The First Love: CH 7: Knowledge In Memories

------Sesshoumaru Dreaming------

Sesshoumaru saw everything. He saw the way that guy Kai held Kagome, and he heard everything. He didn't know why he would spy on some love talk, but somehow he was interested on how this came out. But what came out isn't what he expected; he wondered why the youkai Kai did not feel any hatred what so ever for the human.

Shouldn't the youkai be mad? Well, Sesshoumaru expected that, because not only was the youkai rejected but also he was shown weak. That is what Sesshoumaru thought anyway. For he, Sesshoumaru would never let any female drag him to the level where the miko had drag both Kai and his half brother. Sesshoumaru thought for a moment, he would rather die than feel such a pain caused by a single female.

Sesshoumaru move away from the scene as he found the well. He leaned against the God Tree. Maybe that was it. Maybe he kept himself away from females because - because he was afraid to feel pain. He saw his father before with his mother, yeah... they look happy, but then as soon as his mother died of some sort of disease he saw how his father got weaker. How his father would simply refuse to do anything.

He, Sesshoumaru cared for his mother but does not know if he loves her. Sure... when she died he was hurt, but he knew it would happen sooner or later – it was just a fact. His mother was strong yet she had a weakness; his mother followed his father all the time, and sometimes Sesshoumaru saw how jealous she gets when his father is with a human. That was pathetic.

'Love...is weakness.' How could anyone sacrifice him or herself or commit himself or herself to someone? Love, not only does it makes you lose your pride as demon, it also gives you the feeling of jealousy and that could take control of your whole thoughts.

But as he thought about it, maybe he should try to find something more about it…he should ask the miko. Why did he want to find more about it? He didn't want to fall for the redoubtable trap and he can use the information he gains to keep away from it.

-------End Of Dream-------

His eyes opened as his vision became clear. 'Finally' he groaned inside his head. That dream was just getting too emotional for him. He looked over at the other bed and was glad to find that Kai was still their sleeping. He stood up and went his way up to find himself standing in front of 'the Miko's door'. He could hear the Miko's breathing in and out. He then for no second thought opened her door, walking in. His eyes went to the sleeping figure of the girl.

It was a wonder, how she could sleep so peacefully with all of her tears. Her flawless face was filled with tears, yet a content smile. As he watched her sleep, he saw her wrinkled her nose and he could hear her steady breathing beginning to fasten.

Kagome opened her eyes. The sun was on her face and she could feel the tears that covered her face; rubbing her face a bit, she sat up and looked to her side to find Sesshoumaru gazing at her. "Ohaiyou Sesshoumaru sama." She didn't know why he was here, but it would have to be a good reason, since he is not the type to just do these things. She looked up at him as she finally could see no more blurry images.

Sesshoumaru just stared at her. "Tell me, human... Explain to me this emotion love?" He could plainly see the shocked on her face at the mere asked the emotion. "Tell me, how something that makes you feel jealousy and hurt you be so powerful?"

Kagome was confused, but she quickly tried to answer. "Why do you ask? You said so yourself, you will never feel it." She didn't know where that comes from. And instantly she found Sesshoumaru grab her wrist, making her looked up at him in surprised.

"Are you saying that I am not capable?" What made him say that? He guessed that he didn't want anyone to think that he wasn't capable of doing such things. For he, Sesshoumaru believes that he would be able to do anything as long as he wanted them to happen. So if he wanted to fall in love, he can, but currently, he didn't. "You.... have said that you love this Sesshoumaru... Do you not remember human?" He let a mocking smirk cross his face.

Feeling his tight grip on her wrist, Kagome narrowed her eyes. "That was not love... " She said, remembering the little trick Kikyou played on her. "I simply under the influenced of some spell." She retorted.

Not liking the way she replied, Sesshoumaru tightened his grip, making her winced. "Then... why do you love the hanyou?"

"As you would say if you are in my place.... None of your business."

"Tell me wench." He gave her a cold glare.

"Fine," she sighed. "People just fall for that person… Many think of it differently or explain it differently, but I think that all those explanations that they say…I think that they are probably all true. I think, that love is so powerful that it can make you feel many things, that sometimes it does not even make sense, you know?" She asked and saw the question on his face. Her voice was getting lower and lower. "To love somebody, maybe we need to… Maybe...we need a reason...no…many reasons." She said more to herself than to him, remembering the dream.

To him, that simply wasn't good enough. "Tell me of reasons?" He pressed on.

Kagome looked down, not sure of what really there is to say. "Maybe there has to be a rational, irrational, logical and illogical reason." She said, as if she wasn't sure herself. She looked up at him. "To my opinion... Love is not logical and is not rational, nor is it all irrational and illogical stuff. It is all of them, at the same time. I don't know...but love...it is so powerful, you know? It makes you think deep and makes you feel like a fool or it makes a fool out of you, or maybe it can even make you smarter."

He could see her sapphire orbs shine and found him self-drowning in them. He let go of her wrist and tried to understand. 'Indeed I will never feel this love.' As soon as he did let go of her, he watched as she went and stretch and straight out of her room to the bathroom. Sesshoumaru knew where she was going so he just decided to study around this invention TV for now.

As he went to walk downstairs, he saw that the TV was already on, so all he had to do was sit down and relax. After a few minutes, he then found that he was not alone anymore. He could smell the scent of Kai; it was the scent of Shea butter. (A/N: I just love that scent!) Turning his head to the side, Sesshoumaru could now see Kai's form at the corner of his eyes. "I will leave... As long as you promise that you will not harm her?" Kai asked.

