"One more time...then I'm done...I promise this time." I wispered to myself in a sleep like tone. I knew that no madder what I said, I would always be labeled a slut, why not just go with that. I only did it once, but hey, I still did it. I tried my hardest to hide it from everyone. Why did I do it you ask. Well, Snakes got cancer, Jack wont stop crying, I told Jay it meant nothing, even though I really wanted it to mean more, and Manny, well she's just being Manny. The wierdest part was when Jay put the bracelet on my arm it felt like I had finally achevied something that I always wanted. Jay is waiting for me in his car. I looked down at my watch "Shit..." I muddered to myself, running towards the door of the school bathrooms. I quickly hopped down the steps of Degrassi High school into Jay car. "So, I was thinking maybee we could go somewhere quiet and private." He managed to slip through his teeth as he kept his irresisteble smirk on his face. He leaned towards my ear and whispered "That way we can do whatever we want..." Oh I wanted him so bad, but I was Emma Nelson, I wasn't raised like this. "Alright, but just once" I said as he slipped his hand up my thigh.

We drove down the road that lead to my house. He turned into the driveway that looked too familiar. "Why are we at my house?" He stepped out of the car and opened my door. "Go get changed. Those are too hard to put on in a hurry" he said pointing at my jeans. Did Jay think we were going to have sex? "Jay, I'm not having sex with you." "yeah you are...oral sex." I nodded my head and snuck both of us in the tiny window leading into my "bedroom". I grabbed his hand and lead him into my closet. "Pick which one you like" I tried to say as non-chelant as I could sound, even though my heart was pounding. "Come on Nelson, this isn't a fashion show, just grab on and put it on already. I have to met Alex in two hours." He told me that he broke up with Alex. That I was the only one worth being with. I looked down adn just grabbed a pair of tan shorts and pushed him out of closet while I got changed. When I came out He was already standing on the crate underneath my window. He helped me out first. As I jumped to get out Jay grabbed mya ss and sqeezed it causing me to squeel. "Emma, is that you? Uh I was wondering if you could watch Jack while I go to the store." The foot steps from above my head were getting louder and louder as she neared my door. "Quick get in the closet!" I wispered to Jay. He quickly pulled up his baggy jeans and hid in the closet. Just as the door opened. Mom came walking down the steps with Jack on her hip. She passed him of to me and kissed both our foreheads before she ran back upstairs to leave. I quietly followed my mom up the stairs to make sure she left. From upstairs I called Jay telling him it was ok to get out. "So, I guess we can just stay here...this is better any. We have a couch or a bed to choose from" He leaned into my and kissed my lips tenerdly. Jack broke us up by his scream. I ran upstairs and layed him in his crib. He was goign to sleep, even if he wasn't tierd. I put my hands around Jay's neck and kissed him back. Slowly we fell onto the couch in the living room...

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