Acepilot
AN - This is the first time I've written on a Macintosh since 1996. Though I have always loved the keyboards, and think they're very comfortable to write on, the damn things haven't gotten any faster or easier to use over the last 9 years, no matter how funky the new ones look. Grr.
Thanks to those who let me know what they thought of the first chapter. This is proving to be an interesting experiment.
Disclaimer – the characters in this fic are property of KlaskyCsupo.
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2. Innocent Play
2.1 – How It Begins
It all begins
Innocently
Where she's concerned,
Can you expect anything else?
It all begins
With a simple question
How was I supposed
To answer?
It all begins
With a foolish mistake
I've made enough of those
To know that hindsight
Is a wonderful thing
2.2 – Innocent Play
We don't flirt
We never flirted
We just…
We don't play with each other
We just…
I kiss her but I don't
Feel anything on the other side
It's never been like this before
But that was the point, wasn't it?
The only thing that's innocent about us
Is her feelings
They're purely innocent
Not a trace of lust in them
What are we?
Nothing. Just…
Innocent
2.3 – Do You Think He Loves Me?
"What do you think of him?"
she asks, while we're lying in an afterglow
Him. With his stupid
Life
And stupid
Hair
"Do you think he likes me?"
she asks, while we're lying in bed
Together in the afterglow
He, with his stupid
Seduction
And his useless
Personality
That I can't match.
"Do you think I should ask him out?"
she asks, while we're drifting apart
In the afterglow
I shrug
"Whatever you think."
Because what I think doesn't matter
2.4 – How It Begins II
It begins with the question
"Have you ever?"
It begins with the question
"Why are we the last?"
It began with the question
"Do you want to try it?"
2.5 – Poetry One
We're studying poetry
Or so they tell me
As I drop into my seat I wonder
"Why do we have to ask
Some long dead guy
What he was thinking
When he wrote…
About drugs, and
Flowers and
War and
Murders
There's a morbrid
Fascination
With poetry
I hate it
2.6 – At The End of the Day
At the end of the day
I watch them in the
Orange of sunset
They look happy
They're flirting
Playing innocently
In the dying hours of the sun
2.7 – Him
He's everything
That I'm not
He's cool
He's suave,
Even
He's everything I'm not
But not anything I want to be
But what can I offer her?
What can I offer her that he can't?
He even gives to charity
What do I have that he doesn't?
A friendship?
Not anymore…
2.8 – Tell Me About Him
"Tell me about him,"
I implore
She gives me a look
You know, one of those ones that
Kind of suggests
You're a few short of a set
"Why?"
She asks it with puzzlement in her voice
"I want to know?"
Its meant to be a statement but
It comes out wrong
"He's nice,"
she tells me.
Great.
I have to compete with
Nice.
2.9 – How It Begins III
It begins with a fatal mistake
Because the instant I agreed to this
Stupid enterprise
I was hers
And she wasn't in on it
And so now I'm dead inside
While she chases off
Some other guy
Some Nice guy
I feel lost and alone
And I don't know where I'm going next
It begins with her
2.10 – Lost and Alone
I sit with Tommy
In the crowded hall
They come and sit with us
But I'm not even aware that
They're there
Because she's not there
She's like a drug
And without her I feel
Away
She's like what I've come to need
And without her,
Alone
2.11 – How It Could End
It could end with me in a
Lonely room
Forgotten by the world
Until someone asks
"What's that?"
That, friend,
Is what death smells like.
Or it could end with me
Lying in bed with some pretty bird
And having
A real good time
Even though I'm actually alone
Maybe it'll end with me far away
Far away
Where she can't hurt me anymore
But it never does
Because she creeps –
Quietly
- into the house
And we do what…
We do.
Love isn't there
But maybe this'll be enough
Or maybe
It could end with me
In a lonely room
Forgotten by the world
Left by everyone
Left by her
Until someone asks
"What's that?"
And the coroner has to tell them.
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I promise that this will all be explained, soon. The fact that Phil's about to be studying poetry has a reason behind it. I'm hoping to try something…very interesting in the third chapter, which will be the pivotal one. Hopefully. We'll see how it goes. Please review!
