Demon Tenshi: I did this chapter in very much hurry so then I don't have to worry about it. So I don't know if it's actually going to be ok…
The First Love: CH 10: More Than One Change
"Kagome?" Instantly, Kagome turned around to see who it was, while Sesshoumaru look over her head.
Kagome's eyes widen, as a smile graced her lips. She hasn't seen him in a while. "Miroku," gasped Kagome, she could feel something covering her body like some type of new heat or energy, but she just didn't care. She thought it was weird to feel something like this, but she was just so glad to see her friend that she didn't mind and it only lasted a few seconds or so.
Hearing his name come out of her lips, he smiled. Though, he still wasn't sure if this woman before really was Kagome, when he was looking from behind her back, he thought he could see the top of her hair turning white purplish colour, but it seems he was imagining things, right? Though, he couldn't help but notice that she seemed to have become much more beautiful than she already was. Shaking the thought away for a few minutes, he let himself walk closer to her form. If this really was Kagome, he wondered why she had change so much in a few days. "Lady Kagome...? Is that you...?"
Ignoring his little check up on who she is, Kagome walked faster, "Miroku, I'm so glad to see you." As she reached him, Kagome hugged him, not caring what the other people thought. Though, even though she was very happy, she couldn't help but notice that her body felt a little too easy to handle, but she totally ignore it for now.
Well, there is a beautiful woman hugging him, so what is a guy to do? A hentai at that? Wrapping his arms around Kagome's waist, Miroku let both of his hands slid down, feeling her now very soft body in his hands. But before being able to reach any further, Miroku could feel a sudden burning glare behind his back. He looked to the side, only to find Sango with burning eyes staring at him, her fist fisted in front of her face. Letting go of Kagome, he turned around only to be punched hard on the face.
Sango's eyes were so narrowed that you could see wrinkles on her face, as she rub her fist were she had just assaulted the hentai. Bending down to the floor and looking down at Miroku, Sango couldn't help but scream. "How dare you HENTAI!"
It was all to familiar for Kagome to care that one of her closest friends, such as Miroku, has been punched on the face by her friends like sister, Sango. Her smile widened as she could now see the face of the seething Sango with anger, but she just didn't care. She just missed them all so much, maybe a little too much. But as her eyes started to shine with pure joy and excitement, Kagome didn't hear anything from Sango, "Kagome?" Sango's voice sounded so confused, as if she wasn't even sure it was she at all.
Trying not to care, Kagome wanted to take that tone away, by running up to her and giving a big embraced. "Yes, it's me. Sango!" said Kagome, as her hands wrapped around Sango's neck. As Kagome let herself feel so happy about Sango, she then felt someone pull on her kimono. Turning around, Kagome could only see the cutest of all things...Shippou.
Quickly but gracefully unwrapping her arms around Sango's neck, Kagome turned around and bent down to Shippou, who was looking at her in pure confusion and amazement. She gave one of her motherly smile, as she picked him up and hugged him. "Oh... Shippou, you're here too." She said lovingly, never letting go of him, as she felt him relax in her arms.
"Mamma?" Shippou said, in a confused tone, that only made Kagome hugged him tighter. Finally deciding that this woman before him is his mother, Shippou wrapped his arms around were he could reach. "Mamma!" He said cheerfully and assuring.
Happy tears, started to form in Kagome's eyes, but she quickly took it off. Closing her eyes, she pulled away from the kitsune. "You are so cute." She said, as she could see his happy childish smile. She hugged him again, this time her eyes opened, as she saw Sango's look upon her. It was strange; Sango was looking at her like she was some kind of alien or a different person. "What's wrong Sango?" She asked, wanting to know why her friend is looking at her like that.
Gulping, Sango stared at Kagome for much longer before responding. "You sound a little bit like Kagome and you do look like her in some way...but are you sure you're Kagome?" Sango asked, looking at Kagome.
Pulling away from Shippou and giving him a smile, while setting him gently on the ground, Kagome looked at Sango in the eyes. "What do you mean Sango?" She asked, her face serious. She was Kagome and why was everyone looking at her like that? She was expecting more of a missing voice from them, not this.
But before Sango could even answer, Shippou spoke up. "Yeah... You looked different Mamma." Kagome looked down at the Shippou. "But you look much prettier! And you smell much nicer!"
Letting her face become troubled, Kagome's eyes twitched slightly. She was Kagome and she didn't look or change at all. So what could they be talking about? She was with Sesshoumaru only for a few days or a week or so, but she couldn't remember changing at all. "Umm... I'm sorry, but I didn't change at all."
"Are you for real?" Sango said, while walking closer to Kagome's form. Brushing back some of Kagome's hair back, she placed her hand on Kagome's forehead and soon brushed all the hair up, revealing something. "Then what is this thing on your forehead?" She said, as if there was something not right about her. "And how come your face seems so similar, yet you look older?"
"What?" Kagome asked coherently. She wasn't exactly sure of what they were talking about, but she did feel something has change inside her like a few moments ago, when she felt some type of heat or energy form around her whole body, but it wouldn't made that much change would it?
Then Kagome saw Sango nod her head slight, "Yup...and that is not all your voice seems more older." Sango added.
"I don't know what you are talking about..." She said, backing away a bit, while Sango move her hand away from her forehead, Kagome bumped to something hard behind her. Turning around, Kagome now faced Sesshoumaru. "Err...? Sesshoumaru...?" She said, as she watched his facial impression having a serious one on it.
He had been watching the whole scene take place when the human male have arrive, but what he didn't get was is that...the human male was right. But unlike the human male, he was able to see everything perfectly. For some unknown reason, he was able to see her 'change' in front of him. For a brief moment or so, he was able to see Kagome change. He was still, as he saw her turned around to look at the human male behind her and when she did so, he saw the purplish energy engulf her entire body for a brief moment, as if a spell has been taken off. He was also able to notice that Kagome, was able to feel it but out of all her excitement about her friends...she didn't care.
