Title: Feelings All Wrong

Disclaimer: I don't own them although I would like to they belong to fox blah, blah woof, woof.

Summary: Max Realizes Something And Needs To Tell Someone But Will That Someone Want To Believe It? MA. (Sorry for the Logan bashing people but this is a MA…sorry again.)

Time: It's after Freak Nation but every one has accepted them and they are allowed to walk around, the virus is still there. So I guess it's an AU.

A/N: I've started another Dark Angel story called 'Just an Assignment' it's MA you read it and tell me what you think…please. Lol

A/N2: Thank you all for reading my story and most of all thank you to all the people who reviewed this is the last chapter! I might do another chapter explaining more about what happened to Logan? If you want…

Chapter 5 – And then the bomb explodes…

"Hello Eyes Only, what can I do for you?"

"Ames is there a chance I can trade anything, anything with you for you to spare 494's life?" Logan practically begged. He needed Max back, even if she wasn't madly in love and living with him, he needed her to be talking to him at least!

"You should know I don't like people taking back their deals, anyway no can do, the guy's already dead…sorry for you're loss" Logan was about to say something but the other end of the phone went dead. "Damn!" He put the phone down on the hook and ran his hands through his hair.

"If Max finds out she'll kill me…" he whispered to nobody but himself little did he know he was not alone.

"If Max finds out what?" and hard voice startled him from behind he spun around to be met by a pair of cold murky green eyes. Looking over the mans body he could tell he was badly hurt. 'No…it can't be'

"If Max finds out what?" he repeated again this time taking a step towards him Logan took a step back again the man moved towards him Logan again moved back he did the same again as did Logan. This time Logan didn't get a chance to step back the man grabbed him by the throat Logan saw him wince from the sudden movement that had startled his wounds.

"I won't repeat myself after this; what will Max kill you about after she finds out…what was it you said?" The man still holding Logan spat out through gritted teeth. Logan slowly going slightly blue dew to not getting enough air, tried to talk but failed and spat in the males face instead of getting any words out even though he didn't mean it, he really didn't want to get this man any angry than he already was. The man let go of him realizing he couldn't talk when his and was around his throat, he motioned for Logan to tell him now his hand was gone.

"Okay is everyone ready?" Max shouted out to her team; 4 X5 males, 3 nomlies, 2 field med X series and Zack. Max began to open the gates when Luke called out to her to stop,

"Max wait there's something you should see!" She looked at Zack and saw him shake his head no.

"Can it wait?" she yelled

"There'll be no need for the mission something's just come through" Luke yelled back at her. She immediately ran through the crowd of X's up to the control room where Luke had shouted out to her, and there he was lying on the couch where her had Zack had slept the night before. She carefully took in his appearance; he had small abrasions and bruising to his head, deep knife wounds in his chest though they were beginning to heal, burn marks near the top of his chest. She scanned more carefully this time making sure she didn't miss anything and she caught a glimpse of a gun shot wound, or what looked like it, it had been banged up, in his side just below his ribs.

She began to make her way slowly towards his side, she touched his head he was cold for an X5 and very pale. She lifted his t-shirt to see his wound properly and it was really bad, the blood had almost filled the length of the bandage. 'White's going to seriously pay for this I'll make sure of that…' she thought coldly to herself a voice brought her out of her train of thoughts

"Luke get some X's to help get him over to TC's infirmary please" her eyes tearing up although she was doing a really good job at keeping them from falling. He had lost a lot of blood he had dark rings under his eyes, big dark. Zack came up and touched her shoulder.

"Max why don't we go back to your apartment and you can have a shower and something to eat…" he trailed off she wasn't looking at him her face was now emotionless.

"Yeah Max why don't you get some sleep you look a bit tired" Luke quipped in. The people from the infirmary had come and were waiting patiently outside the office door

"I'm gonna go see if he's okay" she said quietly still not looking at them. They were really worried now she had gone incredibly pale considering she wasn't ill in any way and her voice was low and quiet as if she was loosing it and it was getting more difficult to speak but they knew she wouldn't say any thing it wasn't her to say how she felt.

4 hours later. Outside the infirmary

"Hey Max you asked someone to call me?"

"Hi Sam…Yeah um…it's Alec he's in a pretty bad condition." Her voice almost breaking thinking back to a couple of hours ago.