"The miko will show this Sesshoumaru around, the meaning of harming her would not go good with my desire to know this time." He answered plainly.

"Sesshoumaru sama...?" Sesshoumaru just gave a nod to tell that he was listening. "Tell me. What is it that you are interested on about Kagome?"

"I am not interested to whatever you may say."

Kai sighed. "Fine, but please, treat her well. For you and I do not know of what the future holds. The heart of a youkai is very strong and very confusing, so please try not to be very hard on her." He turned around. "Give my thanks to Lady Kagome, please tell her I have left." With that one last message, Kai smirked and walked away.

After a few moments, he could now see the where the well was in. He smirked. 'One day, maybe what I have predicted, maybe this will come true. Maybe...'

(A/N: You go Kai!! Don't worry, if Kagome doesn't want you, I'll have you!! Nah!! I can't, my heart already belongs to…myself. Can't afford to lose it now, can I? Though, I am falling in love with you.)

The taiyoukai was glad that the other youkai was gone. For now, he didn't have to worry that the miko and the youkai would mate and create a hanyou. It was simply out of the question. Not while he was here are they allowed. He wouldn't be the one responsible...no way. He inhaled the air, smelling another familiar scent, the miko.

"Hey...? Where's Kai? I didn't find him asleep in bed? So Lord Sesshoumaru, where is he?" He heard her asked.

Taking his time, Sesshoumaru answered. "He left. Do not ask me why, miko. But it is good, so that this Sesshoumaru can talk to you and so that you can concentrate on showing me around." He paused. "Now get your things and let's go." He ordered standing up from the couch.

"Men... Aren't you ever polite? Do you always have to order me around?" She said while trying to dry her hair with a towel.

"I do not such do things to Mikos..." He said.

She let a looked of pure boredom on cross her face. "Oh well…at least while you're here, we should try to have some fun, right? And anyway, I was just thinking about your party... Who are you going to choose?" Kagome asked a small smirk on her face. If she were going to see his mate, she would love to tell her all the stuff she knows of Sesshoumaru. Like how he thinks he will never love. "You'll probably end up falling in love with her." She mumbled, hoping that he will never hear what she had just said.

But unfortunately, he did. "That is none of your business, but if you must know I will gladly choose a powerful demoness."

"So.... you only will choose her because she's powerful? Not for love?"

There's that word again. 'Why does it matter?' Sesshoumaru asked himself. "Yes... I will not have any emotion have power over me."

"Yeah right, you'll end up falling for her, I know you will." But then she thought about it, maybe he really won't fall in love. "I guess that you might not..." She actually felt sorry for him that he may not actually fall in love. But then, she felt even more sorry for the woman he would be mated to. What would be the woman like? Will she love Sesshoumaru? Trying her best to get rid of these thoughts, she then smiled. "Well... good luck. Can you wait a bit?"

He was slightly shocked at her change of mood but tend not to show it. "I will give you…a minute." He had to stop the side of his lips from moving upwards, when he saw the expression of her face. Her hair was still slightly damp in water.

"Ok... I'll get ready!! Oh and wear this, it was my dad's." She then turned around and fixed herself up. And she turned back around and looked at Sesshoumaru, she smiled. Sesshoumaru was trying to put on the clothes. It didn't look bad at least it was decent. "Ok.... Ready!"

They both walked out of the door. Sesshoumaru took his first steps out of the house and after only a second, Kagome could tell that, by the way his hand was flexing that it wanted to tear his noise apart. "Humans... So many, they all reek..." He mumbled, as he smelled the disgusting air. He thought that the humans in his time were disgusting, but the air in here was even more disgusting.

Trying her best not to slap the taiyoukai next to her, because of his insulting statement, Kagome just let a look of pure annoyance facade her face. "You know...I am human." She said, as she walked faster and stood right in front of Sesshoumaru. "And can I address you in another name? Because the name Lord Sesshoumaru would sound weird to these people?" She asked.

"No, you may not." He said flatly, leaving no room for more discussion on the topic.

Kagome rolled her eyes. She had decided last night that if she and Sesshoumaru were going to travel together, they would need transport, so they would have to use the train. They went straight to the train station. On the way, Kagome could see Sesshoumaru was looking at the weird things on the road. "Human, tell me what are those?" He asked looking at the cars that passed by.

"They are called cars Lord Sesshoumaru, they help us travel faster. We could have use my family car, but mom took it with her. So I guess we have to take the train. I'm seventeen so I can drive." Kagome said happily, remembering her first try at driving.

As people walk passed by, many girls were glanced at Kagome and Sesshoumaru. Many were jealous of what a good-looking guy who was with her. Many were already giving her death glares. Sesshoumaru wanted to laugh quietly at the thought of still how many females flock over him, even in this era, and he couldn't help but think of how indecent the clothes that they wore. He looked to the side and saw that Kagome was wearing something different from her usual attire of that weird green kimono, but it wasn't showing much skin

"It seems human females are still nothing but lustful creatures." He stated, this time getting Kagome's undivided attention.

Kagome turned her head to the side and gave Sesshoumaru a frown. She knew that many human females were after him right now, but she wouldn't let his ego take him that far. "Excuse me, but not all of us." She said, her voice icy. "And are you saying that I'm attracted to you!" She accused, while crossing her arms on her chest and turning her head to the side, looking like as if she was ignoring him.

