My darling Rose,

When you read this I'll be long gone. I wrote it because I didn't want you to think I've left because I don't love you. I do. More than you'll ever know. You've made my world go round, you've become the reason that I want to wake up in the morning. Every time you smile at me, or kiss me, I ask God what you see in me, something that no-one has ever seen before. You make me feel like I'm the only man in the world, the universe, that I'm the only person you see. I've taken you to so many places, put you in so much danger and yet you always wanted to come home with me. You taught a man, who was ready to become someone hard and cold, how to feel again, how to look at life and not hate it. I had so much hate for the Daleks, after everything they put me and my people through, but you made me see a different side to them, you made me want to see a different side to them. You made me want to become a man, a man who would be worthy of your love and everyday I've been with you I hope that you thought I was worthy. I'm not a perfect person and I never meant to hurt you as much as I did.

Last night I saw you. You looked so amazing, so happy. You lit up the room even though it was dark. Your laughter brought a smile to every face, and your smile, I've never seen you smile like that before. I wish I could be the man who stays by your side forever and catches your tears and makes you laugh. I want to be the man who wakes you up every morning at sunrise because he can't stand being apart from you. I want to watch you fall asleep in my arms. Your beautiful hair flowing over my arms, you hands entangled with mine, your lips saying my name as you fall asleep. I want to walk down the street and feel your hand in mine, to let the whole universe know that you are mine. All of those things I wanted and for a brief time I got them. We were fooling ourselves to think that our love could last. You're so much better than me Rose

I love you Rose and love is everything. Love makes you do things that you wouldn't usually do. I've never been a selfless man, but I want you happy. You deserve happiness. And I know you. You'd be willing to sacrifice your happiness for me, to stop me hurting. And I'm not prepared for you to do that. I would want you only to stay because you loved me and I think we both know that you don't, why would you? I've always been a loner and I always will. Last night I watched as you sank lovingly into another man's arms, I wish that man could have been me. I wish it was my arms that had caught up, my lips that you had crushed yours against, my bedroom you had walked towards. It wasn't. I hope he deserves you and I pray that you have finally found the man of your dreams.

Thank you so much my darling for giving me five fabulous months of calling you mine. I love you so much and so I'm willing to give you up. To let you live again. If ever you want me, just remember the times we had and I'll be there. As long as you want me I'll be right here next to you, in your heart and in your mind. And you, you will be forever with me, the only woman I'll ever love. I wasn't ready for you. I wasn't ready for your love. But I got you both. Now I'll give you both back to a man who really deserves you. Be happy. Be loved.

Please don't try and find me my darling, saying goodbye to you once is killing me, saying goodbye twice would destroy me. I love you and I always will. You've stolen my heart and I can never give it again to another soul.

Yours for eternity

The Doctor

P.S The Tardis has always been your home and it always will be. You know what to do, I've trained you as well as I could. I don't need this old box anymore, not where I'm going. Goodbye Rose, Goodbye my darling Rose.