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Chapter 10
At the "Sakura" Café.
Kagome and Houjo are enjoying the coffee and breakfast together. Something that Kagome is rarely doing that with Houjo since they were dating.
"Are you alright? Kagome…You looks a bit pale. Have you taken the herbs which I give you last time? It's from our relatives' recipe. It's good for your health".Houjo looks at Kagome who seems so down and quite.
"Thank you Houjo…I am well…well…maybe I didn't put on make-up this make that's why I look so pale", denied Kagome.
However, Houjo is so surprised to see how Kagome's appetite this morning. She can finish2 glasses of milk, 3 muffins, 2 burgers and 3 eggs in one go. Now still ordering 2 more cake. The way she eat also is different….it's so…primitive….(don't know what other word he can describe…. He can see some of the staffs at the café are whispering one another looking at Kagome. Kagome didn't realised that Inuyasha blood is in her body also now. Since she is pregnant of his child.
"I didn't know you are that hungry…we should go to the restaurant instead of this café",Houjo looks so guilty.
Kagome is blushing. She also can explain why she got the sudden hungry….like she never feel before….she eats like a pig…..or animal. Is it because I am pregnant.
"Oh….eh……he….he I am sorry Houjo. It will be my breakfast and lunch I am supposed this will be…", Kagome told me can't stop being so embarrassed.
"Anyway, the reason we are here this morning….because there is something important I have to tell you". This time Kagome is so serious".
"Please tell me…don't hesitate to say it…", Houjo is looking so hopeful. She gonna tell me she loves me maybe.
There is a silent for a moment. Kagome is thinking should she tell the truth or not. Houjo is a good man. He deserves better than me.
"Houjo….please don't be mad at me when I tell you this…..", Kagome hesitates to say.
"Of course….no my sweet Kagome", said Houjo so impatient.
"I want you to know from me first. Not from others because I think you are a very good man which I will not want to hurt your feeling. I…..I….am pregnant Houjo",at last Kagome said it without looking at him.
All of sudden…Houjo feels the room like moving. Something that he can't control….like all the walls had been broken.
"How….", he can't finish his words since he sees Kagome is tears now. "Let's go out and we talk near the park", Houjo said to her. He paid the bills. They walked together to the nearby park.
"Houjo….let me be honest with you….even before I date with you. I already in love with the other man. I am really sorry Houjo. Please forgive me". Now Kagome is crying on his shoulder.
"Who is he? Kagome….", Houjo asked in pain.
"You will never understand…if I told you…none will believe it. The fact is I loved him so much and even now still love him".
"Is he the father of this baby?", he asked Kagome.
"Yes…that's why I can't be seeing you anymore since I don't love you Houjo. I thought I can forget him but I can't and…I'll be damned if I still pretending to you like I am a good girl friend to you. Cause I am not….I am not….", Kagome cries hard and almost scream.
"Stop it….Kagome. No matter what happen between us…I always love you….", Houjo holds her face to look at him. He kisses her so gently.
"Why you are so nice to me Houjo….", Kagome whispers in his ear.
"Because I am in love with you the moment I saw in the school", He tells her.
"Did the man know about this baby?", he asked again
"No…I don't want him to know", Kagome said again.
"Why ?..."
"It's too complicated…you won't understand"
"Kagome listen to me….I want to marry you"
"No….I can't let you do that…"
"Yes….why not I love you and I will love this baby also…. We will happy together Kagome. You will learn to love me".
"It's too good to be truth….no…I can't let you involve in this matter….".
"Listen….you know how our culture is! It's hard for a pregnant woman without a husband. Let me marry you……..if…..if after the baby is bornt…you still felt you can't love me. You can leave me…", Houjo saying the last word desperately.
I wish that easy Houjo. I can't …I can't drag you into this. It won't be fair for both of us….and also Inuyasha. Huh….what should I care for his feeling, anyway. He is with Kikyo…why I can't be with another man. Kagome said in her heart.
"Houjo…please give me some time to think about it. I just worried…if someday the father of this baby comes back and claim it his. Do you really can let go the baby and…..me", Kagome asked Houjo carefully. She is so worried….she got the picture on her mind….one day Inuyasha just step at their front door and demanding to take back his baby and her with the sword on his hand facing to Houjo. No….he really will kill him for sure. Well… Kagome can still remember how trouble can be everytime Kouga meets Inuyasha.