Sesshoumaru closed his eyes; of course she was attracted to him. "Are you not?" He asked in a cynical, disdainful tone, his face as stoic as ever. Thinking that she must be attracted to him. No female, who is alive, who was not attracted to him, most of the ones he met, demon or human, all wanted him for themselves.

She let her shoulders slump and she gave a sigh, uncrossing her hands, as her eyes lock with his. "Well.... your perfect ness.... please... not all humans are in for the good looking creatures, as you seem to think of yourself as." She gave him a bored look and continued to walk.

"Tell me," Sesshoumaru said, calm as ever while he continued to walk by her side. "If I, Sesshoumaru asked you to share my bed, tonight," he had to suppress a smirk as he saw her cheeks slightly turned pink at the thought. "Would you refuse?" He, of course thought he knew the answer. He was expecting her to say 'no'. No one could nor would refuse him and it was more than a privilege or more than any human's life was worth, if they get to sleep with him. He knew that he thought of himself very high, but he also knew that he has the right to. He was the most powerful taiyoukai of the West, so should he not be what he is? Why should he not be proud of what he is?

Well, at a time like this, maybe Kagome's sense of humour should have come up. She wanted to say to him; no, I would not refuse and soon break it to him that she would of course refuse, but she also knew that the taiyoukai had no sense of humour, so she just answered it directly. "Yes, I would refuse." Kagome answered the question flatly, she knew that she was saying the real truth, she wouldn't want to sleep with a man because they were simply good looking, because if that was true, then she would have slept with Hojo a long time ago.

"That cannot be true," Sesshoumaru stated, thinking that no way in the world would a woman refuse him before. For as a taiyoukai of great power and intelligence, he was also complimented and known to be the best at many other personal matters.

Trying her best to resist the urge to grab the wooden stick she had just stepped over on, her eyes twitched in annoyance. "Why do you not smell my scent, Lord Sesshoumaru? Do you smell any lie or deceit?" Kagome asked, pointing out a very good point. "The simple fact is that you think of yourself so high. How do you expect to find someone perfect for you, when you act the way you do? Most of these women here, sure they think of you as a handsome person, but I don't think they'll actually sleep with you just because you are handsome..." She wanted to add the words, 'You stupid, egotistical jerk.' But she was able to suppress the urge to do so.

(A/N: That is Kagome talking by the way…I wouldn't know about the other people…if you people get what I mean. –wink-)

"You have that erroneous miko." He stated ending the conversation, as he heard her gave a defeated sigh. But he must admit, his ego did feel stabbed by her words, knowing that she did in fact not lie to him. That she actually would not sleep with him. It was...rare and highly an unwelcomed feeling.

When they arrived at the train station Kagome bought two tickets. She led Sesshoumaru inside the train and soon enough they sat down, not even talking. She was sitting right beside him, but she made sure that they were spaces between them, for she did not want Mr. I'm-So-Perfect getting nutty at her. Kagome didn't particularly like the silence, it made her feel...awkward, so maybe some talking would help.

"Sesshoumaru sama? Are you enjoying your ride?" She tried to ask in a cheerful manner, but as soon as she saw his stoic face, it made her feel more uncomfortable. It was scary being next to a person who hardly talks, and if the rumours are correct, then this youkai before, might really not have any emotions.

"Nothing of this entertains me, I am still faster than this technology." He said, in a rather arrogant manner. Even though, Sesshoumaru still couldn't believe that humans had grown smarter, being able to create these technology to be able to travel faster. And he must admit, this technology did seem to be faster than horses.

"Yeah.... well.... wait until you see the city." Kagome mumbled, annoyed by his arrogance. Why couldn't he just try to make a perfectly normal conversation, like most people? Why did he have to make things so hard?

"Hmpn"

"Men... you are such a pompous jerk, you know that?" She blurted out, not knowing what made her this frustrated that she would say that out loud.

"Talk to this Sesshoumaru with more respect, miko." He ordered.

'Jerk, egotistical, narcissistic...' It was weird, she never actually like calling people with such detests, but calling him names in her head made her feel better. Though, as those words were said again in her head, a part of her wanted to believe that maybe, he could be something more than this person, that is currently beside her. Or maybe she was just a fool, a fool for even believing in such things. But maybe... Kagome smiled at herself as she looks down at her legs.

If Sesshoumaru would some how be hit by some spell. She could just imagine it, Sesshoumaru wearing some flower designed clothes and running around with a basket of fruits, while seeing a happy song. Then Rin comes up beside him and places a flower on the side of his ears.

As soon as they got out of the train they walk out of the subway and Sesshoumaru look around like some tourist. It smelled disgusting more than ever, but the place was strange. They were large tall square castles and the grounds hardly have any grass, or the place hardly had any trees around the places. He could see words in kanji flashing brightly. As they walked, he could see many humans' attention was on him, and as he looked around, he saw how weird he did look to them. Most of the men's hairs are so short and some women also had short hair, more like most women. While he, Sesshoumaru had long hair.

"Human.... What are those?" He pointed towards the tall buildings.

"Oh, those are like houses." She said, not really wanting to explain too much to him. "Ok... Now all I need to do is buy a gift for my brother." She said happily, it was fun sometimes, buying gifts, it made her feel good when she bought something for someone else other than herself. "We should go to the mall... It is a very large building and it has shops in it to buy some stuff. And I really need to buy Souta a gift!" She looked over her shoulder at Sesshoumaru, telling him to follow her. She started to run towards a well-decorated building.

