"IF ONLY YOU SAW ME"
Chapter Fourteen: All for Love
"...Love is pain...pain is living... without pain theres no life...without love... you're dead..."
Rinoa paced about in front of the front door. It had been 2 hours since Squall had left to see someone. And yet, he had not returned. She looked around. She had spoken to Wakka who had told her that if he didnt return, to tell her that he loved her. That had made her cry.
She looked at her watch again. It was getting late...nearly 3 o' clock. She looked out the window, hoping to see him running in. Instead she saw the sun slwoly falling. She wanted to cry.
She turned around and faced Dai, "Oh, Hello." RInoa said.
Dai looked at her, "Just go."
"What?"
"Just go. Theres no point in waiting here."
Rinoa understood and nodded. Shr turned around and grabbed her long jacket, although it was warm outside. Something was telling her to take it with her.
Dai slowly closed the door and sighed. She was planning to pack her bags and leave the same night. Not bothering to stay for the war. She turned for the stairs and saw Sephiroth walking down. She coughed, catching his attention. "Oh, hello Dai."
She looked away, "Is that all I get now?"
He looked at her confused, "What are you talking about?"
She sighed and started to walk up the stairs, "I'm leaving tonight."
Sephiroth ran toward her, grabbing her arm, "Why, Love?"
She rolled her eyes, "Sure, Love...I dont believe in it anymore."
He pulled her towards him, "You dont love me anymore, Dai?"
She sighed, "Sephiroth ... I ..."
"Answer me."
She looked him in the eye, "You're not the Sephiroth I fell in love with."
He shook his head, "Yes I am, Dai."
She closed her eeyes and stepped away from him, "No. You taught me how to live and be strong. To control my emotions and unleash only anger, not fear. But... you lost all of that. So I couldnt stay here with you all the time. But now... I doubt you still love me."
He sighed, "You said 'I loved you' the other night."
She sighed, "You amazed me. I looked at you...and you were...The Sephiroth I knew. My...Sephi."
He stroked her hair, "What's happening?"
SHe turned away from him, "You're becoming what had become...the one I didnt love."
He whipped her around toward him, pressing his forhead against hers, "I will continue to love you."
She shook her head, trying to pull away, "I dont know if I can stay with you..."
He grabbed her more harshly, "Explain this to me."
"You dont understand me, Sephiroth."
"I wont lose you."
Dai lowerd her head, "Let me go."
He grabbed her tightly, pulling her close to him, "You cant leave me. I love you, cant you see that? Sure I changed, Dai. But I was alone... you avoided me for some time, and do not lie to me. I couldnt handle it. As I know you couldnt. Yet, I stood by you. I trusted you. And you want to leave me. I made you! you arent alowed to leave me! You are I! Dont even-"
Dai pressed her lips against his. His eyes went wide as he stared into hers. She looked at him and pulled away. "You see... thats what I love about you."
He looked at her confused. She sighed, "We fought and apologized. Like now. You never held back. You were my competitor, enemy and love all at once. I loved that."
he grinned, "So this is what I've been doing wrong."
She gave him a large smile, "yep."
He laughed and pulled her tight toward him, "Lets have a date tonight."
"Why? Today is the third. Why do you-"
He laughed, "Stop that."
She closed her mouth and pouted at him. he laughed again, "You want to feed tonight?"
She shook her head and walked upstairs, "No... I want Wa Wa!"
As she walked up stairs, he stared in confusion, "Wa Wa? Oh! Water! I love this woman." And he then ran toward the kitchen and heard Dai calling from the stairs, "I WUV YOU 2 SEHPY!" Sephiroth only laughed.
Rinoa ran through the field, holding her jacket in her jacket in her hands, "Squall!"
Tears were streaming down her eyes. The sun was going down. Yet still way up in the sky. She looked from left to right. Not knwoing what to do.
'Rinoa...'
She turned around quickly, "Squall?"
But no one was there. She held her jacket to her chest and turned around to run for Balamb. 'Rinoa...'
She turned around again, "Squall! WHERE ARE YOU?"
'Rinoa...help me...please...'
"You cant save him now"
'Rinoa...help me...'
"Dont even bother, Rinoa. He;s all to suffer."
'Rinoa...help...'
"Dont even try to."
RInoa felt a stinging pain in her chest, like something had stabbed through. She yelled in pain, falling to her knees. 'Rinoa...please...forest...come to me...'
"DONT EVEN TRY!"
The pain increased. Rinoa knelt on the ground, holding her stomach as all the talking flashed in her mind. She stood with all of her might. 'Rinoa...please...I need you...I'm sorry...'
"I"m coming, Squall."
She began to run to the closest forest she saw. 'Rinoa...I can feel you...please...'
"Squall..."
She tripped over a tree branch, landing on her arm. She screamed. 'Rinoa...'
She stood, tears streaming down her eyes from fear and pain. "Why do you love him?"
She looked up to stair into the eyes of Joia. "Joia?"
"Why?"
"Because I do."
Rinoa began to walk, as Joia floated backwards, staying in front of her. "Is that so...You're me, Rinoa.."
Rinoa looked at the ground, contiueing to walk, "I know that already."
"O really. What a liar you are."
Rinoa stopped in front of a tree, "Squall..." She said.
Leaning against the tree, was Squall, hiding behind his cloak. She grabbed her jacket and put that on top of him. She looked at Joia, "I have your memories. I have your emotions. I knew it all when you touched me that night. Its your fault. I know your secret. I know your plans. I know everything. I know why you saved me, and why you want me dead. Its no use, Joia. Give up. Your time has ended and my goes on."
Joia reached down to grab Rinoa's neck but fell through. "you're useless now." RInoa said, "Give up and die already."
Joia looked at her with tear filled eyes, "He will die soon. And I will laugh. All because of you."
Joia disappeared as Rinoa layed her body over Squall's. "The sun will be down soon, Just stay calm."
She felt him move under the cloak. "Rinoa.." He said in a muffled voice.
"Yes, Squall."
"Are you hurt?"
"No."
"I'm sorry for not listening to you."
She held him, "I forgive you."
She felt him move below her, "I'm going to protect you."
She smiled, "I know. But right now, I have to protect you."
She heard him laugh, "But why would you?"
She laughed, "Because I love you Squall. ALl of this is for the love I have for you."
She layed on him, completly covering him with the jacket and cloak. The pain in Rinoa's chest was growing. But she wouldnt admit it.