And he couldn't believe it, he just froze there, his mind told him to move, but he didn't. At least, not until he heard that there was something on Kagome's forehead. He was wondering what it could be, because most of the humans or youkais that has something on their forehead are powerful creatures. He knew this because he has something on his forehead, signalling that he was the important taiyoukai of the West. And he also couldn't help but hear their little exchange of conversation, the youkai kitsune addressed Kagome as mother, the monk seem to be a hentai and the human, Sango seems to also care about Kagome.
Deciding that he had heard enough of their conversation, Sesshoumaru decided to speak, as he looked over at Kagome. He couldn't help but see, that her eyes had a much more powerful aura around it and as she look up at him, with her body slightly pressed against his. Mentally shaking the thought out off his mind, Sesshoumaru nodded. "Indeed you have change, Kagome." Sesshoumaru said calmly. "Your friends are human, are they not?" Sesshoumaru said looking at her, almost like observing her.
Seeing a little nod coming from her head, Sesshoumaru continued. "I, Sesshoumaru saw you change right before me, a seconds when you turned around to see your friend." He said, ignoring the fact that her lips were dry and opened in amazement.
Trying her best to recover her voice, Kagome let her head lean to the side. "Strange... I only felt a little energy form around me and that's it..." She looked down, stepping away a bit from the close contact. She laughed nervously as she looked up at Sesshoumaru. "...And I felt a little stronger." She added, trying to ignore the fact that her body was actually against Sesshoumaru's.
"Yes... Why?" He said, as he closed his eyes. He then opened them again. "Why...?" He asked again, looking down at her.
Sango was actually amaze that the taiyoukai wasn't rude or anything to Kagome, but she couldn't help but think that there was something more to it than manners. But right now, there is a mystery and she wanted to know, for it would seem to her that neither neither Kagome nor Sesshoumaru knew exactly what has happened. Thinking of a good question, Sango let her mouth opened as she spoke. "Is there anything special about today Kagome?"
"Umm... let me think, I can't really think..." Kagome was looking up at the ceiling and wonderers to herself. It wasn't like she had any reason to change today...it was just a perfectly normal day...right?
Maybe there was something about to day that made her change like this. Because as far as he knew, humans didn't change or become more powerful by a single second and not even know much more about it.
"Well... Ummm... eh... I can't think!" Kagome said aloud, getting more frustrated by each passing second, as she tried her best to know what has brought this sudden change. "There is nothing special about today..." She said finally, as she nodded. There was just so much in her mind to remember and if there was, she'll figure it out sooner or later...right?
Gracefully walking towards the crowd, Kai let a smile grace his lips. "Oh... But...There is..." He said, as his voice echoed through the room. He watched as everyone's gaze turned to see him. And for once again, as he saw Kagome turned around, he was even more so amaze by her beauty. His smile got a little bigger, when he saw Kagome looked at him with confusion that turned into a greeting smile. He had heard everything and if this little answer would answer their question, Kai would be glad to help.
He could see each one of their faces as they waited for an answer, he could see Kagome's confusion back on and the taiyoukai's patience soon to be slipping. Trying his best to remain serious, Kai looked up at Kagome. "Kagome... Do you not remember?" He said smoothly and slowly, giving her time to learn every single word. "Last year, you told me that after your brother's birthday came-."
"MINE!" Kagome said louder than usual, she then looked around. "Ehh sorry... I'm sorry for screaming." Looking down, Kagome turned away in embarrassment. How could she forget? Her birthday? And why did her birthday have to be on this day? It was a little annoying how some days just have to keep happened at the wrong time.
Watching her turned her back in embarrassment, as she realised her something, Kai could only smile. "You were always so thoughtless of yourself." He said smoothly and gently, as he walked towards her embarrassed form. He then placed his right hand on her left shoulder, "Don't worry, it is not a very bad thing..." He watched, as she tried to nod her head and turn around a little.
"I guess...you're right..." Kagome said, hesitantly. "Though, I guess I'll just have to see my family another day and say sorry..." She said more to herself. "I mean... they should understand...right? I hope." Then as Kagome smiled at Kai, she looked around only to find that Sesshoumaru's, Sango's, Miroku's and Shippou's eyes are all on her. Realising their unspoken question, Kagome spoke "I'm sorry. This is my friend, Kai." She then looked towards Kai. "Kai this is Sango, Miroku and little Shippou, my pup." She pointed at everyone and winked at Shippou.
"So, who is he Kagome? How do you know him? When did you know him?" Sango asked.
"Umm... He is a friend I met two years ago and I'll explain the rest to you when we are alone ok." Kagome said. This was too much to handle. How could she forget her birthday like that? Her family probably wanted to celebrate her birthday with her and she didn't give them a chance but just a note that she needs to be back to the Feudal Era.
"So, Lady Kagome how old is you supposed to be now?" Miroku asked, as he looks over at Kagome's form with hentai eyes. Again, feeling that burning gaze of Sango's Miroku looked away, adding, "If you don't mind me asking."
Looking around and seeing that everyone in the room actually wanted to know, Kagome suppressed to sign. "Well. I came here when I turned 15 and that was longer than two years ago nearly three years now. Actually it is three years now. I'm err... eighteen." She ended, rubbing her head, and looking at everyone. "I'm sorry I never told you guys, I just didn't want to interrupt our searching for the shards and all." Kagome explained.
"It does not matter. My guest will be here soon. Kagome, you should get ready." Sesshoumaru said.
"Ready for what?" Sango asked.
"I'm singing tonight, Sango." Kagome said blushing.
"That's great!" Sango replied. "With your voice changing much better and all... You'll be better than before! You'll sound like an angel. Not like you didn't before!" She added.
