Warm Welcome
"Shinara! Oh my god she's safe!" Shana yelled at the door. She swayed slightly as if she almost fainted. Dart ran up and took her out of my arms. I didn't realize how heavy she was until he removed her and I felt relief. She was almost like dead weight probably because she was as close to it as she could be.
"Shana get out! You aren't helping any. Unless you plan to get yourself together you can just leave!" Miyu yelled.
Dart walked out slowly with his head down and his arms hanging down at his sides looking defeated.
"I want to thank you for what you did today. You may have just saved her life." said Dart.
"No it wasn't me. It was Dali. Of it wasn't for him I wouldn't have known where to go to find her and might have ended up even worse. He wouldn't have been able to carry her out because he busted his arm up fighting." I responded.
We didn't say anything else to each other. We just sat there in silence hoping and praying that she might be okay. I leaned my head back and stared up at the ceiling and then somehow, I fell asleep.
"Dart, Hannan, wake up." Miyu said. I rose and so did Dart. We stood and looked directly at Miyu, giving her all of our attention.
"Yes. So is she okay?" I asked.
"Two of Shinara's ribs are broken. She had busted blood vessels everywhere. I had to stitch up that cut on the side of her head. She sprained her ankle." Miyu responded sadly.
"What else? I know your holding something back. She did make it didn't she?" Dart asked.
"Yes she made it thus far. But she cracked her left shoulder blade. I'm sorry."she said and turned back and reentered her room.
"What was so bad about her cracking her shoulder? Won't it heal like everything else?" I asked. I still wastn understanding it. She was alive and would be fine why was he still so sad.
"That arm will never be strong enough again." he said grimly.
"Strong enough? Strong enough for what?" "Her left arm was her fighting arm. It will never be strong enough for her to fight again. It will heal but if she puts it through strenuous activity, like she would have to if she went on the journey, it wouldn't be able to hold up and if someone hit it hard enough it would slide back out. Because to my knowledge the is no healing for cracked bones. Shinara won't fight again." he replied as he walked off.
I sat there, crying on the inside on how much this would hurt her. She loved fighting, she lived for it. How would she live out her destiny?
Shinara's P.O.V.
I opened my eyes trying to figure out where I was. What happened? I thought. I remembered the little journey me and Dali went on, but what happened next. Come to think of it I remember the bandits and the moon, then it was dark. I kinda remember seeing Hannan, then it got dark again. Then I remember Miyu and my mother yelling, then it was like a comforting darkness then.
I then decided to try and sit up and got a sharp pain in my side that caused me to cry out as I slide right back down. Miyu ran into the room because she heard my cry.
"Oh sweetheart your up now! Thank goodness! I thought you would never get up. We would have had to get those herbs to get you up and you know how much you had that smell because it lingers in your nose." she said. She was beaming, I guess she was happy I was up.
"Thanks. Can you help me sit up please?" I asked her.
"I don't know if that is such a good idea. You have two broken ribs. And burst blood vessels everywhere and you have stitches in your head."she replied.
"Either you help me or I do it myself. I don't think you should have me in here getting stressed out on wanting to sit up so I can see out of the window." I said. She stood there a minute looking at me with this teary eyed smile on her face.
"Okay." she agreed as she helped me up. Of course it was painful, but it was worth it.
After she helped me up she excused herself from the room and I just looked out the window. I then decided to look myself over and my eyes stopped on my arm, it was in a sling, and it was my left arm. I tried to move it and it did move, slightly and painfully. I looked at my shoulder and it was bandaged up. I pressed it slightly and it responded by giving me a sharp pain down my arm. I must've broken my shoulder but it will heal in due time.
My father was the first to come in accompanied by my mother. It was obvious she was crying. Her eyes were all puffy and wet. My father looked distraught.
"Hey guys." I said as cheerily as my side would let me.
"Hey baby." my mother responded as she gave me the loosest hug ever.
"What's up with that? Are you scared to touch me?" I asked jokingly.
"No I just don't want to hurt you. Your ribs, and your shoulder..." she said.
"Hey sweetie. How are you doing?" my father cut in.
