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OUT OF CHARACTER:

I'm fully accepting that this fanfiction isn't going to please everyone. So I'm stating this now, this is OOC. Again, I try not to diverge too much from the characters' profiles, but if it bothers you, I truly apologize. Hopefully, that doesn't take away from the story I want to tell.

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SYNOPSIS: The group spends their last day at the beach as things start to spiral downward for Yumiko after talking with Haruno. Hachiman is prepared to go on his hot date with Yukinoshita which may result in repercussions for his ongoing relationship with Yumiko.

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Chapter 18 - The Responsibility of Holding a Knife to a Lover's Back

-Yumiko POV-

It's not until late in the afternoon when Hikio returns from the other side of the beach. He spent a great deal of time with Saki Kawasaki. She says they were going to meet up with her family; makes me wonder just what is Saki to my Hikio. I hardly ever see the two of them speak let alone be friendly enough to introduce family. Did something happen between the both of them, from the time school started back up until now? Also, is she after his heart just like everyone else on this damn-forsaken beach vacation?!

All that being said, I'm hella pissed at him. These intruding thoughts and his disobedience to me, by picking someone other than his girlfriend, got me boiling over. Most times when I get like this, I confront that person and tell them straight up how I feel. But this is Hikio we're talking about and yet I can't just keep these emotions hidden away, the longer they're suppressed internally, the more enraged I become physically. I honestly don't know how quiet types keep so much shit to themselves. It must be unhealthy if it's causing me this much stress.

Looking over the balcony on the second floor as I watch my boyfriend walk back from another girl's get-together, he's halted by none other than Yukinoshita. This is really pissing me off… but I assume it's her opportunity to try and win the boy over. There shouldn't be a need to worry about such things, yet that was before I realized how faulty our relationship actually is. Have faith Yumiko, trust he won't do anything. Regardless, I can't stand the sight of the two best friends getting all chatty with each other. Some part of me wishes I can have whatever they've got. It's a Hikio that only Yukinoshita has come to know when it's just the two of them. Just like the other night when he was helping her with the dishes... the smile he exuded from his face. Why am I getting so worked up over this? Instead of maintaining my view of the two Service Club members, I instead retire for the rest of the afternoon. So annoying, but what is it that I want Hikio to understand? Maybe I should keep quiet and wait for him to explain things. Will he though? Or will it be more disobedience?

It's quiet in here. Wonder where everyone else has gone to? Did they go back outside? Oh, that's right, Yui said something about setting up for the fireworks since she had bought some with Hikio yesterday. She, Ebina, and the boys are probably setting it up right this instant. I kinda need this time to sulk in my thoughts anyway. But just before I could start my sulking, an uninvited person comes out from around a shadowy hallway. What the actual hell is this? Of course it had to be Yukinoshita's older sister, Haruno.

Haruno: "Yumiko-chan, what are you doing here all by your lonesome? Everyone is outside setting up for the main event. It'd only be wrong to start it without you."

Yumiko: "That's exactly where I'm headed now. So let's not hold them up any longer."

Damn it, I really wanted a few minutes to myself. Before exiting the common room, Haruno freezes me over with her words.

Haruno: "You saw them, didn't you."

Yumiko: "What on Earth are you talking about?"

Haruno: "Hikigaya and Yukino of course! Who do you think?"

Yumiko: "Still got no idea what you're goin' on about."

Haruno: "You're tensing up. Feeling betrayed by the person you feel closest to. Did I get it right that time?"

Yumiko: "I really hate repeating myself. Didn't I say to you before, it's not like that with him? We're only friends."

Haruno: "Still, you must be really upset that he's surrounded by all these other girls. Do you think I wouldn't notice that little spat earlier by the beach; when he left with that Kawasaki girl? Great performance by the way. You almost had me fooled."

Yumiko: "Seriously, I could care less what that loser does with his time…"

Haruno: "When are you gonna quit lying to yourself? Just admit you're upset. Upset that he can't match with you like the others. Regardless if the two of you are dating or not, it's not like it would maintain a fruitful relationship. Let's face it, almost everyone else here is a more compatible match with Hachiman Hikigaya. That's why you're turning infuriatingly red right now. You don't know if you're able to have that same hold on him as you did before coming here. Maybe everyone is right, Yumiko x Hikio isn't a compatible match."

With little to suppress these current thoughts, there's nothing holding me back from lashing out at this dumb bitch that thinks she knows it all. And because my blood is already boiling over, the words I spew will no longer have any filter from what I'm about to explain.

Yumiko: "I have the same chance as everyone else here! I set this game up EXACTLY how I wanted!"

Haruno: "So you DID orchestrate this whole group outing to your own benefit. But why give the other girls a chance at him? Do you have something to prove to everyone else?"

Shit! I said too much! Of course, she had been on me since the time of her arrival.

Yumiko: "No, it's not what I meant to say... It's just that, I wanted a fair fight is all. Prove to everyone that I can win his affection regardless of the circumstances."

Haruno: "You're either super confident in yourself or dumber than I thought. That's such a high-risk low reward outcome. I'm only saying this because I could only assume you know what Hachiman Hikigaya is like. Let's be real, he isn't exactly the Hayato-kun type. So what makes you think the stage is fair for everyone? Yukino and Yui have a far better shot than you if we're being honest. You only started to get to know him just this year, so again, why would you take such risks if in the end, the best you could harbor is a deeper friendship with the boy?"

Yumiko: "You're thinking way too much into it! It's only a dumb game. I don't need anything too rewarding."

Haruno: "Is that so? Well tell me then, why haven't you been mingling around Hikigaya since this whole thing started? If anything you've been doing the complete opposite; avoiding him and drawing little to no attention towards yourself."

Crap. If I tell her that I'm just not that interested in him, then she'll know it's an obvious lie. Especially now that she knows I have a crush on him; not to mention my intent in setting this whole vacation up as a fair playing ground. What do I say to her? I'm not good at keeping things locked away inside myself. The more I'm pressed, the more emotions I let out. Hikio, what do I do?

Yumiko: "…It's… just… that… maybe… he's a lost cause… So I've given up on pursuing Hikio…"

Haruno: "What?! You expect me to buy that blatant lie? Giving up from the start? Hahaha!"

She didn't buy it. Why would she though?

Haruno: "I have a better hypothesis. Hear me out Yumiko-chan. You're not stupid enough to take on such a risk as losing Hikigaya's affection; especially after getting turned down by Hayato-kun. Finding out he was going to New York with my younger sister probably set a fire in you… Fire Queen. So when the only boy that's willing to help you out fixes the issue, you two have come to instead grow much closer in such a short amount of time. Am I doing good so far?"

