Hi! Well, today was a perfect day to update, because here in the northeast, we had a huge snowstorm (or at least in CT.) So I had a snow-day today. YAY! I've already written chapter 5, so I guess I have to write chapter 4 first. Here it is!!
Robin quickly walked over towards raven's room. He knocked on the door. "Raven, it's me," he said quickly. She came to the door. Instead of her usual bored facial expression, she had a painful look on her face, especially in her eyes. They looked hurt, upset, and angry. "Is everything okay?" he asked worried.
"Yeah," she said trying to smile, but couldn't. Her knees began to falter from underneath her, so she grabbed onto the door frame to steady herself. "Can I come in?" he said softly, becoming worried about her. She nodded, and then he walked in. He looked around her room. It wasn't as creepy as he thought it was going to be.
It was painted black, and had silver and purple designs over the walls. Her circular bed had indigo sheets, and had a light purple rug under it. "Is there anything you wanted?" she said. He looked into her hurt eyes.
"Raven, first of all, I wanted to thank you for helping me out. It…it has already made a huge difference." She smiled, but he saw that she was clutching her left arm. "Are you sure everything is okay?" he said, grabbing for her arm. She tried to pull back but he grabbed it. He lifted up the sleeve, and saw it was covered in even more fresh blood. A 6 inch cut went from below her wrist, to under her elbow.
"I can't get it to stop," she mumbled.
"When did you do this?" he said.
"Just now," she said. "I was hoping you'd help me with my problem, but when I figured that you weren't, I could only do this."
His eyes opened largely. "That's what I was coming over here to do. Shit," he said softly. If he had only realized it earlier, he could have stopped her.
Her eyes gaped. "You were coming to help me? But why?" she said amazed.
"Because you helped me," he said. "Do you have any bandages?"
"No, I ran out the other day, and I figured if I went to the medical room, someone would suspect something." He then ran out. A couple minutes later, he walked in with a roll of gauze. He grabbed her arm gently. He then began wrapping the bandage around her slender arm. Once he finished, she thanked him. "Now, you know why I cut myself, so why do you?" he asked sympathetically.
"Way too many reasons." She said, looking down.
"I told you. Just take it one reason at a time," he coerced gently.
"Well, you know what it's like to have a man terrorize your life. So do I," she said.
"Your father," he mumbled.
"Yeah, Trigon. He's always in my head, telling me what I could be if I was a full-blown demon. But, I don't want to be even half-demon. Then, he manages to manipulate me to show my emotions, so I'll let him out. But know I can't, so I have to deal with him every single day."
"Raven, Trigon can only control you if you let him. If you build a resistance against him, it'll help. I'll help you too. So what else is there?" he asked.
"Well, then there's my emotions. Sometimes, I just want to get rid of them forever. They weigh me down, and meditating doesn't help. And do you have any idea what it's like to be happy, but not be able to show it, or even tell anyone about it? It's really hard, so then it manages to turn into hatred and depression. The only way that I can show them, is if I get rid of the demon, which will never ever happen." She said inaudibly.
"You can't show any bit of any emotion, but meditating doesn't help to control them. What if you meditated more to be able to show them? You're always up here meditating," Robin responded.
Raven snickered. "Well that's good no one ever figured it out," she said.
Robin cocked his eyebrow. "What did no one figure out?" he said softly.
"Robin, whenever I was up here alone, I wasn't meditating, I was avoiding you guys," she murmured.
"Why?" he questioned startled.
"Have you ever noticed that whenever I am downstairs with ou guys, that no one talks to me?" she said quietly, taking a deep breath. "So, I figured it would be better for both of us if I just steered clear of you. No one ever paid enough attention to me to realize that I wasn't here meditating, which was fine by me," she said standing up, and walking toward her window. She wrapped her arms around herself. Robin followed her.
"Raven, someone once told me that superheroes aren't robots. Well, that was probably the best piece of advice I have ever received. Raven, you may be unemotional, or sometimes unusual, but that doesn't mean you have to be alone. You may think no one cares, but we all do. And now that I know what your life is like, especially me," he said. She turned to him, then softly muttered, "Thank you." She wiped away some of her tears. He wrapped his arms around her. After the initial shock wore off raven, she smiled.
Once he let go, an ear-piercing scream rang throughout the tower. Robin groaned, "It's Starfire, which means it's something stupid." Raven chuckled.
As they walked downstairs, they saw a pair of blue eyes they had never wished to see again. "Hey guys, what's up?"
"Terra," Raven sneered.
Okay, I think I'll end it there. I'm so happy we already have 12 reviews, or that's what it was at the last time I checked. ByE!
