Stop Saying You Love Me

Disclaimer: I don't own anything cept the plot n' the oc =) ya... please RR! Thanks.

(Harry & gang are in their 7th year).

Warning: THIS IS A DARK FIC. IT HAS CHILD ABUSE, RAPE, BEATING AND OTHERS. IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE ABOUT THESE THINGS, PLEASE LEAVE NOW. IT IS RATED R.

I have school and a lot of homework...so I might not be able to update that fast...--' ya. I'll work on this...Mondays n' Wednesdays n' sometimes Saturday n' Sunday...so don't expect me to update really fast. --'

(BTW, Draco is a Veela in my story, but none of those "looking for his mate" in my story =D but they are pretty good stories...go check 'em out)

[Recovery]

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It would be nice if we could put away and throw out

Everything except what really mattered, but

Reality is just cruel.

In such times,

I see you laughing

Whenever I close my eyes.

Until the day I reach eternal sleep,

That smiling face will

Have to stay with me without fail.

-- Dearest – Ayumi Hamasaki

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Oct. 27

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Draco Malfoy was bored out of his mind. After Harry left, he started to wander around the school. It was only 5:30 am so he didn't have any classes yet. He was just wandering...wandering...wandering...he yawned loudly. He was wondering whether Harry was killed by the Gryffindors when he was snapped out of his thoughts by a giggling voice.

"Now who are you handsome young man?" a fat woman on the wall started to batter her eyelashes at Draco. He rolled his eyes. Even his veela charms worked on portraits.

"Is this the Gryffindor common room?" The heck with it, since he was so bored, Draco started to flirt with her. The portrait giggled again.

"Why yes. I haven't seen you around. What's your name?" Draco sighed; this was getting boring pretty fast.

"Buckbeak." The Fat Lady frowned but swung open. As Draco stepped in , he could make out the Fat Lady wondering whether he said the password or if that was his name. Ginny just came down the stairs and he watched her smile at the tangle of bodies. He started to stare at the lump too. Then Ginny looked up and widened her eyes with a gasp.

"You! What are you doing here?" Ginny asked in a harsh whisper. Draco snorted.

"I came to see if Harry died yet." He smirked. Ginny frowned at him but turned back to the Golden Trio.

"They are going to be really sore when they wake up." Ginny mused.

"No shit."

After a few moments, the three people started to stir. Harry first opened his eyes, then Hermione and Ron. They untangled themselves and started to moan about sore muscles when they noticed they weren't alone. They looked back and forth between Draco and Ginny. Then they looked down and blushed. Draco shook his head and walked up to Harry. He saw that his eyes were puffy from crying.

"Are you OK?" He asked softly with his hands against Harry's cheek. Harry leaned into the touch.

"Yes." Harry sighed and started rubbing his cheek against Draco's palm when he remembered the other three people in the room. He quickly pulled away and blushed. Hermione and Ron started to chuckle while Ginny shook her head. Draco smirked.

"Are you going to move back here?" Harry thought for a moment.

"No, I like the new room. You guys don't mind right?" They quickly shook their heads. Harry smiled at them.

"It's great to have you guys back."

"You too Harry."

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Everyone around them started to put their heads together, whispering. But the group ignored it and continued on their way.

"Did you hear...they're friends again..."

"Yea, I heard that Potter went to the Gryffindor tower and they had a duel. At the end, Potter used dark magic and won and bribed Granger and Weasely into being his friend..."

Harry rolled his eyes. The castle rumors were getting hopeless. But what was even stranger was that Draco Malfoy was walking with them with his arms protectively around Harry's shoulders. Draco heard the rumors too.

"Hey, Harry. You okay?" Draco asked with concern in his eyes. Harry's heart lifted and felt special knowing that the concern was directed to him.

"Ye..." He trailed off when he turned to face the front. Blaise stood there in front of him leaning on the wall. He was glaring at Harry and Harry immediately backed up. Draco followed his eye and saw Blaise too. Draco took his arms off of Harry's shoulders and stood protectively in front of Harry, joined with Hermione and Ron.

