It had been almost a month since Alkali Lake; the memory of almost dying was still with her, not as strong now, but still there. She didn't know how she was supposed deal; move on from everything that had happened in her life, everything that's going to. War, seems like such a small word but it evokes fear, like no other word can, "and that's where we're heading to" Rouge thought to herself as she brushed her hair in front of the mirror, then a smile crept across her face as she saw the photo stuck to the side of her mirror.
It was her favourite, one of her and Bobby, not doing anything spectacular, just sitting on a bench she was leaning against his chest and he had his arm protectively wrapped around her, he was always protectively wrapped around her.
Normally that would freak her out, scare her to no end, but with bobby it was different, he was different, none of the guys she knew back home were as respectful and loving as him, but then again non of the guys bak home were respectful at all.
Rouge looked down at the hands that were putting her brush away and she couldn't help voicing what she was thinking "these hands are a permanent curse on me… and bobby, he shouldn't be with me, he needs someone he
can touch, hold, be with, he'll never have that with me, I'm a dead weight."
"You're not a dead weight" Rouge turned around to see Bobby standing in the doorway. He walked over to her and stood next to her, just staring at her naked face. "Rouge, I love you, sure its hard but its worth it, you're everything to me."
"Bobby, it's just sometimes I think of all the things that you could be doing with a regular girl."
"What, like making out in a movie cinema."
Rouge could see the cheeky grin he kept just for her peeking through the corners of his mouth.
"don't make fun of me I'm serious, and yeah that is one of the things you could be doing if you weren't with me."
"Rouge leave it, I love you and no amount of 'movie cinema girls' would ever even come close to matching the feeling I have when I see you."
"Bobby…"
Rouge could feel herself falling into the familiar trap, she hadn't kissed him since what happened at his parents house, she wanted to, she could feel his eyes devouring her face and all she wanted was to look up, but she couldn't, she wouldn't be strong enough to say no, and she didn't want to hurt him again.
"Rouge…"
it was barely a whisper, but she heard it, she turned to look at him and as she did they moved in closer and he kissed her, lightly, taking it slow so he wouldn't hurt her, she wouldn't hurt him… just like they did at his parents house, they snapped, looking at each other for so long without being able to touch what they loved so deeply got the better of them.
Rouge turned to face him pushing her body up against his, he slipped his arms around her back pulling her closer. This time he wasn't light. His tongue circled her lips as if asking for permission, she opened her mouth with a delicate moan and let him in. they pulled each other closer, but as Rouge slid her hand under bobby's shirt and up his back she felt him stiffen and pushed him away as hard as she could.
She could feel the veins starting to dull away on her face "I'm sorry" she said with icy breath.
He looked up at her slightly out of breathed and said firmly and surely "it was worth every second…"
Rogue paced distractedly back and forth in front of professor Xavier's door, her mind was going a million miles an hour and she couldn't get a grip on what she wanted to say, or wether she should say it at all.
She had just decided to turn around and walk away when she heard professor Xavier's reassuring voice in head "feel free to come in when you're ready Rogue." She smiled to herself "damn, there goes the avoiding it idea." She opened the door, walked in and sat down, knowing that even without the ability to read her mind professor Xavier would know she was un nerved
"professor, I understand if you say no, but, I want to volunteer myself for more testing, so I can find a way to stop my skin from being so destructive."
Rogue could see a slight smile creeping across the professors face.
"I take it things are getting pretty serious between you and Bobby."
"It's not just that," Rouge replied slightly blushing "there's so much I can't do in my future if I'm still like this, of course one of them is being intimate, but one day I want to have children and I can't because I'd kill them by accident."
"I understand where you're coming from rouge and I'll let Ororo know so that you can start testing straight away."
"Thankyou professor."
"Rouge"
"Yes sir"
"I'm not making any promises, the results may be the same as last time, so don't pin everything on this, one day you will have to learn to control your powers."
"as long as we're trying." And with that she stood up glanced at the professor one last time and walked out of the room.
