Chapter 11 : Love me again
"Why am I thinking at him?"she asked herself loudly.Hotaru was alone in her room,resting.The wound was better,but it hurt her the same.But it wasn't a phisicall paine…it was something more….
"Because you like him!"a voice answered in her mind.
"Who….Who are you?"she asked in her mind.
"I'm you.The real you.I'm Hotaru."
"No,I'm Hotaru……I am her…"
"You are the future Hotaru…..I am the one who loves Sesshoumaru…..you love him too…"
"NO!I…..how can I love someone who I don't even remember very good?"
"You will find out when he will touch you again….You'll understand and you'll se that you are me,and I am you.We are one…"
With that,Hotaru rised from the bed.She laid down on a chair,in front of a mirror and brushed her hair silently.Her mind was full of thoughts.On a side,she wanted to respond to Sesshoumaru,to his attention,but she was afraid….and the other side…well….was screaming to leave as fast si could…..she could do that….to leave on Saturn…..there…he would never get her….She let the brush on the table.Then she looked closely into the mirror.She saw her new eyes color.So strange….
"This isn't me…."she said loudly.
The she watched her entire body.She was much taller,not like Sesshoumartu,but taller,her legs were so long,and…..her eyes were very big at this moment.She looked at her chest.
"I could get used with this…."she said in her mind.
Then she looked for her ribbon when she felt claws into her hair.She freezed in a second.Then she looked into the mirror.It was him.Tall and gallant like usual,with those amazing sexy eyes,watching her deeply.One hand remaind in her hair,brushing it,and the other one stoped on her neck,easy on her chest.
'Is not…necessary….I could do it myself….'she tried to get up but he stopped her.
He tooked her ribbon and gently tied her hair in a low tail,like Kikyou.Then he let his ahnds on her bare sholdeurs.(she was wearing a nightdress,veeeeeeeeeeeeeery interesting…..).She saw his eye sand understood that she was making him suffer. Something in his cold and silence eyes was telling her to do something,to make his paine smaller.Her heart was so small.She didn't knew,if to do what was she asking her to do.When he tooked his hands from her sholdeurs,she rised up fastly and caught one of his hands,tender and saw his face.He was surprised.Then she surprised him more.She pulled him into her and put one of her hand on his right cheek…and kissed him.He wrapped his hands fastly by her small waist and kept her tight.He returned the kiss,but with a more intense one.His tongue asked permision for her and,after a small esitation,she accepted and let him kiss her his way.And she,for her surprise,responded.His hands went up to her longs,and pressed her body more on his.He enjoyed to feell her shapes on his body.It maked him feel so good..She was breathing faslly and he knew that if the kiss will be broked,the chance to make her remember him,will disappear ,maybe…forever..So he turned her to the bed and maked steps towards it,forcing her to do the same.When they reched the bed he start to untie her nighdress,He opened a few buttons,and sneacked a hand under it,on her back,touching her smooth and young skin.Hotaru was so…unspeakable…..what to do?She wanted to stop him….or not?She broked the kiss and turned the head in the right side.
'We shoud stopp…..'she whispered.
But he didn't want to…So he pushed her,gentley on the bed and came over her.She was looking at him with confusion..But before she could say anything he kissed her deeper and then he start to kiss her neck and her bare sholdeurs.One of his hands was exploring her legs and hips,under the nighdress,without stopp kissing her tender.She was all trembling,and then she tooked him by his neck and stopped him,She looked into his eyes.
'Why are you so interested in me?You're not the tipe…..to fall….'
He looked at her with no words.Then he kissed her hands .
'Let me show you…that I can be the one you dream…'
He tooked her hands and put them over her head,keeping them tight with one of his.She was thinking now…while he was kissing her…What did she dreamed?Did she ever dreamed….something ?Anything?Then she felt his hands on her legs and realized that she never dreamed at a men….the men right to her….did she had the wright to dream at one?She looked at him.He was kissing her collar bone.And then 4 words he heard,in a whisper..
'I do not dream….'
And he stopped.What was he doing?One second he watched her and left the room,leaving her on the bed.
With Sesshi..
"What was I doing?She's not Hotaru…..not the same anyway…..but I want her…..I almost couldn't stopp myself….If me and her will be alone again…I wont be able to stopp….ever…."he thought and tooked a paper and something to write.
Later,that night….