Yumiko: "…"

Haruno: "So something happened on that week-long excursion of yours. Something that only the two of you share which made you wholeheartedly trust in your new boy toy. Something juicy I bet."

Yumiko: "HE MEANS MUCH MORE TO ME THAN THAT!"

Haruno: "There it is! 'He means much more to me than that.' There you have it, I've figured it out. You two, are dating. Going out as girlfriend/boyfriend. Tell me I'm so wrong. I dare you! I mean come on, It explains why you're so reserved around him. Why you won't take Hayato-kun back. You're great at playing pretend though. I'm pretty sure Hayato thinks he's back in your good graces. And the Oscar goes to, The Fire Queen of Soubu High, Yumiko Miura! Let's give her a round of applause everyone! Wow! I can't believe I nailed it on the head! Shouldn't I get a reward or something? AHAHAHAHA!"

Yumiko: "That's enough. So what if it's all true? What exactly can YOU do about it?! As you said, I've already got him in the bag. He's mine! Hikio belongs to ME and ME ALONE!"

Haruno: "It's all thanks to you actually. You reset the playing field. It's why you're so tense right now. Spewing your secrets with so little effort. You're cracking from the inside, aren't you? Not knowing what your quasi-boyfriend is really up to. Right now, that boy is talking to Yukino. I wonder what it could be about. If you take your eyes off them even for a second, who knows what could transpire? And let's not forget those hours gone with Kawasaki. I wonder what they did during all that time?"

Yumiko: "You're wrong! He's nothing like that! He wouldn't do anything with anyone else… He only has eyes for me."

Haruno: "Can you be so sure? How do you prove it? You must REALLY trust the boy who lies for his own self-satisfaction. For a moment, I didn't think it would only take a week to decide on dating someone who isn't even that close to him to begin with. Seems like he's desperate for anything intimate. But who could blame him; especially with High School coming to an end for you guys. So how long would you say a relationship can last with a desperate person?"

Her words are piercing my very core. Slowly chipping away at what little sense our abrupt love story started off with. She's right, it doesn't make any sense for a boy like him to just ask me out. All I could think about is the happiest moment I ever felt since coming to this school. The time I fell to my knees as the boy I pursued finally confesses his love to me. I won't let her call that desperate, it was true love… High School is but a small lake in a whole ocean. How long am I gonna keep fooling myself? I can't compare with these other girls. Hell, even Isshiki in the right circumstances would be a better candidate than I could ever hope to be.

Yumiko: "I guess you're gonna tell your sister then?"

Haruno: "Now why would I ruin the fun?! This is rather interesting. Plus, seems like you could barely hold it together as we speak here. I don't think I really have anything to worry about. It won't be long after until you realize your place in all this. She'll win it all in the end anyway. And it'll all be thanks to you, Yumiko-chan."

Yumiko: "To think you have this much confidence in your little sister. What a joke. Maybe you're just a sad excuse for a college student. That's why you have no real friends and you're always hanging around our High School, picking on your sister, breaking up friendships... Enjoying every minute of it."

Haruno: "SHUT THE HELL UP! Like you even know what it means to be a Yukinoshita! I don't break friendships, I've always desired them. What I do, is test people on their true loyalties. So get it strai..."

Yumiko: "...YOU DESTROY THEM! The one thing I know about myself is that I call'em how I see'em. And Haruno, you're one Cold-Hearted Bitch without any real friends of your own. Faker."

Haruno: "Fine, whatever. I'm a cold-hearted bitch and a Fake if it'll help you sleep better at night. In any case, I do have more confidence in this plan backfiring on you. That's what I'm betting on, anyway. Besides, if Yukino doesn't know now, she'll find out soon enough about the two of you. Am I right?"

Yumiko: "…tsk*"


-Hachiman POV-

Heading back from the Kawasaki's beach home, I strolled upon Yukino waiting by herself. Is she out here to meet me? It would seem apparently so as she gives me a welcoming wave. Wonder what this is all about.

Hachiman: "Hey, Yukino. What's up?"

Yukino: "It's nothing. Just wondered when you'd be back from... Kawasaki's is all. The others are getting ready to launch some fireworks this evening."

Hachiman: "That's right, it's our last night here isn't it. Leave it to our Yui for coming up with fireworks on the last night of a beach trip."

Yukino: "She truly is amazing… Hey, let's walk closer to the water. I wanna soak my feet in the ocean. And it seems like we haven't really got to talking so much on this trip."

Hachiman: "Sure, but what in particular do you wanna discuss?"

Yukino: "Nothing in particular. It's not really a discussion more so than just talking like friends. When was the last time we got together like this? It was probably before your trip with the Fire Queen."

Talking like friends? I didn't think Yukino was the type to indulge in idle chitchat. Maybe it's because she trusts me more than anyone else here. As we walked closer to the water's edge, the girl in the strikingly appealing white swimsuit gets closer to me. What am I supposed to do now? What should I say? Had I ever really conversed with Yukino on such a laid-back person-to-person basis, my brain wouldn't be so flustered. Funny how it comes more naturally when it's with Yumiko, but with Yukino, I have to think a lot more about what I say. Usually, our more comfortable talks would be about school or club-related activities. The situation feels a bit off pudding, but I'm willing to bet she feels the same.

Hachiman: "Are you excited about our date coming up?"

Yukino: "That's right, it's in a couple of days."

Hachiman: "Yeah, then you fly out with Hayama to New York in order to check out that University."

Yukino: "Don't miss me too much."

Hachiman: "It's only for a week or so right? You still gotta finish up the school year. Besides, last I remember, you said that you plan on turning the whole thing down."

Yukino: "That's true."

Hachiman: "I don't see the reason why you couldn't just cancel the whole visit itself. Wouldn't it be pointless to go if you don't plan on attending anyway?"

Yukino: "Yeah, but it'd be rude to not at least try to acquaint myself with our overseas constituents. Plus, it'd be a real pain to return those flight tickets."

Hachiman: "True. Well, you will be missed Yukino."

The passive girl blushes with my last spoken words as she smiles timidly. She really is a cute club member. I'm glad she's decided to stay. Yukino does mean a lot to me. Unbehooved to anyone else, if she's not scolding me about something, Yukino is down to earth and rather pleasant to talk to. Even that time when we were working on the Summer Festival, she never questioned why I decided to wear a tie on one of those days, but instead, complimented my choice before adjusting it to better fit around my neck. Regardless, she's not Yumiko. Can't say she knows anything about our relationship, so I shouldn't draw suspicion towards it.