Kagome let a suspicious look cross her face. 'Before...?' She repeated in her head. Sango never heard her sing, did she? Before thinking of how to say things right, "You heard me before?" She blurted it out.
Seeing Kagome's shocked face, Sango smiled. "Yup... While you were at night when you were sad and all."
He could tell that Kagome was about to explode out of embarrassment, so saving her, Sesshoumaru let himself walk in front of them. "Kagome, get ready."
A few hours had already passed since he has arrived; the servant had led him to the main room. It was huge to his opinion and he couldn't help but wonder, id he ever actually live in such a place. And as he looked around, he could see that many guest has arrived and he hated it when he saw many demoness in the room. Some gave him dirty looks, while some gave him lustful looks. As he walk around, he could smell that Kagome was in this room, but there was just so many youkais.
He tried his best to follow her scent, but it just led him much more faraway from her. But as Inuyasha walk around the huge room, he heard something... It was music, a very romantic one in his ears. The music echoed through the room, as he could now see some of the guests dance along with it. Deciding that Kagome must have been the one to create such a tune, Inuyasha followed where it was coming from.
Looking at her image in the mirror one more time, Kagome brushed some of her hair back behind her shoulders and smiled. Then as she was just about to move away, she couldn't help but noticed that there was indeed something on her forehead. Feeling very curious to what t is, Kagome placed her hand on her forehead and brushed it back, and saw the most weirdest thing. It was some kind of sign on her forehead. It was the shape of an equilateral triangle and she could feel a little bump, because it was three-dimensional. Trying to ignore it for now, Kagome walked away from the mirror and out of the room.
She was wearing a very pretty kimono, she actually didn't want to wear it, but Rin was the one who insisted and she couldn't resist Rin's cute face, so she just agreed to it. It was only for one night, so no harm...right? It was the colour of orange, with beautiful white looking cherry blossoms design on it.
After a few moments, Kagome could now see the main room. It was beautiful and she wanted to dance around, but she might just embarrass herself seeing that many of the guests are demonesses and would probably hate her guts. Walking pass many youkais, Kagome decided that she should just put the music on, since she didn't have anything to do. After a few minutes, Kagome saw that her CD player was exactly where she left it, walking towards it, Kagome smiled.
She could see that everything was on set; all she had to do now was press the button, which she gladly did. She watched, as the guests looked around to find where the music was coming from and she watched as there eyes landed on the two speakers. It was probably strange to the seeing a little black box creating such a beautiful sound, but they seemed to like it. She silently agreed on that thought as she now could see some of the guests started to dance in the middle of the room.
Later...
It has been a little while since she had played the music on and it seemed to her that many guests are getting tired of just dancing. She let a frown cross her face, as she stood up from beside the CD player. She was going to search for Sesshoumaru and ask him if she could sing already.
As she walk around, Kagome couldn't help but noticed that some female youkais were giving her death glares, she didn't want to fight or anything and she didn't exactly know why they were mad at her, but she decided that she will just ignore it for now. Seeing that the room was indeed big and full of youkais, Kagome sighed; she needed some sort of magic to find Sesshoumaru. Finally deciding to give up, Kagome saw a group of female youkais circle ling on something.
Thinking that she had nothing better to do, Kagome walked towards it, only to find Sesshoumaru sitting down in the middle of it all. His face was indifferent as usual, as you could see the female youkais trying to get his undivided attention. Kagome felt sorry for them, she guessed that this is why Sesshoumaru's ego was so high. She must admit, some of these females are actually very beautiful, yet he just sat there as if they weren't even special. Though, she couldn't also help but want to laugh at how he treated most of them, he ignored most of them and with the look on his face, he looked like he would kill the other one soon enough.
He was proud of himself for being what most would call attractive, but he also didn't like this. These babbling females were somehow getting on his nerves. All they did was talk about nonsense, which is something mostly about how beautiful they are. One even said, "I love these things, do you think my hair suits my body? Many males are so fund of my body... I'm sure I can show you why, Lord Sesshoumaru...tonight." Kami, he wanted to kill her instead of take her. Yes, she wasn't what you would call ugly or anything...but he had taken many female youkais and they never interested him. In fact, no female ever interested him. All they were good for was for one night and he didn't even want to take of these...females.
He could smell by their scent that they were all taken, which shows what sort of whores they were. Not because they were taken, but because he could smell that more than at least 100 other different males took them...it was disgusting. For as he looked at them, all he could see in their eyes is the look of pure lust for him and his lands. And he wouldn't even think about ruling his lands with one of these whores. Sometimes, he would actually start thinking that maybe human modesty wasn't that bad...for these female youkais had none, no modesty what so ever.
Breathing in, Sesshoumaru then smelt a different scent; it was not like the females that surrounded him right now. For this scent was pure, has not been taken. It smelt of cherry blossoms and... He let his nose inhaled more. ...Vanilla. It was Kagome. Deciding that he would actually rather be by her side - despite the fact that she was human - he stood up and walked towards where her scent grew stronger and leaving the bunch of babbling, seducing females.
Already finding her scent comforting and much better than the female youkais, he now stood in front of her. He look over at her face, which had a big, yet sincere smile on it, as he heard her started to giggle. "Tell me, what is funny?" He asked.
Seeing the taiyoukai stood on front of her, Kagome let out the chuckle she was trying her best to suppressed. She tried to regain herself by covering her lips and nodding, while closing her eyes. "I-I... It looks as if you were going to murder one of the females, I know that fighting and killing isn't actually funny, but I just couldn't help it..." Kagome looked over at the jealous female youkais and added. "...I'm sorry."
Closing his eyes, he sighed. "This Sesshoumaru was trying not to do so." He said, as he opened his eyes and watched from the corner of his eyes, as he saw her head snapped up. "You may sing now." He said, clearly trying to change the subject, as he could feel the glares of the female youkai's on Kagome's form. He knew that she feels a little uncomfortable to be beside him like this. But it didn't matter, he would rather be here than there.
