Sorry it's so short but I seem to have no inspiration right now.

I fumbled through the cupboard, my breath quickening. I knew on some level that this was wrong, that I would be letting everyone down but I could only really focus on Harper. Quickly I mixed the ingredients and raised a shaking hand towards my face, took a deep breath, and squeezed the dropper. Almost immediately I felt the buzz shooting through my body. It was ok now everything was ok. I would keep it under control. Why didn't I do this before?

I couldn't go back to medical yet. Trance would wonder why I suddenly had so much energy and insist I slept. If I did anything suspicious she might figure it out and I couldn't let her do that she wouldn't understand, none of them would especially not the one is was most at risk from, Tyr. He'd just think I was weak with his stupid nietzschean superiority. I couldn't go anywhere near him but that shouldn't be too hard. Now I just had to wait for a couple of hours until I could go and watch over Harper again. This was so stupid I took this so I could look after him and now I cant go near him oz I took it. Oh well I'll take another dose just before I came in and then I'll be able to see it through for another few hours. God am I bored, this ship is no fun!

"Hi Trance"

"Hi Beka you look happy I told you rest would do you good"

"Yeah, well you were right"

"Beka are you ok? There's something… I'm probably just imagining it."

"Yep just your imagination now you go get some rest I'll keep an eye on Harper see you later."

"If your sure, he seems to be improving now we just need to wait for him to wake up."

I made sure she was well out of site before I brought out the pearly white bottle. However happy she thought I looked I still felt tired deep down. I would just have to keep increasing the dose and hope that Harper got better before it got too much.