"As good as possible. How are you? I hope you werent worrying to bad. Its all my fault. I should have listened to Dali and made camp instead of insisting to keep going. Then we would have never..." I stopped and tried to stop myself from crying. I was so scared. I didn't want Dali to be hurt. I was more worried about him than myself.
"Its okay baby." my mother said as she gave me a real hug to try and comfort me. It was painful, and like sitting up, worth it. I finally stopped myself from crying and looked at my dad. He still had that look on his face.
"What's wrong pops? Why that sad look?" I asked.
"Oh nothing I'm just. . .thinking." he replied and looked away.
"Dad, why can't you look at me? Are you mad at me for getting hurt for something dumb. I mean I'm sorry dad..." I said. Those tears tried to start up again.
"No I'm not mad at you Shinara. No of course I'm not mad at you." he said and with that he walked out.
"Mom...?" "Don't worry baby. He will be okay. He must not be able to express his feelings. You know men are afraid to cry," she said with a smile. "But I'm going to leave now. I know everyone else is ready to see you now."
"Is. . .is Dali okay?" I asked, fearful of her response.
"Yes, Dali is fine all he did was bust up his arm. He will be fine later on." she said as she walked out.
After she left, everyone had their five minute visits with me and after they were done I laid my head back against the pillow and realized how tired I was. Then I noticed that Hannan didn't come to see me yet. Right after I said that he walked in.
"Shin," he said. And with that he walked towards me and hugged me. He just held me and I didn't want him to let me go. "I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry. I know it hurts."
"Why are you sorry? You didn't do anything. If anyone should be sorry it should be me. Sorry for all the trouble I have been putting you through. I should have stopped when Dali said so. I shouldn't have kept going."I said as we pulled away from our embrace.
I looked him in the eye and I saw them glistening from unshed tears. He smiled at me and it warmed my heart.
"I don't know what is wrong with my father. My mother was talking about my injuries and said something about my shoulder and he cut her off. I mean I know I broke it but I mean, time heals all wounds. It will get better, so I mean why be all hostile?" I said. But when I thought about it I realized he looked away as soon as I said something about my shoulder. Just like my father did.
"Wait," I said as I grabbed his chin and made him look at me. Grimacing as another pain shot through my side. "What do you all know that I don't. What is it going to take longer to heal my broken shoulder than I think. I mean, the journey can be put off as long as necessary, right?" I asked.
He just looked at me with these sad eyes. It hurt my heart to see that much sadness in someone's eyes, especially when it was sadness they felt for me.
"Hannan, is there something else wrong that I don't know about? Am I going to die or something?" I asked.
"No, no Shinara. You aren't going to die. Even thought you may feel better off if you would." he finally said.
"What do you mean?"
He rose from the side of my bed and started pacing the room.
"Shinara, you cracked your shoulder blade. By doing so even after it heals and stops hurting, at anytime when a certain amount of pressure is applied, it may slide right back out. Any strenuous activity may cause it to slide out also. What this mean Shinara, is that you won't be able to fight with your left arm again. You might not be able to go on the journey."
It felt as if someone had just punched me in the chest, knocking all of the wind out of me. It took me a minute to take all of it in. I wouldn't be able to fight anymore. Fighting is my life, he was right when he said I would be better off dead. How would I live without fighting. It was all I did. It was all I was good at. So, I just sat there and looked at him. Waiting for him at anytime to say 'I'm just playing' or 'see that was only a joke' or something like that but one look at his face told me otherwise.
He then walked over to me and just held me and rocked me back and forth.
"Don't cry Shin. Please don't, it hurt me to see you cry." Until he said that I didn't realize I was crying. I reached up with my good arm and wiped those tears from my eyes.
"Am I going to be an invalid all my life? If I can't fight, what else am I going to do? I am not good at anything else. It was the only thing I was successful in." I replied.
"I don't know Shin. We will just have to make it up along the way. Just improvise, we are both going to have to be good at that, because that is the only other choice we have."
