In the end, all we have are our inner demons.
Chapter 5
The room was silent except the slow, rasping breaths from the young man in the bed. He was shaking slightly holding onto his white sheets until his knuckles were white. He had just had another dream, well, more like a re-enactment. He remembered it all. The hands, the voice, the sneer, all plaguing his thoughts, still haunting him as he drifted into sleep.
'Hoa……' he thought, 'why would you hurt me like that, we were doing so well, I thought we had become close……?'
He shifted on the bed and sat up, propping himself up on one elbow. He had nothing to preoccupy himself with, so all of his thoughts were centred on his brother. Silent tears ran down his face and off his chin.
'I wonder if he can hear my thoughts, he could always before…..could he now?' Yoh wondered. He wanted to tell Anna what had happened but her thought better of it. What would Anna do if she found out it was Hoa that hurt him? What would all his friends do?
Life was good, they had become friends after everything that had happened. Anna accepted Hoa after a lot of consideration but who knew what went up in that head of hers. They were now 16 and in a years time Anna and Yoh would be married, Hoa was even gonna be the best man. It was all going so perfect, but then this unexplained mishap happened. 'It was like Hoa was possessed, was it really him?' yoh moved his hand up towards his throat and felt the bruises that were now deep purple, he wondered if the doctors knew it was is brother. They said he could be released tomorrow morning and then he could go home.
Did he really want to go home…..?
Back to Hoa…..
In all honest Yoh was completely terrified….
Hoa sighed as the morning sunlight poured in through the cracked window illuminating the dust that was flying around the room. Hoa had never fallen asleep, he had lain there on the disgusting bed thinking, reminiscing and coming to a solid conclusion on what he had to do. He was going to leave Anna and his beloved Yoh. He was going far away from his brother so that he would never be tempted to hurt him again.
'is this really a good idea…….yes……it is, I won't be able to do any more harm to him and he can live in peace with Anna. I didn't even know what I was gonna do at the wedding, watching the one I love walk out and leave me. Its not like Anna would let me stay with them after they got married, who wants someone around who would just get in the way.' Hoa sighed and lifted himself off the bed. It creaked and the rust made screeching noises as he moved. He walked over to the chair where he had his poncho hung.
'I'm gonna go tell yoh that he needn't worry about me anymore, that I will be gone from his life….I'm sure….he will be happy' and in that moment he smiled sadly and grabbed his clothes.
He left the run down hotel and headed once again for the hospital….
Yoh awoke from another bad dream. He was sweating again and he felt like complete crap. He pushed himself out of the bed and pushed the buttons for the nurse. The little blonde nurse came hopping in very unnaturally cheerful.
"hello, and how are we feeling today Mr. Asakura, your going home today aren't you?" she asked sweetly.
"um, I'm feeling ok Samantha and yes I'm being released today, how soon can I leave?" Yoh asked.
"well I'll just go get the doctor and he can do one last check up on you, he'll be the one to tell you if you can leave, ok?" She answered. Yoh put up his usual mask and smiled brightly concealing all of his thoughts and emotions.
She left the room with that cute smile on her face. She walked down the corridors of the hospital with the paper work from Yoh's bed. She walked up to the desk and called for one of the doctors. She looked up and noticed a young man with long brown hair and dark eyes watching her from the other side of the desk.
"oh you must be Yoh's brother, wow you look so much alike, both very handsome" she winked " he's well enough to see you, maybe you could help him get ready, all he needs is one quick check-up and he's outta here" she said cheerfully. She went back to her note taking and Hoa headed down the corridor towards Yoh's room.
Hoa's heart was beating very fast. He started to sweat. Was he really gonna go through with this? so many thoughts rushed through his mind so many emotions threatened to burst their way to the surface, and one of them was fear! Hoa asakura never felt fear, he was too strong to worry about anything but it was overwhelming and a dull ache in his chest began to throb.
He finally reached the door and his hand held the door knob for a few seconds…..he turned it and stepped into the room taking a deep breath to calm himself as he did so………