"Errr..." Kagome looked around, the females were still glaring at her. She couldn't walk by herself now, because of Sesshoumaru. "Will you guide me?" She looked up to him, her face telling him 'please do so or I'll die'.
Seeing her silent plea, "I will," said Sesshoumaru. He saw her nod, as she grabbed onto his clothing and started to walk with him, as he lead her to where she would be singing. He watched, as she stopped the music and pressed something and placed an item called 'CD' in the CD player. He watched, as she let her hands grasped the 'microphone' and smiled at him.
"How about I start with a happy song." She said, while smiling. "I don't know if it's really happy, but I think it's different...from the ones you probably heard from this time."
He watched as she walked up to something higher, making herself a little taller than everyone. Breathing in, Kagome held the microphone in front of her mouth, as she closed her eyes and opened them again. "Good evening," she said, while looking at everyone in the room. "Everyone." She added. "My name is Kagome Higurashi and..." She tried her best to remain calm and hoped that no youkai would kill her on stage. "...I am here to sing for every one of you tonight." Trying her best to remain calm, she squeezed the microphone tighter, as she leaned down and pressed the play button. She could see many of the female youkais glaring at her and could see the male youkais curious.
Kagome could hear the music start and she prayed to the gods that she wouldn't choke or do something embarrassing. This was even more embarrassing than last time and now, as she stood out there, she felt her knees beginning to weakened. 'Don't fail me, my knees.' She prayed in a thought, she never actually had much of an audience in the past, now here she was and she felt as if she wanted to run away, but she wouldn't that would just make it more embarrassing. Closing her eyes, Kagome knew that she would have to sing...
-Background Music Starts to Play-
- sagasou yume no KAKERA hiroiatsume
setsunakute mo ima nara sagaseru darou
mekurumeku mainichi no katachi kaete
setsunakute mo tashika na ima o kanjiyou
-Let's search for and gather the shards of dreams
-Even if we're sad, we can probably still find them now,
-changing the shape of the brightly turning tomorrow.
-Even if we're sad, let's feel the sure present. -
Hearing her voice now, was...comforting. It sounded somehow older than the last time he have heard her sang and he couldn't help but hear a little shaking sound, showing that she was indeed nervous. Her eyes were closed and her lips red and her cheeks staining a little bit of crimson. He guessed that there is much more audience here and that is why she was embarrass.
But the song was powerful and calm, so it would seem to hide her nervousness better. But as he stood there, he could tell that she was starting to calm down.
-mikake yori mo tanjun de dakedo tsutaekirenakute
iitai KOTO wa itsumo POKETTO ni shimatteru NE
-It's simpler than it looks, but I can't tell it all.
-I'm always putting what I want to say away in my pocket. -
As Inuyasha looked around the room, he thought he heard the name Kagome Higurashi been said, but the voice was older than Kagome's...but then as he heard the voice sang, Inuyasha ran to get to the where the voice was coming from. He nearly gasp at what he saw. There she was...Kagome. Standing there, her eyes slightly closed as she sang out words. He wondered, what is it that had changed her voice? And why did she also looked different?
He could tell that she was still human, but something was different...
-kodomojimita KOTO nante ima sara ienai
toki ga kaiketsu suru to ka yuu kedo wakariaezuni
-I can't say things with childlike plainess now.
-It's said that time settles all, but without understanding-
24 (nijuuyo) jikan kimi o shinjiteru yo
mitsumeteru yo arifureta kotoba demo
toki wa itsumo isogi ashi de warau
omoide yori motometai ima o mitsukeyou
-I believe in you 24 hours a day
-I stare wide-eyed, even at common words
-Time is always laughing on its swift feet
-Let's find a present we want to look for more than memories. -
As he kept his ears glued to the music, he noticed as how mostly every one in the room had stopped what they were doing and turned to face Kagome's form. He was also disgusted at how some unmated male youkais found her arousing and were polluting the air. Hell, even the mated youkais were pulluting the air.
-ugokidasanakya hajimannai nayamidasu to tomerannai
hitoyo kagiri no yume ni amaete itaku wa nai shi
-If we don't move, we can't start. If we worry, we can't stop.
-I don't want to be coddled by dreams of this world's limits.
otome CHIKKU na negai mo sono mama okizari
ai ga subete SA bokura no jidai wa koko kara
hajimaru
-A maiden's cheeky wish is left behind as it is.
-Love is everything. Our era starts from here.
sora o tsukinuketeku tori mitai ni NE
oozora mau IMEEJI ga ugokidasu
arukou michi wa tooku tsuzuku keredo
itsu no ma ni ka kagayakidasu DAIYAMONDO
-Like a bird cutting through the sky,
-the image dancing in the great sky begins to move
-Let's walk - the road goes on for long, but
-it'll shine like a diamond before we know it. -
But most of all, he could smell the scent of jealous female youkais. He knew that this would happen and now, he Sesshoumaru would probably have to be beside her from the attempt of the male youkais. He knew that after her song, many male youkai would go after her. He would have to stop them...he wouldn't even let another hanyou be born on this world. He would not allow it or be the caused of it.
-24 (nijuuyo) jikan kimi o shinjiteru yo
mitsumeteru yo arifureta kotoba demo
toki wa itsumo isogi ashi de warau
omoide yori motometai ima o mitsukeyou
-I believe in you 24 hours a day
-I stare wide-eyed, even at common words
-Time is always laughing on its swift feet
-Let's find a present we want to look for more than memories.
sagasou yume no KAKERA hiroiatsume
setsunakute mo ima nara sagaseru darou
mekurumeku mainichi no katachi kaete
setsunakute mo tashika na ima o kanjiyou
-Let's search for and gather the shards of dreams
-Even if we're sad, we can probably still find them now,
-changing the shape of the brightly turning tomorrow.