As soon as they arrived Sesshoumaru's eyes widen as he saw many weird things. He looked up to see those weird candles again the humans called light. He must admit this place was mysterious to him. As they walk around, he could feel underneath him that the floor was very slippery and it was so shiny that you could see your very reflection on it. They were also some humans that wore the same clothes and smiled too much for his taste.

(A/N: He is talking about sales people, with their smile.)

Then he turned his head to the side to pay some attention on the miko. He saw her look around and after a few minutes of looking through glass windows, they went in one of the shops. The man behind a desk looked at him and smiled. He wondered silently, why does everyone here smile so much? He saw Kagome looking at some boxes with something "GAME BOY" written to it. She when finally grabbed one and went straight to the same man that smiled at him, 'to buy it', she said to him.

"This one please...." Kagome said handing over the box. The young man smiled at Kagome and looked down at her hand and took what she was holding out. Sesshoumaru thought that, if he was going to observe, why not observe them? He walked closer to Kagome's form, as he saw the young man frowned as Sesshoumaru stood beside Kagome.

Sesshoumaru heard the young man sighed in disappointment. "So…is he your boyfriend?" The young man asks giving a glance at Sesshoumaru. He was slightly disappointed that the girl already had a boyfriend who seems to match her beauty.

Kagome lifted up her head to asked the young man whom he was talking about, but as she looked at his eyes, she followed where it laid and saw Sesshoumaru right beside her. Kagome wanted to laugh, Sesshoumaru could never be her 'boyfriend', that would probably mean that both she and Sesshoumaru had lost their minds. "No.... He is not." She said, trying to keep herself from laughing.

The guy's frown turned upside down, into a smile. "Well... That's nice to know, here is my phone number. My name is Roku." Roku gave Kagome a paper and gave her a mischievous smile. Kagome smiled back, but then she couldn't help but see that his smile seems to resemble someone she knew. Miroku...

'Deja vu, he seems to resemble Miroku…his name. Maybe…maybe he is Miroku's reincarnation.' Kagome took the paper and put it in her pocket. "Thank you I hope we meet again." She gave him a smile, if this guy really was Miroku, she would definitely call him.

"Oh... please ring... And here I'll give you a discount! 45 off! It is not often I meet someone as beautiful as you." Kagome blushed; she then and there decided that he must be Miroku's reincarnation. Not only did their names are nearly the same and also appearance, but also their love for women.

He didn't like to be left out of things and this human before him was annoying him by the second. What was this 'boyfriend' stuff? And what was the paper that he have given to the miko, and yet not him, Sesshoumaru? In this world, people treated him with not enough respect or they treated normally, and he didn't like that. Usually, humans would coward before him in fear, but right now they wouldn't. It annoyed him more than ever.

Kagome took the paper and with Sesshoumaru walked away.

He didn't know why he wanted to know so much about this miko, but maybe by knowing her he would know more about this time. So as they walk in silence, Sesshoumaru decided that he would ask her as much questions, as he wanted. "The human male, you know him?" He never really was the first to talk, but this was an exception.

Hearing the voice of Sesshoumaru's, Kagome was a bit startled. She knew him to be quiet and never to start a conversation, so she just stayed quiet. She was just thinking if Miroku was reincarnated in this time, would this mean that Sango would also be in this time? She turned her head slightly to the side, so she would still be able to see both where she was walking towards and Sesshoumaru. "I do not exactly know."

That was not the answer he was expecting for. "Miko, do tell this Sesshoumaru, why you speak to people you do not know in a rather friendly manner?" He asked, wanting to know more about her.

Thinking of a proper answer to the arrogant jerk beside her was hard. She didn't know, but she knew she had to say her answer correct, but as thought about it, did she have to answer him? It wasn't like because he is a Lord of the Western Lands in his time that he is a Lord in this time. And it wasn't like he was going to live in this time and become a businessman. Kagome chuckled at the thought.

Yes, she could just imagine it now, Sesshoumaru wearing some decent clothing, his hair tide back and a mobile phone in one of his hands as he growled at the phone and his tail starts to wag in frustration. Then, when he got really mad at the phone, he takes out Toujikin and slices the mobile phone in half, while all the other people in the background just stare. Yes, that is what he would be like.

"What is it that you found laughable, miko?" He asked when he saw her start to laugh.

Kagome was sent back to the normal world, as she heard him speak again. Regaining herself some self-control, Kagome closed her eyes. "Gomen... Most people in this time would get along properly, Lord Sesshoumaru, even without knowing each other, but I think that that person we have just met is the reincarnation of a friend of mine, Miroku."

He thought about it, if this Miroku was reincarnated, that would mean that this Miroku was not of normal humans; usually only humans with something special about them would be reincarnated. "Tell me, of this Miroku." He ordered.

She turned her head back on her way, "Hmmm.... Miroku... A human, a monk and definitely a lecher." She said smiling on her way as she talked. "But wise." She added, as an image of his face appeared in her mind.

"Hmpn, a human wise?" He asked insultingly.

"Yes…he is." Kagome paused for a moment. She was getting use to Sesshoumaru's insults by now. "Yes he is, he knows when to butt in or not and he seems to know a lot about his friends." She said, trying to convince Sesshoumaru that there is such a human who is wise. She wanted to mumble, "And he is definitely wiser than you," but thankfully she was able to suppress it.

The whole day, went as expected, to the relief of Kagome. It would seem that Sesshoumaru was actually trying to keep his promise. They kept talking, but mostly with Sesshoumaru insulting the human race, it was hard to make a proper conversation, as he tried every single tactic to make the human race seem so low. As they walked around, suddenly while Kagome was explaining something to Sesshoumaru, two girls went up to them; both of them were giving Sesshoumaru very seductive smiles.

