Chapter 26
Three Days After The Rape
Kagome hasn't spoken a word to anyone even to Inuyasha about what really happened. She had been badly wounded not only at the surface but also devastated from inside her spirit. She even scared to look herself in the mirror. She looked so dreadful with everything swollen from her lips to down part of her body. Kaede had taken care of Kagome very thoughtfully. It seems everyone is in their sad mood. Their only entertainment when they were playing with Yukio.
Inuyasha didn't come back to Kaede's hut since then. He is no where to be found. Miroku, Sango and Shippo couldn't blame him. Who can accept such a horrible thing like this happened to the woman he loves?
Meanwhile, Sango was sitting next to Kagome where she was lying next to Yukio inside Kaede's hut. Kagome's eyes are wondering somewhere else. Both of them didn't say a word. Then….
"Sango-Chan…Thank you for being there for me...…" said Kagome suddenly.
"Kagome-Chan…you are my friend. You don't need to thank me" said Sango.
"I…look….so horrible…right now...At first I though I'll be rather death…but I remember Yukio…He is the one who kept me going. I…." Kagome can't finished her words…she was in tears.
"Please stop it! It's not your fault….you know that all of this happened because of Kikyo's scheme. But at least….now you can move on with Inuyasha without her meddlesome anymore. How do you feel now?" said Sango. She tried not to show her sadness towards Kagome.
"What do you think? I felt painful from up to bottom my body….however I am glad I am still alive ….. " cried Kagome. Sango held Kagome in her arms tried to comfort her.
"Where is he…?" asked Kagome suddenly.
"Inuyasha went away after he carried you here and never came back since….." said Sango.
"Inuyasha….." whispered Kagome then she closed her eyes. I can understand how you feel Inuyasha. You were afraid to know the truth that you had hurt me. You just couldn't bear to see me like this. As much as I love you….Inuyasha but right now I really not in the position to caring of anybody's feeling but me. I still have my own nightmare after that incident. Said Kagome to herself.
"Don't worry Kagome-Chan….he will come back….He loves you too much. He will not just walk away like that. I think he is also trying to find the way to deal with this which the most difficult thing in his life right now…." said Sango.
"I know ….Sango-Chan…I ….I didn't blame him for what happened to me. It's his evil side who did this not Inuyasha…." said Kagome sadly.
"What's your planning now? Kagome-Chan……do you think you want go home to see your family?" said Sango.
"I really don't know. With my condition right now, it's not possible ….last time when I went back…I got pregnant…and this time ...I was raped….I think surely they will not allow me to go here anymore in whatever circumstances", said Kagome.
"Kagome-Chan….don't think too much right now…just get better first. Go take a rest a now", said Sango. She then left her alone to sleep.
Since that incident, Kaede stayed with her other relatives in the village. She wanted to give more space for Kagome to get better in her hut. While some people from the village had offered free accommodation to Miroku, Sango and Shippo to stay there while Kagome was sick. So now Kagome can sleep peacefully alone in the hut and have her own privacy to deal with her problems. All her friends will take in turn to visit her regularly.
Three weeks had been passed now. Kagome felt much better. She has already got the strength to stand up by herself now. Inuyasha hasn't back yet since.
That night, Miroku and Shippo had just left her to rest alone; she was breastfeeding Yukio with her mind thinking of Inuyasha. Where are you ….Inuyasha? After that, she felt asleep for while when something warm was touching her forehead. She opened her eyes then surprised to see Inuyasha there. He just kissed her in the forehead. But when he knew, Kagome had noticed his presence. Inuyasha immediately got up and was about to leave ….when he heard…
"Please don't leave….Inu…yasha….",said Kagome softly.
He stopped but didn't turn around to look at her.
"Are you alright now?...Kagome?",asked Inuyasha. She can feel the pain in his tone.
"Where have you been?",asked Kagome struggling to envelop her emotions.
"Khek….it's not your business…."said Inuyasha.
"It is actually… you are the father of my son….I must know where you are going?" said Kagome a bit annoyed of his answer.
"I didn't go anywhere. I come here every night to see you and Yukio while you were sleeping" said Inuyasha.
"Why you didn't want to see me when I am awake….?" said Kagome in tears now.
Inuyasha didn't answer. He seemed try all his best to be strong in front of Kagome. She can feel how miserable he is. He then felt to the ground on his knees suddenly but still he didn't want to look at Kagome.
"Kagome………" said Inuyasha in hoarsely voice.
