Chapter 4

Do demons feel, do they remember, do they hate, can they love?

Disclaimer: I do not own shaman king, I don't even own my hand, I sold it on ebay for a fiva !
What is the world coming to?


The next day Hao did not wake up, because he never went to sleep. He drifted a few times but that was it. He didn't want to sleep, not whenever he closed his eyes all he saw was his brothers face and his own hands around his throat. He looked around the shady room, the light poured in from the broken blinds and he could here a bird outside. (author: must strangle bird, there is a bird outside my house that is so out of tune, someone pass me a shotgun)
Would Anna have been informed, would she even guess what had happened.
Hao wanted to go home, but he was scared…..yes, the great almighty Hao was scared to go and confront the devil girl herself. He was wise. He knew better. But his overwhelming feelings of despair and guilt grew as he just sat in the hotel room. Just laying uncomfortably on his bed, his poncho draped over a mouldy chair in the corner. His hand came to rest on his stomach and he ran his hand in little circles around his bellybutton trying to calm himself. In truth he was very tired, he actually needed rest. This action was what he used to do to Yoh. It had started a few months ago. Yoh came in one night claiming he couldn't sleep…

(flash back)
Hao's pov

The house was dark with shadows cast eerily by the small amount of moonlight peeking through the curtains. Every sound was heightened so one could hear a pin fall in a room at the other side of the house.
I heard him come down the corridor. His feet hitting the wood flooring softly. His slow movements making my breath hitch. He was probably going to the bathroom down the hall.
Oh god, what did Yoh do to me. Every time I thought of him I would shiver, wishing he would stop just once and come into my room….
Just a simple act of him walking made my life hell. Every night I would dream of him, the bothersome garments he wore would be removed and he was at my mercy and he would be willing to give himself completely over to me, my Yoh…,m
y own…

My hand slipped under my covers and into my white dressing gown. We all wore one. My hand went lower, and all thoughts were on my brother's beautiful face…

I was snapped out of my pleasures when the door opened.

Yoh stood there in his white dressing gown, his chest was revealed and his trademark necklace still hung elegantly against him. He walked in carefully and closed the door behind him.
What the hell was going on, YOH WAS IN MY ROOM.

"Hao" Yoh whispered. He took a step forward.

"……" I couldn't find the words, I didn't even know if this was real.

"Hao, I can't sleep, may I stay hear with you tonight? I promise I won't disturb you"

"……" I didn't know what to do, would it be a good idea for him to be hear…..could I control myself?

"if you don't want me too…I'll go back to bed"

"Yoh…."

"yes?"

"you can stay, just as long as you don't snore…" I said and grinned. He gave a smile in return and I felt myself blush, yes, blush. Thank the great spirit it was dark.

Yoh walked over to my bed and pulled back the sheets. There was just enough space for the both of us to fit, but we would have to be very close together and with my….'tricky' situation down below…..that would cause a bit of a problem. He slid down next to me and snuggled into my shoulder…….
I was so excited I couldn't go to sleep. Him being so close to me, me already aroused. Damn he smelled nice, like oranges and maybe cinnamon, the combination worked well together.
About two minutes later Yoh shifted still not asleep. He did it again two more minutes later. He was very fidgety.

"yoh" I asked wondering if something was bothering him.

"hao I'm sorry, I don't know what's wrong with me, usually I can get to sleep, but tonight I just don't know what's wrong with me…"

"calm down" I said "just relax…..here, lie back" I propped myself onto my elbow next to him and pulled back the covers.
What the hell was I doing, was I really gonna do this. I reached out and opened the front of Yoh's dressing gown so that his stomach was showing. Oh god, getting aroused again. Ok keep it together, be a man….
Yoh sat back a little rigid from what I was doing, he looked very confused, as far as I could see.
I pushed my hand into his gown… SKIN SKIN SKIN SKIN, SOFT SOFT, AHHHHHHHHHH.

"this is what someone once did to me, so I could relax and go to sleep." I said reassuringly.
Yoh nodded and I heard a gulp.

I started making little circles softly around his bellybutton. Very slow movements as to calm him down.
Yoh went even more stiff
not like that, and you know it!) and I felt him shiver a bit.


"calm down, ok" ………he then started to relax. His muscles un tensed and it seemed he started to trust me. "now try and go to sleep, I'll stop once you've fallen into dream land"

"hao" yoh whispered and turned to face me. He looked so very innocent. "thank you" he was becoming more and more peaceful as I continued and I just got more and more excited.
His eyes closed and his breathing evened out. After ten minutes it was obvious he was fast asleep, yet I still kept at my little circles. I watched him as he slept. So cute, so very beautiful.
I stopped my movements and just let my hand rest on his tanned tummy. His soft skin against my hand….it was making me somewhat sleepy. I gave a small yawn. As I kept a close watch on the angel next to me my eyes began to close, but the face of that angel didn't leave me, it followed me all the way into the land of dreaming and I was given comfort all night by the sleeping figure in my arms…

(end flashback)
That was the real start of their friendship. The establishing of trust. Nearly every night Yoh would journey to Hao's room unable to sleep and Hao would be able to send him to the land of nod easily.
That was until Anna asked Yoh not to enter Hao's room again. It was strange. Hao at that time sensed a great deal of jealousy towards Hao. She couldn't possibly have known. He blocked her powers of mind reading with his own, so there was no reason for her to suspect. Well…..maybe there were, like when Hao would stare at Yoh for so long and would continue even though Yoh would catch him at it. Or, when Hao would offer to escort Yoh everywhere so he could be near him constantly. If you counted them, then maybe she had reason to be suspicious.
Hao stopped is circles and had his hand resting where he had once had it on Yoh.
"Yoh" Hao whispered "I'm so sorry…..for everything, I hope you can forgive me. Believe me when I say, I would die if you hated me. If you never showed me that sweet smile again, if I could never hear your voice talking to me again. Whisper my name Yoh, like you did before, I want to hear you say it…." Hao never received an answer, he was left with nothing but silence….


Oh how very depressing…..or undressing, or salad dressing, either way you look at it….hahah great way to kill the mood……just talk about crap at the end.
So its back to school tomorrow, yay!
………………….I'm weird.
But I'm gonna see all my great friends again like……..um……well…….hold on…….um……nope no great friends!
ONLY JOKING Love ya all