Chapter 35
"I am sorry….Haru. You have to seethose horrible scars", said Kagome. She is still resting her head on Haru's chest. She can hear Haru's heart is beating so fast.
"You don't have to say sorry! Let's forget about that. I will try to find some herbs mixture which can remove those scars", said Haru kissed Kagome's forehead.
"Really! You can do that….because I also have other scar besides this one….." said Kagome looked at Haru.
Haru haven't said anything more when Kagome pulled up her skirt little bit and showing him another long scar below her tummy.
"This one. I….I.. got it because of the bike accident…." said Kagome. However she was surprised to see how pale Haru's face is.
"Ok...I see that…Can I go out for a while…." said Haru in his shaky voice. All of sudden, he can't control the feeling of nauseating inside him.
"Where do you want to go?" said Kagome confused.
"Just need to have some fresh air. I'll be back soon…." said Haru without looking back at Kagome. He went out then. Kagome can't see how distressingly his face is.
After Haru's left, Kagome was pondering…he must be disgusted of my scars now. How could I tell him that they were from the rape by the man that I loved? Haru….I am so sorry. Please understand me! Said Kagome in tears.
Haru's Residence at Feudal Era
One day, Kagome is sitting next to her bedroom's window with her mind is wondering somewhere. It's been almost three months Kagome and her children moved to Haru's house which would be their home forever. Yukio and Naomi were enjoying of the new environment. Haru took them to go swimming at the river, riding horse, and fishing. Besides that Yukio is now free to open his hat which was always covered his doggy ears while he was still in Kagome's time. Everything is going well according as Kagome and Haru's planning. The only thing that is bothering Kagome is Haru's attitude towards her, especially when he wanted to make love with her. Something was taken him back; he wasn't able to do it. Kagome can see how frustrating this is for both of them. But she didn't know also how to fix the problem or talk about it. She didn't want to hurt his feeling. So they are just pretending everything is fine. Kagome noticed this had happened after he saw the scars on her body. She is too afraid to ask Haru what's his problem. She is not prepared to accept the fact if Haru didn't want to make love with her because of those horrible scars. Everyday, Haru will leave home early in the morning to go to his patients in the village. He will come home in the evening. When he is home, he will play with the kids for a while. Then they will have dinner together. After that, he will go to sleep.
Kagome missed so much how he used to caress her or have romantic moments between them in the past. It' just now he is too busy with his work or avoiding her. I didn't know whether he still loves me or not. I wonder if I married to Inuyasha…maybe he wouldn't be this way. Hey….Why am I thinking about him suddenly? Maybe….maybe….deep down in my heart I wish him come back to me. I wish he were here now to hold me in his arms. I missed his amber eyes….Inuyasha where have you gone! I still love you all this time….my heart is only for you. I thought by marrying someone who looked like you….I can be happy. But…now…it's too late….I stuck with this man. I hope wherever you are now….you are happy and alive….Inuyasha… said Kagome.
All of sudden Kagome heard Naomi calling her; she then walked outside the house.
"Mama….mama…." screamed Naomi.
"Yes…Naomi I am here…" said Kagome.
"Mama ...I cannot find Yukio….." said Naomi in tears rushing towards Kagome.
"What do you mean? You two were playing together….weren't you?" said Kagome worried.
"Yes were playing hide and seek…but I can't find him..." said Naomi pointed somewhere inside the forest.
"Don't worry! Naomi. You go inside first. I will look for your brother. Go find Miyoko in the kitchen…she will keep you company…for the moment", said Kagome tried to cheer her up. Naomi then ran inside the house.
Kagome walked to the forest outside their house. Normally, Yukio and Naomi won't be playing this far. What were they doing? She then called her son's name….and starting to be anxious….if anything had happened to him. She kept on going further inside the forest. Then she can hear Yukio's voice from somewhere.
"Mama…mama….I am here…" yelled Yukio.
Kagome searched for him and found an old abandoned hut nearby where she can hear Yukio's voice from there. She came inside and surprised to find Yukio there. She hugged and kissed him.
"Are you alright? Yukio…" said Kagome almost in tears. She is so pleased.
"Yes…" said Yukio.
"Why you were here?" asked Kagome.
"I was playing hide and seek with Naomi when I smelt something strong from this hut…." said Yukio.
Kagome was bewildered to hear what Yukio had said. He can smell….My God! Same like his father. She looked around…in the room. She saw there many old and big jars had been pilled up. Some were broken one. It's giving a strong smell of rotten herbs. She opened one jar…and found some damped herbs mixture in there. Is this the hut where Haru making and preserving some of the herbs? Kagome thinks.
