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He seems distant lately.

Mother was so excited when I told her that Draco and I were to marry and so was I.

But now I'm not so sure.

He seems far too distant lately.

I wonder if he is thinking of the wedding or something else.

Someone else.

Maybe I am just being stupid and self-conscious.

Draco is marrying me. Not someone else and it is foolish of me to believe that he would betray me.

Sex is one thing. That I know.

We have already agreed that sex is one thing. We can have our little things on the side and it will mean nothing to our marriage. But love- love is another thing. Something that I will not allow him to have for anyone.

Anyone but me.

Mother once told me I was selfish as a child and I believe her.

She has no reason to lie and I am not ashamed to be selfish.

I know what I want and I go after it and if that makes me selfish, or a bitch like that mudblood Granger used to call me then fine.

I am selfish and a bitch.

And I am damn proud of it.

Granger was always jealous me.

Jealous of my pureblood.

Jealous of the fact that I had Draco's attention, something every girl in the school craved.

She was jealous of the fact that I have money and I would always live in the lap of luxury where as when she returned to the muggle world she would be as poor as Weasley and his pathetic family.

She was pathetic.

So many times I wanted to kill her but for some reason Draco stopped me.

I never understood it but he told me it was for the best and that he was using Granger to help the Dark Lord and to kill her would put a damper on his plans.

Unfortunately in the end the Dark Lord lost.

Still, when I look at him, and he seems distant I can't help but wonder: what is he thinking?