Stop Saying You Love Me

Disclaimer: I don't own anything cept the plot n' the oc =) ya... please RR! Thanks.

(Harry & gang are in their 7th year).

Warning: THIS IS A DARK FIC. IT HAS CHILD ABUSE, RAPE, BEATING AND OTHERS. IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE ABOUT THESE THINGS, PLEASE LEAVE NOW. IT IS RATED R.

I have school and a lot of homework...so I might not be able to update that fast...--' ya. I'll work on this...Mondays n' Wednesdays n' sometimes Saturday n' Sunday...so don't expect me to update really fast. --'

(BTW, Draco is a Veela in my story, but none of those "looking for his mate" in my story =D but they are pretty good stories...go check 'em out)

Still no beta...--' and I was rereading my story and I saw a lot of grammar mistakes cuz I was singing while I was writing this...sorry...I'll try and make my beta beta it...--'

(and who ever said that Harry didn't want to take the POTION? =D snicker)

[Happiness]

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Sometimes we make

Terrible mistakes And then while

We come to overlook a little

Like onlookers We start to walk

As if nothing had happened

But I remember today

That the fighting never ends

Maybe everyone did so to protect love

-- Forgiveness – Ayumi Hamasaki

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Oct. 25

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It was a Monday and since Draco was excused from classes that day, he didn't know what to do. So he decided to visit Harry.

Wondering if Harry woke up yet, he opened the door and was greeted by loud shouting.

"NO! STOP IT!"

"POTTER!! YOU HAVE TO TAKE IT! IF YOU DON'T, YOU'LL BE IN HERE FOR A LONG TIME! You are exhausted and if you drink this you'll feel better!

"NO! DON'T TOUCH ME!"

"What is wrong with you Potter?" Draco stepped next to the curtain drawn bed and saw Madam Pomfrey holding a potion, her other hand on Harry's chest, trying to hold him down. Harry was thrashing around.

"STOP! STOP! NO!" There was panicking expression on his face and his eyes weren't really focused on Pomfrey. Now Draco understood.

"Pomfrey! Take your hand off his chest." He said as he walked over to Harry. Pomfrey looked at him, surprised, but took her hand off Harry. Harry somewhat calmed down but was still mumbling to himself. His eyes were blank and slightly open. Draco put his hand on Harry's eyes.

"Shh...it's ok. No one here will hurt you." Harry immediately calmed down when he heard Draco's voice. Pomfrey was surprised and Draco was too.

"He wasn't even awake Pomfrey. He was having a nightmare." Madam Pomfrey looked from Harry to Draco and back to Harry again. Draco casually pulled up a chair and sat down.

Draco looked at Madam Pomfrey.

"You can go. I'll give him the potion when he wakes." Pomfrey huffed for being ordered around but she still listened to him.

"Remember to give him the potion right when he wakes!"

"Yes, okay, now can you leave?" Malfoy asked, annoyed. Pomfrey looked murderously at Malfoy but left. When Draco was sure she was out of the room, he looked back at Harry in wonder.

"I wonder why his life is always like this."

(snicker...who said anything about a potion?)

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"Ow! Shit!"

"Ronald Weasley! What have I told you about cursing?"

"Sorry 'Mione. I just...tripped on something." Ron said sheepishly. He looked back and saw nothing. "Err..."

Hermione sighed and saw a little blood on Ron's leg.

"Come on. Let's get you to Madam Pomfrey and heal your leg up." They headed towards the infirmary.

When they got there, they saw Malfoy walk in.

"Wonder why he's going in there? He doesn't look hurt or sick."

"Yea and he didn't come to any classes today. The snobby bastard...Sorry 'Mione. Probably got some stupid excuse it skip it all." They opened the door a little and peeked in but recoiled when they heard a loud screaming.

"NO! STOP IT!"

"POTTER!! YOU HAVE TO TAKE IT! IF YOU DON'T, YOU'LL BE IN HERE FOR A LONG TIME! You are exhausted and if you drink this you'll feel better!

"NO! DON'T TOUCH ME!"

They looked at each other in surprise.

"It's Harry." Hermione mouthed. Ron nodded and they slowly creped in. They watched the whole scene, surprised, but were interrupted by Madame Pomfrey.

"What are you to doing here?" Madame Pomfrey didn't really like Ron and Hermione anymore because of their cruelty to Harry, the boy that practically spent half his time at Hogwarts in the infirmary, literary speaking of course.

"Umm...Ron needs y0u to heal his leg." Madame Pomfrey looked at his leg and with a flick of her wand, it healed.

"Now you may go." Pomfrey slightly glared at them.

"Madame Pomfrey? What's wrong with Harry?"

Pomfrey looked at them in surprise. "Since when did you care about Mr. Potter's health?"

"Please." Pomfrey looked at Hermione pleading face.