(Sniff, sniff) I don't know what they are going to do? Why did she have to be so careless? Why didn't she listen to Dali? Waaaaaah!! But read and review please poeple. Its 1:36 in the morning so I'm going to have to do that other chapter tomorrow. If you review more I might update faster (hint,hint) ; )
"Shinara! Oh my god she's safe!" Shana yelled at the door. She swayed slightly as if she almost fainted. Dart ran up and took her out of my arms. I didn't realize how heavy she was until he removed her and I felt relief. She was almost like dead weight probably because she was as close to it as she could be.
"Shana get out! You aren't helping any. Unless you plan to get yourself together you can just leave!" Miyu yelled.
Dart walked out slowly with his head down and his arms hanging down at his sides looking defeated.
"I want to thank you for what you did today. You may have just saved her life." said Dart.
"No it wasn't me. It was Dali. Of it wasn't for him I wouldn't have known where to go to find her and might have ended up even worse. He wouldn't have been able to carry her out because he busted his arm up fighting." I responded.
We didn't say anything else to each other. We just sat there in silence hoping and praying that she might be okay. I leaned my head back and stared up at the ceiling and then somehow, I fell asleep.
"Dart, Hannan, wake up." Miyu said. I rose and so did Dart. We stood and looked directly at Miyu, giving her all of our attention.
"Yes. So is she okay?" I asked.
"Two of Shinara's ribs are broken. She had busted blood vessels everywhere. I had to stitch up that cut on the side of her head. She sprained her ankle." Miyu responded sadly.
"What else? I know your holding something back. She did make it didn't she?" Dart asked.
"Yes she made it thus far. But she cracked her left shoulder blade. I'm sorry."she said and turned back and reentered her room.
"What was so bad about her cracking her shoulder? Won't it heal like everything else?" I asked. I still wastn understanding it. She was alive and would be fine why was he still so sad.
"That arm will never be strong enough again." he said grimly.
"Strong enough? Strong enough for what?" "Her left arm was her fighting arm. It will never be strong enough for her to fight again. It will heal but if she puts it through strenuous activity, like she would have to if she went on the journey, it wouldn't be able to hold up and if someone hit it hard enough it would slide back out. Because to my knowledge the is no healing for cracked bones. Shinara won't fight again." he replied as he walked off.
I sat there, crying on the inside on how much this would hurt her. She loved fighting, she lived for it. How would she live out her destiny?
Shinara's P.O.V.
I opened my eyes trying to figure out where I was. What happened? I thought. I remembered the little journey me and Dali went on, but what happened next. Come to think of it I remember the bandits and the moon, then it was dark. I kinda remember seeing Hannan, then it got dark again. Then I remember Miyu and my mother yelling, then it was like a comforting darkness then.
I then decided to try and sit up and got a sharp pain in my side that caused me to cry out as I slide right back down. Miyu ran into the room because she heard my cry.
"Oh sweetheart your up now! Thank goodness! I thought you would never get up. We would have had to get those herbs to get you up and you know how much you had that smell because it lingers in your nose." she said. She was beaming, I guess she was happy I was up.
"Thanks. Can you help me sit up please?" I asked her.
"I don't know if that is such a good idea. You have two broken ribs. And burst blood vessels everywhere and you have stitches in your head."she replied.
"Either you help me or I do it myself. I don't think you should have me in here getting stressed out on wanting to sit up so I can see out of the window." I said. She stood there a minute looking at me with this teary eyed smile on her face.
"Okay." she agreed as she helped me up. Of course it was painful, but it was worth it.
After she helped me up she excused herself from the room and I just looked out the window. I then decided to look myself over and my eyes stopped on my arm, it was in a sling, and it was my left arm. I tried to move it and it did move, slightly and painfully. I looked at my shoulder and it was bandaged up. I pressed it slightly and it responded by giving me a sharp pain down my arm. I must've broken my shoulder but it will heal in due time.
My father was the first to come in accompanied by my mother. It was obvious she was crying. Her eyes were all puffy and wet. My father looked distraught.
"Hey guys." I said as cheerily as my side would let me.
"Hey baby." my mother responded as she gave me the loosest hug ever.
"What's up with that? Are you scared to touch me?" I asked jokingly.
"No I just don't want to hurt you. Your ribs, and your shoulder..." she said.
"Hey sweetie. How are you doing?" my father cut in.