Yukino: "Hey Hikiga… Hachi-kun…"

Hachi-kun?! I told her before to drop the -kun. But still, sounds so cute coming from her. With her voice, she caught my attention, so I tune in to what Yukino has to say.

Yukino: "When I get back from my trip, if there's still time left before school, would you maybe want to do something? Just us two, I mean."

Hachiman: "Huh? It sounds like tons of f…"

Before I could finish my sentence, a loud BOOM!* goes off only a bit further down the beach. Yui from a distance is yelling at Tobe. Seems he let off one of the fireworks by accident. And to think she only bought sparklers. With the loud noise interrupting our conversation, Yukino was easily startled and unintentionally clung to my torso. With the abrupt sudden force and extra weight, I lose my footing in the water. My body falls backward as the girl in the white bikini follows after with her chest pressed on top of my own. Gripping onto her closely, it's a reflex to wanting to find some form of stability from this unbalanced predicament. But now the image engrained into me of my club president too close for comfort while I have my hand on her lower back will forever be stained in my memories. The situation just got more awkward. Crap, is she going to insult me? Will she think I'm a pervert?

Yukino: "Oh...my... I'm really sorry about this. I didn't mean to get you all wet."

Hachiman: "It's fine. How about you? You alright? You didn't get hurt or anything did you?"

Yukino: "You mostly acted as my cushion. So I'm fine. But now..."

She silently points out my hand touching her lower back without any words. Only a slight turn of her head and glowing pink cheeks were enough for me to understand what she was implying. Crap, she probably thinks I'm a pervert. Swiftly, I take my hand off her soft pale body.

Hachiman: "I-I-I'M SO SORRY! I DIDN'T MEAN ANYTHING BY IT!"

She giggles.

Yukino: "Let's go Hachi-kun. I think they're just about ready to start the fireworks display."

Yukino stands up from the sandy beach and then lends me her hand. I grab hold as she hoists me up. We make our way towards Yui and the group to help them out with setting up the rest of the fireworks. It's not too long after that Yumiko and Haruno exit the beach house to join the rest of the group. If Yumiko had exited earlier, she would have spotted me and Yukino on the sand with her on top of me... that wouldn't be good. I could only imagine the punishment she'd dish onto me if things ended up that way. Haruno prances about as my girlfriend has her arms crossed over her torso. Did something happen between the two of them? From what it seems, Yumiko is upset and Harno is a little bit too excited for fireworks. Maybe she got under Yumiko's skin. Hopefully, it isn't anything major. But I'll talk with Yumiko later… then again, I get a feeling that she's upset with me about something. Was it because I went over to Kawasaki's? That's the only other explanation. What else could it be?

Yumiko stands closer to Hayama and Tobe as I remain closer to Yui and Yukino. Tobe lit the first firework as it takes off toward the evening sky. It's not long after that the sky is filled with bright lights from our small celebration. This would be so much more romantic if I were sharing this moment with her. But she's instead laughing and enjoying her time with another boy. As soon as we were able to steal glances at each other, anger filled her action as she was quick to turn her attention somewhere else.

More loud BANGS* and BOOMS* fill our ears while the evening turned to night, engulfed with bright colors from the celebratory gunpowder. Ms. Hiratsuka and Haruno both have drinks in their hands as they enjoy the festive summer setting. It was not long until we transitioned to using sparklers. Grabbing two of the skinny stick-like firework, I walk over to Yumiko and attempted to hand her one. Snatching one of them from my hand, her agitation is made loud and clear upon my presence around her. Damn it, I don't even know what I did wrong, but as if it even matters. With her, thinking logically doesn't help any. So how would Hachiman Hikigaya go about fixing this problem?

Hachiman: "Let me light it for you."

After lighting my own sparkler, I touch the end of hers with my lit end. It's not long after until it starts to sparkle; we share another glance at each other. This time, she's blushing, but still seems pouty at the same time. She glances behind me at the other girls as Yui and Yukino look in our direction. They're probably feeling suspicious about us again, but it's obvious that at the very least, Yumiko and I are friends now. So it should clear us off as suspects.

Yui: "Hikki! Come join us!"

As much as I wanted to tell Yui that I'd rather not, my girlfriend walks away from me and headed toward Tobe, Ebina, and Zaimokuza. Hayama is with Haruno and Sensei. Guess I should head toward the group that is willing to accept me. She's no longer giving me any more glances. I hate this feeling of being so far from the one I want to be closer to. She's literally a few feet away.

Yui: "It won't be much longer after until we're unable to have carefree days like these."

Hachiman: "Guess you're right."

Yukino: "We are halfway through the semester after all."

Hachiman: "And something tells me, things will move much more quickly than we'd hope to expect."

Yui: "Just thinking about it, scares me guys. What will happen to the three of us?"

Yukino: "It's what Hachi-kun said before. We're still going to remain friends."

Yui: "…Right. It's all I want. For the three of us to be like this forever."

Hachiman: "…For sure. What other reason would there be that would come between our bond?"

Yukino: "So long as Yui and I still agree that no matter what happens, we'll be happy with whatever outcome transpires."

Hachiman: "Care to elaborate, Prez?"

Yukino: "…"

Yui: "Guys, let's not think about that right now. My sparkler just went out."

The soft light that flickers from our sparklers puts me more in a calm state. I shouldn't have too many things cloud my judgment right now. It's a summer vacation with my clubmates. A summer vacation that the Fire Queen set up for me. The moment I thought I could have a calm evening with friends, I hear Ebina screech from a distance. And just as radiant a well-lit sparkler shines, nothing beautiful can ever truly last.

Ebina: "YUMIKO! WHAT'S WRONG?!"

What the hell is going on? The girls and I rush over with haste as I make my way toward the front where Yumiko is laying unconscious in Hayama's hands. My mind goes blank. Everything is a blur now.

Hayama: "What the hell happened to her?"

Ebina: "I don't know! One moment we were enjoying the sparklers, the next she falls over unconscious!"

Her eyes slowly widen.

Yumiko: "It's fine… I just need to rest…"

Hayama: "Yumiko! Hey, are you alrigh…"

Hachiman: "GET YOUR HANDS OFF HER!"

Hayato: "What's your deal man!"

Tobe: "Yeah Hikitani, can't you see he's trying to…"

Hachiman: "I SAID, LET HER GO!"