Blaise sneered and pushed himself off the wall. He walked up to Harry but Draco stepped up and gave him a glare that would make Snape run away, screaming like a girl (A/N: seriously imagine Snape doing that –snicker--). Blaise's glare faltered a little bit but he stood his ground.

"So Potter," He spat out the name, "hiding behind people now, huh? So I guess you told them? Didn't I warn you not to?" Blaise started forward but was pushed back by Draco.

"Fuck off you bastard and go screw yourself." He sneered. Hermione was about to tell him off for cussing but quickly realized that this wasn't the time.

Blaise glared, "Make me."

Draco whipped out his wand and pointed it straight at Blaise's heart. Blaise started to back off because he knew that Lucius did in fact teach Draco the dark arts. The turned and glared at Harry.

"I'll be back." Harry couldn't help but chuckle at that phrase when it reminded him of a muggle movie. Everyone was staring at him weirdly, and then Hermione started to laugh too. Their laughter grew louder and louder and had to cling onto each other to keep each other up. Tears started to come too. Blaise was turning into different shades of red which made Harry laugh even harder. Blaise glared at them one last time and whipped around, his robes billowing from under him. Harry laughed even HARDER.

"S-snape w-wannabe." He said between gasps. Ron started to smile and laugh too but Draco was still staring at them as if they were all mad. After a while, they finally calmed down and were on their way to breakfast. Harry felt alive since he hadn't laughed like that in a long time. Draco was still looking at them.

"I don't' even want to know what you were laughing at."

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They got to the Great Hall and Harry, Hermione, and Ron said goodbye to Draco and sat down at the Gryffindor table. Draco let his gaze linger on Harry for a few seconds and walked to the Slytherin table. Blaise had an annoyed face and was playing with his food. Draco snorted and started to fill his plate with food. He was eating scrambled eggs and was stealing glances at Harry. Harry caught him a few times and smiled at him, then he turned back to his "new" friends.

Every time Draco saw Harry smile at him, he couldn't help but smile back. He was happy just looking at Harry and that bright smile.

Breakfast was over and it seems like Harry made friends with his housemates again. Harry, Hermione, Ron, Ginny, Dean, Seamus, and Neville were on their way to DADA. They were talking about Quidditch and how Gryffindor got squashed by Malfoy. Harry was back on the team and promised that he'll beat Draco and get all the points back.

Draco saw Harry and walked up to him.

"Harry, can I talk to you for a moment?" Draco wanted ask Harry where they were. The Gryffindors who didn't know about Draco's relationship with Harry stood protectively in front of Harry. Harry smiled and brushed past them and walked up to Draco.

"Sure Draco." And He grabbed his arm in an almost loving way and was about to lead the Slytherin away when Hermione interrupted. They turned around and saw a crowd of amazed faces. Harry couldn't help but smirk.

"Class is about to start so you guys better hurry!" Harry nodded at Hermione and followed Draco out of the castle. Harry sat on one of the benches and Draco lied down on the table, Harry's hand still on his arm. They were silent for a few moments, enjoying each other's company and the sunny sky and breezy wind. Then Draco decided to ask.

"Harry?"

"Yeah?"

"..."

"Draco?"

"Hmm...?"

"Err...are you going to ask me something, cause if you aren't, class is about to start." He heard Draco sigh.

"Harry, what are we right now?" Harry was confused.

"We're...wizards...?" Draco would have slapped his head if he wasn't so lazy.

"I mean us. What are we? Friends?" Harry thought for a moment.

"I dunno...what do you want us to be."

Silence...

"Draco???"

"Well..."

Harry turned back to Draco and met his icy blue/silver eyes. He always liked the color of his eyes. And Draco liked his, Emerald with a ting of brown and gold.

"Go out with me." Harry was taken back.

"What?"

"Go out with me." Draco repeated.

"I...don't know..." He didn't want the same thing to happen with Blaise. 'I don't think I can take that anymore.' He looked down at the grass while Draco stared at him. He knew what Harry was thinking.

