Dedication: Okay this chapter is dedicated to my dear friends Mama Kitty who corrected this story, Bookie-Bird who corrected the story when I was to lazy to dig through my backpack to get the corrections, and to everybody who has actually read this story all the way through because I would have given up after a chapter. Congratulation people, the story is over.
I Wanted to Fly
Chapter 5- Want
Sirius's POV
Darkness was the first thing I saw. Where was I at and why was everything so dark? It took me a few moments before I realized the reason why I could not see; my eyes were shut. I tried to open my eyes, but they felt as though they weighed a hundred pounds each! After a few hopeless attempts I let myself rest before I tried again. After what seemed like hours my eyes gave into my persistence and opened.
Bright lights flooded my eyes. I felt like the sun was beaming straight down into them. Once again I found my self wondering where I was. What happened to me? My eyes slowly started to adjust to the bright light. I was in a large room with many beds lined up against the walls. I was in the hospital wing! Wait, what was I doing there? What stupid thing did I do this time to allow myself to end up in here? Was it a prank gone wrong, bad potion, Snape (like he could ever beat me), even a fight?
Reality hit me suddenly with the worst weight and pain ever, the truth! I had thrown myself from the astronomy tower with hopes of dying. How was I still alive after the fall? Everybody known falling from the astronomy tower was a sure death. The note, James got the note I had left on the bed. James had tried to stop me. James still cared despite the harsh words was said to each other.
I looked to the side of my bed to see James curled up in a wicker chair next to my bed. His glasses were almost falling off his nose. Wisps of deep midnight hair hung over his eyes as though trying to conceal the fact that he was sleeping. His face looked as pale as one of the house ghosts. James looked more like a small child instead of a grown teenager. I wanted to wake him but he looked so innocent that even the idea of waking him up seemed silly. Plus when James was asleep he couldn't ignore me like he had for so long now.
I watched James sleep for a few minutes before his eyes fluttered open. I watched him with great amusement. James yawned and stretched his boney yet muscular arms. I noted that James, even though just waking up, had dark circles under his eyes that resembled bruises. James did not even notice that I was awake until he started to look around. Then his eyes fell on me and I felt my heart stop.
"Hello," I crooked out in barely a whisper. James eyes widened and filled with fear and tears as he stared to stutter. Before I knew what happened he had me in a huge bear hug. I smiled and whispered softy into his ear, "I didn't know I was your type."
James laughed even though tears were rolling down his face. "Sirius, I am so-" I held up my hand to cut him off. After all I was the one who was at fault. I was a traitor. James was the real hero, my hero. I was a Black, so that made me an all out jerk, but my last name did not matter to James because he gave me a chance. That was why James was my hero, because he gave me a chance.
"I'm the one who's sorry. This is my fault. Not just the suicide but Remus being exposed. I was born to mess up peoples lives." I managed to spit out. James was about to cut me off so I continued, "James, you're my best friend and I know you have every right to be mad at me; but, you will always be my best friend. I know I am not worthy be your best friend, and I will never be able to find someone as kind and nice as you in a million year."
Then James did something I did not expect, he started to cry. Not the small streams of tears from before but large tears and whimpering. Through his tears he said. "Please come back Padfoot, please. Be a Marauder again with us. Please be my best friend again. That is all I want right at this moment is for you and I to be best friends. All I want is you Sirius. I want my best friend."
That is when all the pain I had ever felt in my life was released allowing the tears that I had held in for so long to spill across my face. "Yes!" I cried weakly. James smiled and once more we hugged only this time James refused to let go. I had never felt so safe as I did in James arms.
A/N: Well this was the last chapter. I do want to write an epilogue but I will only post it if people want me to. So review if you what the epilogue and if I get enough I will post it. Remember flames will be used to burn up bad O.W.L and N.E.W.T. scores.