"As good as possible. How are you? I hope you werent worrying to bad. Its all my fault. I should have listened to Dali and made camp instead of insisting to keep going. Then we would have never..." I stopped and tried to stop myself from crying. I was so scared. I didn't want Dali to be hurt. I was more worried about him than myself.
"Its okay baby." my mother said as she gave me a real hug to try and comfort me. It was painful, and like sitting up, worth it. I finally stopped myself from crying and looked at my dad. He still had that look on his face.
"What's wrong pops? Why that sad look?" I asked.
"Oh nothing I'm just. . .thinking." he replied and looked away.
"Dad, why can't you look at me? Are you mad at me for getting hurt for something dumb. I mean I'm sorry dad..." I said. Those tears tried to start up again.
"No I'm not mad at you Shinara. No of course I'm not mad at you." he said and with that he walked out.
"Mom...?" "Don't worry baby. He will be okay. He must not be able to express his feelings. You know men are afraid to cry," she said with a smile. "But I'm going to leave now. I know everyone else is ready to see you now."
"Is. . .is Dali okay?" I asked, fearful of her response.
"Yes, Dali is fine all he did was bust up his arm. He will be fine later on." she said as she walked out.
After she left, everyone had their five minute visits with me and after they were done I laid my head back against the pillow and realized how tired I was. Then I noticed that Hannan didn't come to see me yet. Right after I said that he walked in.
"Shin," he said. And with that he walked towards me and hugged me. He just held me and I didn't want him to let me go. "I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry. I know it hurts."
"Why are you sorry? You didn't do anything. If anyone should be sorry it should be me. Sorry for all the trouble I have been putting you through. I should have stopped when Dali said so. I shouldn't have kept going."I said as we pulled away from our embrace.
I looked him in the eye and I saw them glistening from unshed tears. He smiled at me and it warmed my heart.
"I don't know what is wrong with my father. My mother was talking about my injuries and said something about my shoulder and he cut her off. I mean I know I broke it but I mean, time heals all wounds. It will get better, so I mean why be all hostile?" I said. But when I thought about it I realized he looked away as soon as I said something about my shoulder. Just like my father did.
"Wait," I said as I grabbed his chin and made him look at me. Grimacing as another pain shot through my side. "What do you all know that I don't. What is it going to take longer to heal my broken shoulder than I think. I mean, the journey can be put off as long as necessary, right?" I asked.
He just looked at me with these sad eyes. It hurt my heart to see that much sadness in someone's eyes, especially when it was sadness they felt for me.
"Hannan, is there something else wrong that I don't know about? Am I going to die or something?" I asked.
"No, no Shinara. You aren't going to die. Even thought you may feel better off if you would." he finally said.
"What do you mean?"
He rose from the side of my bed and started pacing the room.
"Shinara, you cracked your shoulder blade. By doing so even after it heals and stops hurting, at anytime when a certain amount of pressure is applied, it may slide right back out. Any strenuous activity may cause it to slide out also. What this mean Shinara, is that you won't be able to fight with your left arm again. You might not be able to go on the journey."
It felt as if someone had just punched me in the chest, knocking all of the wind out of me. It took me a minute to take all of it in. I wouldn't be able to fight anymore. Fighting is my life, he was right when he said I would be better off dead. How would I live without fighting. It was all I did. It was all I was good at. So, I just sat there and looked at him. Waiting for him at anytime to say 'I'm just playing' or 'see that was only a joke' or something like that but one look at his face told me otherwise.
He then walked over to me and just held me and rocked me back and forth.
"Don't cry Shin. Please don't, it hurt me to see you cry." Until he said that I didn't realize I was crying. I reached up with my good arm and wiped those tears from my eyes.
"Am I going to be an invalid all my life? If I can't fight, what else am I going to do? I am not good at anything else. It was the only thing I was successful in." I replied.
"I don't know Shin. We will just have to make it up along the way. Just improvise, we are both going to have to be good at that, because that is the only other choice we have."
(Sniff, sniff) I don't know what they are going to do? Why did she have to be so careless? Why didn't she listen to Dali? Waaaaaah!! But read and review please poeple. Its 1:36 in the morning so I'm going to have to do that other chapter tomorrow. If you review more I might update faster (hint,hint) ; )