Without realizing it, I'm shoving Hayama off Yumiko. Taking her into my own arms, I intend to carry her back to the beach house by myself. After putting her to bed in one of the vacant rooms available and applying a wet towel over her forehead, I pull up a chair next to her. What the hell happened? She was fine just a moment ago when I lit her sparkler. With little energy, Yumiko opens her eyes.

Yumiko: "Hayato?"

Hachiman: "Tsk… No… it's me."

Yumiko: "Hikio?"

Hachiman: "That's right. But rest now, regain some of that energy back."

Yumiko: "You damned idiot… cough*"

What is she talking about? I became so worried when Ebina screamed her name. To think something really serious had happened. Especially after seeing my girlfriend on the floor with another boy holding her.

Yumiko: "You probably ruined everything. Now they're gonna know for sure that we're dating."

Hachiman: "Is that what you're seriously worried about?! I DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT!"

Yumiko: "You should…"

Hachiman: "Why is that? What could be so important that no one finds out."

Yumiko: "Your friend, Yukinoshita. You'll find out eventually."

Hachiman: "Why can't anyone just be straight with me?!"

Yumiko: "No one wants to hurt you. That's why."

Hachiman: "Right, so I end up watching others get hurt. You for example."

Yumiko: "I'll be fine. Just a little dehydrated. But you should have had Hayato carry me instead."

Hachiman: "Dehydrated? As if I can believe that. And why for the life of me have another boy carry you?! Is he that much more important to you than your own boyfriend? Maybe you do want to get closer to him after all. It's not like I haven't been paying attention to the both of you. Smiling with him and laughing and giggling all the time."

She reaches out her hand to hold mine.

Yumiko: "…Even still… I was happy it was you that carried me."

Hachiman: "My body moved on its own. I couldn't control my actions when I saw you on the floor. My mind went blank."

Yumiko: "This really is my own fault."

Hachiman: "That's enough. We'll talk more when you get your strength back up."

Yumiko: "Because I couldn't trust you completely, it's why I ended up like this. Now you're telling me that your body moved on its own for me… that makes me feel even more terrible."

Her eyes begin to water as she covers her face with her arms, hoping I don't notice her faults.

Hachiman: "Saki knows about us by the way. Told her everything."

Yumiko: "…I don't deserve you, Hikio. I want to be alone right now."

Hachiman: "Fine. I'll leave if that's what you want. But if you need me, I'll be close."

Shutting the door behind me, I was met with eyes of concern from everyone else. Reassuring them that Yumiko was fine, Yui and Yukino hardly said a thing to me but instead, tried to avoid any eye contact. As for the others, they were met with relief. Ebina who was the most distraught about Yumiko was glad to hear that she was doing fine and thanked me for watching over her. She then turned to Zaimokuza for a warm embrace. Haruno with her arms crossed glares at me with agitation and disappointment as if I did something wrong. Finally, Sensei directs everyone back to the common space to start wrapping up for the day. I guess her sudden panic attack brought this evenings event to a quick close.

On the final day, everyone packs up their belongings for the long ride back to Chiba. Tobe and Zaimokuza are loading the shuttle as Hayama helps with carrying all the belongings. While everyone was packing on the opposite side of the house, I walk around the abode and take a look at the beach once more. Yumiko is standing underneath a palm tree on her lonesome as I decide to join her.

Hachiman: "How are you feeling?"

I have to make light of the conversation. Still don't know how upset she is with me. But if she is, I have to know what I can do to fix it.

Yumiko: "Oh… hey. I'm fine now."

Hachiman: "I'm glad. You really had me and everyone else worried."

Yumiko: "You ready for your big date with Yukinoshita tomorrow?"

Hachiman: "She seems excited about it."

Yumiko: "Good. I'm glad…"

Hachiman: "Yumiko?"

Yumiko: "Don't mess it up. Honestly, you need to treat her with a lot of care."

Hachiman: "What are you saying?"

Yumiko: "It's Yukinoshita we're talking about. That's all I'm saying. So just make sure you treat it more than just hanging out with a friend."

Hachiman: "Sigh* I seriously don't know why you'd want me to, but if you say so."

Yumiko: "Oh, and Hikio…"

Hachiman: "What is it now?"

Out of nowhere, Yumiko's palm fiercely makes damaging contact across my cheek. Then again from her other hand. What the hell? Is she really still upset? She didn't seem like she was. It's equally strange how now she's wanting me to treat my date with Yukino much more than friends when before she specifically told me to not give her any special treatment.

Yumiko: "I really hate your guts, you know that?"

Without another word, she walks towards the shuttle bus and picks a seat that's furthest away from me and towards the front so she wouldn't have to see my face. Throughout the ride, she was mainly silent as she idly stares out the window. All I could do is look at her from where I'm at; rubbing my cheek from the abuse I took earlier. It's still red, wonder what that was for? We've been in arguments before, but this is our first real fight as a couple, to think it would be over something minuscule. Can't even begin to understand what's upsetting her, but whatever it is, it's a lot larger than I thought.

Some part of it has to do with going with Kawasaki. She probably thinks I disobeyed her in more ways than one. So then what was that sorrowful display she put on last night? Is that not how she truly feels? Why does she send mixed signals only to get herself flustered or overwhelmed about the outcome later?! It happened once before when she decided to play hooky by feigning to be sick. It's probably why she stayed home for so long; to get lost in her own thoughts. Not knowing how to properly exert her feelings without hurting anyone. Although my affliction to pain is compulsory and may complement her abrupt temper, it doesn't mean I'm going to keep taking this type of toxic behavior. I wonder what's going through your head Yumiko. Something tells me it has a lot to do with what she discussed with Haruno. But only she and Haruno knows anything.


It's about 16:30 and running late for my meet-up with my ever-so-faithful club president Yukino Yukinoshita. Although we've been in the same club for over a year now, I've only started using her given name recently. It's still strange sounding to me, unlike saying Yui's name. Could be the difference in persona. When I'm with Yukino, it's as though addressing her other than her surname, feels forced to a degree. That being said, I should get comfortable with it. Maybe it's due to her lineage and high society upbringing that makes our casual nature seem worthless.

Yumiko hadn't made any contact with me since our last encounter by the shores of Kujukuri Beach. And me being a terrible boyfriend only tried a handful of times to reach out. Maybe she doesn't want to think about me going on a date with her arch-enemy… but if that were the case, why was she so adamant that I do? Whatever the case, it doesn't solve my tardiness with Yukino Yukinoshita.