"Max we're really sorry we can't doing any thing else to help him his lungs are punctured we're surprised he lasted as long as he did." She looked at them with tears yet again brimming in her eyes. "Max he's not dead yet but he's not gonna last for much longer unless we get a good doctor and although people have excepted us there won't be anyone willing to come to Terminal City to help one of us out will there? We are stilled feared greatly Max he's on a life support machine but like I said he won…" the transgenic was interrupted by Max,

"How long will he last?" she asked all thoughts of Sam Carr running through her head.

"It's hard to say, maybe another 3 hours on the machine…Max I wouldn't get you're hopes up he might pass in less time…"

"Keep him as long as you can I can get professional help." She said more confidante than ever.

"Max…" the young doctor trailed off when she saw Max turn on her heel.

He looked at her intently her eyes were watering but no tears fell down, she had huge dark rings under her eyes now, she'd been up from about 6 o'clock in the morning preparing for the mission, and Sam also noticed she was a little bit shaky.

"Okay where is he?" he asked softly. Max looked up and started walking slowly to where Alec was lying in his hospital room, she gestured for Sam to follow and that's what he did, they finally got to the room he was staying in and Max looked through the small window in the door, he was so pale paler than he was she saw the steady rise and fall of his chest and was grateful they had kept him for this long. She didn't know what she'd do if Sam couldn't help him.

"Please, Sam, don't let him die, please." She begged her eyes silently pleading him. He walked through the doors and closed them behind him. Max stood outside waiting for him to finish. After 4 long hours of waiting for Max, Sam walked out of the doors his coat covered in Alec's blood. Max stood up from where she'd been sat and walked towards Sam when she stood before him she saw the look on his face,

"Oh god. Please tell me you could save him, please…please" tears ran freely down her face she hadn't heard whether he was okay yet and she was crying unaccountably she tried to stop the tears from flowing, but it only made it worse.

"Max…Alec's lost a lot of blood but I'd be very surprised if he didn't make it. His heart stopped beating twice and he'll need a transfusion but he looks better already" he moved away from the door so she could see him and he did look a hell of a lot better than when he'd first come in. Max threw her arms around Sam and she mumbled how grateful she was that he'd saved him over and over again.

She slowly stepped back and Zack came back with her drink, surprised to see her smiling,

"Must be good eh?" He said Max ran up to him and drew him into a big hug, which he found hard to reply to because he had the drinks in his hands. She buried her head in his neck while he did the best he could do to rub her back.

"He's going to be okay," she said quietly and softly she pulled back. "Sam can I go in?" she asked hopefully, "I'll give him the transfusion, please" she looked at him hopefully, he looked towards Zack's hard face staring back at him and didn't know what to say, whether to tell her that she had to rest or that she could go and see him and give him the blood he needed.

"…Um…yeah sure you can Max but we better get someone else's blood you're not looking all that good and you're pretty tired so, I really think some one else should transfuse him." He said praying silently that he'd said the right thing so Zack wouldn't be mad; he really was quite protective of Max.

"Okay…" she said and took a deep breath steadying herself to go in and see him.

In the hospital room.

She walked in and sat down in the chair that was beside his bed Sam came in and hooked a bag of blood to his arm so it was flowing and no one else had to be in the room with them.

"Thank you, Sam. I don't know what I'd have done if you hadn't of come today." She said,

"Just returning the favors you've done for me in the past. You're a friend Max and I'd have done it even if you hadn't have done anything but put me in danger. I think." Max laughed softly and he started to walk again she watched him until he was out of the room, then she looked back at Alec's still form. She put her head on his chest careful of his wounds and closed her eyes comforted by his firm heart beat beneath her.

He stirred then stilled as he felt a bit of pressure on his chest he looked down to see a sleeping Max, and smiled a bit. He was so sure they'd gotten closer during their time keeping Terminal City alive, not that it was hard; most people had stayed there anyway. Then that day at Logan's, the same day he'd been taken in by White had changed all of those thoughts back into his dreams. He'd endured so much during those days at White's facility, he stayed alive for Max, he'd just thought of her to stay strong. He'd even admitted to White he loved her.

Flashback

He sat on the small, hard wooden chair provided especially for him, while White prodded him with the tazor sending huge electric shocks running through his body one after the other. And he'd admit it hurt like hell but he wouldn't let White have that little bit of satisfaction of him crying out in pain.