Kagome tried to approach him. But…..
"Don't come here…..STAY THERE!" screamed Inuyasha at her.
"I won't….why you didn't want to look at me? Inuyasha…." said Kagome is now at his back.
"Look at me…now… Inuyasha…." said Kagome. He didn't listen and is about to leave when...
"Osuwari!" said Kagome.
He then felt to the ground….this time Kagome was rushing towards him and holding him from his back.
"Don't touch me!" he screamed and tried to push away Kagome.
"I will not let you go….till you look at me….!",said Kagome still holding tight Inuyasha's back and then she is resting her head on his back.
Inuyasha didn't move anymore. He can feel the warmth of Kagome's body. How much he misses her. How much he wanted to be there all the time with her. How much he loved her.
"Kagome…..I….I…." said Inuyasha repentantly…suddenly Kagome turned his body towards him. She was shocked to Inuyasha's face. He got bruised all over his face as if as someone had beaten him up. His nails were all broken. She can see the dry blood still in his fingers.
"What happened to you Inuyasha…..." asked Kagome in tears. She is touching the bruise on his face with her trembling fingers. Inuyasha looked at her eyes. He expected to find any sickened look from her eyes….but he can't see it. He can only see love….in Kagome's eyes. He can't stand it anymore; he then pulled her in his arms.
"Kagome….I am so afraid….so afraid……I didn't remember anything….I tried to…I couldn't …the only thing that still on my minds is your words…..I can't forgive myself….I hate myself…...I am a monster….",said Inuyasha on her ears.
"Stop it! What words that I say…Inuyasha…." said Kagome with tears on her cheeks.
"You said you love me…." said Inuyasha.
So….said Kagome he remembered at least some good part from that incident.
"I didn't deserve you…Kagome….I….I', said Inuyasha can't finish the words…he is crying hard on Kagome's shoulder but then he stopped suddenly.
"Kagome…." said Inuyasha after he is able to control himself again.
"Do you still think that you have to marry that man that you family wished for?" asked Inuyasha suddenly.
"What do you mean?" said Kagome.
"Khek….I know that you have to go back to your family….to get married", said Inuyasha in a bitter and resentment tone.
"How….how did you know?" said Kagome
"Did you forget that my ears can listen to what you said in this hut….even if I was outside", said Inuyasha. He then looked away from her.
"I don't know….Inuyasha…I….I….." said Kagome confused.
"Now you listen….Kagome! I let you go to marry that man. You don't have to worry about my feeling anymore", said Inuyasha without expression on his face.
"Inuyasha…." said Kagome so shocked. His words are like a thousand blades stabbing her heart like now. Never….she felt so cheap…so unworthy….How could he let me go like this as if as I am just a "thing". He didn't want me anymore! Who gives him the right to tell me with whom I should be getting married? How could I fall in love with this man after he took away my dignity and then just throw me like a trash? How could I be so blind of his love? Her tears are coming down to her cheeks.
"Kagome…." said Inuyasha wanting to hold her after he saw she was struggling to stand up. But….
"Don't come near me! Inuyasha…..I don't want to see you anymore…..GOOOOOOO AWAY!" screamed Kagome at last.
"As you said….bitch!" said Inuyasha then walked away.
"Wait a minute!" said Kagome to him all of sudden.
Inuyasha stopped at the door and turned around to her. Kagome was slowly approaching him and pulled the rosary round his neck. The chain is now been broken. All the beads were falling over to the ground….just the same time Kagome felt her love was being broken.
"I also let you free from this one. We have no relation anymore. Even with Yukio…stay away from him. HE IS MINE!" said Kagome with so much rage.
Kagome didn't want to look at him anymore. He had broken her heart. After he left, Kagome just felt down to the ground. She cried that night like she had never been before. This is what she got after all she had been through. She wished she never had to come here in the first place. She can't think anything else but packing all her belongings. She has to leave that place….NOW! Before she went….she left a note to Kaede and all her friends saying that she was grateful for the friendship they gave to her, but she had made her mind to come home to her family now…to fulfil her promise….to get married to Houjo. She promised to visit them in future. She then carried Yukio on her arms and came out from the hut. She walked to the well and jumped without even looked back. She didn't realise that a pairs of amber eyes were watching her leaving with so much tears and sadness that nobody even understand how painful it is.
After Kagome's gone, Inuyasha is screaming out loud from his lung "Kagommmmmmmmme". Then he wept and wept all night long.
To be continued.
