(Author's note: You like me! You really like me! J/k. Thanks tho. I have 76 reviews! And I'm on Chap. 21! That kicks ass. I hope you like my story so far. I know I'm not the best writer but I do aim to please.

Oh. There is some suggestive 'content' in this chapter so if you don't want to read it. Then…don't. This scene is very important in the story because I wanted to maintain the same characters but also write the awkwardness of your 'first time' . One more thing. I don't know the layers of a Kimono so bare with me. )

Chp. 21 The chances of getting lost

Sesshomaru ran a trembling hand through his long silver hair and moved away from Kagome. Why? Why did he just do that. He turned and looked back at Kagome. There was a confused look in her eyes.

" Why did you stop?" asked Kagome.

"I had no right to touch you.." Sesshomaru sighed and turned back around. Kagome lay her hand on his shoulder.

She turned him back around to face her.

" I wanted you to"….she said with conviction. Sesshomaru shrugged of her touch and walked to the other side of the room.

"I don't want or need your sympathy. You don't want me. What could possibly be in the future for us?"

"Why don't you take a chance?"

" What if I don't want you? I said I had no interest in you as a human woman" Kagome looked in his eyes.

"Yeah right. What you just did a minute ago totally screamed ' I don't want you' " said Kagome in a sarcastic tone. She walked to the other side and stood before him.

"Face It Sesshomaru. The kiss that just happened, meant more then you want to admit" she placed her hands on either side of his face. Sesshomaru looked in her eyes and thought for a minute. He could get lost. Get lost in her eyes. But…what would that get him? A few moments of pleasure? He took her hands off his face and moved toward the door.

"We need to go back. My little brother is probably tearing the forest apart for you."

Kagome couldn't believe he had changed the subject so fast. She gnashed her teeth in frustration. What could convince Sesshomaru that she really did have deep feelings for him?

" Why do you think that no one can love you?" She said. He stopped as his hand was on the handle of the door. She walked up and turned him around to face her again so he could see that she meant the next few words that tumbled out of her mouth uncontrollably.

"I love you….I really do." Said Kagome. She bit her lip as she searched his face for anything giving him away. Sesshomaru's mind, at first , didn't think that he had heard her correctly until she repeated it. Sesshomaru just stared at her until her pulled her in a tight embrace. Kagome closed her eyes and wished that she could stay this way for an eternity.

Sesshomaru did not quite know what he was doing but for some reason he didn't want to thing about 'what he was doing" he really did only wanted this moment. If it would only bring him a few minutes didn't really matter. He was sick living his life so careful, so 'by the book'. If he could step out of his self for one night. That night hopefully will seem like an eternity.

" I knew you could smile.." said Kagome as she looked up at him. Sesshomaru could feel the rise of his cheeks and immediately frowned again.

" It feels awkward. I am not sure I like it" he said as he took her hand and led her up the stairs.

"But it looks so cute." She said. Sesshomaru lay Kagome on the bed and sat next to her looking deep in her eyes.

" So what happens now?" said Kagome. Her heart raced all she could think about is touching Sesshomaru's smooth tan chest. Sesshomaru stared at the length of her body and almost couldn't restrain himself. He swallowed deeply and looked in her eyes. The lust filled look that swam in Sesshomaru's golden orbs made Kagome blush. Sesshomaru took Kagome's hand in his.

" I must ask you…Do you want to mate with me?" Kagome's bewildered look caused Sesshomaru to look away.

"You don't?" he said. Kagome shook her head and laughed.

"N-No I just didn't understand. I ….erm…you see…in our world mating isn't the term regularly used….and…oh my!" Gasped Kagome as understanding dawned on her. Since Sesshomaru was a dog demon…did that mean…he…meant 'mating' as in how dogs do it?

"What is it?" Said Sesshomaru in a annoyed way.

"No…er…Sesshomaru…do you know how to…er…do this…the human way?"

Sesshomaru rubbed his chin thoughtfully.

"I never really thought I ever would….It can't be much different."

