I Remember A Time When Once You Used To Love Me
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AN – I was going to include Phil's poems as images - handwritten and scanned it - but I ended up canning that element of the project, because my scanner was annoying the hell out of me. Sorry. If you're reading this on Luke's AGU Boards, then you'll notice that this chapter includes Louy7's very neat Phil artwork, which I would like to thank her for letting me use. You rock.
Oh, and just so we're clear - the poems in italics aren't part of the narrative, but are in fact written by Phil for his poetry class.
Thanks to all who have shown support for this project, and thanks even just to those who read the first two chapters. Every time my hit counter clocks over one, I feel a little surge of elation that someone visited my fic. It's always a nice thing.
More Dirty Three references – Sister Let Them Try And Follow and I Really Should Have Gone Out Last Night are both song titles.
Disclaimer – the characters in this fic are property of KlaskyCsupo.
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3. Love Poems
3.1 – A New Dawn
It's
a new morning
And
I know what's going to happen today
Today
is a new day
A
day on which she crosses
Her
line
And asks him out
It's
a new morning
And
I cling to the memories
Of
the night before
Like
some hopeless
Lost
soul
Obsessed
with the past
3.2 – At The Start of the Day
At
the start of the day
I
watch them in the
Yellow
sunrise
They
look happy
They're
flirting
Playing
innocently
In
the beautiful hours of dawn
She
touches his hand
And
he
Turns red
So
now you know
What
it feels like
What you've been missing
What I had
What
you can have
But
I'll never let go
3.3 – Poetry Two
Getting
inside someone's head
Isn't
a fun experience
"It
takes a special
kind
of person
To understand what they're thinking,"
Like
he knows
Its
all so pompous
You
never know what's going
On
unless you're
There
And
know
Everything
That
there is to know
So why try?
"We're going to write our own,"
Like
he wants
Us
to express ourselves
To
show him what we think
What
we feel
Know what I feel?
Because I don't
Sister, Let Them Try And Follow
We'll
go down
To
the banks of the river
And
there we'll sit
In
the dying sun until
You
say
You'll
leave me
Until
you say
You
don't want me
That
you want him instead
And
so then I'll
Take
you away with me
To
a place
In
my head
And
my heart
Where
they can never follow
And
they can never find us
So
let them try
Let him try
"Too much symbolism,"
Like
he knows
Like
I care
3.4 – Your Head Is Your Worst Enemy
"You
look like hell,"
Tommy
tells me,
Sitting
down with me and
Offering
concern
"I'm
fine,"
I
assure him
After
all, how can I be
Sad
About
something that never happened
That
never was.
3.5 – Happiness
She
knows what happiness is
Now
Why
couldn't I ever bring her
Happiness
And
if she was never
Happy
Then
why did she waste so much of her
Time
with
Me?
I Really Should Have Gone Out Last Night
You
were there when I opened my eyes
And
I knew that it was going to be the same
The
same as it always is
Because
we've been through this
Too
many times before
So
many times
That
I can recite it off by heart
"That
was nice,"
You
say
And
I say
"Yeah,
it was,"
And
you creep out of my house
And
leave me on my own
And
leave me without a trace
Of
the wonder that you always seem
To
take with you
And
abandon me to
My
life
I
should know better
Than
to let you in
Than
to let you hurt me
I
should have gone out last night
And
not let you ruin my life
Any
more than you already have
Why
didn't she go for it with
Him
When
she first got the chance
Because
you should always try things out
With
friends first
Even happiness
I
found happiness
But
apparently
Happiness
Didn't
find me
3.6 – One Last Time
"One
last time,"
You
whisper in my ear
Promising
Me, or yourself?
"Just
once more,"
You
tell me
And
you
"We're
going out,"
You
confide
"We're
having fun."
But
still
"One
last time,"
You
whisper in my ear
Denying?
Or hoping?
3.7 – All Too Easy
It
was
All
too easy
I
always got told
"If
it seems too good to be
True
Then
it probably is."
And this was.
I
thought I could have
You
I
thought you could love me
But
now
All
I know is
That
I can't let go of you
I
can't move on
Until
you let me
3.8 – Misery
I
curl up
In
some long forgotten
Position
Trying
to defend myself
From
your stare
I
wrap my arms
Around
my legs
And
try to hide
From
you
And
him
Because
you who I love
Keep
looking at me
And
no matter how much
You
tell me that it doesn't mean
Anything
I'm
starting to have doubts
And
doubts are the gate
To
misery
And
sorrow
And
so I sit here,
Hiding
in plain view
Hoping
you won't cast an eye my way
And
make me think again
"Does
she love me?"
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So, what did you think? I was going to have one last Phil poem in there but I decided to ditch it at the last minute. Hope you enjoyed it. More coming soon.
