Lying From You

Kurama

When I pretend

Everything is what I want it to be

I look exactly like what you had always

Wanted to see

I look across the office at you, sitting in the chair that's too big; and behind the desk that matches. You think I'm the easier one to deal with, the one who is more human and more behaved. But I know what you don't…

When I pretend

I can forget about the criminal I am

Stealing second after second just 'cause

I know I can

You'll never truly know the real me. I'll never let the true me be seen around anyone except those who knew the real me.

But

I can't pretend this is the way

It will stay

I'm just

Trying to bend the truth

Can I truly tell you this is the real me? No. This is only a part of the whole. And someday, I'll run out of imagination.

I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be

So I'm

Lying my way from you

You don't remember. However human I look, I am still a fox. And foxes are devious, cunning creatures. This particular fox also happens to be three-faced.

No no turning back now

I wanna be pushed aside

So let me go

Youko is beginning to emerge more and more, and I am afraid we are quite restless.

No no turning back now

Let me take back my life

I'd rather be all alone

I don't want to be a Spirit Detective any longer. Right now I wish to return to Makai, to freedom for thieves.

No turning back now

Anywhere on my own

'Cause I can see

You must be careful Koenma; cornered animals can turn vicious.

No no turning back now

The very worst part of you

Is me

I am your very logic turned upside down. A demon who has lived life as a human is still a demon.

I remember what they taught to me

You'll never get me to forget life in Makai.

Remember condescending talk

Of who I ought to be

Learning the ways of humans was difficult at first.

Remember listening to all of that

And this again

It was hard to deal with such a contrast at first…

So I pretended up a person who was fitting in

And now you think this person

Really is me and I'm

Trying to bend the truth

But the more I push

The more I'm pulling away

'Cause I'm

Lying my way from you

At first everything was okay, but then I realized

This isn't what I wanted to be

I never thought that what I said

Would have you running from me

Like this

Despite the way Youko has tried to preserve himself in Suuichi's body…we still went soft. And now here I am…Kurama.

The very worst part of you

The very worst part of you

Is me

A/N: I don't exactly know where this one went…or where it came from actually. I guess this is Youko and Suuichi both trying to live the way they used to (or would have) and remembering their lives. And then Kurama is born because of it, and he is trying to find his place in all of this. 'Cause when you think about it, Youko reborn came out to be three people in one body instead of two. Youko, Suuichi…and Kurama. Kurama is kind of like a mixture I guess, but to me it is never truly explained where exactly Kurama came from, and doesn't Kurama talk about both Suuichi and Youko as separate people and "me"?

Like I said, I don't know where this came from or went. So I'll stop myself before I confuse anyone I haven't lost already…and myself.

Please review, I'd love to hear your thoughts on this subject.

Hasta Luego,

Katana Blade