Author's Notes: As I said, before, since "Hello" was not performed on Anywhere but Home, since it kicks ass and is one of my favorite songs, it will be added in.. As an added bonus, it is this chapter. If you were paying attention, then you'd know that... do you have an opinion on what the best Evanescence song is? You do! well, guess what! I don't care... really... i don't... toodles
Disclaimer: I don't own InuYasha or Evanescence... blah, blah, blah...
Kagome sat and waited for the elementary school's bell to ring, signaling the end of the children's educational time. It was a dark day, and the girl found her thoughts corresponding with the weather's mood. A light drizzle started to fall and Kagome ignored it, not bothering to open the small umbrella at her side. A chime sounded and told her that recess had ended. Fifteen minutes left...
/Playground school bell rings...Again...
Rain clouds come to play...Again.../
Against her faltering will, her thoughts drifted back towards Kikyo and Inu-Yasha...
'Inu-Yasha, you idiot! She's DEAD! DEAD! As in six-feet-under, cold, gone, DEAD!'
/Has no one told you she's not breathing/
She was alone now, Hell, she was even talking to herself... 'Oh well... It's not as if there's anyone around...'
/Hello.. I'm your mind, giving you someone to talk to... Hello/
A second chime sounded, revealing the end of school, and she soon spotted Sota running towards her and immediately banished the thoughts from her head.
"Hey, sis!" he called out cheerfully. She gave him a horribly feigned smile...
"Hey, Sota!"
/If I smile and.. Don't... Believe/
'This has to be just some nightmare... Please!' She opened the umbrella as a downpour started and held its rewarding shelter over her and Sota's heads.
/Soon I know... I'll wake... from this dream.../
They came to their street and begtan the long walk, with Kagome waving to a few people she knew and Sota recounting every detail of his day. She couldn't seem to get that damned Inu-Yasha out of her head. She pinched herself, praying to wake up next to a warm campfire, in her comfy sleeping bag, with her friends piled around the flames beside her, and Inu-Yasha's form as he sat, sleeping, with Tetsusaiga resting against his shoulder. She begged it to be that way. It had to be. It was supposed to be... right? Isn't that why she meant him!.. Why did this have to be so damn confusing! 'Just don't cry, Kagome... Especially not in front of Sota.. He'll totally freak out... Hold on, just for him...' She'd just have to shelter herself behind this fake smile of hers...
/Don't try to fix me, I'm not Broken!
Hello... I'm the lie, living for you, so you can hide...
Don't Cry.../
Then, it dawned on her.
'My God... Who the hell am I trying to kid! This isn't a dream! This is freaking reality, and there's no changing it! Why am I being such a stupid Drama Queen about it! Why am I lying to myself like this!'
/Suddenly.. I know.. I'm not SLEEPING.../
'I don't matter... I should just stay here... But...Sango and Miroku and Shippo didn't do anything wrong... Should I go back for them?.. Why am I thinking they want me back, though?... But... don't they?'
As she and Sota walked up the shrine's front steps, she decided: 'I won't take myself out of THEIR lives, just because Inu-Yasha's a jerk... I'll go back... But I'll let him worry... Just a little..' After all, she was still here, and she always would be... He'd just have to deal with it.
/Hello... I'm still here... All that's left of Yesterday.../
She smiled her smile, her trademarked smile, for the first time in days...
Author's Notes: yes... kind of a sucky, sappy ending, I know... bite me... I love this song, but I think my real problem is that I won't pour myself into my writing because I'm too afraid of what people will think... really cowardly, really shitty and stupid of me, I know... I'll try harder... 'Please, please forgive me'... lol. That's a line from a song coming up in the future, so better be prepared... well, here's the responses that I forgot last chapter.. and my stupid, evil computer deleted some of 'em, so if I don't respond to yours, that's why. I really do luffle you for reviewing.. I promise.
lil' devil 2004- YOU TOTALLY ROCK! you are, like my most loyal reviewer, and I think I love you... no, Not like that... consider the rest of Anywhere But Home dedicated to you. No matter what. I promise. You rock. AND OMG YOU DESERVE THE REST OF SHADOWFOX TOO! THE REST OF SHADOWFOX IS TOTALLY DEDICATED TO YOUR FOR YOUR AWESOME IDEA! THANKIES MUCH FOR THE INSPIRATION AND I'M REALLY, REALLY, ULTRA SORRY IT'S TAKING ME SO LONG TO GET THE 10TH CHAPPIE UP! peace, my bestest-bestest-best friend.
Naoko-chan-I would thank you, but off course you like it.. ur one of me bestest-best friends too... so i feel bad for you... toodles...
well, peace and the next chapter, we will be back on track with the third song on 'Anywhere But Home,' "Taking Over Me" Yips for us... i'm out..