"Ano…is he your boyfriend?" One girl asked. She was shorter but seems older and her clothes seems to be much more 'showy' than the other, who wore black jeans and a white jumper.

Looking over at the girls, "Nope..." Kagome said usually, she was getting use to this by now. If girls wanted to talk to him, she was more than happy to let them, but now...as she thought about it. If they talk to him, well... He might talk to them about how lowly the human race is, and they might start thinking his crazy, seeing as they see him as a human.

"Ok. Here is our phone number!! I'm Ru-ru and this is my best friend Amari." Ru-ru handed a piece of paper to Sesshoumaru and walked away. Not being able to stop her self any longer, Kagome started to giggle, those two girls seem a little too young for Sesshoumaru. The other one seemed to be the age of 14 and the other with enough courage to talk the age of 15.

"Is this some kind of joke wench?" Sesshoumaru said dangerously, as he crippled the paper in his hand.

Kagome stopped. "No, congratulations!" She said trying to suppress her laughter.

Sesshoumaru then opened his fist as he looked at the paper in there. "What is this?" He demanded.

"That is a piece of paper, you should look at it, and it has both of those girls' phone numbers." Kagome said as she pointed out were both of the girls went to.

"And so..." He said, still looking at the paper. "...What is this Sesshoumaru suppose to do?" He asked curious.

Kagome gulped, now what was she suppose to do? Or how was she supposed to explain? "Hm…. If you err...like the way those two girls look, well you can call them on this number and use the invention telephone and you could get to know them and maybe one of them can become your girlfriend."

"I do not care for humans, but what is a girl - friend?"

Kagome sighed. This was going to be a long day. "Ok. How to explain…? How to explain - how to explain? A girlfriend is when a boy found a girl to be more than friends with, they are like mates, but if they do not have to be with each other forever. They can break up any time. And a girlfriend and a boyfriend are supposedly to be together." She said, trying her best to make sense.

"I have heard the human male ask if this Sesshoumaru was your boyfriend. So why did you not say I was your boyfriend?"

"Why, Lord Sesshoumaru, you're not!!" Kagome said a bit amused. "I told you I only go for the ones, I love or at least are nice." She paused, wanting to add, 'And are not narcissistic, pessimistic jerks, such as you.' But she suppressed it. "And I doubt that you and I would ever be in such relationship, that would mean that we have both went completely insane." Kagome said dryly as she turned her head to the side, looking at the scenery ahead.

"Indeed," agreed Sesshoumaru.

That ended the conversation.

The day was turning to night and Kagome could see the sun starting to set. She didn't want to be in the city at night. It was not like it was dangerous, it was just that, she had already gotten her present to give to Souta and had pretty much showed Sesshoumaru the whole city, and she knew she had receive enough insults from Sesshoumaru.

Soon enough they got home. As they opened the door, Kagome looked at Sesshoumaru who still wore her past father's clothing. "Was that enough of the future for Lord Sesshoumaru?" Kagome asked, she must admit he was growing on her.

"It was not all bad, miko." He said emotionlessly, even he didn't actually wanted to admit that, but what was the point in lying? It was beneath him to lie. But something did scare him...it was like this human before him...he was getting use to her presence. It was one of the most absurd things to happen, but it was happening and he was witnessing it.

"Miko..." She repeated. "I wonder, will you even call me by my proper name?" Kagome asked, as she turned on the light in the house. The house was pretty clean, but if she wanted to give Souta a happy birthday, she decided then and there that she would clean it better tomorrow morning, or design it or something.

Sesshoumaru stood near the door way, he could see her turning on what she calls 'switched' to turn on the lights, it was amazing how with a single click a light as bright as that would appear. "If this Sesshoumaru wish to call you by your name, I shall." He answered, his mask never leaving his face.

Kagome rolled her eyes and went to the kitchen leaving Sesshoumaru alone in the main room. It was about 6:34 pm. She was hungry, they were out for the whole day and since she had spent most of her money on buying Souta a gift and the transport for her and Sesshoumaru, she didn't have much money left to buy them something. She also had to buy some tickets to get into some places that Sesshoumaru wanted to visit and to her, he seemed very spoiled. "Do you want anything to eat?" Kagome asked, as she opened the fridge and looked around.

"I do not need to eat." She heard him answer.

He may have said no, but she wouldn't just let him get away with that. She wanted him to eat, why? Because he has fed her in his castle, so shouldn't she feed him in return? "Try it anyway." She went back in the launch room, seeing that he had already closed the door and now leaned against the wall. She smiled and gave him a sausage roll.

"What is this?" Sesshoumaru looked at the weird food.

"It's a sausage roll. You can eat it and don't worry I am not going to poison you." She gave him a smile and took a bite on hers.

Sesshoumaru saw how she ate it and started to eat the way she ate her sausage roll. As he let the food roll on his mouth, he could taste it and he must admit, it wasn't raw, or had any taste of blood left in it, he could tell it was very much cooked. And he liked it.

Kagome sat down on the couched, she knew that she should be eating something much healthier, but tonight her family weren't home, so why not? She didn't want to cook and she knew that there was probably not much ramen left, with the packed she took last time. She could see that Sesshoumaru didn't hate the food, but she could also tell that he didn't want to admit that he liked the food, so she wouldn't even bother asking him. Soon finishing her food, she stood up. "Lord Sesshoumaru, I will just have a shower." Kagome started to walk away but before she could leave, she glanced at Sesshoumaru, and disappeared to the other room.