Upon arrival by a fairly large town clock, I find my date waiting underneath in a pleasantly light shade of blue. Her hair is done in an elegant bob as a sleek silver pendant runs across her elongated neck. Never knew how mature she could appear when she's dressed up like that. Hopefully, our time together is just as pleasant as her appearance. Her gown reaches down to her ankles and for a second, I imagined her a young woman pursuing whatever her heart desires. Although the actuality of her being a high schooler, isn't fulling me; to others, she could be mistaken for a college student. The dignified lady eyes me from a distance, and to think she would snarl at my unpunctual approach, yet instead, I was welcomed with a soft smile and caring eyes. What can I say, she has taken my breath away with her sophistication.

Hachiman: "I am so sorry I'm late."

Yukino: "Not a problem, I just only arrived myself."

An utter lie, club president.

Hachiman: "You look… amazing… Yukino."

Yukino: "Oh… a compliment… well thank you… Hachi-kun."

Hachiman: "You should really drop the -kun."

Yukino: "Oh? You don't like it?"

Hachiman: "I kinda sound like your younger brother."

She's giggling.

Yukino: "I am the eldest one among the both of us."

Hachiman: "R-r-right. Sorry, I don't really care if you keep the prefix."

Yukino: "No. I should call you with something you're comfortable with. Will Hach be fine then?"

Trying to hide my complexion from my gorgeous date, it's hard to not feel somewhat embarrassed by that comment.

Hachiman: "Whatever. It's like I said, I don't honestly care."

Yukino: "Okay. By the way, you don't look bad yourself."

Looking at the outfit I'm wearing, it isn't anything new… in fact, it's a recycle of what Yumiko had bought me. So I lack a certain fashion… you know she has good taste in clothes if her arch-nemesis also agrees on my evening outfit. Still can't get Yumiko off my mind. Sorry, I'm trying my best to only focus on Yukino.

Hachiman: "ANYWAY! Umm… let's get going. Our reservation should be ready by the time we arrive at the restaurant."

Yukino: "I'll follow your lead then."


-Yumiko POV-

Today's the day he goes on his date with the Ice Queen. I can't stand that I get abusive towards Hikio when I get upset. But after talking with Yukino on the trip, she told me that she changed her mind about moving abroad for her University studies. Which means that Hayato and Haruno are unaware that she just turned the tables on their plan. I should be happy about this… right? It means that Hikio will still have his best friend here. So going on this date should be a stress relief for both of them. So why am I so concerned about it?

Is it that in actuality I really wished for him to not go on this date; regardless if I told him otherwise? Could he not tell what I was really feeling deep inside? Is it so bad that I still don't trust him completely? He's doing what I tell him, but when is he going to man up and take responsibility with his actual girlfriend? Instead of always going along with what I say, why not focus on what really matters; us. The thing is, what if Yukinoshita does win his heart over tonight? Her older sister, Haruno, seems to place her chips in her corner. To think this whole night could have been preventable if only I hadn't succumbed to testing him... I'm such a hypocrite. Doing exactly what Haruno does. She isn't wrong about me though. Everything she said, was the truth. I have trust issues that stem from my childhood. It's why I'm the way that I am. Holding people to a higher standard; it's the only way I can assure myself of not getting hurt by anyone. So I try to be strong because if I know I am, I have less to fear. But... lately, I've been crumbling inside. Breaking... and I don't know how to deal with this type of pain.

Take a breather Yumiko, it's only one date... Maybe I should follow them just to be on the safe side, but then if I get caught he would never forgive me. It's not fair, I finally worked hard at something and achieved my goal, but I'm no happier than when I started. If I could trade my life, it would be with Yukino's. He seems to gravitate towards her automatically; whereas in my case, I have to either get sick, play hooky, or run away in order to get his attention. There's so much work involved just for that boy. And yet… the way he expressed himself after his confession, telling me that he's the most genuine when I'm with him, made me feel something of a special bond. That I know he'd always be there to pick me up when I fall or find me when I cower away. So why isn't he here when I need him most? Because right now, I don't know what this could mean for us when the night comes to an end.

The original plan was to dump him if he did decide to finish his date with Yukinoshita. Because if you're deeply in love with someone, your heart will decide what's best. But if he's successful tonight on his date, then that tells me his heart isn't completely in our relationship. Somehow, I always knew we wouldn't last for too long. Let's not kid ourselves, Hikio is a logician. Like someone of his nature actually has a heart. He relies so much on his brain. It would only be a matter of time before he starts fawning over the gorgeous brunette in his club because she's the logical choice. To think I wanted to try making friends with her for his sake. I guess that's completely out of the question. Don't even think we'd last two minutes in the same room together before we have each other by the throat.

Insecurity doesn't suit me. I should just go out there and steal him away from her, then watch her in confusion as we run away together. That would be the Yumiko thing to do right? That self-satisfaction would only work if it doesn't disrespect my boyfriend's favorable company though. That said, I grew from being that kind of girl. At least I'd like to think so.

So I sit here on my bed, pondering what my boyfriend is doing now. It doesn't even matter because, after tonight, it'll be the last time we're girlfriend/boyfriend. The longer he has to forget about me, the faster it is for him to get with Yukinoshita. And ultimately, showing a sense of care for the boy I love, is what I need to work on. Said so himself, that I really should try to do more good deeds. It's the sole reason why I wanted him to go on this date. Because whether it's me or Yukinoshita, I want him to be satisfied with his choice. That's where he can find the most genuine experience. It's what he wants and if it's what he wants, it's what I want. Oh but that huge smile he expressed to me on that summer night. I'll never forget it, he was truly like his old self.

Self-sacrificing, you've been doing this for so many others in that dumb club of yours… haven't you… Hikio. It's a lot harder for normal people to do because people would rather stand above others and only secure their own needs before anyone else. You only need to believe in yourself a bit more, Hikio. That's all. So even though he won't figure it out, I hope I've stained a part of his heart and his memory. Can't say it's been a great run since we've only lasted for about a week and a half, but it was still an enjoyable experience. All the things we promised each other that we'd do. Wishful thinking never prepares anyone for current affairs.

My sweet boy. If only I had one more night with you, I wouldn't have ended things at the beach so ambiguously. But I'm sure he'll figure it out after the countless unanswered text messages and phone calls. And when he physically comes by, I'll just brush him off as if nothing matters. What should I tell him? Maybe something along the lines of, "Yeah, you're like so yesterday's news." Hahaha! Just thinking about moving on is getting me a tad bit happy… and yet… the clock in front of me is starting to look a bit foggy. Rubbing my eyes from water that so happens to spill down my cheeks, I don't understand why I can't just move on from such a short-term relationship.

