HE
KNOWS I MEAN BUISNESS
She
stood outside his door. She had to tell him, not only because of
Dumbledore, but because he'd be happy she was leaving and he needed
to be happy at least once in his life.
She knocked mildly.
"Come
in" She heard how annoyed he was in his voice.
She took a deep
breath and opened the door.
He looked up. He saw her and swallowed
hard.
She saw his Adams Apple bobble and secretly smiled. So she
did affect him. This made her happy.
He regained his 'Snape-ness'
and raised an eyebrow.
"What do you need?" making it sound as
un helpful as possible.
"I didn't come here out of choice,
Dumbledore told me that I should tell you, I didn't want to tell
you, I'd rather never speak to you again, but he's all 'now
Miss Barton you have to tell him' and I'm all 'but I don't
want too' and he's all..."
"If you plan on getting to your point, I'm all ears."
"Right, sorry...wait, no i'm not sorry, YOU can wait for me ..." She squinted at him as angrily as she could.
'I already did wait
for you, you silly girl' he said to himself.
He just stared at
her, that same emotionless stare that he so often wore.
"Right
ok, you're waiting, yeah; anyway, I am Leaving Hogwarts."
He
rolled his eyes.
"I know that."
"No…I am not coming
back."
He still looked at her with a blank expression.
"For
my Seventh year, I will not be returning to this school, I have
decided to go to a muggle school farther up in northern England."
He
crossed his arms over his chest.
she wavered her
hands.
"Well..."
He raised his eyebrow again. Damnit, she
wishes she knew how to do that. Must be something they teach you
during the Slytherin Training sessions.
"Well what?" he
asked.
"Aren't you going to ask why, or tell me to hurry up
and pack my things, or tell me I am not stupid just troublesome or
tell me I am in fact stupid and shouldn't be in the school
anyway?"
"Should I care why you are leaving?"
"Well I
didn't expect you too, it is just every other teacher has wondered,
except Flitwick, he just agreed with my choice..."
"mmmhmmm"
She
let out a sigh, this was between easy and difficult, the feelings
were fine, she learned to control her feelings about him, except when
he smiled, she would almost fall over because her knees gave out, but
he never smiled just when he was younger.
His Voice broke her
train of thought.
"You'd do just about anything for attention
wont you?"
"Pardon?"
"Don't play stupid Barton, it
doesn't fit you."
She glared.
"What the hell are you
talking about?"
"You are self-ish, don't think of others,
think about what you want, and how far to go to get attention"
She
gaped.
"WHAT? I am the most self-less person you will ever
meet! And for once YES I am thinking of myself FOR ONCE. For the
first time, in a long time, I am not thinking of my friends, or my
enemies, or people around me, or you. I am thinking about what's
best for me. Whatever I do revolves around everyone else,
even...even when I was with you, I was thinking about you, what you
were thinking about, how you were here trying to kill yourself
because you...you obviously despise every fucking thing about me, and
I am SO sorry that YOU asked ME to the ball, and I am so sorry that I
said yes"
Her
hands were into fist now; she wanted nothing more than to run across
the room and hit him hard across the jaw.
In a cool manner she
whispered "as far as the attention goes, if I wanted attention I'd
wear a sign on my forehead, not leave. I chose to leave on my own
accord. I am leaving because I cant bear the thought of seeing you
again next year, I cant bear my mother bugging me, I cant bear
anymore of Draco's comments, no more Dumbledore winking at me, no
more pain caused from the memories I had from the past, no more
wishing the floor would swallow me whole. No more Magic."
"I
could have swore you said your decision had nothing to do with
me."
She clenched her jaw.
"It
has nothing to do with what I think- you think about me. I could
care-less about how you feel about me."
"and how do you think
I feel about you?"
"I don't know, and really don't
care"
"How do you feel about me?"
"other than pure
hatred?"
He
grunted. He turned away from her and sat in front of his desk.
He
didn't look back at her just said in a silky voice that she learned
to hate "leave"
She walked in front of the desk.
"What's
wrong Sev? Hurt your feelings?"
He growled and stood, walked
around seized her by her arm. He was so close to her face she could
feel his rapid breathing.
She
raised both eyebrows.
"Don't EVER call me that again."
She
laughed.
He felt her breath hit his face when she laughed, only
inches apart.
"You know, I think I might take you to an Anger
Management class..."
'why is he so close to me? These urges
are starting to get bad.'
She smirked. "Didn't mind a
while back when I called you Sev...or Sevvie"
He tightened his
gripped and pulled her closer and through gritted teeth said "Do
not push me Erica"
"I like Sevvie, I mean seriously...it fits
you so well Sevvie!"
she stopped laughing and looked at him.
She
knew he was going to kill her, but she was leaving so it didn't
matter.
"What is it Sevvie, you cant give me
detention...although I always did..."
He let go of her.
"You
don't stop do you?" he put his hand on his head rubbing it.
"Why
do they call you a 'greasy git'? what part of you is greasy, oh
your hair, oh yeah I can kind of see it" she moved closer to touch
it. But he caught her hand.
"Leave me alone."
"But
you are so fun to play with..." she stomped her foot.
"Lunatic"
he sneered.
