Chapter 19
A months has passed now….there are quite activities going on at Higurashi's new residence. Some people are lawnmoving the garden, others are painting the house. Inside the house, Mrs. Higurashi is decorating the room with some flowers, meanwhile Jii-Chan is busy doing his prayer to the ancestor asking for the blessing. Souta is playing with Yukio……the only person who looks so sad…is Kagome. She was in the kitchen making some sweets. Her mind is wandering away………somewhere.
So this is it……(Kagome said to herself)….. Kagome Higurashi….at last your are getting married….in the next three days more….with Houjo…..the man that you didn't love. Well…I guess what was written in Houjo's Ancestor history could be right….I will become his wife. So…this is also my new life…being a mom to a son from the man that I love and wife to the man that I never love. Is it a new beginning? Can I change this fate? How did on earth all this happen to me?…..Kagome Higurashi….a 17 years college student who got married so young…..who became a mother so young…All these because of a love to a man that I will never have in my life….all these because I love Inuyasha….only Inuyasha…..What is exactly I learnt from my misery….besides having a beautiful baby boy……is a betrayal from him. He chose Kikyo over me….he kissed Kikyo many times….even now maybe he had slept with her….while I felt like a trash in here. I had to give my body and soul to the man that I didn't love. Her tears are falling down…..what kind of love this is….? Sacrificing….for whom…for what? As if as I didn't deserve my own happiness. What can I do…..? My family is also sacrificing and suffering because of me….I didn't want to burden anyone with my problem anymore. Houjo is a good man…..may be I will love him ….someday…..He accepted me and Yukio without conditions…..He told me also he will take me to U.S and stay there. As long as far from here…far from my past memory…past from my old house………..
Speaking about old house………I want to see it again for the last time….before I am going to U.S with Houjo. I probably will never come back to Japan again…..for a long long time. Yeap….I have to go there to say goodbye with my memory….there the place where I found lots of happiness….and love.
Then she saw….her mum is going out with one of her friend to buy some materials for Kagome's wedding kimono. Her car has just left. YES! Said Kagome. This will be the perfect chance.
"Jii-Chan is it alright? ….I leave Yukio with you for a while….I need to the town to buy some decoration for the house", lied Kagome.
"I think your mom will do that Kagome….just leave it to her…."said Jii-Chan still busy doing his praying.
"It will not take long…Please ..I just need to choose my favourite colour for my bedroom…. ….I have fed Yukio just now…so he will just sleep through now till evening…..I'd already back by that time", said Kagome again.
"Ok….then….but please make it quick….I didn't want your mum know that you are going out leaving Yukio with me….", said Jii-Chan.
"Don't worry sis….I will take care of him…", said Souta also.
"Thank you for both of you. I make it quick."
Kagome called a taxi and then went away………to her old house.
Higurashi's Old Residence
She opened the gate of the house and locked again after she was inside. She was shocked to see what happened to the Shrine. It didn't look at all like a Shrine….the building is gone now. Debris is everywhere. Just in the middle of it, she could see a big hole….of the well…..under the open air. What's going on in here? My God…did mama know about this? Is someone broken into their home?
Then She went the main house passing by the God Tree…..she can't help it touching it with her hands…..on this tree….I saw you….my love….on that day also my life had changed…..said Kagome.. the place where we first met and I felt in love.
After that she walked away and and unlocked the door of the house. Everything is still the same….she went upstairs….to her bedroom…..WHAT'S THIS? She saw the white cloth had been torn…..all her cupboard were opened….Who can do such a thing? She then looked around another rooms. Everything still normal….no change. Why only her room is messed up like this? Could be?No….not possible….he will not come again to see me…..he is with Kikyo…..Kagome tried to convince herself. Well…I probably had to report this to the police later on.
She then cleaned up her bedroom and was getting ready to go home….when all of sudden she remembered to search for the locket….She went back again upstairs and opened her drawer….but nothing is there……..
"Are you looking for this?………"Suddenly Kagome heard a hoarsely voice behind her back. She felt her body is just frozen to death. All her pulse was reacted so fast. She can't even move her body…..she wish she never came here….but it's too late. Slowly she turned around…..her body.
Her eyes meets with a beautiful amber eyes directly stood there with his glowing shiny golden long hair………God knows….how hard Kagome tried to control her emotion not to jump to his arms……how she was trying not to cry or express her feeling….she felt her heart will stop beating. This man ….whose everyday she dreamt of to be in his arms again suddenly standing in front of her.
Just for a moment….both of them….can't speak anything…..They were filled so much of emotions in their hearts.
"Kagome…..",said Inuyasha
"Inu…Inuyasha….what are you doing here?",said Kagome
"I have been watching you from the top of the tree...Are you coming back for this?",Inuyasha showed her the locket.
"No….I didn't care for that thing…..",she lied to him. She is pressing her palm so hard till she can feel her nail is hurting it.
"Really….then why did you come back?", said Inuyasha is still looking at her directly.
He is standing there so close till she can feel his breath on her face. How much she wanted to pull those ears and kissed him. She didn't want to look at him.
"Inuyasha…did you do all of these in my house?", asked Kagome.
"Yes…."
"What are you doing? You could be locked up in jail if you do such thing in other people house in here", said Kagome still didn't understand why he is here.
"Isn't that obvious…..Kagome?", asked Inuyasha
"What?", said Kagome now turned away her body to the other direction….she didn't know how much longer she can bear it not touch him.
"I am looking for you…..I'd ever said to you….I will come to see you and the baby…..", said Inuyasha.
"Inuyasha….what baby?",said Kagome now. Her fortress is almost falling down now.