I really grew to like Hachiman Hikigaya. But it's unforgivable with what he's doing. Why would he need to talk to another girl when he has me?! My chest… it's racing and I'm struggling to keep up. My breaths are short. Please, not another panic attack. Looking down at my cell phone from all the unanswered text messages and phone calls from my boyfriend, he really is hopeless. He better learn to not rely so much on others. Self-encouragement is what he seriously lacks. Gawd! I so don't need this right now, but… but… but…

Yumiko: "Hikio… don't leave me…"


-Hachiman POV-

Seated at a fine dining establishment, we put in our orders and waiting on them to come out. Funny how our waiter thought we were old enough to order champagne. I guess we could really fool anyone if we dress up professionally enough. It's pretty funny honestly. To think I had to grow facial hair like my old man in order to appear older. That said, we both knew better than to order anything with alcohol. Thinking back at Gram's place... I mean Yumiko's grandmother's place… it was special in its own way. I shouldn't be thinking about such things when Yukino had gone out of her way to fancy herself up. Right, tonight is Yukino's night. That said, she's a bit harder to talk to… conversations don't flow automatically. Just like the other day on the beach. I never know how to start a casual conversation. Normally, I play off other's discussions, but with the two of us… it's silent. Still, she doesn't seem bothered by the lack of words being exchanged. In fact, she seems to enjoy the quieter ambiance as she takes in the lavish environment that this establishment engulfs itself in.

Yukino: "Oh, I forgot, I got something for you."

The slender brunette slides a small blue gift bag across our dinner table.

Hachiman: "Really? What for?"

Yukino: "Since I'm going to be in New York during your birthday, I… wanted… to get you something… Didn't want you to think that I forgot your birthday…"

Hachiman: "No way. I can't believe it. Well… thank you. I really appreciate it."

Yukino: "Of course. I hope you like it."

Hachiman: "Can I open it now?"

Yukino: "I would rather you wait until your birthday."

Hachiman: "But you won't be able to see my face when I open it."

Yukino: "…True. Well alright. Just… don't expect much… It's nothing big…"

Pulling out the white sheets from the gift bag, my mind wonders what it could possibly be. I sneak a peek at the bag and pull out a small box no bigger than the size of my palm. With an eager face on Yukino's face, even much more eager than my own, I open the small box. A circular silver watch with a black band; sleek and stylish. It looks rather pricey and something that only men in suits could pull off. The face lack any real digits. Where the 12:00 digit should be, it's replaced with what seems like a small diamond. The lower face has the date set accordingly. It seems like it had already been correctly set prior to its packing. Light in weight, I wrap it around my wrist and it doesn't even feel like I'm wearing anything.

Yukino: "Your outfit just increased in style tenfold Hach-kun... sorry, I can't seem to stray away from the prefix."

Hachiman: "It's fine. But really, how would someone go about thanking you for this amazing birthday gift..."

Yukino: "Please, don't think much of it. But I am glad you like it. I wasn't sure if it was your style, but I figured if I got something minimal, you'd enjoy it."

Hachiman: "Oh wait, there's a card. Let me open it."

Yukino: "NO! Umm… wait until your birthday for that. Rather, I'd appreciate it if you did."

Hachiman: "…Okay. Sure. I'll wait until then. Thanks again…Yukino."

As our entrees come serving, we divulge in a much more broken conversation. Finally comfortable with each other's company, we lament over things of our past experiences with the Service Club. The more I'm enjoying myself with the beautiful girl in front of me, a new side to her appeal engulfs my yearning. Something I wish I had noticed a lot sooner in our first interactions with being clubmates. A chance encounter due to Sensei's recommendations wouldn't have made today possible… also thanks to Yumiko for allowing me this night with her. Wouldn't be here spending time with a close friend if it weren't for her… Soon after my date sips water on her vibrant rose-colored lips, she then speaks.

Yukino: "If we're being honest, I hadn't known if I dressed up too formally for such an occasion. I almost went with something more playful with my hair in twin-tails."

Hachiman: "I love that look on you, but changing it up to a more mature look, also is a favorite by yours truly. The only other time I remember you wearing something so formal was when we were helping out Kawasaki by showing up to her job."

Yukino: "I remember that. And thank you… a lot of thought went into this outfit."

Sure it did. Yumiko alone takes a hot minute to get herself ready for anything. Wonder if it's a universal thing with girls? Then again, guys don't have much to worry about in a fashion sense.

Yukino: "How long did it take you to pick out that ever-so-endearing outfit you've got on?"

Hachiman: "Not too long."

Yukino: "Wow, Mr. Stylish over here. Didn't know you had it in you…"

Hachiman: "…Yeah…"

Yukino: "Maybe hanging around the Fire Queen long enough, her fashion senses start rubbing off on you."

Hachiman: "…Hmm?…Right! Hahaha…"

Yukino: "Hach-kun? You doing alright? You're sweating quite a bit."

Hachiman: "Yeah… umm… it's nothing…"

Yukino: "Need to step outside? We can get some fresh air if you want…"

Hachiman: "…I'm sorry Yukino. It's not fair to you... and I can't keep this up..."

Yukino: "…Then don't say anything… Let's just enjoy this evening."

Hachiman: "If I could, I would. But something is tugging at me. And I can't feel good about myself if I don't clear the air. A feeling I'm so accustomed to, but recently grown to hate."

Yukino: "It's guilt."

Hachiman: "How'd you kn…"

Yukino: "...So you love her."

Hachiman: "Is it that obvious?"

Yukino: "The way you threw yourself at her? Can you make it more not obvious? To think I really had a fair shot. But… she was right. I've been dancing around my feelings with you for so long, that my chances slipped away before I knew it."

Hachiman: "What are you sa…"

Yukino: "I love you Hachiman Hikigaya…"

Hachiman: "…"

Yukino: "I'm sorry it took me this long to finally be true to myself, but if we're being honest with each other, it also hurts. I really can't stand the sight of you right now…"

Hachiman: "I'm… so sorry… Yuki…"

Yukino: "Save it."

Her face is tilted to her lower left as her lips start to crinkle. Her eyebrows are pointed downward in frustration as if she was disappointed in me. Not making eye contact, never felt so hurtful and harmful until she brushes me off. I'm so sorry Yukino. I truly am. Starting to take off the present around my wrist, the distraught girl raises her voice at me in a commanding demeanor.

