An: Yay!!! I got lots of reviews!!!! Thank you all so much!!!! I never
got that many reviews before. I would like to dedicate this chapter to my
brother Kyle, who I'm still trying to get to read the books.
Kyle: I don't like to read.
Ditz: And B.B, whose insanity gets me know where.
B.B: Why did I have to come this is cutting in to my stocking time.
Ditz: Fine go *BB Smiles and runs out dressed in camo* and Ducky
Ducky: *Gives peace sign.*
Ditz: Mostly Bear for her excellent advice.
Bear: Awww Ditz your making me blush
Ditz: And lastly SS for allowing me to bore her with my voice
SS: How did I get here?
Ditz: Hey guy, get out here and do my disclaimer
Guy: LostAngel2 does not on any part of this story or the characters in it.
Ditz: Now on with the second chapter!
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I Wanted To Fly~Tears
By,
LostAngel2
I can't believe Flitwick kicked me out of detention, again," I thought to myself," too bad I have three more on top of that. Maybe I should have asked him if he's ever done it with a girl before. Note to self, by asking that I can get out of detention easily."
I walk into the fifth year dormitory only to find it empty for once. No Remus saying how I should be doing my homework instead of copying him. No Peter saying how hungry he is and that they should all go down to the kitchen to get something to eat. Lastly no Sirius sitting on his bed doing his homework looking like the traitor he has become.
Now the way I see it I have got two choices right now. One I got go grab my homework and actually do it instead of copying Remus and by doing this with more then likely make Remus cry with joy. Two I could go take a nice long and wonderful nap. Well this isn't a fair competition seeing this as hard as picking between liver and chocolate.
I take a running leap and land softly in the center of my bed. It feels so comfortable now then it has ever felt. I hear Remus in the back of me hear scolding me for not doing my homework. It's a waste of time when I could just get the same amount of information copying him five minutes before class.
Sirius and I copied him a lot in our third year. Sirius, the traitor. How could he betray us, his friends, his brothers? I still can't get over the choice he made. What makes me madder, if that's possible, is the fact that Remus wanted to forgive him. He had said something like he doesn't deserve this. He's right he deserves worse. I yelled at Remus and he hasn't brought it up since.
I decide this isn't worth thinking about now. I slide off my glasses and put them on the nightstand next to me. As I pull my hand away I feel a piece of parchment. I put my glasses back on and look at the letter, its from Sirius.
I don't know if I should read it. Makebe I sould tear it up and leave it on his bed. No, that's too mean; I should do it infornt of his face. Remus would yell at me for doing that. Then again I've done plenty of things Remus has yelled at me for.
Curiosity over took me and I read the parchment, despite how mad I was. I felt my face twist into a look of horror. He was crazy but according to this letter he was crazy enough to kill himself. He wasn't that crazy, was he. After all he had never tried to kill himself before. Well other then that time last year. That was the first time I had ever send Sirius cry.
I remember that day so well Bellatrix and Narcissus had told him he was a disgrace to the Black family name. Sirius had run off after the fight. I remember when we had found him, I was terrified. Sirius was sitting there on his bed a knife to his wrist. There was even a small drop of Sirius crimson blood on the blade. I remember the rest of the night we all sat there crying in silence on his bed.
How could I have been so blind? Remus had seen that sooner or later Sirius would snap and get desperate enough to kill himself. How could I have not seen it and let Sirius even get close to this idea? This has to be some type of sick joke. Sirius can't be this desperate, could he? Of course he could he's been along so long he's go mad. I've got to stop him.
I leap off my bed and sprint out the room. I'm running as fast as my legs can carry me. I'm almost near the corridor nearest to the astronomy tower. People keep staring at me as I run down the corridors. I almost fall as I turn the corner but I quickly regain my balance not bothering to slow down.
I'm finally at the stairs to the astronomy tower. I run up the stairs two at a time determined not to fall. I finally reach the door that Sirius should be behind. I keep hopping when I open the door Sirius is standing there laughing say how it was all a joke. I open the door to see Sirius standing there on the window edge he's deep eyes looking into mine.
"Sirius!" I hear myself yell. My body has gone numb with fear. Sirius just stands there not breaking the stare. He has a small smile on his face. This isn't his normal 'I'm the coolest guy in the world smile'; this was a smile of some psycho. A smile that didn't belong on the face of my best friend.
Sirius looks at me now with a combination of joy and pure insanity. He whispers in an almost inaudible voice, "I'm so sorry Prongs; good bye my friend." I watch as he leans back in to the arms of the wind, falling to his death.