"He is suffering from exhaustion. I cannot touch him for some reason. He goes insane and he has constant nightmares that don't seem to be about You-Know-Who. Now please go." Then she left. Hermione and Ron looked at the curtains hiding Malfoy and Harry from view. They felt guilty and were actually worried about him. Taking one last glance, they turned and headed for the door. They were surprised to hear what Malfoy said.

"I wonder why his life is always like this."

They looked at each other with wide eyes, but decided to leave in case Malfoy came out.

Draco Malfoy, the Silver Ice Prince of Slytherin, was showing concern for none other than the Boy-Who-Lived??

Hell has finally frozen over.

But then again...it already froze over when Harry "betrayed" them...

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Oct. 26

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Ron and Hermione were quiet as they ate their lunch, wondering what exactly happened to Harry. They felt guilty of what they did to Harry.

Malfoy showed up in his classes today, but still no Harry. They thought about approaching Malfoy to ask him what happened. They looked at Malfoy and saw him glaring at Blaise while Blaise was looking rather happy.

'Weird...' Hermione thought.

Lunch was over and a while later, it was dinner time. The last two of the Golden Trio decided to skip it and headed to the infirmary. They were quiet the whole time while they were walking there, wondering to themselves why the hell they were doing this.

When they got their and opened the door, it turns out that a certain Slytherin decided to skip dinner too.

The curtains around Harry's bed were drawn yet again, but there were shadows behind it. Malfoy, it seemed, had folded his arms on the bed and was staring at Harry's sleeping form.

Hermione and Ron quietly closed the door and crept closer. Malfoy was talking in a hushed voice. They couldn't hear what he said but they picked some words out.

"Why...miserable...sorry...friends...betrayed...Harry...uncle..."

Then suddenly, it stopped and the curtains were wrenched open before Hermione and Ron could hide. They stared into Draco Malfoy's glaring face.

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Draco stared at the sleeping person on the infirmary bed.

"Why is your life always so miserable? I'm sorry that your friends betrayed you Harry, and Blaise too. And your uncle..." Draco felt stupid, talking to a person that was obviously asleep, but it comforted himself for some weird reason. Then, his veela ears picked something up and he could smell something in the room. He stood up abruptly and pushed the curtains aside. It revealed two horrified faces of getting caught

"Granger...Weasel...how nice of you to be here. Now, why the hell are you here?"

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They were both wondering how Malfoy knew they were there but quickly snapped out of it.

"Can we not visit our friend when he's in the infirmary?" Ron snarled.

Malfoy smirked, "Since when did friends betray each other anyways? I believe it was you two who left him for the crime he supposedly committed with no proof of it." Ron glared.

"Sod off you spoiled git. We can come to the infirmary anytime we want. Plus, it was just a misunderstanding."

Draco felt white-hot anger leap inside him. (A/N: Haha =P)

"A MISUNDERSTANDING?" but he quickly quieted down. He turned back and looked at Harry. Harry stirred but didn't' wake. Draco turned back to the source of his anger and motioned them to go outside. Then walk out himself.

Hermione and Ron hesitantly followed and when the door of the infirmary was securely closed behind them, Draco exploded in front of them.

"A misunderstanding? A MISUNDERSTANDING?!?!?! YOU CALL THAT A MISUNDERSTANDING??!?! WHAT ARE YOU? RETARDED?? Well guess what, your 'misunderstanding' nearly killed Harry, Ok? Do you know HOW much you hurt him??"

Ron and Hermione stared at the ground, ashamed, when Hermione realized what he just said.

"Killed? What do you mean we nearly killed Harry? Someone tried to kill Harry? But what does that have to do with us not being with him?" Draco mentally slapped himself for letting that out. Then he cursed Harry for have such stupid friends, even though Granger was one of the top three in the class.

"Well, you can go ask Harry when he wakes." Draco turned around, wanting to go back to Harry.

"Wait!" Draco turned around.

"What do you want?" He snarled.

"Please, when Harry wakes up, can you tell him to come to the Gryffindor Tower? The password is 'Buckbeak'." Draco stared at them for a second

"Fine." Then he turned and went back into the infirmary.

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One hour later, Harry started to stir awake. When he opened his eyes, he first noticed Draco Malfoy looking at him.

"You know, I can get use to this."

"To what?" Draco asked.

"Seeing you when I wake up." Harry said, smiling. Draco smiled too and he knew that they were definitely friends now. Or was it more? He didn't know. But he did know that he wanted to be with Harry and protect him. Call Harry his.

"Harry, Granger and the Weasel came over to see you." Harry's expression immediately darkened.

"What did they want?"

"They wanted you to go to the Gryffindor tower when you wake." Harry looked up at Draco in confusion.

"Why?"

"Dunno. They just said that the password was 'Buckbeak,' the name of that bird/horse that almost killed me." Harry snickered.

"Buckbeak didn't try to kill you. You were just a spoiled brat back then." Harry said, smirking. Draco faked a hurt look. Then gave up when Harry started laughing.

"Oh shush up. Get your arse out of bed and drag it over to the goody- two-shoe tower." 'Back then ehh?' Draco smirked.