"bastard"
"Mud
blood!"
"again...bastard!"
With every insult they grew
closer, faces only inches apart.
"Am I just a stupid little
Gryffindor Mud-blood Severus?"
"oh no, you're
special...you're a psysco Gryffindor Mud-blood."
Her jaw
clenched, every time she heard the word, some part of her
twitched.
He laughed. "Oh caught you in your own trap have I?"
He moved his face even closer to where their noses would collide at
any moment.
She shrugged and smiled. "you shouldn't get this
close to me Professor..."
"What?"
She wrapped her hands
around his neck and kissed him, and somehow she found that he didn't
pulled away, nor did he respond.
After a couple of seconds he slid
his arm around her waist and brought her body closer to his.
He
released his mouth from hers and looked at her wide-eyed.
"What
the hell are you doing?" he asked
He moved his arm from around
her ashamed for taking advantage of the situation.
"I'm
sorry."
"For what? kissing me."
"I should apologize for
kissing you?"
"yes"
"ha...no"
"what?"
"I
wont say 'sorry I kissed you' when you just kissed me too."
They
both stared each other in silence.
After a while Erica stood up
straight and clapped her hands together.
"Well, then best be
off, I have bags to pack and a best friend to tell"
He
stood.
"I...um..." he said.
She smirked.
"If you have
a point, I'm all ears" she said mocking him.
"I am
sorry."
Her jaw dropped.
"what?" he asked.
"Never
thought I'd hear that come out your mouth..."
"Oh..."
"Wait
a second... why are you sorry?"
"For kissing you."
"Why
are you sorry, do you hate me that much?"
What the hell was she on about? 'no you dumb girl, I don't hate you, I love you'
"Thought you were the one who hated me..."He
said
"Don't start...you know damn well I love you"
Her
words hit shot through him like cold water. "you what?" he asked
in disbelief.
"You Moron..."
"You don't Love me."
"I
think I get to choose who I do and don't love..."
He
sat on a near desk. Hiding his face in his hands.
She walked over
and sat beside him. She sighed.
She turned to her right to face
him. She poked him in the rib with her index finger.
he jumped and
looked at her coldly.
She just stared at him nonchalantly.
"Why do you care about me? What would possess you too?"
"My
'mental' head"
He growled and sat down beside her.
"This
is fairly complicated." She said.
"Fairly?" he squeaked.
She
eyed him oddly.
"What?" he asked.
"You just
squeaked..."
"I resent that, it wasn't a squeak..."
"I
love you"
"I lov...no NO!" he stood and pointed at her.
"NO!"
"I fear you have gone mad..." she said.
"ME!"
he snapped.
"I realized that I am leaving and I wont regret
anything, I don't regret kissing you, I would have regretted NOT
kissing you, or telling you I love you. I have to go, I leave in a
while for Manchester" She stood and walked out the door.
Snape
turned to his desk and kicked it.
he sat in his chair and slammed
his head into his desk.
Erica
shut Snape's door lightly and took in a breath of air. Then she
heard growling. She looked up to find Vicky .
"When the hell did
you plan on telling me, by leaving me a note? Or not even going to
bother to tell me?"
"Err..."
"Why
are you leaving DO I MEAN NOTHING TO YOU? DOES OUR FRIEND SHIP MEAN
SHIT TO YOU!" Vicky bellowed.
Erica moved over the steps and
sat.
Vicky walked up beside her and pulled her up by her collar,
Erica now scared, she shoved Erica against the wall. That was
obviously going to leave a mark later. Erica yelped as the concrete
collided with the back of her skull.
Vicky retrieved her wand and
held it to Erica's throat.
"If this meant nothing, give me a
reason not to hex right now?"
"I
planned on telling you last."
"Why?" Vicky screamed,
tightening her grip around her wand, shoving it harder into Erica's
throat.
"I was afraid, that, that you might try to tell me to
stay"
"Oh God forbid you have someone who cares about
you..."
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Snape
sat into his chair. Burying his head into his hands once more. He
heard yelling and something thump against the wall and more yelling.
He stood up and walked towards the door. He opened it to find Vicky
holding her wand to Erica's throat screaming, tears falling out of
both their eyes.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
"I am so
sorry Vicky, I am, and I hate to say this but I have to go, I have
five minutes to pack."
The look Erica saw in Vicky's eyes
scared her to death, they went all bulgy and round and red.
They
did not notice Professor Snape watching from the side. Vicky took a
step back held her wand arm straight and re-gripped her fingers along
the fine wood. Erica knew she was about to hit with a curse. And
Truthfully, she didn't care, she was actually hoping for it; she
sat against the wall and waited for it.
Vicky screamed "CRUT-"
She
was stopped by a hand coming around her mouth, and the fact that her
enemy had just disappeared.
Erica heard the first part of the
curse, and closed her eyes, she heard Vicky get cut off by something,
she opened her eyes and say Lupin holding his palm over her hand and
she was jerked inside a room. When her vision had cleared she
realized Snape had snatched her inside the classroom. He put a
locking charm on the door. He heard the yelps of Lupin as Vicky had
obviously bitten his hand and was now beating on the door, yelling
very inappropriate things.