"I'll show you."

Although Kagome had never done this herself she knew it was bound to come up. She just never thought it would ever possibly be with Lord Sesshomaru. Kagome asked him to stand up and looked up into his eyes before slowly taking off his kimono…..but then soon got frustrated. Sesshomaru was amused by her concentrated tugging.

"Sesshomaru….I don't mean to insult…but how may layers do you have in your kimono?"

" It's okay. I will take it off."

Kagome stood back as Sesshomaru unraveled himself. She didn't know why but it felt as though he was unraveling more then just the kimono. It was as if he was taking away all his defenses. And sadly Kagome knew that later…the kimono would go back on. Finally his chest was exposed and Kagome walked up to him and lay a hand on his chest. Then slowly kissed the salty plans of his neck and shoulders. Enjoying the way he sighed as she moved her hands over his naked body…well…not entirely naked. She licked his hard nipples and liked the response she received so then she began nibbling. His gasps were sharp and surprised. And Kagome kept going till he pulled Kagome's face towards his to receive his passion filled tongue. Kagome's hands played near the line of his pants. Her fingers tickling the silver hairs tracing down.

Sesshomaru picked her up and lay Kagome on the bed before burying his face in her neck. Kissing and licking it. He was satisfied with the way she quivered at his touch and moaned at the slightest kiss. She welcomed the how he pressed her against the mattress. And she felt his strength all around her. Sesshomaru stroked her belly and trailed kisses around her collarbone. Kagome sat up so that she could take off her shirt. Sesshomaru looked in awe at her pale soft skin and her shiny hair sprawled artistically against the satin lavender pillows.

"You are so beautiful" said Sesshomaru in a ragged voice. Kagome's blush deepened. She had never been naked in front of a man (Well,…besides Inuyasha…by accident of course) Kagome liked that he was so appreciative of her body.

"Not half bad yourself" said Kagome as she licked her lips. Sesshomaru continued his kissing until he got to the curious device which held her breasts. It was black and silky and very strange. He picked at it. Kagome burst out laughing.

"What is this…." Said Sesshomaru angrily.

"It's called a 'bra' here. Just unhook the back" said Kagome. Sesshomaru carefully hugged her to him to reach and 'unhook' the back. Sesshomaru was amazed at how easy it was to unhook it.

Kagome held her breath as she lay partly naked before him. She watched Sesshomaru's long nails recede. His eyes locked with hers as his hand moved toward her left breast. He massaged her breasts gently and then his mouth replaced his hands causing Kagome to cry out in ecstasy. He kissed her belly and ran his lips over her belly button leaving her to form chills up and down her body.

Sesshomaru momentarily left her to untie his pants. Kagome had never seen a naked man before, unless if it was a diagram at school. She was sort of nervous….what if his was deformed or too crooked or something. All doubt left her mind as suddenly his pants went down and was naked. He was so….perfect. Everything from his long silver hair that fell across his shoulders to his lean torso. Nothing looked deformed about it at all. She reached and gently put her hand around him. He leaned his head back and moaned out her name. Kagome pulled him to her to lay down and kissed him. After a moment Sesshomaru leaned back and breathed heavily.

" What do I do?" he asked. Kagome suddenly remembered! A condom! She got up and walked to a drawer to get one. Her mom always reminded her how important it was. She walked back to Sesshomaru and placed it in his hand. He looked at her quizzically.

"It's for protection…erm….here." She handed him the box and took out the instruction paper that had pictures of how to put one on. Sesshomaru reluctantly put it on sighed.

"Whats wrong?" she asked touching his face.

" I think I am too…large for this…I'm sorry" said Sesshomaru blushing a little. Kagome looked at the box.

"That was the largest size they have!" said a amazed Kagome. It scared Kagome a little that he was so…well endowed. Would it hurt?

"It's okay." She said and kissed him.

"Just tell me what to do" said Sesshomaru.

(That's right kids! Always use protection. No matter how much you don't want to! Um….there is more to come later. –QN)