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Harry headed toward the Gryffindor tower and was getting more nervous with each step. Draco had offered to come with him but he had a feeling the Gryffindors didn't want a Slytherin in their dormitory.

'I wonder if Draco and I have a relationship. As friends I mean. Or maybe more...?' Harry started to have feelings for the Slytherin Prince but he was still afraid of getting betrayed. Trust...was something he'll never learn.

He was standing in front of the Fat Lady, who was sleeping. He gently knocked on the portrait to wake her up. The Fat Lady snorted and opened on bleary eye. Her eyes widened when she saw who it was.

"Harry! Long time no see! I missed you a lot." Harry smiled.

"I missed you too. Buckbeak." The Fat Lady chuckled and swung forward, allowing Harry through. Harry's heart pounded even harder as he climbed through the hole.

The common room was empty except for Hermione and Ron, who were sitting on the couch in front of the fire, staring at him. Harry gulped.

"Umm...hi?" Hermione stared at his fragile state.

"Harry, can you come sit with us?" Hermione asked sincerely. Harry nervously walked forward and sat on the love seat across from his friends.

At first there was an uncomfortable silence. Hermione looked up and saw Harry staring into the fire.

'He looks so insecure.' Hermione decided to speak up.

"Harry...we just wanted to tell you that...we are sorry. There was no way for you to have known what was going to happen. We were just distraught that time and humans usually blame things on other people than themselves right?" Harry slowly nodded.

"Harry. We hope you forgive us." There was true guilt and sadness in Ron and Hermione's eyes. Harry stared at them. He was having a battle with the angel and devil in his head. Turns out the angel won.

"Ok..." He whispered, wanting friends there for him was the thing he wanted to most now, even though they did all those things to him. Hermione and Ron sighed in relief and then they smiled.

"Thank you Harry." Then, Harry start began to smile too.

For a few moments, they started talking about normal things. About thing they use to talk about, like Quidditch and family life. Hermione mentioned Draco and Harry blushed.

"He was by you a lot while you were asleep. And he calmed you down a lot when you were having a fit." Harry blushed and looked down. This made Hermione chuckle.

Then Ron mentioned something that made his heart tear apart.

"What happened to Zabini?"

Harry snapped his head up with horror in his eyes. He stared at Ron as memories started to flash in front of his eyes. Harry lifted his clutched hands to his temples and started to shake his head back and forth.

"No...no...no......" Harry moaned as images flashed before his eyes. Hermione and Ron stared at him in horror.

"Harry? What's wrong?" But Harry didn't seem to have heard her. "Harry...? Harry! What's wrong?" Still no reaction. Hermione got up and sat next to Harry.

"Harry!! Snap out of it! Stop it Harry! You're scaring me!" Hermione ripped Harry's hands away from his head and for a second, when Harry looked up, pain and fear was evident in his eyes.

"Harry Potter!" Hermione shouted. That seemed to have gotten through Harry. He blinked a few times and stared at Hermione, a single tear running down his face.

Hermione's eyes softened. "What happened Harry...?"

Harry felt his eyebrows scrunched up in pain and his throat clogging up. Harry couldn't take it anymore. He spilled everything out, from the very beginning to the very last detail. From his own uncle raping him to meeting Blaise after the incident with Ron. To the "surprise" Blaise gave him to him falling out the window to Draco staying by his bed side.

When Harry was done, tears were streaming down his face; some clung on his glasses so he couldn't see very clearly. Hermione took his glasses off and repaired his eyes. Harry saw Hermione crying too. She let out a small sob and flung her arms around him. He clung onto her arms and started sobbing too.

"You can cry Harry. Everyone can cry, even you." Hermione said through all the tears.

Ron got up and walked over to them. He dropped on his knees and hugged Hermione and Harry close to him. Tears started to form on his face too.

"We're so sorry Harry..."

And for the whole night, they stayed like that. Ginny got up early the next morning and saw them sleeping in the same position. Ginny smiled.

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WWAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!! T-T So sad...ok...so maybe not but STILL...Ok...ya...whatever...and sleeping in the same position...ouch...they're gunna be really sore when they wake up. =P

Ya...I guess I dedicate this Chapter to DancerChick314 for giving me this idea! Hehe =D

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Chapter 7 teaser (and ONCE again, please read everything in both the author's note. The one on the top AND bottom, especially you DancerChick314!! =P)

"Are you OK?" Draco asked softly with his hands against Harry's cheek. Harry leaned into the touch.

"Yes." Harry sighed and started rubbing his cheek against Draco's palm when he remembered the other three people in the room. He quickly pulled away and blushed. Hermione and Ron started to chuckle while Ginny shook her head. Draco smirked.

"Are you going to move back here?" Harry thought for a moment.

"No, I like the new room. You guys don't mind right?" They quickly shook their heads. Harry smiled at them.

"It's great to have you guys back."

"You too Harry."

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=D snicker

Cassie