-Even if we're sad, let's feel the sure present. -
Finishing her song, Kagome let one of her eyes open and she was surprise to find do many male youkais standing where she left Sesshoumaru. She then opened the other, thinking that soon someone will throw some type of food at her, but gladly nothing was thrown. Sighing in relief, Kagome opened both of her eyes wide and everyone smiles on her, except some of the other female youkais. They all started to clap and Kagome couldn't help but feel a little embarrass, she wasn't so use to getting this much attention. Bowing a thank you, Kagome started to look for Sesshoumaru.
Looking around, she found the form of Sesshoumaru straight ahead; Kagome took a couple of steps towards him only to be blocked by many male youkais. They were all giving her a weird look; well she thought that they are weird looks. Kagome smiled at them and was about to keep walking before, "Hey, take a walk with me." One male youkai said, giving her a seductive look. Kagome was going to reply politely saying that she must meet with another when...
"What about me?" Another one asked.
One came between the two and it seems to be a cat-youkai. "No, she will go with me."
Sesshoumaru sighed to himself, as he saw his way blocked by a pact of male youkais. They were all younger than him by age and he could tell what they really want done other than walking. "I'm afraid you are sadly mistaken." He said, his voice standing out. He wouldn't let any of them have her...not with her being human.
Kagome watched, as Sesshoumaru stepped in, with his usual monotone face, as he continued to speak. "Tonight is my guests, Kagome's birthday and I'm afraid she cannot leave. For this night is also her celebration..." Sesshoumaru gave Kagome a look, simply telling that what he says is true. Kagome gave him a smile. It was fine with her if she didn't go anywhere with these people, they were scary and she wanted to thank Sesshoumaru for giving her an excused to say.
"Then I shall give her a gift." The cat-youkai then took Kagome's hand. Kagome look down and the cat youkai, who place something on her hand and then closed it. She opened it and saw a beautiful hair pin.
"Its beautiful." She said looking down at the hairpin. "Thank you."
"It is my pleasure." The cat youkai smiled. "And if you ever need help just call out my name. My name is Boyu." He turned around and walked away.
'He can't be...' She shook her head. 'No way, my cat's name is Boyu. Who named him Boyu anyway, I remember finding Boyu in a basket in front of our door step and in the basket it said 'My name is Boyu.' Weird...' What a coincidence that was and if it wasn't...well it couldn't be, could it?
"Kagome..." Turning around, she could see Sesshoumaru's gaze on her. She could see from the corner of her eye that every male youkai had already left heating on what Sesshoumaru had just said and she was actually happy about it. She wasn't the type to like male's attention, she only wanted one male's attention and she wasn't even able to it. She hanged her head, realising she was again thinking of him. She was just about to say something when...
Inuyasha pulled Kagome's wrist as he let her form slam against his in a tight embraced. "Kagome I missed you so much." He said, while nuzzling her neck. For once, he wasn't afraid that he was showing what people would call emotions; he just missed her too much. And as he embraced her now, he felt warm again...and secure.
Kagome let a sincere smile cross her face, not this time...not again. She love him, but the only thing is, if many things can change the way a girl feels about a guy, everything changed after that day. She loves him...but she is not anymore in love with him. "Um...Inuyasha?" she pulled away, "Will talk later." She said, giving her friendly smile. For some reason, it didn't hurt anymore...seeing him. She still has all the memories and she still probably could fall in love with him again, but it didn't hurt and she liked it this way. She wanted to keep the memories, but she didn't want to be with him...not anymore.
For as she thought about it, after all they have been through, it wasn't meant to be. For after all those things that they have been through, still they have gone nowhere. And if she went back to him again, she knew where she would end up. She could still remember that day he said those words... 'I need you, I miss you...' Though...as she thought about it, did he ever mean it? She wanted to think that he did mean it, but that would just be...pointless.
"Ok... Will talk later." Unwrapping his arms around her, Inuyasha let a smile cross his face.
She walked away, while looking down, she saw those familiar boots of Sesshoumaru's. She moved her head upwards, as she smiles up at him. "I... I'm ready." She said, trying to sound confident. Not now, she wouldn't back down now, not anymore. She saw him nod, knowing what she was talking about and Kagome walked straight for the microphone. After this song, after these words...she would move on, for she couldn't stay there and be tortured, she just couldn't. And as she looked back at Sesshoumaru, she somehow couldn't help but think that she will do it for him...it felt strangely nice.
Letting herself be the centre of attention again, Kagome gave a big smile. "Good evening..." She didn't want to say anymore... Maybe Inuyasha will get her words, maybe he won't but either way, she wasn't going to back down. She wasn't giving up, but she knew that as long as Kikyou is alive, she knew that he wouldn't be free. Maybe he will say 'I love you and only you', but hasn't she heard those words come out from his mouth before? He promised to protect Kikyou and she knew that he will be held by that...and she didn't want him to choose, for she know that the answer might not be her or might be her, but the same conclusion will happened. She will be heart broken...again. She gulped.
-Background Music Starts-
Kagome again for the second time tonight she brought the microphone near her lips, they trembled a bit.
Sesshoumaru watched, as everyone in the room turned to stare at Kagome. "Listen very good, hanyou." Sesshoumaru mocked.
-sotto mezameru
hakanai omoi zutto
donna toki demo negau yo
anata ni todoku you ni to...
-Quietly awakening...
-I always, always wish
-that these fleeting thoughts
-would reach you...
"ato sukoshi" to yuu kyori ga fumidasenakute
itsumo me no mae wa tozasarete-ita no
aitai aenai hibi wo kasaneru tabi ni
tsuyoi tokimeki wa setsunasa ni naru yo
-Unable to move forward across "just a little more" distance
-The way I see before me is always blocked
-Every time the days I want to see you but can't pile up,
-My strong heartbeat turns into heartbreak. -
"Is this song for me?" Inuyasha asked, not realising that he actually asked that aloud.