"Kagome…..is it mine….? You had given birth….hadn't you?", demanded Inuyasha after noticing her tummy is back to normal again.
"I told you Inuyasha….he is not yours", said Kagome firmly.
"You said... he…..meaning it's a boy……if he is not mine….who the hell is the father then….", his voice now in anger.
"I didn't know…..Inuyasha leave me alone…..Go back to Kikyo….she must be worried about you know…",said Kagome. Her tears is starting to fall of now.
"I will never come back to her again…this time forever...Kagome.",said Inuyasha
"What do you mean?" asked Kagome still didn't want to look at him.
"I left her……for you….Kagome",said Inuyasha almost whispering to her. He has approached her from the back. He strokes his hands gently from the top of her hair down to her waist. She can feel a thousand of thousand electric powers streaming down her body now…..her heart is beating so fast. "Why?"said Kagome….is closing her eyes now enjoying Inuyasha's touch.
"Because I …I….my heart is with you….Kagome". There is nothing more beautiful in her ears….nothing….as she has been waiting for so long….
Inuyasha slowly turned her body around towards him. She can see how much tears in his eyes…how much love in there….and slowly he kissed her. She can't stand any longer…..she puts her arms freely around his neck and strokes down her hands to his hair. "I love you too….Inuyasha….I always will…..",said Kagome. She pressed her body closer against his chest. Her nipple starting to get hardened. Inuyasha can feel it too. He is more putting his tongue now inside her mouth with his hands are exploring what is beneath her bra. "Your breast is getting bigger and so soft",he whispered on her ears.
"Oh…..I wanted you ….Kagome…..You make me grazy….everyday I dream about this….to hold you in my arms again…..Iwas so stupid and immature back then ….I didn't know what I am missing for...I didn't want to admit my feeling…..I can't live without you ….Kagome",said Inuyasha again.
Suddenly Kagome tried to break free from him.
"What's the matter….?",asked Inuyasha.
"Inuyasha….I can't ….I just can't", said Kagome then she ran away getting down the stairs as fast as she can. She is able to run out from from house, but she can't do anything much when Inuyasha just grabbing her and carrying her again in his bridal style. She is refusing to be carried by him.
"Let me go! I have to go home now….They will be waiting for me…" screamed Kagome.
"I will take you home…" said Inuyasha now putting her to the ground.
"NOOOOO! You can't. Please….leave me alone…."asked Kagome almost begged him.
"Khek….what's wrong with you….didn't you say you love me inside there?", said Inuyasha confused.
"Yes….but…but…it's too late now", said Kagome
"Bah….nothing is too late for me….You belongs to me", said Induyasha
"Inuyasha …aren't you worry that my baby is not yours…." said Kagome
"I don't care….we can be happy together….now Naraku is gone…I can use Shino No Tama to become human….we can live as husband and wife….Kagome".
"Noooooooooooooooo! You…won't understand….", said Kagome so sad….
"What the fuck is going on here….oiii Kagome?",asked Inuyasha
"I….I… will be getting married….Inuyasha…………I will become somebody's wife", as Kagome screames….Inuyasha felt something was taken out from his body……..he felt pain in his heart.
"What are you saying…..? Who will marry you? I will kill that man", said Inuyasha in anger.
"Inuyasha please….please…..I beg you…..go now…leave me alone….I can't handle of this anymore….please….let me go",said Kagome in tears now.
"I have just found you….I'll be damned to let you go again….I have been spending everyday most of the time waiting for you to come back….Did you know that…thinking of losing you making me insane….I ….I….can't…..Kagome",said Inuyasha is now grabbing her so close next to his chest.
"Inuyasha….I am so sorry….but I didn't have any other way….I didn't want to hurt my family. They had suffered enough for me. I had to do this…Please…understand me…It's just too late."
"When will your marriage…?",suddenly he asked her.
"Within 3 days",said Kagome. She is scared to see Inuyasha's face now.
"Tell me ….do you love this man….?"said Inuyasha looking directly on her eyes.
"….Y…Yes…I do….he is the father of my baby. He loves me also…Inuyasha .",said Kagome lied. I have to lie….if I said no…he will kill Houjo.
All of sudden, Inuyasha just grabbing Kagome by her hair and pulled her head towards him and he kissed her so hard….she even can't breath…..She felt her bones will crust if he didn't let her go. He bit her lips till she can taste her blood. Then he pushed her away.
"Bah….I hope you are happy then…. whore!…..",said Inuyasha then walked away… leaving her in tears alone. He went with so much pain in his heart. He couldn't believe it that Kagome is in love with another man. How could she…after she said she loved me.
"Inuyasha…..wait!" said Kagome wanted to run after him….but then she stopped and walked to the gate. She locked everything and left with a cab. She didn't even realise the pairs of amber eyes are watching and following where her cab's gone like a hawk. She is busy crying on the way home inside the cab. It's over… really over…..we are not meant to be together Inuyasha…..I am so sorry my love….I have to lie…Please don't ask me to choose between my family and you….caused I can't…..You still can survive without me because Kikyo loves you so much. She will take you back. But….it's just too much burden already I caused to my mum, Jii-Chan and Souta. I have an obligation too as the eldest child in the family. I hope you will understand oneday….Let me have the other half of you with me forever…..Yukio. I can't tell you that he is yours….cause I know it will just causes you more pains since we can't be together...Forgive me Inuyasha….forgive me… Yukio….I promise you.. I will love him with all my heart….till we meet again ..someday…my love….sayonara.
To be continued
I'll try to finish the story sooner if I m'not too lazy….do you want longer or short one…..Please review if you want more….thanks.