As he finished eating, Sesshoumaru looked at his hands, he still could smell the delicious scent of the food on it, and as he looked around, he saw that the miko was gone, leaving him by himself. He decided that he will watched more of this TV stuff; it would show him more of this world. But as he walked to get to the TV, he heard some knocked the door. Sesshoumaru thought for a while, who could it be?

"Kagome…? Are you in there?" Sesshoumaru heard the voice, it sounded familiar somehow, but he would doubt that he knows who it is. He thought more, should he open it? As he thought about it, the voice seems to know the miko and if it was an enemy, he doubted that the enemy would stand a chance against him. Sesshoumaru walked closer to the door and opened it; it surprised him not to find a human, but instead a youkai.

Sesshoumaru narrowed his eyes, as he looked over at the youkai. "State who you are," He said, his voice lacing with threats.

The young man smiled, so his friend was true to his words after all. "Oh… so Sesshoumaru do you not recognise me?"

When she finally finished her shower, Kagome got herself dressed and was curious to know what Sesshoumaru could have been doing all this time that she was in the shower. What could a demon do in her house? Walking down the stairs gracefully, while rubbing her hair with the towel, Kagome was surprised to find Sesshoumaru and her friend Hojo standing silently. Hojo was leaning against the wall, with his innocent face, while Sesshoumaru just stood there silently.

Gaining herself from her little stupor, Kagome walked straight to Hojo. "Hojo kun, what brings you here?" Kagome said plainly, as she smiled at Hojo and sat down the couch near him, gesturing for him to do the same.

Seeing her gestures, Hojo sat down next to Kagome, who backed away a bit. Many years had passed and he still couldn't stop caring about her. "There you are, Kagome. I was just bringing you some medicine for you're umm... sickness." Hojo look at her from head to toe and gave a roguish smile, she was indeed a very beautiful creature, and it would seem to him that she would become much more beautiful by each passing day.

Watching and hearing the Miko's and the youkai's ever so plain conversation, Sesshoumaru decided that he wanted to know exactly what was happening and why the miko seem to address this youkai with a different name. Yes, the youkai's appearance changed, but it was now obvious to him that it was just a spell and he would not fall easy for it...again. "Miko, you said that youkai's do no exist in your time? But how come I seem to see you are currently talking to one?" A deep voice asked calmly.

Kagome leaned her head to the side, confused. What was Sesshoumaru talking about? If he meant that she was talking to one and it was in her time, which would mean that he was talking about...Hojo. "Hojo? You're.... you're a youkai?" It was said more like a statement.

Hojo smiled sweetly at Kagome, and Kagome wondered why it seems that he reminded her of another person, like another person she knew. "Yes, Kagome." Hojo watched as Kagome's lips went dry. He smiled, that wasn't even the whole truth. "I am a youkai. I am Kai." Kai watched as her lips went totally dry and her mouth opened wider, as it took her a few seconds to comprehend the whole thing.

Kagome's head was in amazement, if this was Kai and he knew about Kai, it would mean that Hojo was Kai and that Hojo is a youkai. "Kai...?" Kagome was shocked enough that Hojo her friend was a youkai, but now she finds out that Kai is Hojo in the future. It was bizarre, all this time she thought of them as two completely different people...umm...youkais now.

Smiling to himself, Kai asked Kagome a question, which he knew to be the answer to her questions. "Didn't I tell you that I'd always be here for you?"

"Kai... So how come you two aren't much alike... I mean, except for the fact you two are both such gentlemen?"

"I use this form to, you know look more human."

Kagome was in a state of surprise, but she should have expected it. Youkai's practically live forever. After a long talk with Kai or Hojo Kagome stood up gaining all the information she was just given.

The information were... Kai has been watching her. He was there when she was born; he was indeed like her bodyguard. Though, he refuse to tell her more information about the future of the Shikon no tama or her future in the past. It was weird...that he knew what was going to happen to her life.

Sesshoumaru was in a deep thought, many things were happening, and he knew many things were changing. While Kai and Kagome chatted with each other, he just watched TV, he heard the miko asking question about what was going to happen in the past, like what would happen to the Shikon no Tama, or how it would turn out for her friends...and the weird thing was, she included him, Sesshoumaru - as her friends. Though, as he watched TV, while the miko and the youkai, Kai talked. He couldn't help but smell her scent, it was powerful and intoxicating, much better than any demoness or human female he had ever met before. Maybe he should leave...

But even with that, he refused to leave the youkai and the miko alone, for he, Sesshoumaru, would not let them have a pup – a hanyou at that. He knew that the youkai was still in love with the miko, so he wouldn't even think of leaving them to be comfortable. However, he was surprised, to find that the youkai, Kai, did not even try. He was also surprised to find out that the youkai, Kai wanted to be alone with him, Sesshoumaru.

The youkai, Kai wanted to talk to him about something. So, deciding that it might actually be something useful, Sesshoumaru let the youkai talk.

Both, Kai and Sesshoumaru sat down on the couch, at first Kai hesitated to talk. What about if he ruined the future? But he also knew that his friend would wish for him to give this advice, for it would make things easier for the future. He wasn't going to give too much, but he will warn this Sesshoumaru in the past.

He looked over at Sesshoumaru's proud form. Sesshoumaru was sitting with his usual stoic face, his face on his right hand, while his right hand leaned on the side of the couch. His silver hair, reflecting the light and his golden orbs shining with piercing demanding for respect looks.