"We'll wait for you're little girlfriend to come to rescue you…" White trailed off as he jolted another stream of electricity though Alec. Alec looked at him hard trying his best not to wince and to his look he didn't but it'd be changing soon if he didn't get out.

"She's not my girlfriend…and she won't come!"

"You want her to be you're girlfriend though don't you 494? You wish she'd get over that Logan boy and come to you, give all her love to you…but she won't because you're worthless. Worthless filth. If I killed you now you'd have nothing to loose, if I kept you alive you'd gain nothing. Why are you still living 494? Let me guess you still have just a smear of hope that she'll love you, that you'll grow old together. Ask me to kill you, beg me…" he trailed off when he herd Alec say something.

"Come again?"

"I said you're right, I want her to love me, I love her. There's nothing I can do about that…so kill me go on do it! But if you do you'll never see Ray again…" he trailed off and closed his eyes so he didn't cry he loved Max and she didn't know and she wouldn't ever because now he was going to die.

End of flashback

Max woke up when he stirred and she looked up to see his worried green eyes,

"What's wrong…are you okay?" she said panicking.

"Max I'm fine. Just you scared me a little I didn't expect to see you in here. I mean I didn't ask for you here. No that came out wrong……I mean like I didn't ask the doctor for you. I didn't know if you were going to be mad at me and ignoring me." He was babbling now so he just shut his mouth.

"I'll go if you want…" she started to get up but she felt a tight grip wrap around her wrist she looked at him into his eyes, she could get lost in them. She'd almost lost him, if he'd of…died she'd never get to see his perfect hazel eyes again. Ever. The tears came again they spilled down her cheeks and yet again she couldn't stop them, she turned her head away instead hiding the streams falling from him.

"Max I didn't mean it…I'm sorry. Max look at me please. Please?" he said softly never taking his eyes off her. She didn't turn around and he felt his heart constrict painfully at her actions, he let go of her wrist and relaxed back onto the bed, he sighed and closed his eyes. He felt her arms wrap around him carefully so as not to hurt him. She began to cry full on sobs stuttered through her form. Alec could feel and hear she sobbing, real sobbing, he managed to put his arms around her and rub her back slowly in lazy circles.

"I…I thought I…I'd lost you…That…I'd never see…see you again…and it hurt." She choked out between sobs. He moved over on the bed so she could climb up and he could comfort her. She rested her head on his shoulder as he continued rubbing her back soothingly.

Her crying had finally ceased, and she drifted off to sleep. When he heard her even breathing and he knew she was asleep he placed a kiss on her forehead.

"I love you Maxie…that's what kept me going. Why I wake up in the morning. It's a new day right maybe just maybe I stand a chance with you, but I know it's not right you love Logan and he loves you and telling you that I love you would be selfish. I can't hold onto anymore I just want to hold you to kiss you and take away your pain. I love you more than there are thoughts or words, more than there are stars or feelings. And I can't control it any more, but I need you in my life you're what keeps it all worth while." He let out all the feelings he'd been holding in for 5 years now. He didn't even have the gut to tell her while she was awake.

"See I'm a coward I can't even tell you that…I have to wait for you to go to sleep!" he said getting angry with himself.

He was going to be so pissed at her but he had to know, "Alec?"

"Shit!" he brought his hand to his head, "Did you hear me?"

"Yes…but before you take it back…I… I l-love you too" she said quietly, hoping he'd heard her.

"What about Logan…?"

"Forgotten…I need you. When I thought you were dead I almost died…sound funny but I mean it. I just got this feeling…I can't explain it!" she sighed and relaxed on him.

"I love you Max." he said

"I love you too Alec" she replied before drifting off into a deep slumber just like that night they shared not so long ago, but they were going to have more nights like this.

Outside the hospital room.

Zack stood watching Max and Alec and thought he shouldn't ruin it by his mood or news in fact he should never ruin it. 'Just go Zack while she's happy…leave when she has someone like him to take care of her. He was Manticore's 'top dog' with that thought he walked out of Terminal City and into the world again. He had to find the others and that's what he'd do.

"Goodbye Maxie" he said into the cold air and began on the mission he made himself.

Okay that's where I'm going to end it, IF it's not too much of a cliff hanger. Thank you to all you lovely people who reviewed and read, it was my first ff so…I'm sorry if it wasn't all that good but I tried and I'm still learning! Remember to check out Just an Assignment and review.

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