I stand there in shock for what seems like hours before I run over to the window just in time to see Sirius hit the ground with a sickening crack. I hear myself scream as tears steam down my face like a river. I'm shaking uncontrollable.
I need help! Someone has to help me! Someone has to care what happens to Sirius. Dumbledore is way to busy to care about one student because he is way to busy with other important things. McGonagall, she'll help him for sure; she may not like him but she should be willing to help anyone from her house.
Tears still stream down my face as I jog toward her office. It only takes me about two minutes to get there, I've timed it before because of all the times of gotten kicked out of Astronomy class. I immediately start to bang on her door.
The door flies open to revel her standing there with an angry expression on her face. She instantly says, "Mr. Potter!" her face changes to worry when she notices the tears falling from my face. "What is wrong?"
I manage to choke out the story between sobs. He face looks terrified. I knew she would be a little worried but I didn't expect terrified. I can only image how terrible I must look from all the crying I've done today. "Go," was all she managed to say before she took off running down the hall.
I stand there wondering what to do. Remus' face pop's into my mind. He doesn't know what's going on. Without another thought I ran up to the Gryffindor common room. I managed to hide my tears until I got in to my dormitory. How I managed to do that I'll never know.
When I got into my room Peter was already asleep. I took on look at Remus before I fell to my knees crying. I know even if I wanted to I would never be able to stop crying. Remus is at my side almost instantly. He's trying to comfort me but he knows he can't. After all he can't help if he doesn't know what's happened. He keeps asking me what's wrong. God, I wish I didn't have to be the one to tell him that one of our best friends is probably dead and it's all it's my fault.
"Sirius," is all I manage to get out between sobs.
Remus' face turns unreadable not knowing what to think. "What about Sirius," he asks. I can't speak. I can't tell him what's happened. The note pop's into my mind; it's still in my pocket. I take it out and hand it to him. Tear's start to stream down his eye's within seconds. "When?" Was all Remus could say.
"A few minutes ago," I say between sobs, "I came just in time to see him fall."
"Oh James," Remus said. We sat there on the floor for the rest of the night just crying, knowing that we were both still there for each other. Around three Remus fell asleep and I did shortly after. It was a comfort to know that tomorrow we should learn the fate of Sirius Black.
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Kyle: I don't like to read.
Ditz: And B.B, whose insanity gets me know where.
B.B: Why did I have to come this is cutting in to my stocking time.
Ditz: Fine go *BB Smiles and runs out dressed in camo* and Ducky
Ducky: *Gives peace sign.*
Ditz: Mostly Bear for her excellent advice.
Bear: Awww Ditz your making me blush
Ditz: And lastly SS for allowing me to bore her with my voice
SS: How did I get here?
Ditz: Hey guy, get out here and do my disclaimer
Guy: LostAngel2 does not on any part of this story or the characters in it.
Ditz: Now on with the second chapter!
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I Wanted To Fly~Tears
By,
LostAngel2
I can't believe Flitwick kicked me out of detention, again," I thought to myself," too bad I have three more on top of that. Maybe I should have asked him if he's ever done it with a girl before. Note to self, by asking that I can get out of detention easily."
I walk into the fifth year dormitory only to find it empty for once. No Remus saying how I should be doing my homework instead of copying him. No Peter saying how hungry he is and that they should all go down to the kitchen to get something to eat. Lastly no Sirius sitting on his bed doing his homework looking like the traitor he has become.
Now the way I see it I have got two choices right now. One I got go grab my homework and actually do it instead of copying Remus and by doing this with more then likely make Remus cry with joy. Two I could go take a nice long and wonderful nap. Well this isn't a fair competition seeing this as hard as picking between liver and chocolate.
I take a running leap and land softly in the center of my bed. It feels so comfortable now then it has ever felt. I hear Remus in the back of me hear scolding me for not doing my homework. It's a waste of time when I could just get the same amount of information copying him five minutes before class.
Sirius and I copied him a lot in our third year. Sirius, the traitor. How could he betray us, his friends, his brothers? I still can't get over the choice he made. What makes me madder, if that's possible, is the fact that Remus wanted to forgive him. He had said something like he doesn't deserve this. He's right he deserves worse. I yelled at Remus and he hasn't brought it up since.
I decide this isn't worth thinking about now. I slide off my glasses and put them on the nightstand next to me. As I pull my hand away I feel a piece of parchment. I put my glasses back on and look at the letter, its from Sirius.
