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Authors: Jacquie and Sassy

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Ramblings

Chapter 17

Grissom left a sleeping Sara the following morning. He showered, dressed, and decided to make breakfast in bed for Sara.

Sara shivered in her not yet awake but not still asleep state. She noticed that she was alone in bed. Where did he get off to, I wonder. No need for panicking. She padded naked over to their pile of clothes and searched for his shirt. She slipped it on and went to find him. She stopped off at the bathroom along the way. Deciding to brush her teeth first. It made her nauseous. She ran for the toilet and emptied her stomach into the bowl.

"Sara?" Grissom's voice was outside the bathroom door. "Honey are you okay?"

"Yeah." She sighed. She went to the sink to brush her teeth yet again. Once she felt she had removed the yuck from her mouth she joined Grissom back in their room.

He gave her a smile and a kiss on the cheek. "Morning."

"Morning, Love. Did you sleep ok? How long have you been up anyway?" Sara asked climbing back in bed and pulling the covers up over her.

"Not long. Half hour maybe." Grissom set down the tray with toast, fruit and eggs beside her.

"Smells good. So Gil, what are our plans today?" Sara asked taking a grape from the bowl.

"What do you want to do?" Grissom settled beside her again.

"Stay in bed with you all day." Sara said as she picked a blueberry and fed it to him.

Grissom gently took Sara's fingers with the blueberry in his mouth.

"Don't be a tease, Gil." Sara playfully swatted him on the arm. She let her hand linger a few seconds. She smiled at him and tickled him.

Grissom giggled and writhed away from Sara. "Hey!"

"What? You don't want to play with me?" Sara asked before kissing his cheek and moving just out of his reach.

Grissom growled, and propelled himself at her. He grabbed her, and started kissing her neck.

"No fair!" Sara shrieked, as he picked her up and tossed her gently on the bed. "You are so bad."

"Me? You're the one that started it," he murmured.

"Come here." Sara said to him as she pulled the covers over her head and threw his shirt at him. Grissom crawled under the covers with her.

"Are you packing, Grissom? Or just happy to see me?" Sara teased him as she felt him graze her thigh.

"This was your idea," Grissom murmured in her ear. He nestled against her skin.

"I know. I love it when you hold me. You feel so good." Sara told him. "So should we eat those eggs before they get too cold or what?" Her stomach growled in response.

"Yeah." Grissom pulled away reluctantly.

"This baby is already awful demanding. Must take after her Daddy." She rubbed her non-existent belly and said, "You have to learn patience, little one. I am not used to this eating thing."

"After nine months, I'm sure you'll be a pro at it, sweetheart." Grissom kissed Sara's cheek again before handing over her eggs.

After taking a few bites, Sara sat her plate down and reached for her glass of Orange Juice. "You are spoiling me, Gil. I may get used to breakfast in bed and then what are you going to do? Come to my apartment every morning and feed me?" Sara was hinting around to what was to become of them when they got back to Vegas. Would she continue renting her apartment or move in with him or would he move in with her? She was to scared to just ask him.

"What would you think of the idea of moving in with me?"

"Are you sure? I know how you like your solitude. I don't want to make this hard on you." Sara went back to eating her eggs. She had just about finished them.

Grissom took Sara's hands in his. He made her look at him. Looking at him, she could see how serious he was. He wanted her there. She knew that deep in her heart, but with their past, he had let that get in the way. She had to be sure this time. "I've never bee more sure of anything."

"Okay. Let's try it. Do you think that you can handle me doing a little moderate redecorating? Just add a little bit of me into your townhouse?"

Grissom couldn't think of a way to say yes without sounding, well...un-Grissomish. "Of course."

"Grissom, how did you become Alysha's Godfather?" Sara had been wanting to ask since he first mentioned her.

"I was asked. Craig called me up one day with the news that his wife Barb was pregnant."

"Who is Craig?" Sara had never heard him mention that name.

"Craig is my college buddy in Boston,."

"Same line of work as us?" Sara was interested now. He hardly ever told them anything from his past.

"Yeah..he's the day shift supervisor."

"So you two met in college and bonded over forensics?"

"We were roommates."

"How did that go over? I bet those creepy crawly little bugs were something you argued about from day one, huh?"

"We compromised, but yeah, we had a couple of issues." Grissom chuckled at the memory of getting a black eye and a fat lip.

"Tell me. Please?" Sara whined like a child.

"He gave me a black eye and fattened my lip the second day we were roommates."