"You won't understand….Houjo. The man I am in love with is ….so violent", Kagome told Houjo hoping he will just drop the idea of marrying her.
"Then he is no good to you…Kagome", In fact Houjo gets more inspired.
"I mean….he is violent to any man who is interested in me".
"Then he is a selfish man….he doesn't deserve you….Can't you see Kagome it's wrong for him to do that. If he loves you, he has to take the responsibility…how come you are in love with this kind of man…."
"Yes…I know Houjo. I am so stupid….baka…..baka…."
"I am sorry I don't mean that", Houjo regrets what he told her.
"No…this is the fact, my love to him has blinded my common sense and judgement. He makes me a fool…you know what Houjo. The thing that frustrating me….I…I just can't help it. For the last 2 years I thought I am getting smart by trying to forget him. But in fact, I am almost grazy missing him and this pregnancy will be the biggest mistake that I did". The truth is I can't live without him. Even if I have to be alone forever in my life. I will wait for him to come for me. Kagome said the last words by her heart only. This is the curse and my fate.
"Why he doesn't want to be with you?"
He is already with Kikyo….that's why Houjo. "Please take me home Houjo, I feel tired…",Kagome stopped the conversation. Houjo understand that after she is pregnant, she must be getting tired easily.
On the way home…in the car. There is silent between Houjo and Kagome. "Please promise me you think about my proposal…Kagome", asked Houjo before Kagome gets down from the car. She nodded. "I will….thank you Houjo….".
AT KAGOME'S HOME
At the living room, Jii-Chan and Mrs. Higurashi is having a serious conversation when they saw Kagome is back. They asked her to join them
"How is your breakfast with Houjo?", mum asked Kagome.
"Yes…it's nice…I had a big breakfast".
"Good you are having a good time".
"Kagome….is Houjo….", Jii-Chan asked Kagome all of sudden when Mrs. Higurashi cut his words.
"Do you want to have a tea…Kagome?",
"No thank you mum. I am still full…",
"Kagome……is Houjo the father of the baby?"Jii-Chan almost screamed
"Oji-Chan….", Mrs. Higurashi looks so shocked.
"I need to know….Kagome. It's my first great…grandchild". Jii-Chan said again ignoring Kagome's mum reaction.
Kagome is silent for a moment then she looked at them. I have to be honest with them. I don't want misunderstanding.
"It's not him….".
"What?", This time Mrs. Higurashi almost yelled.
"Then who?"
"It's INUYASHA's…..", at last she said in pain.
"Oh my God….my God…..it's that demon cat…..I told you to put that spell on your door….", Jii-Chan is crying now.
"I knew it….I got the feeling something going on between you two since you come and go to that well all the time. Your mood is keep changing everytime you went there", Mum said….
"What are you going to do Kagome?", Mum asked Kagome.
"I decided to keep the baby mum. I love this baby….as much as Inuyasha", Kagome said in tears.
Suddenly, she just kneeling down in front of Jii-Chan and her mum
"Please forgive me mum…..Jii-Chan….I know …maybe sorry won't be enough for you. But really I am so so sorry to let you in this mess. I have violated the freedom that you gave me. Please…please don't hate me…..because you are the only one that I got right now. Please…..", Kagome is fainted after saying those words ….she just too exhausted of everything. This is too hard to bear….for a young college girl like her. She is just 17 years old.
Mum and Jii-Chan carry her to her bedroom and leave her to sleep there. Later on they are talking again in the living room.
"This is worse than I thought…. Jii-Chan", said Kagome's mum in tears.
"Well….we knew it also…. this is her fate…from the moment she can connect to the other world. Just as the first time, we are no control in stopping her to go to that well….same like this that we can't stop her to fall in love with the people or a weird thing in there. We can't blame her entirely…she spends most of her time with Inuyasha while she was there. We are not there even Houjo is not there….I guess if Kagome wants to have this baby. We have to respect her decision. Whatever happen she is still my grand daughter that I love dearly", Jii-Chan is also crying.
"She will be a mum….anyway…How do we have to tell our relatives and friends…she got no husband when she is pregnant", Mrs. Higurashi said in the end.
"I guess we have to move….and I will arrange the well to be sealed then may be with some bricks", Jii-Chan thinks.
