Chapter 4: "I Know You Hear Me..."

Hold on to me my love

You know I can't stay long

All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid

Can you hear me?

Can you feel me in your arms?

She sat in her room, music blasting. The Titans all knew to stay away from her when she had her music up. But the song was the least of their problems. Inside her dark room, small blood droplettes fell to the ground. She sat in the middle of her room, a switchblade in her hand. She had not used it in years. The rusty blade sliced deeply through her pale skin, over and on old scars. She bit her lip to hold in a cry. A few tears dripped down her face. This used to be how she held in her emotions. This was how she was before she came to the Tower, before she became a Titan. It didn't seem to matter now. She lost everything. There was nothing left but pain and darkness.

Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you?

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight

Once or twice someone knocked on her door. She just turned up the music. Once, Cyborg came and demanded that she turned it down. Raven did it, quietly, and without protest. She didn't feel like fighting. She didn't care anymore. Everytime the alarm went off, she stayed. They just stopped asking her for help now. There was five of them. They didn't need a sixth. So, she sat in her room, music blaring.

I'll miss the winter

A world of fragile things

Look for me in the white forest

Hiding in a hollow tree

Come find me

I know you hear me

I can taste it in your tears

"I know you hear me..." she repeated to herself.

A soft knock was heard. She stood. Quickly, she covered her arms and put the blade in a safe place. Another knock and she walked to it.

"What?"

"Raven, it's me," came his voice.

"What do you want?"

He paused. Raven sighed. She still loved him no matter what he did.

"I'm sorry," he finally said.

"Sorry for what? Betraying me or lying to me."

"Dude! Raven, what's your problem?"

She opened the door. Her sleep deprived eyes glared at him. He backed up, horrified at the look on her pale face.

"You are."

Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you?

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight

Beastboy looked at her in confusion. He still loved her, but she could never give him what he wanted. Terra could feel. Terra said she loved him. Terra went everywhere with him. Yet, thoughts of his dark beauty crossed his mind. He wished that it was her he was with. He wished that it was her that he was kissing. He wished that it was her who he planned on spending the rest of his life with. So, he sighed.

Closing your eyes to disappear

You pray your dreams will leave you here

But still you wake and know the truth

No one's there

She turned away.

"Go away."

His emerald eyes dropped to the ground as the door closed. He wanted to yell to her that he loved her. Yet, he refrained as Terra and Starfire approached him. They looked at him. He sighed and walked away. The two girls looked at each other then to Raven's closed door. They ran to him, one on each side.

"Has friend Raven come out of her room?" Starfire asked.

"Yeah, Rave's been in there a long time," added Terra.

He didn't reply. The girls exchanged looks. Beastboy sighed again and entered his messy room, closing the door behind him. Yet again, they exchanged glances. Starfire put a hand on her arm. Terra shrugged it off. She knew that he would snap out of it later. It was Raven. She always upset him.

Say goodnight

Don't be afraid

Calling me calling me as you fade to black

Beastboy leaned up against the door. Raven crossed through his mind. He wanted to tell her that he wanted to be with her, but the words could not find their way to his mouth. So, he stood in his room, wondering why she was so angry with him. He knew that she hated Terra. He knew that she would rather die than to have that traitor back. Yet, he didn't understand how she was so angry with him when he told Terra that he was interested in someone else.

Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight

She sighed. She was hungry and the smell of Cyborg's cooking was getting to her. She only ate what was stored in her room and that was running low. She needed real food. So, she opened the door and walked towards the kitchen.

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WOOT! Alright...chapter 5 is done, but not started on 6. Hope to have it up soon. Need three reviews to continue!

Hikari Moriyaku