I don't know if I should read it. Makebe I sould tear it up and leave it on his bed. No, that's too mean; I should do it infornt of his face. Remus would yell at me for doing that. Then again I've done plenty of things Remus has yelled at me for.
Curiosity over took me and I read the parchment, despite how mad I was. I felt my face twist into a look of horror. He was crazy but according to this letter he was crazy enough to kill himself. He wasn't that crazy, was he. After all he had never tried to kill himself before. Well other then that time last year. That was the first time I had ever send Sirius cry.
I remember that day so well Bellatrix and Narcissus had told him he was a disgrace to the Black family name. Sirius had run off after the fight. I remember when we had found him, I was terrified. Sirius was sitting there on his bed a knife to his wrist. There was even a small drop of Sirius crimson blood on the blade. I remember the rest of the night we all sat there crying in silence on his bed.
How could I have been so blind? Remus had seen that sooner or later Sirius would snap and get desperate enough to kill himself. How could I have not seen it and let Sirius even get close to this idea? This has to be some type of sick joke. Sirius can't be this desperate, could he? Of course he could he's been along so long he's go mad. I've got to stop him.
I leap off my bed and sprint out the room. I'm running as fast as my legs can carry me. I'm almost near the corridor nearest to the astronomy tower. People keep staring at me as I run down the corridors. I almost fall as I turn the corner but I quickly regain my balance not bothering to slow down.
I'm finally at the stairs to the astronomy tower. I run up the stairs two at a time determined not to fall. I finally reach the door that Sirius should be behind. I keep hopping when I open the door Sirius is standing there laughing say how it was all a joke. I open the door to see Sirius standing there on the window edge he's deep eyes looking into mine.
"Sirius!" I hear myself yell. My body has gone numb with fear. Sirius just stands there not breaking the stare. He has a small smile on his face. This isn't his normal 'I'm the coolest guy in the world smile'; this was a smile of some psycho. A smile that didn't belong on the face of my best friend.
Sirius looks at me now with a combination of joy and pure insanity. He whispers in an almost inaudible voice, "I'm so sorry Prongs; good bye my friend." I watch as he leans back in to the arms of the wind, falling to his death.
I stand there in shock for what seems like hours before I run over to the window just in time to see Sirius hit the ground with a sickening crack. I hear myself scream as tears steam down my face like a river. I'm shaking uncontrollable.
I need help! Someone has to help me! Someone has to care what happens to Sirius. Dumbledore is way to busy to care about one student because he is way to busy with other important things. McGonagall, she'll help him for sure; she may not like him but she should be willing to help anyone from her house.
Tears still stream down my face as I jog toward her office. It only takes me about two minutes to get there, I've timed it before because of all the times of gotten kicked out of Astronomy class. I immediately start to bang on her door.
The door flies open to revel her standing there with an angry expression on her face. She instantly says, "Mr. Potter!" her face changes to worry when she notices the tears falling from my face. "What is wrong?"
I manage to choke out the story between sobs. He face looks terrified. I knew she would be a little worried but I didn't expect terrified. I can only image how terrible I must look from all the crying I've done today. "Go," was all she managed to say before she took off running down the hall.
I stand there wondering what to do. Remus' face pop's into my mind. He doesn't know what's going on. Without another thought I ran up to the Gryffindor common room. I managed to hide my tears until I got in to my dormitory. How I managed to do that I'll never know.
When I got into my room Peter was already asleep. I took on look at Remus before I fell to my knees crying. I know even if I wanted to I would never be able to stop crying. Remus is at my side almost instantly. He's trying to comfort me but he knows he can't. After all he can't help if he doesn't know what's happened. He keeps asking me what's wrong. God, I wish I didn't have to be the one to tell him that one of our best friends is probably dead and it's all it's my fault.
"Sirius," is all I manage to get out between sobs.
Remus' face turns unreadable not knowing what to think. "What about Sirius," he asks. I can't speak. I can't tell him what's happened. The note pop's into my mind; it's still in my pocket. I take it out and hand it to him. Tear's start to stream down his eye's within seconds. "When?" Was all Remus could say.
"A few minutes ago," I say between sobs, "I came just in time to see him fall."
"Oh James," Remus said. We sat there on the floor for the rest of the night just crying, knowing that we were both still there for each other. Around three Remus fell asleep and I did shortly after. It was a comfort to know that tomorrow we should learn the fate of Sirius Black.
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