"This is only some herbs….Let's go now. Don't ever come here again! You make me scare", said Kagome to Yukio then held his hand. But he didn't want to move. Kagome looked at him.
"What's matter? Yukio come on….It's getting dark. We have to go home before your papa is back", said Kagome confused.
"I can smell dried blood in there…" said Yukio pointing at the ground below one of the big jar.
"What blood? Whose blood….I can't see it", said Kagome searched the room.
"It's papa blood", said Yukio again so serious. He then walked to the big jar in the corner and tried to push it but it's too heavy for him. Kagome rushed towards him.
"Are you sure? Below this jar?" said Kagome. Yukio is nodding his head.
Kagome pushed the jar aside as much as she can. She is able to move it. Then Yukio used his hands to dig out the earth below that. Kagome then helped him to dig out the earth even more. Now slightly they can see what below that earth after for a while…something is in red. When they dug deeper. It started getting clear to Kagome...what that is. It's a red kimono. Suddenly Kagome felt her headwas spinning around as she watched the red kimono in shocked. She recognised it. It's INUYASHA RED FUR! Just as she grab it with her trembling hands something it felt down from there……the rosary chain! The broken beads had been put together again. Her body started to shake so badly that she can't even hear Yukio saying to her…
"Mama…Look this! I found a sword also….beautiful one…." said Yukio holding the Tetsusaiga on his hand.
So these all were buried under the ground. The red fur still had some of the dried blood from Inuyasha. No wonder Yukio can smell it. Who's on earth would do such a thing? Had Inuyasha been killed? Where is he? Kagome started to freak out. No... it can't be …he is a half demon…he can't be killed easily. Unless….unless….Kagome didn't want to jump to conclusion so fast but the more she thinks about all the weird things she had noticed all this times. She is able to put the entire puzzle completely on her mind pointing directly to that clue. UNLESS HARU IS INUYASHA! She was so stressed out now and looked at Yukio who still playing with the sword. Kagome grabbed it immediately from his hand.
"Yukio….don't play with this! It's dangerous…You will get hurt", said Kagome in hoarsely voice. She took the sword and held everything on her hands now.
"Yukio…I want to ask you. Just now you said you can smell papa's blood. Is it you mean papa Haru's blood?" asked Kagome doubtfully.
"Yes…I can smell it because it's the same like my blood…" said Yukio unexpectedly.
Kagome was taken aback so shaken to hear that. How could I be so foolish? So Yukio knew it all along that Haru is his real father.
"Now listen Yukio! Please don't tell this to your papa….ok", said Kagome looked at him.
"But…I want to show him this beautiful sword…." said Yukio.
"NO! YOU CAN'T", yelled Kagome irritably. Yukio almost in tears cause he's never seen before his mom this angry.
"I am sorry…Yukio. I don't mean to snap at you. Listen…why don't we make this as a surprise to your papa. When the time is right….You can show it to him. In the mean time I will hide these all ok…." said Kagome tried to smile at Yukio.
"Yes….mama", said Yukio. Then they left the hut.
On the way to go home, Kagome struggled so much to keep down her emotion which she felt will be burst out soon. Otherwise she will be going insane. Just as they approached the house, Kagome told Yukio to see Naomi as she must be waiting for him keenly. She then went to her room and hid all Inuyasha's belongings in to her bag inside her wardrobe. After that she is just couldn't control herself…. screaming and crying on her bed like anything. She felt as if as her body is about to crush now because she is not be able to handle the intensity of her emotion. WHYYYY? WHYY…… INUYASHA? Then she can't remember anything else. Everything is dark.
When she opened her eyes, she was shocked to see Yukio and Naomi in her room…and of course her husband…Haru! They were all looking at her so worry.
"Are you alright mama? You had been sleeping for so long", said Yukio.
"Yes…I just felt asleep….Sorry to worry you all…" said Kagome tried to get up.
Haru immediately ran to her and held her in his arms.
"You are not well….Your temperature is hot….Your pulse is beating too fast…." said Haru checking on her wrist. Then he said to the kids…
"It's alright kids! Your mama only got some fever. She will be fine tomorrow. I will give her some medicine. Go to sleep now… you two", said Haru.
Yukio and Naomi then left the room after kissing to their mom and dad.
For a moment, there is silent inside the room. Haru is busy doing some mixture of herbs when suddenly he heard Kagome is saying….
"INUYASHA..."
To be continued
