I disappeared four years ago, leaving Tree Hill, my friends, even my parents without a word of where I was. I had to leave, if I had stayed it would have been too painful, so I ran away. I know it was pretty chicken, but I'm a big chicken. I was in love with Nathan, and even though he wasn't there at the time, the reminder was too much for me. Besides I knew he was coming back and having to see him after his rejection hurt too much.

Flashback

I had arrived at his parent's house wanting him back.

Nathan- "what are you doing here, Haley?"

Haley-"I came back because I want to be with you Nathan. I want our marriage."

Nathan-"too little, too late"

Seconds later, Deb had just found out Dan was dead. I stayed with Nathan the whole night not saying a word, just trying to be supportive in case he needed me. When we arrived at his home, I had turned to leave, but he had pulled me arm into him. He had started to cry, sobs racked his body and I just held him. And then his lips crashed into mine, his body pressing against me. He started off slow at first, and then his kisses became urgent and rough. I welcomed the pain, I deserved the pain. In the morning he was already dressed and he wouldn't even look at me.

Nathan-"Look Haley, I think you should leave, last night was a mistake"

I of course being the fool I was thought everything was going to be okay between us, but I was terribly wrong. I had gathered up my clothes as quickly as I could, feeling like a damn fool being rejected and thrown out like trash, only when I left his room did I surrender to my tears. He left for High Flyer the following week, leaving me drenching my depression with alcohol. I needed to leave.

I didn't find out I was pregnant till a month after I left. I figured it was too late to tell Nathan, seeing as how he dismissed me so casually, besides we weren't married anymore. If he didn't want me he couldn't possibly want the baby, I told myself that because it was easier to think that. I knew he would want to know, and I also knew that inevitably he would have to know, but inevitably wasn't right now. Right now I couldn't deal. One day it would all come crashing down on me, but that day was not today. I never expected that my down fall would be Jake Jagelski.