant that in a good way.
------Shinjite ii yo niji wa yattekuru
Kimi no tsuma saki e
Shinjite ii yo kimi no toki ga kuru
Mousugu atarashii kaze no naka
---You should believe a rainbow is coming
---To the tips of your toes.
---You should believe your time will come,
---Soon, in the middle of a new breeze.------
"Sleep, human." He had decided, even though that he didn't actually cared about humans, this one was different and she had managed to interest him. So why not take her to his home? She was invited to his 'mate choosing night', so why not?
------Sou sa kanarazu yume wa yattekuru
Sono mune wo hiroge
Kitto namida wa sore wo shitte iru
Oshie ni kitan dayo ashita kara
---So yes, a dream is definitely coming--
---Spread open that heart.
---Your tears knew that, without a doubt.
---I think they came from tomorrow to tell you.
Shinjite iiyo yume wa yatte kuru
Kimi no tame dake ni
Naite mo iiyo donna kanashimimo
Tsubasa ni kawaru no sa sono mune de
---You can believe your dreams are coming
---Just for you.
---You can cry because you can make any sadness
---Into wings in your heart.------
He never felt sorry for a human before, or anyone at all. At least not this way... It was just that... The way her eyes looked, the way she felt... It was all-wrong.
END OF CHAPTER 2: Three Memories: The First Love
Demon Tenshi: Yup... I changed a lot of bits to it...but I think this will be much better!! I even changed the song!!