The taiyoukai tried to wait in patience, but it was taking too long, he wondered why the youkai before him wanted to talk to him. It was odd. Kai and he, they hardly talk to each other, unless it should be business. "State what you have to say," Sesshoumaru said impatiently as he removed his head on his hand.

Kai sighed, it was weird, knowing the future, yet knowing that you shouldn't say too much or do too much to ruin for what awaits for both of his friends. "I am not allowed to give too much information, Sesshoumaru." To Sesshoumaru, it was strange, usually the Kai he knew in the past would address him as Sesshoumaru sama, but this Kai that is before him, seem to only address him as Sesshoumaru. "It might ruin for what awaits you and Kagome."

One of his eyes went to look at the side, to see the face of the youkai who sat beside him. He didn't know what the youkai meant, by what awaits for you and Kagome. There was nothing... Nothing he could think of. For once this trip was finish, for once the night for his mate to be chosen was done, the miko and he, would separate ways once more.

"But I was told to tell you this advice, don't ever leave things to the last minute, once you realize something...say it." Kai said, his voice sad. "For you never know if you will have a chance to say it afterwards." Kai stood up and walk to the door. "Tell Kagome that I will take my leave now." But before completely walking out the door, Kai stopped. "It is strange, I only followed a wise friend's advice, to go here, at this very night. But what I didn't expect is to find it right, I found you here with Kagome. To give my thanks to that friend, he told me to give you an advice, which is the advice that I have just given you, for the friend who told me to give you this advice is no other than you." After saying that, Kai excused himself and left the house, leaving a slightly confused Sesshoumaru.

Sesshoumaru wanted to stop the youkai from leaving, for the youkai left only so little of clues. He tried his best to comprehend what the youkai, Kai, had just said to him. So, Kai followed a friend's advice to go to the Miko's house. This friend also predicted that he would find both the miko and he, Sesshoumaru. And to thank this friend, Kai gave he, Sesshoumaru, an advice. This advice however is the advice, which he Sesshoumaru, as a friend of Kai's told to Kai to give him, Sesshoumaru?

It was all very perplexing, so Sesshoumaru didn't even bother to get it. What was the point? If this Kai really knew what was waits for them in the future, then Sesshoumaru would just have to wait until he was there. But for now, as Sesshoumaru thought about it, maybe he should at least try to take his advice well. Even though he didn't quite get it, what was it again? 'Don't ever leave things to the last minute, once you realize something...say it. For you never know if you will have a chance to say it afterwards.'

Remembering the words were easy, so this is exactly what Sesshoumaru did. He let the words of that advice sink in his brain. He turned his head to try and find the miko, but found that she was not in the room. Deciding that he wanted to talk to the miko, Sesshoumaru stood up and went up the stairs. He took his time, as he thought that this might be his chance of getting to know the house better. He went up the stairs and looked at each room, but soon he found himself in the Miko's bedroom door. He opened the door only to find her sleeping. She was holding some type of book, while she slept on her bed. 'So she is well educated.' He sat on the side of her bed.

He never really cared for what human made their faces, to him - all human faces are ugly. Yet, as he looked at this one before him, he couldn't help but think on how she looked so innocent. He leaned his head down to find himself looking at her lips, as he watched her breathe in and out, her breathes cool on his face. He should be disgusted, but somehow he wasn't. He felt as if he was in a trance, like his body was moving on it's own.

His body bent down, to get closer to her lips - her lips were reddish. Not being able to control his body movements, Sesshoumaru bent down and was merely millimetres away from her face; he was just about to press his lips against hers when…he stopped. His eyes widened. What was he doing? Was he, Sesshoumaru, about to kiss a human? A miko, at that? Not sure of anything, Sesshoumaru stood up and walk out of the door, confuse.

Knowing exactly where to go, Sesshoumaru went to the exact room, called the guest room. With a frown marring his face, he walked closer to one of the bed, sat down on it and closed his eyes. Why was he like this? What made him nearly do such a thing? He knew that the whole day he had been curious about the miko, but what was that? Sesshoumaru let his hand wonder to his lips. It felt like he wasn't in control of his body as he watched her sleep.

Yes, he knew that this miko was getting to him and he needed to keep away from her, or he did not know what might happen. He was the one who had been trying to keep the miko away from the youkai, Kai. Yet now, he found himself to be the one who should be accuse, of what he was accusing the miko and the youkai to do. Trying his best to get over the thought, Sesshoumaru let his head lay on the pillow on the bed. Yes, he would get some sleep and forget about that incident.

------Dream------

Sesshoumaru felt a little cold. That wasn't right, why did he feel cold? He opened his eyes slowly, only to see that he was completely surrounded of snow. His back was against a tree, and he could tell that this place was near his castle. This was a strange turn of events, for he, Sesshoumaru had never had so many dreams. As he looked around to observe the place more, he could see a figure of a woman in front of him.

The woman wore a very beautiful kimono; it was the colour of silver white and blue. He couldn't see the top of her body or her face at all, it was just dark. But he didn't need to know. He just didn't care... Why should he care? "Sesshoumaru... Would you believe?" Her voice echoed; it was sad. Yet somehow, he thought that he have heard that voice before. It sounded familiar, like he knew it from somewhere. It was a serene voice. And it made him wonder, who was she?