"Over your bugs?" Sara was all attentive.

"Silly isn't it."

"I wouldn't fight you over your bugs, Griss. I'll be a good roommate. BUT THE BUGS will STAY in the other room. And that is final." Sara said with horror written all over her face when she remembered the spider incident.

"Agreed."

"Good. I knew you would see it MY way." She teased. She wrapped her arms around his middle and kissed him softly on the mouth.

"I'd do anything for you, Sara," Grissom whispered.

"What are we going to do about work and the baby, Gil? And don't say that it will be okay? We have to think this things through now. I don't wanna stay in the lab either. So please don't go all macho on me. What would the guys think if I let you boss me around?"

"You're right, we do have to talk about this."

"I'm always right." She quipped.

"I have nothing against you working as long as you can."

"In the field. I won't be babied. I will work scenes until I am no longer physically able or until my doctor says no more. I will be cooperative and I will not risk my health or the baby's. I know my limits. I don't want the boys to see me as anything other than their friend, Sara. I don't want to be the boss's girlfriend, the boss's baby's mother, the boss's wife, or anything else. I am Sara and will remain that way for as long as I work under you." She hadn't meant to come across defensive. She just needed him to know that while their personal life was up for any changes, work had to remain the same. It was the only way.

He nodded. Inexplicably feeling a sting of hurt that she didn't trust him to treat her the same.

"I'll be right back. I just want more orange juice."

Sara lay where he left her. She waited patiently for his return. Grissom returned a moment later with freshly squeezed juice. He set the pitcher beside Sara and crawled back into bed again.

"You mad at me?" Sara asked when he didn't opt to hold her like before. "I'm sorry."

Grissom touched her hair . "Not mad...just...I guess I'm just wondering if you trust me."

"Trust you? I can't believe you have to ask. You, Gil, are the only one I trust. I just don't want to be seen as weak. I've worked my whole life to beat that. I did beat it. I shouldn't have said anything. I know that you are always fair at work. I know that. There were times when I never understood why you did what you did, and yes, I even got mad. But you always had the team in mind when making decisions. You let Warrick have shift that night because you needed him to see that you trusted him. I get that. I should've known then that you made the right choice, but back then there was bad blood between him and me. Grissom, I am so sorry that I made you feel that way. What can I do to make you believe me?"

Grissom pulled her against him. "Just believe that I only want what's best for you and the baby, sweetheart." He kissed her forehead. "And just for the record...it was your strength that made me fall in love with you in the first place."

"Really? How so?" She was shocked by his comment.

"The power outage on the elevator...remember? You were the one that kept everyone calm."

"God. If you only knew what I was like on the inside, you wouldn't be saying that. I had to calm everyone day in order to stay calm. I hate the dark, Grissom. I guess that is why I don't sleep well at night. That was the scariest moment in my life. Well, one of them anyway." She shuddered in his arms just remembering that horrible day. It was horrible but wonderful too. "It wasn't all bad though. I met you that same day."

"You kept me calm..." Grissom whispered.

"You always looked so calm. You just reassured everyone that help would get there soon. You looked pretty fearless to me." Sara said quietly.

"I'm like you. I don't like the dark."

"I guess with our job, nightmares come to life in the dark. I see them over and over sometimes in my sleep, do you?

"Yes."

"Want to talk about it?" Sara want him to open to her about everything.

"My dad...he used to lock me in the closet...I still dream about it sometimes. That last case we had with the young boy.." Grissom trailed off, as his voice broke.

"It's okay, Love. I've got you and I'm not going anywhere." Sara said as she held him tightly. She knew all about fathers and what they could do to their children. She couldn't understand it. "Take you time."

"Just...it just hit home. I saw…I saw myself in that boy."

"I could give that line everyone uses, "I am so sorry" but I can't. We've been down similar but different paths. Your father hated himself and you reminded him of what he was not ever going to be. You are good on the inside and out. He couldn't ever change that. Our child will never know the horrors we suffered as children, Gil. I can promise you that. We see what the world is like on its worst days and we won't let it be that way for our children."

Grissom gently kissed her.

"What was that for?" Sara asked shyly.

"For being my angel."

"I am hardly worthy of that title."

" You are, " Grissom insisted.

Sara kissed him again. First just a simple kiss then one of passion. She was the luckiest woman in the world.

'I don't know what I did to deserve you, Sara,' Grissom thought.

"This baby is going to have it all." Sara said after the kiss.

"Including the most beautiful woman in the world as its mother."