Hey, first chapter was a bit short I know, but they get longer and more interesting. Enjoy and please review! (a/n: When writing this, I don't know why, I kept imagining Blurn with a Australian accent, weird huh?)

We're here. I mean with the Hulta. I don't know what's happening and I'm completely confused! Why is everyone against me! Oh, I'm getting ahead of myself, let me explain everything.

About three days after that last entry, three more days of awkward togetherness, Yinyay locating the Hulta.

"We should get there by tomorrow morning," Argul replied at the news.

"Yes, I'm sure you will be welcomed," I said.

At this, he looked at me with a bleak expression and replied, "Claidi, I will explain everything to everyone, what really happened."

"Argul, you didn't see them, I'm so happy that we are going back but, I'm worried." Me

"Claidi, it'll be fine, " He said. Then he strided off towards the library. That was the most we talked that day. Things aren't any better. He isn't awful to me, or rude, but I almost want to say annoyed. Am I trouble to him? Am I a burden? I look back and think, everything that's happened to him is becuase of me. He would of never had to be involved with any of this if it had not been for meeting me.

Now that I think about it, I have been rereading my journals, looking back, remembering. That day, after the wedding in Peshamba, when I first met Thu and found out about Mirreen and Kirad. "You're the one I want and HAVE to be with," what does this mean? It sounds like something Twilight Star would say. Does he think he has to be with me? Is it a strain on him? Did he really want to marry me? Or was it becuase it was the reason he left the Hulta and might as well finish his mistake. I think about this and all these thoughts go running through my head. I love Argul more then anything, but does he still love me?

We got there the next morning. The sun was up and Thu plopped onto the bed and woke us with his tongue. I brushed him off glanced at Argul. He looked, no wait, always looks so handsome. His hair is growing back nicely by now and it is almost to his shoulders. I guess he wanted it to grow back, and so it, did? His eyes were sparkling and for once in long while he looked alive. So there and vibrant. How I wished he would kiss me right there, but he gave me a peck on the cheek and sat up.

Argul was very excited, a mix of excitement, nervousness, and stress.

"Good morning Claidi-baari! He said as he wrestled with Thu who was knawing on his hand.

"Good morning," I answered.

We got up and dressed. Yin served breakfast and I went to feed the horses. We hardly spoke more then a word to each other. We landed Yinyay about a mile away from the camp and shrunk her to pocket size.

"Just call whenever you need me." She said before disapearing into my dress pocket.

So we mounted and I let Thu fly. He seems to enjoy it. We would of flown too but, a good ride is nice once in a while. He chased through the air, sometimes swooping down to join us and then heading back up to chase a bird. We rode silently. Argul didn't speak a word to me. I think he was just nervous.

We were there quickly, and started up to the camp. I was going to let Argul handle it, I was too afraid. I saw the covered wagons, parked around the central campfire like a protecting wall. The smoke still rising up in the wind from the fire the night before. I could just imagine the Hulta Bonfire. The women dancing and the men sitting around. Gently teasing each other and enjoying themselves. How was Dagger? Teil and Ashti and Toy? What about Ro and Mehmed and Blurn? Would they ever forgive me?

As we rode towards the camp, five men came walking towards us. When we were nearer I reconized them as Mehm, Ro, Badger, and another man I remembered called Virg. In the lead was Blurn. As soon as they saw Argul, they came running, but were cautious when they saw me riding beside him. By now Thu was walking besides us protectively. Argul jumped off his horse and walked toward them. I followed and led Mireen over.

They all had an odd expression on their faces. Like stone masks cracking at the edges.

"Argul!" Exclaimed Blurn, walking up to ebrace his old friend. the rest followed with warm greetings. Then they turned to me. I stood my ground and didn't say a word.

"So, she crawled back to you eh? I wouldn't of forgiven her. What the hell are doing?" Blurn

"She didn't," Argul

" Come on man! Are you allright! Are you telling me you went after her?" Blurn

"You could say that," Argul

"Argul, whats going on, I'm sorry, but you're not welcome with her." Blurn, sending me a nasty glare.

"Blurn, Claidi is alright, she didn't do anything wrong. That diary, it was fake. I went after her becuase I knew she was in trouble. I didn't want to get you involved."

More angry glares. Thye didn't believe him, I have to think they felt sorry for him. They thought I had crawled back to him after Nemian, and he the fool had taken me back and expected them to love me again.

"Blurn, please, let me tell everyone what really happened. Please. " Argul

"You're family Argul, of course, but she can't come in. I don't really care, but if you want to fight off everyone go ahead." Blurn replied.

Argul turned to me.

"Claidi, I have to do this, I'm sure it'll be fine. Let me go for tonight. We'll see what happens." With that he kissed me and turned to the others.

"Can you take me to my wagon, if no one else is using it." Argul asked. They nodded and started off. Before he left Argul turned to me.

"Claidi, I promise I'll be back. I'l come tonight. Stay in Yinyay and please be careful." He said.

I nodded and he put his arms around my waiste.

"I love you Claidi," He said. It meant so much to me. After not hearing it said for a long time. So here I am. Sitting in Yinyay, alone except for Thu and the horses. I know the Hulta hate me. I can't blame them. The Hulta are a family, and what I "did" to Argul was like I hurt their family. I hurt one of their own. But it's late and Argul hasn't come yet. Thu is curled up besdides me, head on my lap. The steady science made light shining in on the pages. What's going on out there? Is everything going alright? I have to stop here. Good night my friend, thankyou for your time and help. I have to get some sleep. The same way Argul has to be with me?