Jaime was in an old shirt of Sandy's and shorts which Kirsten had loaned her. She stepped out the the bathroom and began roughly drying her hair with the towel. It had been so long since she had a nice shower. The one back atg her house was in such bad condition and had no water pressure.
"Are you mad at me?" Ryan questioned his sister. He was sitting on her bed, making sure she was comfortable before he left her alone.
"No," Jaime paused for a moment. "I was, but now I understand that it was all Dawn's fault, if she hadn't hidden my note to you maybe you would never have been arrested. Plus, she put all the ideas in my head that you didn't care because you never came back. I guess I began to believe her, if only she could do the same for me," Jamie began to choke back tears as she sat down next to her brother. "I mean, I wish she would just believe me."
Ryan pulled Jamie into a hug, knowing the hell Jamie had been through. "You were the only one who protected me from him," Jamie continued once she had somewhat regained her composure. "I tried to tell mom the first time he did it, five year later and she still doesn't believe me. He stopped after you said something to him; I guess he was scared of you. But when I came back and you were gone -" Jamie broke off, she couldn't continue. Ryan gave her a moment, this was a hard subject for her to talk about it, and he knew it. "Every night, he came in my room, and I swear Dawn sat outside the bedroom, but she never believed me. She listened to him rape me and did nothing about it!" Jamie now angry she got up, wiping off tears. "She said she was so in love with him, her boyfriend would never do such a thing! Whatever, she was just to blind and drunk to admit that she's a bad mother."
Ryan got up and placed his hands on her shoulders, "It's okay now, you don't have to go back to that place, you're safe here."
"Ya, but I can't stay around here forever, this isn't my family Ryan, I don't even know these people. They wouldn't take someone like me in."
"They took in me."
"They wouldn't do it twice. They've been though this once. Maybe I should just go to the east coast and start on my own."
"You're 16! You can't go off by yourself. I lost you once, I'm not losing you again!" Ryan said. The two embraced in a hug, not wanting to let go, afraid this was all a dream. "I'll talk to Sandy and Kirsten in the morning, see if you can stay here, maybe not forever, but at least until we figure something out for you."
Ryan left the room, now sure his sister was ready to go to bed. And so was he, it had been a long day, and an even longer night. Jaime, left alone in a strange room didn't know what to do with herself. She turned off the lights and lay down, waiting. NO! I'm safe. I'm far away from him, he's not coming in my room. I'm ok, Ryan's here now, everything will be Ok. Jaime kept telling herself as she drifted off to sleep.
It was dark, and Jamie wasn't sure why she was back in her house in Chino. She looked at her reflection in the mirror and noticed she was 14 years old again. As she looked at her reflection, the door opened and Dawn's boyfriend stepped into the room and shut the door behind him.
"Please just leave me alone!" Jaime pleaded.
"Ryan's at Teresa's, your mother's drunk off her ass, now why would I give up such an opportunity?"
"I'm 14 you perv!" Jaime exclaimed, pushing him away and trying to get to the door. She wasn't going to let this happen again, she was done with being this man's play toy. He grabbed her wrist and pushed her against the wall. 'Who am I kidding?"Jaime thought. 'This man is so much stronger than me.' She still didn't give up. She struggle to get away but couldn't, he had a grip and wasn't letting go.
Jaime woke up suddenly, and was comforted by the fact that she was still in the Cohen's guest house. She looked over at the clock. 12:29am. She still had hour left before morning, she lay her head back down. Afraid to shut her eyes, she didn't want to dream about that night, or any of the nights. She wanted to forget about the past five years. Maybe staying with the Cohen's wasn't such a bad idea. Jaime once again drifted off to sleep.
Jamie was in tears as she grabbed a sheet of paper and pen and began to write:
Dear Ryan,
I'm sorry I'm leaving, but you of all people should know why I have to. I can't take all this anymore, please forgive me. I'm going with Debbie to her family in Tennessee, just go ask her father the address and come find me. Run away from this place Ryan, you have no future here, not with Dawn, not with Trey. Do what I am doing, and run away. Come to Tennessee and meet me there please! I love you and always will.
-Jamie
Jamie placed the note under Ryan's pillow, picked up her backpack and walked out the house. Her mother was in the kitchen, too drunk to notice that her daughter was leaving, probably didn't even care. She ran to Debbie's car, and they drove away from the house. Jamie looked back at her house, hoping Ryan would be reading the note soon. She began to cry, this was really happening, she was finally getting away from all the hell.
Jaime once again woke up, this time not frightened, but felt that both her cheeks and her pillow were wet with tears. She turned her head and looked at the clock, 3:48am. Would this night ever end? Couldn't she just have one of those nights where she doesn't dream? She wanted so badly to forget it all. Once again Jamie fell asleep, this time getting her wish, no more dreams, no more nightmares.
Ok this I think is a bit better. We will be getting more into the cohens, and marrissa and summer. :) R&R... will try to get more chapters up later.
