"IF ONLY YOU SAW ME"
Chapter Eleven: Til Death Do I Part
"...I left you once.. not one goodbye...I've come to say it...before you die..."
Rinoa sat on a chiar as Squall, Sephiroth, Dai, Zone, Wakka, Cloud, Fujin and Tidus mumbled on about a war that needed to be completed at last. Anger was raging through Rinoa as she watched them. They talked as if she wasnt there.
"What could have brought it on?" Fujin asked.
This made Rinoa more mad at that moment. Main reason was, Fujin never spoke more than one word sentences around her before, Now, its full sentences and eased grammar. Rinoa crossed her arms over her chest.
"Why now? Its been so long." Tidus said.
Rinoa glared at Tidus. She didnt even say hi to her all night. Even at the ball.
"Does it matter. It should finish now before it goes on forever." Zone said.
She coudltn believe Zone either. After all the fun they had in the past, going against the government and such, he hadnt had the mind to explain why he slept through the mornings and how he was constantly sick.
"He's right." Dai said.
Rinoa looked at Dai. She didnt understand her much. And she hated the fact that Dai had to wear her favorite blue sweater and black dress.
"Yes. Just fight and end it. We'll gain everything back once again." Cloud said.
Rinoa closed her eyes as Cloud spoke, completely blocking out his words. She didnt know why she hated him as much as she did...yet she did.
"We'll make sure to fight this one out til the end, ya?" Wakka said, throwing his hands up in the air.
Rinoa sighed at his words. She now realized why she only saw him at night when she was younger. But he had completely vanished on her one night, not waiting for her in her tree house.
"Of course we will." Sephiroth said.
"We'll start the war as soon as possible." Squall said.
"Like hell we will." Rinoa said coldly.
Everyone looked at her as she stood, her hands balled into fist by her side. Squall saw the anger in her eyes, "Rinoa...Love... Whats wrong?"
She shot him a dirty look, "Everyone talks as if I dont exist. I know all of you! Yet I didnt get much as a passing glance!"
Zone stood up, "Rini-"
"Fuck You! Dont you Rini me!"
Zone sat back down in his seat, looking at her blankly. Wakka stood up, "Rinoa, dont be so harsh, ya? We all been fighting dis ting since my mind can remember. We have to-"
"Fuck you too!"
Every simply looked at her. Squall wrapped his arms around her and she shook him off. "Screw you..." she said quietly
He looked at her, "Love?"
She met his eyes, "I wasnt anything to you. What if I got hurt? You wouldnt have known! And all this time, I've been sitting next to you, and you havent even looked at me! What the hell am I to you?"
Squall looked at her both confused and hurt, "Rinoa..."
"Ohhh. Dont even start. All of you vampires go on with your bloody shit. I"m going to bed."
Rinoa turned to walk away, but Squall held her arm tight, "Dont do this. You're over reacting."
Rinoa's expression changed from angry to murderous, "Over Reacting? I'll show you over reacting!"
She pulled her arm away from her and grabbed a portrait of Squall off the wall. Looking at it, she slammed it threw the wooden pole that decorated the couch. Blood smeared her hands from the broken wood peices that sliced trhough her skin. Wincing, she looked at her hands and gave them to Squall, "Here...blood...suck it and let me sleep."
Squall simply looked at her. There were no tears in her eyes. Only anger. "Oh...my blood isnt good enough for you. I see, but you can fuck me-"
Squall interupted,"I made love to you-"
"LOVE? O yeah... you love me... yes you do. Dont get me started on love."
"Rinoa-"
"SHUT UP!"
She turned adn ran up the stairs, slamming her bedroom door. There were no sounds after that. Squall looked at everyone and closed his eyes. "Squall..." Dai said, standing up.
"Dont bother.." Squall said, opening his eyes slowly. "She's upset. Its my fault."
Cloud shook his head, "She over reacted. You did nothing."
Squall shook his head, "No...she's right. Even though time is troubling, I should at least look at her and assure her everything will be okay. I havent spoken to her since after we left the hall."
Sephiroth stood and placed his hand on Squall's shoulder, "Look. Everything is settled here. Go to her at least. Thats what she wants now and you know it."
Squall nodded and nodded once toward the entire group and walked up the stairs. He didnt hear anything from Rinoa's room. Slowly opening the door, he saw Rinoa laying on the bed, and joia sitting next to her. "Joia..."
Joia looked at him and smiled. She touched Rinoa's head, making Rinoa gasp and whimper. "What are you doing to her?" Squall asked.
"Came to visit..."
Squall took a step closer, "Visit? Why? Are you mad at me."
Joia laughed softly, "No.."
"Then?"
She looked at him, "You've found your new love..."
Squall let his head fall, "Joia..."
She stood, lowering her head, "Its alright, Squall. Nothing changes what we had. I just needed to sya goodbye before I leave again..."
"Again?"
She turned around, looking at Rinoa, "I left...I died... and I never said goodbye to you, Squall..."
"But joia..."
Joia looked at him and smiled, "Bye Squall." she said.
She laid down ontop of Rinoa, making Rinoa jerk and scream. Squall ran to her and laid a hand on her sweaty forhead. "Bye Joia..."
Rinoa opened her eyes, panting. "Squall.."
"Rinoa...I'm sorryn about everything. I should have treated you better. I've been unruley towards you."
Rinoa cupped his face, "All I wanted was your apology, Squall."
he smiled, "I'm sorry, Rinoa."
"I love you." She said.
"I love you too..."
Rinoa looked at the ceiling, "Joia was here..." she said.
"I know..."
Rinoa looked at him, "What happened?"
He looked at her and smiled, "She said her goodbyes to me... I dont need to hold on to her anymore... but she will never fade."
"Oh Squall.." Rinoa said.
"And neither will you." He said.
He moved on the bed and kissed her forhead, closing his eyes as he laid on her breast.