He took Harry's hand off his arm and clasped his hands around it.

"I won't hurt you Harry. I promise I won't. I'll never do what Blaise did...or your uncle." Harry flinched at the mention of the two, "I swear Harry, and I'd kill myself before I do." Harry looked up and saw Draco's eyes again. He closed his eyes again and felt the nice sun on his back. He opened his eyes. He saw trust in Draco's eyes. He could really learn to trust. Really, he could.

"Ok." He whispered and pulled Draco down. They were practically nose to nose and were staring in each other's eyes. Harry then wrapped his arms around Draco's neck and Draco wrapped his arms around Harry's waist and pulled him on the table. Then their lips met in an innocent sweet kiss.

They people that didn't have class at that time were staring at them. They're eyes widened as if they saw Snape singing, "I'm so pretty," in a pink dress (imagine that too =P). Draco got annoyed. He stopped kissing Harry and glared at them.

"Stop bloody staring." He snarled. Harry chuckled and leaned into the crook of Draco's neck, sitting on Draco's lap. Draco wrapped his around Harry. Harry closed his eyes and sighed, feeling content.

Draco looked down at Harry and saw the thick black glasses Harry always wore. He shook his head in disgust and flung the glasses off of him. Then he permanently repaired his eyes.

"There, no more of those hideous glasses." Draco mumbled. Harry couldn't help but smile.

But cold brown eyes stared out the wind on the forth floor, glaring at the two figures on the bench.

'I swear...you two will pay!"

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They ended up skipping DADA, Transfiguration, AND Potions so it was soon time for lunch. They were walking with Harry's arm loosely around Draco's. They were chatting when Harry finally noticed the absence of his too body guards.

"Where's your two goons?" Draco just shrugged.

"They were sent to the States for some reason. Probably because their fathers are in Azkaban and his family wanted to escape."

"But isn't your father also in Azkaban." Draco shrugged again and looked bored.

"I guess they least suspected us because me and my mum never actually supported Voldemort and I never actually planed to be a Death Eater. I was never close to father. He was always away on business trips. I was close to mother though. She was kind and caring. I love her very much." Draco smiled at the memory of his mother, unaware of Harry also smiling at the happiness on Draco's face.

'I hope on day, Draco will also smile like that when he thinks of me.'

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Lunch, gone. Dinner, over with. It was just before curfew and Harry and Draco was sitting in the Astronomy tower. Draco had refused to come here, afraid that Harry might fall out again. But Harry argued that he'll be careful and that last time he only fell because he was exhausted.

They were currently cuddled up with a blanket wrapped around them. Harry was sitting in between Draco's legs and Draco was leaning against the wall near to the windows. Harry was leaning against Draco's shoulder so that their faces were next to each other. Their heads were turned and were have a heated snog.

Harry was starting to get tired and closed his eyes. Draco kissed the back of his neck and was sliding his hands up and down Harry's body. Harry let out a soft moan and Draco started nibbling and sucking on Harry's neck. His hands were trailing from Harry's cheek to his chest to his stomach. He continued down and rested his hand on Harry's lap. Then he slid it to his left and it was near Harry's groin. He was ABOUT to continue but then Harry gasped and slapped his hands away and scrambled to the other side of the room. He accidentally tripped on something and was falling out the window...

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Harry was enjoying Draco's touches. They were going lower and lower and Harry let out a moan. The hands kept going and going...and...going...

'Pant...moan...oh...Harry...so tight...huff...Harry...'

Harry's eyes snapped open and ripped the hands away and he tried to get away but he lost his balance and instead of running, he was scrambling. He tripped on a loose rock and was falling towards the open window. Draco got up in time and pulled him to safety. Harry was leaning on Draco, trying to make it beat slower.

"You'll be careful huh?" He glanced up at Draco. Draco had a confused and hurt face. Harry felt his eyebrows scrunch up again.

"I'm sorry." And he let out a dry sob.

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Draco started at Harry panting. He wrapped his arms around him and hugged him tight. He felt Harry stiffen.