-moshimo eien to yuu mono ga aru nara
toomawari shite demo shinjite mitai
"bukiyou dakara KIZUtsuku koto mo aru" to
wakatte mo tomaranai mou dare ni mo makenai
-If there is such a thing as "eternity,"
-I want to believe, even if I have to take the long way.
-Although I know that I've been hurt before because I'm clumsy
-I won't stop; I won't give in to anyone.
anata no koto wo omou
sore dake de namida ga
ima afuredashite kuru yo
hakanai omoi zutto
donna toki demo negau yo
anata ni todoku you ni to...
-I think of you
-and that alone is enough
-to make the tears start to flow now
-I always, always wish
-that these fleeting thoughts
-would reach you... -
"Kagome..." Kai said. How could someone so kind and caring take all that pain? How could someone like her take it? But he knew something, she wasn't weak.
- tsuyogaru koto dake shiri-sugite-ita watashi
dakedo ano toki kara mayoi wa kieta yo
-I've known all too well about pretending to be strong.
-But since then, my doubts have vanished.
misetai to omou mono ga kitto atte
kikasetai kotoba mo takusan aru
egao nakigao mo zenbu mite hoshikute
matte-iru watashi wa yamete
"CHANSU" wo tsukamu yo
-There's definitely things I want to show you
-And so many words I want to hear
-I want to see all sides of you, when you laugh and cry
-So I'll stop waiting
-and seize my "chance."
anata no koto wo omou
sore dake de namida ga
ima afuredashite kuru yo
tookute koe ga todokanai dakedo itsuka wa
kanarazu todoku you ni
shinjite la la la la la la...
shinjite la la la la la la...
shinjite la la la la la la...
-I think of you
-and that alone is enough
-to make the tears start to flow now
-My distant voice can't reach you now, but so that someday
-it definitely will...
-Believe. la la la la la la...
-Believe. la la la la la la...
-Believe. la la la la la la... -
As Kagome finish she wanted to cry, but she shouldn't. Not after having the guts to do that. No she would never.
Walking away Kagome closed her eyes and opened them... Everyone in the room was complimenting her. "Everyone thinks you're the best Mamma." Shippou ran up to Kagome and Kagome kneeled down and gave him a hug.
-End Of Background Music-
Kagome looked down at the kit. "Thank you, Shippou..."
"Oka san? Daijoubu desu ka?" Shippou asked in a worried tone. Kagome hugged him tighter.
It was something...something to know that even though her heart was in pain, someone still cared about her. And it made her want to try harder, try harder at being happy. For she knows that if she is in pain, the people who love and care about her...they too will also be in pain. "I just need some air Shippou." Kagome stood up.
"Kagome..." Inuyasha said behind her. Kagome's hair covered her face.
"Yes...?"
"Can we talk? Outside?" Inuyasha asked.
It was silent. Kagome didn't want to speak. What will she say? What could she say? How could she talk? Sure she talked to Inuyasha before but not like this, he was sad she could tell but why? She could feel the cold wind blew harder as she rubbed the palm of her hands against her shoulder, shaking slightly. She didn't want him to say anything or do anything, she just wanted to be a friend, for she knew that she couldn't let herself return to the way she felt before.
"Kagome..." Inuyasha said gently, not really knowing what to say afterwards. What could he say? How could he say it? How will she react? Inuyasha continued unsure of what to say. "I have to tell you. Kikyou got it wrong... She thought that I chose her. I said to her I have chosen and that I care about her... But she didn't let me continue."
She heard him and she knew that he was telling the truth and maybe she was mistaken...but did she want to believe him? Does she want to be him? "I love you Kagome...I couldn't let you go, don't you understand...I need you." Inuyasha gently took her hand in his. "Please forgive me..."
"Why do you love me Inuyasha?" She asked, knowing what she was asking for. There were simply many answers and she feared most of them.
Sesshoumaru knew that he shouldn't be doing this, but as long as she didn't know...it was fine. He wanted to know what the reaction of the stupid hanyou is anyway. For he knew that the hanyou love Kagome, but will she take him back? For after all those things the hanyou has done, would she still take him back? Was she really that foolish? He knew that if she did take him, then she would just end in the same place she was in before. So here he was, not exactly hiding behind the bushes, but unseen.
"Kagome. I have to tell you. Kikyou got it wrong... She thought that I chose her. I said to her I have chosen and that I care about her... But she didn't let me continue." His brother said. "I love you Kagome...I couldn't let you go, don't you understand...I need you. Please forgive me..."
"Why do you love me Inuyasha?" Asked Kagome.
"Because I need you."
So what if his stupid brother choice her. It wasn't simply enough, even he, Sesshoumaru would admit to that. How come the hanyou was only able to realise he love her at the end? Wasn't he able to realise it before? Of course Sesshoumaru knew that probably his brother is only saying these words because he wanted Kagome back and in his mind, anyone can see that.
"Inuyasha...I need you..." She said.
Sesshoumaru's eyes widened, was she that stupid? How could she just forgive like that? Sure, he knew that she was very forgiving, but after all this time he didn't think of her as a dumb idiot until now. Tearing his eyes away from the scene, Sesshoumaru walked away. What did the human not realise? His brother didn't chase after her, did he? His half-breed brother simply stayed with the un dead miko for a while before trying to find her. So here she was forgiving the hanyou and it made Sesshoumaru...it made him...it made him...
He didn't exactly know.
All he knew is that he felt angered by the Miko's words and he didn't exactly know why...but right now...he just didn't want to care. She was a pathetic human after all.
