"You Are Not Alone…"
Khmer Moon Blossoms
Disclaimer: I do not own Rurouni Kenshin or any of its characters.
Author's Notes: one of the last chapters of this story! Hope you enjoy! Decided to get the next chapter up early as a small gift for getting stuck a few weeks before! Thanks to all you reviewers out there!
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Kaoru's POV
Let the clouds cry over me…
I ran on and on until I could feel my own legs ache under the constant pressure of my running.
Let the lightning dance in the sky…
I ran until the oxygen dried my throat and killed my lungs.
Let the thunder sing and drone out my whispers…
I ignored Sano's yelling for me. By the time he started his car, I had already zig-zagged my way through the outskirts of town. I ran through the empty streets.
It was New York.
It seemed like a miracle to me that the streets could possibly be empty.
But none the less, even after I blinked uncertainly several times, the streets still were only flooded with the rain…not people.
I found a dark alleyway. The path towards the oblivious darkness seemed to have some sort of attracting light to me. I followed it and there was a huge green dumpster behind the darkness. I crouched behind it, sliding my back against it and falling to the damp, musty ground.
I was greeted with only mere silence. I huffed and wheezed to regain my usual breaths back into place. My hand had found its place over my heart, and I pressed my hand against my chest to ease its rapid heartbeat.
The silence was quickly ended. In a few moments, thunder rocked my ears and lightning lit my view. The rain continued to mingle with my tears.
Let the clouds cry over me…
I sat there for a long time. I don't know how long—perhaps hours—but I didn't care. I didn't know what exactly to do. I just sat behind the dumpster, pulling my knees up to my chest and hugging it tight, sagging my teeth on the flesh of my bottom lip to keep from sobbing.
God…what do I do?
I wanted to run. That's what I wanted to do. But the longer I sat there, the more my heart told me to stay.
Stay…
I closed my eyes shut and listened to the pattering of the rain.
…or run?
I buried my face into my knees, and the tears had made their way down the slippery, wet slopes of my cheeks. I felt helpless, lost, confused, and scared.
This time, Kenshin wasn't around to save me.
I just kept my head on my knees, feeling no want to move.
Maybe it's better to just stay here…forever…I thought stupidly.
Another quick camera flash danced across the sky, and I jumped. My sobs escaped my lips.
Let the lightning dance across the sky…
Half of me wished Sano would find me soon. Another portion wanted me to run away before he did find me. Another portion wanted me to just stay in this exact spot and do nothing.
I pulled up my head, my soggy hair plastered to my forehead. I breathed in and out heavily, accompanied by my own heartbeat ringing in my ears.
As if my prayers were answered, a shiny blade was outside of the dumpster, right by my feet. I picked it up curiously.
"No way," I breathed.
That dream of mine…
It wasn't exactly as my dream had depicted, but it was a blade nonetheless. Was I destined to die today?
Was I destined to rejoin my mother in heaven?
I threw the blade away. It slid across the ground and hit the wall with a clang. Kenshin had shown me too much to give it all away.
Then again…there was no more Kenshin, was there?
I began to snag on my bottom lip again. Slowly, I crawled over to the blade and picked it up in both of my hands. The handle was cold and wet, but unused.
I pulled it high into the air, the lightning flashing upon it and reflecting against it one last time. The tears blurred my vision, and sobs came out of my throat.
I guess…
I aimed the point to my heart.
…this is it…
I wanted to say one last thing. Pursing out my lips, I whispered: "I love you, Kenshin Himura, nothing will change that,"
…the end is here…
I couldn't even hear my last few whispered words because of the thunder.
Let the thunder sing and drone out my whispers…
I was ready to pull in the knife to my heart.
"Kaoru! Kaoru!" I heard Kenshin's voice.
Oh God…I'm hearing his voice…I'm hearing things…he can't possibly be here.
But to just take one peek, I peered from out of the dumpster. There he was. Kenshin's red head was running past the dumpster, calling out for me. He slid to a stop when passing the alleyway and looked straight at me.
"Kaoru, is that you? My gosh, Kaoru! I thought you were hurt!" He yelled, running towards me. I hid behind the dumpster once again like a coward.
For some reason, I was wishing Kenshin hadn't seen me somehow and left. I raised the blade above my head once more, ignoring Kenshin's footsteps reaching me.
I'm sorry, Kenshin. I love you.
My fingers tensed around the knife, ready to plunge it into my heart…even if it was right in front of Kenshin.
Let the clouds cry over me…
Let the lightning dance in the sky…
Let the thunder sing and drone out my whispers…
Let me be free…
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Author's Notes: I love this chapter! I hope you guys did too! Only a few more chapters to go….I'm guessing two or three more, so hang in there!
