a/n: I am so so so so so so sorry for not updating sooner. I wrecked my moms car and I am actually grounded, but she isn't home right now so I thought I'd try and write. Cross your fingers I don't get caught.

Disclaimer: I don't own Buffy or anything else.

Chapter five:

Spike took a few calming breathes. He couldn't help but smile himself as he walked down stairs, even though it was xander at the door.

"Spike' xander said.

" 'lo whelp", he said to xander, then turned to willow "red", he said with a nod. Then he looked over at Buffy. She was looking down, so he just shrugged and walked out of the room, leaving them to their goodbyes. Spike looked around the kitchen for blood while he listened little pieces of conversation. He wasn't really paying attention until his name came up. He stopped looking in the fridge. He chuckled to himself as they lowered their voices. He was vampire so he could still hear fine. However they weren't talking about him anymore. They were talking about Buffy. Spike swelled with pride when he heard what xander was saying.

"You so look happy, and relaxed. If this were me I'd be freaking out. I mean … oww." xander had said when willow had kicked him.

'So I wasn't imagining her smile', spike thought to him. 'Stupid wanker' spike then thought about xander. Xander wasn't so bad. He and spike were getting along pretty well, but xander could be a complete moron sometimes. they continued the conversation on about something else, and spike went back to the fridge. As he picked up a milk carton to look behind it he began to frown. What did the kiss mean? Was she finally giving him a chance? They were getting along better .Although she was acting weird around him, lately. With a sigh he shut the fridge to look in the freezer. He decided he would have to try even harder to be civilized. Maybe it would work. He heard the front door shut and decided that they need to talk so he shut the freezer, and walked into the living room. Buffy was already up- stairs though. So spiked walked over to the couch and turned on the television by hand, because the remote was still up-stairs. He sat on the couch and sighed.

Spike woke up to the sound of the shower. He had fallen asleep on the couch. 'good thing the curtains were shut. Or I'd be burnt' spike thought thankfully. An idea suddenly came to him and he ran to the kitchen.

Buffy stepped out of the shower wrapped a towel around her was and went to the mirror. She was going as slow as possible, because she didn't want to face spike yet. She was grateful he had not come up last night. It left her some time alone to think about things more. She had come to a decision. She was going to tell spike today, but it did not have to be now, so she slowly picked up the brush and began to brush her hair. Nearly forty-five minutes later when she could think of nothing else to do Buffy went down stairs. A strange smell hit her and she followed it into the kitchen, where she saw spike. And the butterflies were back. Before she could say anything, spike turned around and moved her into a chair. Then he set a plate down in front of her.

"Do you like bacon?" spike asked awkwardly. He was getting a little nervous. Maybe this wasn't such a good plan. Ever since she had come down stairs she had a strange look on her face. What if she got mad? Or didn't like it?

"y-yes …please." Buffy said. He put two pieces of bacon on her plate and then sat down.

"I didn't know you could cook." Buffy said, knowing what else to do.

"Yeah, well I was trying to have an excuse to burn your house down", spike said with a smirk. Not the best come back but it was enough. Both blondes let out the breathe they were unconsciously holding. The tension in the room flew out the window. Things were back to normal. Well almost, because to spike's great surprise Buffy began to laugh, and pick up a fork. Spike sat there watching the women he loved eating the food he made her, and laughing at his joke. 'This is the best it's gonna get', spike thought both feeling great joy, and extreme sadness at this thought. As Buffy sat eating she thought about the man sitting across from her. He could be so sweet, and caring. He surprised her everyday. She decided to tell him. She put the fork down and looked up at him.

"spike, ummm, ok, this might sound a little strange, and it probably might not be the best time to say it, I'm not really even sure how to, I mean if you even still,…but you've been so helpful lately, and I can't help but notice… anyway I've been feeling, umm," Buffy stammered.

She knew she looked like an idiot, but this was harder then she thought. Spike sat there smiling at Buffy. He had no idea what she was talking about, but he thought she looked adorable. He could tell she was nervous though, and began to interrupt her, but the phone interrupted him first. Buffy ran to it and picked it up before it could finish the second ring.

"Hello", she said, her voice cracking. "Oh, hi, dawny. What? No….no… dawn!" she looked down at the phone in her hand a little shocked. Dawn had practically hung up in her face. Buffy felt the anger rise up inside of her, as she slammed the phone down. She turned to find spike staring at her with a confused look on his face. Buffy just turned around and ran out of the kitchen. But spike grabbed her hand and pulled her back. He looked into her eyes.

"You ok?" , he asked, with the same look in his eyes as last night. "your acting weird", he continued.

"Me? I'm acting weird? You're the one stealing remotes, and trying to burn my house down. Just leave me alone, before I stake you!" she shouted. All of her anger with her self, and dawn coming out. It was the first time in a long time she had threatened to stake him. 'Just when I thought I had a chance', spike thought, getting angry himself. And before he knew it the words were out of his mouth.

"Hey, don't blame your problems on me! Maybe if you weren't such a bitch you could keep a man, or your sis wouldn't have stay a her friends house all the time. And it's not my fault your too incompetent to take care of things around here. I'm doing you the favor!" spike said.

As soon as the words were out he instantly regretted them. He looked down as he stood there waiting for the blow. But when she didn't hit him he looked up at her. She had tears in her eyes. He began to apologies, but she collapsed on the floor and began sobbing. Wanting to comfort her, but not wanting to make her mad spike just patted her on the back. But the moment she felt his hand on her back she leaned into him. Spike taking this as a good sign wrapped both arms around her.

"I'm sorry Buffy", spike whispered in her ear.

Maybe it was because he had used her name, or maybe it was because he was so close, or sounded so sincere, but for whatever reason Buffy found her self kissing spike, again. She hadn't realized how much she had enjoyed it last time. And it was even better this time. Spike was also enjoying himself. Actually they were both enjoying them selves so much that neither heard the door bell ring. Nor did they notice when a tall lady in a business suit entered the kitchen. Infact it took several loud coughs to get them to stop.

A/n: Whew! I didn't get caught. Alright guys I risked a lot for this chapter so please tell me what you think. I will update as soon as I can.