Yukino: "Keep it. I said it was a birthday gift, didn't I? Lately, I've been reconsidering the whole abroad studies thing… it might be a good change for me…"

Hachiman: "You can't be serious! How about your life here? Forget me, but what about Yui and…"

Yukino: "...It's my life and for once, I want to make my own decisions without anyone telling me what's best for me! I thought out of everyone, you'd understand that."

Hachiman: "Yukino… if I offended you… I'm…"

Yukino: "Leave… Sorry… I just can't look at you right now, Hikigaya."

Laying cash on the table that pays for both our meals, hoping that it somewhat softens the intensity of the situation, I then grab my gift bag and make a swift exit. As hard as it is for me to feel any kind of remorse for the girl I might have fallen in love with under different circumstances, my mind is currently filled with the girl I did fall in love with. And right now, I have to go see her. I guess she'd be even more disappointed that I couldn't finish the date. But it didn't feel right going on this date, to begin with.


Approaching the intimidating two-story home of the Miura's household, reluctantly my feet strut towards the front steps of my girlfriend's door. Instead of pressing the button on the intercom, I instead go old-fashioned and knock three times. I did text her to let her know I was on the way but she hadn't looked at my messages since the other day. Then ever so slightly the door ajars to my hopes of seeing her olive-green eyes, instead mine are met with her begrudging father. Great… did I not win him over with my charms the last time?

Hachiman: "Good evening sir. Is your daughter home?"

Mr. Miura: "You know very well she's home. And as her father, I don't have to let you in."

Hachiman: "Please… I need to speak with your daughter about something important."

Mr. Miura: "Listen kid, you're probably not a bad boy, but do you think I enjoy hearing her cry? This is the second time now that you've made her weep. I get it, she can be a bit much, but protecting her self-interest is my job as a father."

Hachiman: "She's been crying?"

Mr. Miura: "Don't play dumb. You must be all kinds of stupid if you don't even know what you did to make her so upset. It's not like she's that hard to read. I've raised her since she was a little girl, and I can tell you that she wears her emotions on her sleeves."

Hachiman: "You're completely right. I forgot that… it's why I need to straighten things out with her… right now."

Mr. Miura: "Look, Hikio. Just give up on my daughter. Let's face it, you have nothing of value to offer her. And by the way you're dressed, looks like you've got more than explaining to do. Now move along, Hayato is coming over in a few minutes to keep her company. Seems to me that she always falls back to her original friends."

This can't be right. She called Hayama over? Why would she do that? I messed up big time, but maybe he's right. Maybe what we have is officially over. This feeling of uneasiness from being replaced so callously. Well, what else can I do? Her father has every right to protect his daughter. I commend him for that. If only I could put up more of a fight. But the thing is, I don't think I ever really understood why she felt the way she did. After bidding the owner of the house a good night, I made my leave down the night street. The days really are getting shorter. It's barely been an hour and a half since I stood in front of Yukino…shita and even then, it felt like the sun was in the early evening. But looking up at the purple swirl of the night air, the refreshing breeze feels like a restart with my own life.

Making my way down the end of the street, I hear hard clamoring behind me. Turning my head around, I see the blonde girl in unmatching slippers as though she had put on whatever she could find just to catch up to her useless boyfriend… or… ex-boyfriend at this point. This feels like Deja Vu.

Hachiman: "We gave it a good run… wouldn't you say?"

She walks up to me vigorously. Anger filled her eyes. I can't look at her like this; being upset and all. So I turn around to avoid any eye contact. My heart is still throbbing with this growing pain of uncertainty. Did she forget that I told her that I didn't want to see her angry or sad ever again? Guess I failed in that department. we're only human after all. She's not saying anything back.

Hachiman: "So Hayama huh? Didn't take you long to call him up again. I mean it's not like I ever really stood a chance right? You two getting cozy at the beach outing and all. Opening your eyes after you passed out only to see him rather than me. Then there was the time you told me you talked to him while we were on our vacation in Osaka. He's constantly in your thoughts whether you want him there or not. Maybe I'm the one that deserves better. God, I was so stupid. Hehehe…

The awkward silence of looking at the ground as my back faces her. Still no words. Guess she has nothing to say to me. Better retreat before I regret anything else. Besides, she'll have his company soon enough. Like I wanna be around to see my ex with a new man so soon after we're through with whatever we had. It's not like I was expecting to stay with her until after graduation or anything… damn, my chest is in so much pain. Before I can begin to take my first step away from Yumiko, she turns my body completely around. Still not being able to look me in the face, I can't help but make out her frustration.

Hachiman: "What? I got better things to do than stand out here…"

SLAP!* SMACK!* The petite girl was quick to physically harm me. Slapping me left and right, then throwing punches at my chest. As she scratches my neck with her untrimmed nails, I try my best to hold her down. But every chance I get, her other hand slips free and I'm met with more hits. The only thing I could do is back up, but the moment I do, I'm met with the pavement. To think Yumiko would finally calm herself but instead, she holds me down with her weight and continue to plow me into the concrete.

Yumiko: "I FREAKING HATE YOUR GUTS! GO DIE! WHY THE HELL SHOULD I CARE WHAT YOU DO?! IT'S NOT LIKE YOU EVER UNDERSTOOD ME! SO GO AHEAD! DATE THAT DUMB BITCH! YOU TWO DESERVE EACH OTHER! LOSER! ASSHOLE! I GAVE YOU MY HEART AND YOU TRAMPLED ALL OVER IT! HOW COULD YOU THINK I'D BE OKAY WITH YOU SEEING ANOTHER GIRL?! IDIOT!"

She's wrong on so many levels, I've tried to understand her. But she's COMPLETELY unreliable! She says one thing but means another. I assess the facts that are given to me, then react to them. So if someone isn't being straight with me, it's harder for me to understand the situation. And with Yumiko, nothing is ever at face value. But it doesn't matter right now. If I tell her that, she'd only get more upset. So how do I calm her down?

Hachiman: "I TOLD HER EVERYTHING!"

Yumiko: "Why the hell should I even believe you?! LIAR!"

Hachiman: "You should be the one to talk! If you didn't want me to go out with her in the first place, you should have been honest with me! What, you can't bring yourself to trust me?! This was your plan to begin with, remember?!"

Yumiko: "I fucking know that! Quit reminding me! Shut up!"

Tears start to slip from her anguishing face as her barrage of hits has come to a halt. She wipes her tears with her arms as she tries to make sense of the situation.

Yumiko: "Why did you have to agree with me all the time? Why couldn't you have chosen me over her or anyone else?! It hurts Hikio. You're literally hurting me."