But before he could even stand up and try to find out…

…………………………………

Sesshoumaru felt something warm on his face; he opened his eyes and this time found that he was again in a different place. He was leaning against the God Tree, while standing and he could see that the cherry blossoms are falling. As he looked around, he saw that he wasn't alone. "This is strange..." He knew this voice. "...I wonder why you are in my dream?" Sesshoumaru searched where the voice came from and found the miko, Kagome, sitting on the well. She was wearing the hakama. Her face was a little red, but not from embarrassment.

His golden orbs absorbed her face and he was able to tell that she has been crying. "What has made you miserable, miko?" He asked, wanting to know why she was sad. He saw her smiled at him sweetly, as she stood up and walk towards him slowly and only stopping a few step away from him as she raised her right hand and pointed towards something.

He followed to where she was pointing at and found that she was pointing towards the woods. He turned his gazed back to her for a question, but she just smiled and nodded. He again turned his gaze back at the woods, after a few second he could hear some footsteps. He was just about to look at the miko again, but he heard a little sad sound. Wanting to know what it was, Sesshoumaru walked closer to the woods, not expecting to see the miko, Kagome running towards him. But what he didn't expect was for her to run through him, like he was some sort of ghost.

He turned around fast, as he saw that now, instead of one miko, they were two. The miko who wore the hakama and the one who wore the unusual green kimono. As he observed both of the Miko's, he noticed that the miko who wore the weird clothing from the future seemed to look younger than the one who wore the hakama. "What is this?" Sesshoumaru demanded, as he looked at the younger version of the miko, who now stood in front of the God Tree weeping. She was looking up at it, as tears slid down her cheeks.

"A memory..." He heard the miko, who wore the hakama said. "It is a memory between Inuyasha and I, but I guess it won't be between Inuyasha and I, any longer." The miko bowed her head, as she hid her eyes with her black bangs.

Sesshoumaru tried his best to understand. So this was a memory - a memory between the miko and Inuyasha. He turned his gaze back the younger version of the miko. He watched as the miko wiped away the tears from her face, using her hands. Then, Sesshoumaru heard more footsteps.

"Kagome!!" Sesshoumaru turned around and found that his half brother Inuyasha has arrived. The hanyou was slightly panting, but didn't take his eyes off the younger miko. "Kagome...?" Inuyasha was walking slowly. Sesshoumaru could tell that the hanyou was trying his best to remain calm.

"So it is true..." She started, her voice serene as ever. Sesshoumaru again had to turn around, and was met with a very sad looking miko; she was looking up at the tree. "If I fell in love with you that much, I would hurt, just as much." The miko turned her head to look towards the hanyou, as she tried her best to smile. Sesshoumaru stood between the hanyou and the miko, but he could tell that she was looking through him and at the hanyou, so he stepped aside, to get to watched the scene better. "I know now...it's funny, how I didn't realised it before." Sesshoumaru watched as the younger version of the miko, turned her whole body to completely face Inuyasha. "It's OK if I get hurt..." She said, now walking towards Inuyasha.

He was confused, what was the miko talking about? It's ok if she gets hurt? He watched the miko stopped, only a stepped away from the hanyou, as she reached up her hand and placed one of her hands on each of the hanyou's shoulders, she continued to speak. "Because now…I know that…the most formidable enemy is the one inside my heart. So…maybe this dreadfully, painful feeling will remain, but at least now, I really have proof, that I really do love you." She smiled, a sad smile. "So it is ok if I get hurt... Because I also knew that, the most valuable weapon to fight this formidable enemy...is inside my heart. " Sesshoumaru watched as the hanyou's eyes widened.

It was a very strange memory indeed. He couldn't believe that even the miko was young she would know so much about her feelings. After a few seconds, Sesshoumaru gaze at the scene, as the scene blurred up and the two figures disappeared into nothing. Lifting his head up and looking over his shoulder, he looked over at the miko who wore the hakama - she was still there. He closed his eyes and opened them again.

He watched as the miko sat on the lip of the well again, and then she lifted her gaze up as she looked up at him. "A memory..." She mumbled and he could see that she was trying her best not to spill any more tears.

Walking closer to the miko, Sesshoumaru stopped, as he was only a metre away. "Miko, if it hurts you so much, why do you still remember? Why do you not just forget?" Then he paused, re thinking of his questions. "Do you wish to forget?" Sesshoumaru asked, this time he was actually curious. Why would the miko keep the memory that would hurt her so much? "Why do you just not forget?" He asked again, as he saw that she will probably not answer, he could see it in her eyes, that she didn't exactly know how to answer.

He watched as she closed her eyes and her lips became a thin line. He thought that she wasn't going to answer, but she did. "Lord Sesshoumaru..." By the way her voice sounded, it seemed as if she wanted to just die, her voice held so much emotion, yet so little of anger. "Maybe …"

-----End Of Dream-----

END OF CHAPTER 7: Three Memories: The First Love

Demon Tenshi: This chapter is very important part of the story. For in this chapter, as you can see, Sesshoumaru and Kagome are actually what you would call…getting to know each other or getting use to each other's presence. Wow, this chapter is longer than usual… You see, both of them woke up before Kagome could even finish her sentence… -.- I know it may seem annoying and all, but I have something else in mind…you know.

Did you get what Kai said? I know it's if a little complicated but I'll clear it up anyway. Kai is basically saying that the Sesshoumaru he knew from the past of his life, is the Sesshoumaru that became his friend who told him to visit Kagome's house at that exact time and who told him that he would meet Sesshoumaru who is from the past to give that particular advice. Do you get it?

Don't worry…if you don't well, the story is going to keep going and it will explain things… I didn't want to reveal too much…I hope I haven't lost my mystery yet!

--Demon Tenshi