Disclaimer: I do not own Gilmore Girls the WB peoples own it.
A/N: Thanks for the reviews . This chapter is mostly in Jess's point of view but there will be a few of Rory's thoughts. Rory's Thoughts Jess's Thought's. I know Jess is a little ooc but it's just because he got older and stuff.
Our First Night
"Good girl," I said patting her on the head.
"So are you going to tell me why you left after you had just come back?" Rory asked curiously.
"No, I'm not," I said I saw that she looked sad so I decided that maybe I should tell her. "I had to take care of my mom and I needed a better job and to finish school."
"Now was that so hard to admit?" Rory asked, parking in front of the apartment building.
"Yes," I replied getting out of the car. Rory opened the back door and took Jessie out of the car.
"What do you want Jessie to call you," Rory asked after a moment.
"She can talk?" I questioned, looking surprised but sounding calm.
"Well no but, like, what do you want me to refer to you as."
"Umm, I don't know," I took Jessie. "I didn't think baby's liked being held by strangers."
"They don't, but she knows who you are. I show her a picture of you every night."
"Really."
"Yeah, I wanted her to know who her father was."
"Well now you don't have to show her a picture of me every night, I'll be there to tuck her in."
"Well this is the apartment," She informed, opening the door and walking in.
When I walked in, I could see; from the long, narrow hallway; the big sliding glass door that led to the porch. On the left side was a door with a sign that read 'Jessica's Lair.' It was closed, but Rory opened it to reveal a room painted pink with stars on the ceiling and blown up book covers on the wall. Her crib was white and had a pink blanket and lavender sheets. As I looked up at the ceiling I noticed that the ceiling was painted a bluish black color and some of the stars were arranged to look like the constellations and the others were just there to look like the rest of the night sky. She had two white dressers on top of the dressers were dozens of books some of them were children's books but most of them weren't.
"Wow she has a nice room" I said, trying to break the silence.
"My mom and Luke helped me paint it" she responded, putting Jessie in her crib.
"I wish I could've helped."
"It's my fault."
"No, don't say that. It's my fault; I ran off and didn't tell you where I was going, again."
"Jess you left the first time to make things right with your dad, and the second time to help your mom and yourself. You left both times with good reason."
"You sure do have a lot of books for her, a lot of books for someone who can't read."
"She likes to be read too."
"Well that makes sense but, come on, aren't these books a little complicated."
"No get Oliver Twist for me it's her favorite."
"Really."
"Yeah now are you gonna get it or not."
"Um, oh ok." I said, picking up the book and handing it to Rory.
I'm confused. I know the way I asked her to marry me wasn't, exactly, the best but I thought she'd at least be happy or something not just go right back to the way things were an hour ago. Maybe, she thought I didn't know what's going on in her head.
I'm confused he asked me to marry him after not seeing him for a year and I say yes… Well, kind of. I can't believe I did that; I mean we haven't seen each other in a year. I know a year's not much. How'd he already have a ring?
Maybe she's rethinking it. I probably should have asked her a year ago, when I had planned to instead of leaving. I hope she doesn't think the only reason I asked was because of Jessie.
Oh, now I get it. He asked because of Jessie, because he thinks that's what he's supposed to do.
"You know she doesn't need a story because she's already asleep," Rory said, putting the book down and walking out of the room. She walked down the hallway, past her room, and into the family room. She sat down on the couch.
"Sit" she demanded, looking at the couch. I walked over and sat down.
"You know you don't have to," She said staring at the blank TV screen.
"Have to what?"
"Be a part of Jessie's life, get married, and stay here. You don't have to do any of it."
"Well maybe I want to, Rory didn't you wonder how I had the ring when I had been with you the whole time."
How could she not have thought about it? Now she seems deep in thought I can almost see the wheels in her brain turning. It's almost as if everything that happened today is beginning to register with her. Maybe everything that happened since we got back together after Luke's wedding.
"Well, yeah, how did you have the ring."
"I've had it for about a year."
"But, a year, that's when you left."
"You're right."
"Well then did you have it that day you left?"
"Yes."
"Well who was it for?"
Did she just ask me who it was for? How can she not know it was for her isn't that obvious. Who else would it be for?
"Um, you."
"Well, why didn't you ask before you left?"
"I was going to ask the next day but I had to leave."
"Well, why couldn't you have asked before you left?"
"It was 3 in the morning when my mom called me and told me to meet her in New York what did you want me to do? Wake you up?"
"Yes."
"Rory come on I realized that I needed to finish working out my life before I could drag you into it."
I wanted to be dragged into it. I just wanted to be with you whether it was good or bad.
"I guess that makes sense. Hey do you want some dinner?"
"You cook?"
"No."
"Okay, well, what are we going to eat?"
"2 weeks old Chinese or 1 week old pizza."
"Um, got anything from, like, now?"
"Baby food?"
"I'll pass on dinner."
"Okay, whatever."
Rory took out the Chinese food that was starting to smell and was about to take a bite when I stopped her. It smelled like dirt and looked green and moldy. "You're not eating that."
"Why not."
"What is it?"
"Orange Chicken."
"It's green."
"Your point."
"You're not eating that."
"Well would you rather me eat the pizza that I stepped on."
"No I'm calling Luke I'm sure he'll bring some food."
I called Luke and told him about the green Orange Chicken and the stepped on pizza; he brought over burgers and fries. Rory looked really happy. I don't know if it was because she got to eat food that was made 10 minutes ago or what but I was just glad she was happy.