"Inuyasha...I need you..." Said Kagome, and then paused. "...To be a friend, I'm the one who you should forgive. I didn't let you finish." Kagome said, her eyes turning slightly watery.
"Will you be with me, then?" Inuyasha asked, his eyes showing hope.
She didn't want to say these words, if he had asked her that question before, she would have said yes straight away...but things have changed. "Sorry. Not now. I don't know how but... Not now Inuyasha. I'm sorry." Kagome wanted to beg for him not to bring this topic. "I'm not ready Inuyasha." She could see Inuyasha's eyes saddened and she needed to get off the topic and fast. "I mean so many things are happening and all. Did you notice I change?" Kagome tried her best to get off the topic and sound happy.
Inuyasha then put his head up and look at the beautiful sight before him. "Yes. How come? What happened?"
"Sango thinks that it must be me turning the age of eighteen and all, but I don't know." Kagome assumed. "Sesshoumaru said we will discuss it later." Kagome was happy atlas now things might come back to normal. "Let's go." Kagome then took his hands and ran towards the direction of the room where everyone was.
"There you are you two! I was worried." Sango said smiling, as she could see Kagome's hands holding Inuyasha's.
"Sorry for making you worry." Kagome said in reply.
"No its ok."
"Do you think I should sing now? I mean it is late night and I should finish it off. Don't you think?" Kagome assumed.
Sango signed so did Miroku and Shippou. "Yes. Lady Kagome you should." Miroku whispered.
Kagome pressed her first finger on her lips then moved it away. "Ok see you guys!" Kagome gave one more smile before turning away and heading straight for where she would again sing. When she arrived there, she could see that it was already late 'What to sing?' She then noticed Sesshoumaru in the crowd. She smiled to herself. 'Maybe I should dedicate this one to him? But which one?' She didn't know what made her think such a thing, but she just wanted to say thank you and if it has to be through her song, then it would be.
She stood where she has just sung last time, instantly catching everyone's attention. Smiling, Kagome bowed, as she held the microphone in here hands. "I am so happy that I sang here tonight and I wanted to thank a friend. So, this is for him." Straightening her back, Kagome let the microphone get closed to her lips.
He didn't want anyone - especially the miko to know of his frustrations. He didn't want her to know that he was angered by her actions and he still didn't know exactly why. All he knew is that he was angered by it. And all he would try to put in his head are the words, she is stupid, pathetic, a fool, incompetent and yet, he somehow couldn't say it all to her. But as of now, he knew one thing; he didn't want to be her 'friend'. For he refuse to give his friendship to someone so unworthy of it.
The words still rang in his head. "I need you..." What would she need the hanyou for? He wasn't even... Mentally kicking himself, Sesshoumaru sat down, not caring what she sings out there. But as he sat there, he couldn't help but noticed that she seemed happier, but as he thought about it, it was probably because she has the hanyou.
"The name of the song is...Arigatou"
-Background Music Starts-
-kumo wa nagarete'ru kaze wa utaidasu
itsumo hashitte'ta kono michi no soba de
ima mo shiroi hana ga saite waratte iru
-The clouds are floating by... The wind is singing
-Even now, along the streets I always used to run along,
-white flowers are blooming and smiling.
demo tomaranai mune ga tsumaru hodo
ima ga daisuki de dakedo sugite-yuku
sore wa mukashi naita yume no kakera no you
-But it's unstoppable. It chokes me up inside
-I love the present, but it will always pass...
-It's just like a fragment of the dream I cried over long ago
fuwafuwa to ukabu yasuragi mo
namida koboreru fuan mo
daiji na mirai ni tsunagatte-iru
hazu dakara
-The serenity that floats by like a fluffy white cloud
-And the worries that make my tears spill over
-are both connected to the precious future,
-so...
ashita ni natte mo
itsuka otona ni natte mo
kitto omoidashite ne
anata ga koko ni ita koto
wasurenai de ite
hiroi sekai no hate de mo
zutto kienai ima wo
minna arigatou
-Even when tomorrow comes
-Even when someday I become an adult
-I'm sure I'll always remember.
-that you were here with me.
-I'll never forget,
-even when I'm in the very ends of this vast world.
-For this moment that will never disappear,
-I thank you, everyone. -
-Instrumental-
-tsuki wa terashite'ru kaze wa nemutte'ru
itsumo waratte'ta kono machi no sora de
ima mo nagareboshi ga negai kanaete iru
-The moon is shining down. The wind is sleeping.
-In the sky above that always smiles down on this town,
-even now shooting stars are granting wishes.
demo wakaranai toki ga sugiru hodo
hanaretaku nakute dakedo tooku naru
sore wa kinou yonda hon no shiori no you
-But I don't understand... I don't want us to ever part
-for as long as time passes, but we end up being far apart
-It's just like the bookmark in the book I read yesterday.
kirakira to hikaru akogare mo
donna kanashii kimochi mo
daiji na mirai ni tsunagatte-iru
hazu dakara
-My longing to shine like the twinking stars
-And my feelings, however sad they may be,
-are both connected to the precious future,
-so...
kisetsu ga sugite mo
dokoka shiranai machi de mo
kitto hirogatte-iku
minna ga koko ni ita koto
wasurenai de ite
chiisa na kono basho kara
sotto hajimatta koto
minna arigatou
-Even when the seasons pass,
-even if it's in some unfamiliar place somewhere
-I'm sure the future is unfolding.
-I'll never forget
-that you were all here with me.
-For what has quietly begun
-from this little place,
-I thank you, everyone.
yume wo noseta kuni wa
kioku kara tabidatsu
mata aeru yo
ima wa hohoende
-The land where we rode our dreams
-set forth from our memories
-We'll meet again.
-For now, please smile...
itsumade tatte mo
dokoka tooku e itte mo
kitto shirasete hoshii
watashi ga koko ni ita koto
wasurenai de ite
hiroi sekai no dokodemo
zutto kienai omoi
minna arigatou
-Even if it's for a long long time...