"I'm sorry."

"It's ok, Harry." He whispered, "No one here will hurt you."

"I'm sorry." Harry said, barely audible. They stayed there for the whole night.

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Dec. 23

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It was the day when everyone signed up on whether anyone will stay for Christmas. When it got to Harry, he saw that he was the only one who'll stay at Hogwarts. Hermione and Ron decided to go to the Burrow and Draco wanted to visit his mother. He apologized but Harry said it was ok.

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Dec. 24

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It seems like Harry was the only one staying, minus the professors. It was time for the people to go and Draco and Harry were standing by the doors. Their arms were wrapped around each other and having a goodbye snog while others were looking and staring at them. They didn't notice of course. When they finally pulled apart, Draco looked into Harry's eyes and smile.

"OI!" It was Ron.

"Are you going to go now or snog some more, because the carriages are about to leave!"

"Bye Harry." Draco said, giving him one last kiss.

"Bye." Draco started towards Ron and Hermione. He turned back and blew a kiss to Harry. Harry blushed and looked down. When Draco saw Harry embarrassed, he smirked, waved, and disappeared into a carriage.

"Goodbye Draco."

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WELL!! There ya go. I just finished and tomorrow's Finals so you BETTER THANK ME!!! I mean...I haven't even studied yet...T-T...I'm gunna fail.

My beta is STILL busy. I'm STILL in school and she ISN'T and I thought she would have MORE time since it's summer VACATION there but NOOOOOO...she joined this summer class of Computer Graphics T-T –SOB-- so guys hafta wait for a better version of the story...--'

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Ch. 11 Teaser (please look at the A/N...bla bla bla...etc...ya...--')

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Remus Lupin's face appeared in the fire place.

"Hello Narcissa. Hello Draco. Don't you two look just lovely today."

Draco shook his head while Narcissa smiled.

"Why thank you Remus. Why don't you come in and have tea with us?"

"I would love to but it's an emergency and I have something to tell Draco." Draco looked up at his name.

"What is it?" Remus looked at him sadly.

"Harry was attacked."

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--Grin--Yes...I'm not done torturing Harry...I plan on torturing him through the whole story! =D –evil grin—Don't worry...it'll be a happy ending like you guys wanted. I love Harry...but he's so...torturable (not a word...I know) But Blaise will get beat up like you guys want him to...so no worries!!!

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You don't hafta read anything below this but if you wanna know why it took me so long to update, reaadddd –

Okay then...here is my little sob story. I was done writing chapter's 7 and 8 (if you wanna know why type two chapters...read my bio) and I saved it and was getting ready to sleep...trying to get ready for my finals the next day...I was going to turn the computer off but my sister said she wanted to use it so I left it on and went to sleep (I decided to post the chapter up after finals)

When the finals are over...I turn on the computer...and the computer...dies...-- ' (note that I forgot about my story) so I think...'oh well...no harm done.' So my dad comes home from work and I tell him about the computer and ask him why. He said it was a virus. He said that we might hafta reload the whole computer and delete everything. And I'm thinking, 'oh...it's ok...nothing important in there...'

So...I go take a shower and I was thinking about stuff when my mind took me to the computer...then I froze when I realized something.

I DIDN'T POST UP MY CHAPTER!!! AND THEY HAFTA DELETE IT!?!?!?!? So...I started panicking and was thinking...do I hafta retype the whooollleee thing?!?!?!

So...my dad takes it to his office to be fixed...and I'm like...'hope hope hope...'

A few weeks later...my dad said that all files are saved and everything...and I'm like YES!!!!!!!

Then...a few days later...I said...can we get our computer now? And we drove to the office and got it. Then I said, "Thank god my files are saved!!" and my dad said something about it might not be saved...and then I started panicking again...--'

So we get home and plug up the computer and stuff...and I check...AND MY FILES ARE SAVED!!!

So here I am...all happy and stuff...and you better be happy that I didn't hafta retype the whole thing...cuz I might have given up =P ehehheeheh

High five if you read the whole thing =P

--Cassie