Ok people, here it is, another one of those chapters that I am posting to the only story that I have yet to delete. And the only reason that I haven't done that yet is because I just don't have the heart.

Now with that said, I fully intend on finishing this story even though nobody reads it.

And I know that may sound lame however, some of you may have or have not experienced total abandonment by readers, by that I mean that I have gotten a total of six reviews from people who were not related to me and that is from the entire story and this story now contains seven chapters .Now that is bad to say the least

But don't fret, I am not going to delete it and I will not just stop it

This story so to close to being finished as far as I am concerned.

Now that I have vented on with the show!

disclaimer: no I dont own him! (cries)

The first thing that came to his mind was, 'if the villagers don't kill her , then I will!'

Despite appearances, the fall down the cliff had been relatively short. The constant fog disguised the short drop. The taiyoukai only had enough time to barely cushion his fall onto the rocks, still sustaining some injuries but not what he could've gotten.

Good thing he had control over wind.

However, that wasn't important now, what was important was the inexcusable and unforgivable act that had just played out before him.

That woman! How could she? Did she really think so little of him that getting him out of the way like that would actually be saving him?

His features contorted in a confused way and he lowered his head to where if someone was looking down him, they would only see his bangs. Suddenly at that moment, that was exactly how he felt. Looked down on and degraded. He felt like crap to say the least. Totally exhausted mentally, physically, and emotionally.

Everything he ever was or ever wanted to be, drained away to leave nothing but a battle-scarred, youkai. His clothes were torn , his body , though healed already from the fall, was still covered in blood and his hair had fell loose from its position on his head to fall gracefully around his body to come to rest on the rocks around him.

Sugimi just could not think of any better way to describe how he felt. 'Normal,'however would be a start. He had never felt normal, and right now he did not like it.

'I don't understand, we were friends before , weren't we? Even if we did make one little mistake, was it really a mistake?'

'Did she think that by bearing my child, it would put her at an even higher risk of danger than she was already?

CHIKUSO,

'She was the most powerful miko around, how much more trouble could she possibly get in?'

The more he thought, the angrier he became until he just could not bottle up his emotions and longer. For as long as he could remember, his outside nature was at loss of emotion, except for when he was fighting, that was the only time he really felt that he could let loose. However, it was different now, he had gone wrong with his first child, that mistake now haunting him yet again. Every time he looked in the emotionless face of his first son, he was haunted by the stupidity of his youth. It was even worse with his second child. What was he even thinking with pulling off a stunt such as that? Midoriko had been furious when she found out the truth and with the still fresh pain of his granddaughters suicide, it was no wonder she did not believe in him.

'Baka!'

his mind screamed and he squinted his eyes from the pain.

'Baka"

standing and clenching his fists to the point where more began to drip down to the ground below.

'Baka'

squinting his eyes and bringing pain upon himself didn't seem to make the pain go away and he was alone in the canyon, what else could he do to make the voice stop. He knew how stupid he had been, he did not need himself to constantly remind him!

'what kind of a man are you?'

'no, what kind of a father are you?'

he knew all this, but….what could he do?

'It has to stop, you have to change things'

but how?….what could he do?

'something, anything! Do it , and do it NOW!;

"I have had enough!"

BAM!

Everything he had been feeling at that moment was release in one single punch to the ground below him, making the boulder he was standing on crumble under his power.

Even though the smoke was beginning to clear, Sugimi, had not so much as moved from his crouched position. He paid no heed to the throbbing and bloody fist that rested on broken pieces of rocks and wood. he took no notice to the burning of his nose from the strong stench of smoke and he blatantly ignored the descending pebbles that were hitting him , some of them even cutting his face.

The only pain that concerned him at the moment was the pain in his chest.

'Why am I just sitting here, I am the most powerful demon around here'

'But at what cost?'

Still breathing heavily and trembling slightly, the taiyoukai stood and brought his bloodstained hands up to stare at him face to face.

'This ismy last chance, I am going to prove to her that I can protect her'

In one swift decision, Sugimi turned towards where he thought the castle was and raised his eyes and voice upwards.

"You hear me woman? This time is going to be different! This time….I am going to do this child right…..this time! So don't you get any stupid ideas about dying"

This was it, he had made a decision. Turning and leaving to find his way out of the hellhole he had been thrown into, he added in an undertone to no one in particular," I will let this child know that they were loved and wanted, and I want them to know how to love in return…..I can change this and make it right…….event if it kills me".