-Even if you go off far away somewhere
-I definitely want you to keep in touch.
-Don't forget
-that I was here with you...
-no matter where you are in this vast world.
-For these feelings that will never disappear,
-I thank you, everyone.
Thank you for all your tenderness
Thank you for all your happiness
Thank you for all your kindness
Thank you for all your everything... -
"Thank you everyone." said Kagome, as she gave a bow.
She could hear youkais clapped, but then she heard the giant door open and all the guests started to leave. She heard a few of them leaving with happy compliments on how entertaining it has been. She stood up and smiled to herself, as she looked down beside her and started to pack her stuff from the future. Soon as she was finish Kagome headed for the room that was given to her, only to bump to Sesshoumaru's chest. She nearly falls down but Sesshoumaru grabbed her wrist and balanced her to stand by herself.
"Arigatou!" Kagome bowed in appreciation. "Arigatou! Sesshoumaru!"
"You, human, shall address, I, as Lord Sesshoumaru." Sesshoumaru snapped, as he looked down at her bowed head, look up straight away.
Kagome let a confuse look past her face. "Didn't you say I can call you Sesshoumaru...as like a friend...?" Kagome asked worriedly.
"You, human do not deserve this Sesshoumaru's friendship." Sesshoumaru growled, clearly making his point.
She was slightly taken by the news, does Sesshoumaru change his mind this clearly or does he have PMS? It was thoroughly odd, as if he was taking back his word. And she wondered, what did this? Not being able to help feeling saddened by his words, Kagome closed her eyes, she wasn't going to cry, and she just didn't feel like looking at him. "Sorry Lord Sesshoumaru." said Kagome in a disappointed voice, she thought that he could have been actually her friend, but she was wrong...like with Inuyasha.
Maybe he taiyoukais could have PMS, well whatever it was; she hoped that it doesn't take very long. She didn't do anything wrong, did she?
Kagome returned to the room she had to put her stuff in and undress, she quickly made her way to the bag and opened it, finding that her mother had added something extra in it. "What's this?" said Kagome as she lifted up a miko hakama (one like Kikyou's clothes), but instead of red, the bottom part of this one was purple and for the top part is white with some light purple flowers on it. 'How pretty. It seems to have a note attach to it.' Kagome grab the note off the miko clothing. As she read...
Dear My Sweet Child Kagome,
I knew you would soon find these gifts, it is very beautiful, don't you think? I got it from an old woman when you were a baby; she said to give this to you when you turn the age of eighteen. She said that the colours of these hakamas indicate ranks, like in the old times. And I remember her saying that this particular one with this note attach to it, once belonged to a very powerful miko. A miko that could travel through time! I was so thankful, and as additional, she gave six more with all different colours and designs on it!
You have grown so much in the past two years and I noticed that you have changed when you came back, but always know that I will always be proud of you and no matter what, know that you are my daughter and nothing can ever change that. I saw you grew older and I watched as you bloomed like the flower.
And as usual, you forget that it is your birthday after Souta's, so I decided that why not just add these in your bag? I thought that you would have noticed the load you carried, but I guess you didn't, not when you are with that handsome man you were with, ne? I believe his name is...Lord Sesshoumaru? Take care while you're with him, he's definitely not like Inuyasha, but be careful.
Anyway, happy birthday and I hope that even without us, you can have a beautiful birthday. I hope you love these robes as much as I do. And always remember that I will always be in your heart, I love you, my beautiful daughter, Kagome.
Your Mother
Kagome smiled. Her mom was always so thoughtful she never forgot anything. She always remembered when her birthday was and Souta's and she always had something. Looking over at her beautiful birthday present, Kagome decided to put it on. And after a few minutes, Kagome looked over at her reflection in the mirror. Then as she remembered the rest of what had happened today and what her mother written, she couldn't help but frown and feel sad. "Thank you, Sesshoumaru..." She whispered.
Sesshoumaru has been looking at her front door for a little while, not knowing why he was there in the first place. But he couldn't believe what he has heard. He was expecting for her to be mad at him, not thank him. Then he felt her presence and he realized that she was going to get out of the room. He stepped backwards, as he saw her opened the door and smiled up at him.
Ignoring her smile, "Human, what is it that you wear?" He said, while he observed her robes. He must admit, they were well made and looked beautiful on her, 'For a human,' he added in a thought. Her raven hair really suited the way the purple colour reflected her eyes. And when she smiled like that... He shook his head mentally.
Hearing his rude question, Kagome just ignored it. "My mum gave this to me," said Kagome as she looked at her robes. "I guess it is a birthday present, she said she got it from an old woman, who wanted my mother to give this to me when I turned this age, eighteen." said Kagome, while she lifted her big heavy bag, smiled at him and then, "I should leave now, ne?" Closing her eyes, Kagome started to walk passed Sesshoumaru, before she felt her wrist grabbed.
"You leave tomorrow, not tonight."
END OF CHAPTER 10: Three Memories: The First Love
Demon Tenshi: I hope that this chapter was long enough... Someone (I won't name anybody) actually emailed me and told me personally that I needed to make longer chapters. It was nice to know that someone cared, but I was a little provoke at how he/she said it...or typed it. Anyway, so I did my best to make this chapter longer! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA! Ahem... I should again shut up.
So, has anyone know what surprised I have been thinking about? Oh well... You put it all together for once. But I'll help. Kai's advice, Kagome's strange 'change', Kagome's new clothes...think about it. HEHEHHE... I doubt anyone can found out though. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I think most have found out the obvious, but not all.
Anyway, I did this chapter in a big hurry, since I have started a new one! It's named A twisted Fairy Tale. It is very different from this one and many people like that one a lot. And I know why…