Chapter 9 - Stabler
I never could have seen this coming
It seems like my world's falling apart
I don't know what I should do now
I don't know where I should go
I've got no place to go
I've got nowhere to run
It's me against the world
Me against the world
Now I'm sick of this waiting so come on and take your shot
You can sit there and judge me
Say what you want to
I'm gonna prove them wrong…
Stabler
As I let my eyes travel over the filing cabinets and other contents of the room I was in, millions of thoughts were buzzing around in my head. The only thing keeping them from over-taking me was the numbing pain I felt in the bridge of my nose. I had never experienced it before, but I knew it was broken. Trying to ignore it, I closed my eyes, allowing different pictures to pass over them.
Olivia laughing, looking so happy…
Then her face changes, looking accusingly at me, her mouth forming one word over and over…
My children, Maureen, Kathleen, Elizabeth, and Dickie, sitting at the dinner table with me, talking and laughing over take-out…
Munch screaming at me right before tackling me to the ground…
Kathy watching me move my things out of the house after out separation…
Fin at my doorstep, telling me to go with him…
I shook them away, hearing the door open. Fin walked in, a solemn expression on his face.
He turned to me, and we locked gazes on each other. His wasn't accusing, forgiving, understanding, hateful, pitiful, or any other emotion but pain.
I didn't say anything, mainly because I had no idea what to say. Looking at Fin, he seemed to be thinking the same thing. He was leaning against the wall, like he didn't want to be anywhere near me.
He suddenly cleared his throat and quickly got right to the point. "Where were you last night?"
I had to think for a moment before answering. "I was at home. It was my night with my kids."
"So you were sleeping?"
Something clicked in my head abruptly as I thought about last night. "I was, but at about twelve-thirty, Dickie came into my room. He had gotten sick all over his bed. I spent about an hour cleaning it up and getting him back to sleep."
Fin just licked his lips and nodded, studying my face, trying to figure out if I was telling him the truth. "Where are they now?"
"Um, it's the weekend, so they're with Kathy."
He gave me a blank gaze before leaving again.