Hachiman: "I don't know what you want me to say about any of that. There's no excuse for any of it. Just like there's no excuse for you going off on as you just did."

Yumiko: "If this is how you're always gonna be, choosing to side with someone else rather than me, then I don't think this is working out."

Hachiman: "You're a damned idiot if you ever thought I sided with anyone other than you. I turned down both Yui and Yukinoshita. Even told Saki about us. Each time, it was because I couldn't help but think about how unhappy it'd make you feel. What do you really take me for? How shallow do you really think I am? I've told you before, I'm the loser that was placed in this role. I don't ever get what I want. So when I thought we had something special, I would never risk that special thing I found when with you."

Yumiko: "Oh, so I'm the idiot?! That's very encouraging to say after your girlfriend is feeling like complete trash."

Hachiman: "We said we'd be honest with each other from day one. This is me being straight with you. You're the biggest idiot I know! Bigger than me... Now get the hell off me! You're getting damn heavy!"

Yumiko: "Asshole! Jerk!"

Hachiman: "Let's get something clear if you think I'm going to completely change who I am for you, I'm not. And I don't expect you would either."

Yumiko: "I already know that… it's just that… I got scared… and Haruno put certain things into perspective."

Hachiman: "Yeah, she'll do that. But don't go blaming everything on someone else. Own up to your own problems. Also, next time, I'd appreciate it if you held back on the abuse."

Yumiko: "…Sorry… I know it's wrong… but I didn't know how else to get it out of my system. After seeing you talking to my father then you leaving, not even trying to come up to speak to me, was the final straw. I really wanted to kick your ass. How spineless do you have to be?!"

Hachiman: "Can you blame me? Your father told me that Hayama was on his way to comfort you."

Yumiko: "That was a damn lie! No one is coming over. He just didn't want you near me."

Hachiman: "Sorry I didn't read more into it. It's my first time getting rejected by a parent because of my overly expressive girlfriend that's also friends with a pretty boy. Besides, your father is fairly large in stature, I'd get my ass kicked before I could even make it into your home…"

With that last comment, Yumiko starts to giggle. She finally gets off me as we both sit on the side of the street talking and clearing the air.

Hachiman: "You know, I could report you for domestic abuse. You really need to get that under control."

Yumiko: "How many times are you going to make me apologize?! I already feel bad for doing it."

Hachiman: "You should. It fucking hurts. In any case, I came by to tell you that, I couldn't go through with the date. Can you believe it? We didn't even get to finish our entrees. Man, all that delicious food has gone to waste. And I still paid for it. But, I probably won't be hearing from her for the rest of the summer."

Yumiko: "I'm... so sorry to hear that."

Hachiman: "You're not fooling anyone. I know you're ecstatic about it."

Yumiko: "I didn't want you to lose your friendship with her because she's going overseas. Hayato and Haruno both told me that she was deciding to study abroad depending on your answer. But when I spoke with Yukinoshita the other day, she had changed her mind. That she would stay regardless. So because of that, my whole plan turned on itself. What was the point of you going on that date? It's not like it would matter. But it was already too late to back out."

Hachiman: "Slowly I'm starting to understand what you're getting at. But Yumiko…"

Yumiko: "…"

Hachiman: "I've made peace with whatever answer she decides to give me long ago. Back when we were still at the sky observatory. You really shouldn't worry about me. I'll be fine regardless of what she decides to do. It's you that I want to make happy. It's why I go along with whatever it is you wanna do. Yeah sure I would miss one of my closest friends, but it's nothing compared to losing you."

She's turning red in the face.

Hachiman: "But thank you for worrying about me. We're all older now, so let's act a bit more adult about everything. As wishful as Yui can get, friends don't always stay friends after high school. But when I told you that I wanted to explore the world with you, I honestly meant it. With all my heart. So, it hurt me knowing that you didn't trust me enough to tell me what you were thinking. But I guess I can forgive you because you initially had me in mind. That is…"

Yumiko: "…That is what?"

Hachiman: "That is if we're still together and not broken up after tonight."

She holds my hand and then slowly raises it towards her lips as she slowly kisses it. Like kissing a wounded animal or a booboo on an infant. I take my hand away from her grasp and fold them together with my own.

Yumiko: "Now that everything is cleared out... I would like for us to stay together."

Hachiman: "I'm gonna head home."

Yumiko: "Wait, why?"

Hachiman: "I just… have a lot to think about. Hasn't exactly been the best night for me."

Yumiko: "Are you… reconsidering our relationship? Was it something I did?"

Hachiman: "How'd you figure that? Not every situation is going to end up with you just kissing the pain away. I've noticed that about you. But you can't just brush away all this… it's blatantly obvious that you don't trust me. So… maybe next time be straight with me… answer me when I text you… I don't know. You're my girlfriend so I wanna know what's going on… but I thought we were growing together. Seems that you've got a lot more of that to do."

Yumiko: "Wait wait wait... Don't leave! Not like this! I messed up! I'm sorry!"

She grabs hold of the blazer she bought me… Somehow, I'm starting to feel disgusted with this thing on me. I just need time away from everyone… Yumiko included. And it's obvious there's no one at home to talk to about anything. Komachi returns in two days from her trip. I stand from my sitting position and then walk down the street. But it was not until the desperate girl was quick to hold me down.

Yumiko: "Quit being like this. Let's talk some more. Don't leave me alone. I really need your comfort Hikio… please."

Hachiman: "Desperate doesn't look good on you, Yumiko. I need my space. Get some sleep. I'll… talk to you later… see ya."

Although I'm walking away from her, it's obvious she's crying. What can I honestly say, it's nothing she can fix. To think I would instantly comply with her. I'm very upset with and she needs to understand that. Keeping my cool like this is new to me; so much I just wanted to lay it on her, but it wouldn't be constructive. We'd end up barking at each other without getting anywhere. And for the sake of our relationship, I can't afford to break any bridges. Understanding Ms. Hiratsuka's lessons have helped me a great deal. If it weren't for her, I'd still be that high-and-mighty snobby loner from the past two years. But someone matters a great deal to me now, and being socially acceptable requires a lot more skills and growing up. I understand that, but Yumiko… needs to be held accountable for her actions. She can't always get what she wants. So she could either respect my decision or get bored and move on. If what I really did find in her was genuine, then maybe spending some time away will help prove that. The difference here is that I'm being completely honest with her, and at the end of the day, it's up to her if she wants to take our relationship seriously.

End.


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