'Too bad Hotaru couldn't join us in the gardens…..'Rey said to Makoto but her fried was distracted by a certain divine boy…
Then she stopped and let them walk away,alone.Kouga camed on her back and wrapped his arms around her waist.
'Kouga,are you nutz?Let me go!'she protested but he spinned her so she was face in face with him.He smirked.
'What?'she asked.
'We're alone..'
Then he kissed her,surprising her.
'Inuyasha…'
'Kikyou…'he whispered.
Then he approached her and they looked into eachothers eyes.
'So much betrayel…'she said in whisper.
'Is there any love for me yet,Kikyou?'he said making a step towards her.
'I don't know Inuyasha….I hope it is….What about Kagome?'
'She may be your reincarnation but its not the same….Its not the same….I think we deserve another chance Kikyou….'
'But….I'm….'
'Not for long…'he smilled.'Kouga will give us tomorrow his shards and we will complete the Shikon no Tama…and so…you'll be alive again…'
'You really think that this time…'
'Yes.We will make our dream real this time….'he said and wrapped his hands over her waist and hugged her.
'As I told you before,Kikyou….your life is mine,and mine is yours…'
'Don't!'Haruka said with decision in her voice.
'But….'Jakotsu protested.
'I said no…'
'I'll have you!'he screamed.
'I said NO!'she yelled and attacked:'World…Shaking!'
'Damn,you…'
'I won!'she said and tooked the cake plate.
Jakotsu looked at her with puppy eyes."I'll have you next time…"he thought looking at the cake.
Back with Hotaru…
'Hotaru-chan!'Rin called her and Hotaru opened her door.
'Yes,Rin?'she smilled to the littlegirl.
'You are remembering me?'she looked surprised.
'Wgy wont I?'
'Cause you don't remember Sesshoumaru-sama…'
'Well,I remember him but…not like you…'
'Anyway,…this is for you….'she said and after Rin left she closed the door and sat on her bed.
It was a silver note .She opened it and read loudly:
'Hotaru….
I regret what happened into your room this afternoon and I hope that you'll forgive me.If you have anything to say to me,please do it in the presence of someone else,don't stay alone with me….I love you..
Sesshoumaru"
She let the note fall down.He…..said….that he…loved her…That was confusing her even more….She was confused.She was the one who pushed him away. Why did she now regret it?She wanted to be with him?In THAT WAY?.She let herself fall on the bed.His kisses were still remembered by her skin.He was gorgeus and very tender... Then... why did she stopped him?Then she remembered,not all,but something...she refused him before too...Hotaru closed her eyes and saw his face.Then she jumped from the bed and runed to the door.She passed thru the hall and stopped in front of a big heavy door.His room.But she did not knocked.She just…entered.And she saw herself in the middle of a huge room,with a giant bed in front of her and the doors opened to the garden.She runed towards them,even if she was hurt.With more she runed,she remembered other things….The first kiss they shared….her frst kiss….hs embrace….his demanding for her to be his mate…and her rejection..She remembered….that she loved him too….she was still confused….but there was no doubt….she was in love with him..And she stopped when she saw him at the fountain.
'Sesshoumaru!'she called his name.
He turned and saw her.She was in the moonlight,looking like a dodess.She was smilling.He walked fastly towards her and stopped,searching something into her eyes.
'Its me….'she said smilling exactly as before.
He smilled a little and hugged her happy.She hugged him back and let her head on his chest.Then,she felt her wound disappearing….she was saved…by him..
'O….look at the loverbirds…..'a voice they heard.
A voice well known.
'Naraku…'Sesshoumaru muttered.
'How can he?'she looked at him confused.
Naraku was there,looking a little different.He smirked at her.
'I see you didn't mated her….so I'll have her!\he screamed.
Inuyasha and the others appearted in hurry and they all were in shock to see Naraku…..alive.
'Hm…that is mine…..'he smirked and he tooked fastly the Shikon no Tama from Kagome's neck.
'No!'Hotaru screamed.'You are DEAD!'
'No I'm not my dear…and soon you'll se how alive I am….I'm much stronger now…you tried to kill me letting me in into a place full with demons corpses…'
Now was clear.He……tooked those corpses….into his….
'You wont live enough to touch her!'Sesshoumaru worned him.
'No,Sesshoumaru…'she stopped him from attacking Naraku.
'Nani?'
'I maked the mistake….I will kill him…'
'But he is to strong now….'
She looked at him without esitation.
'No,I wont let you do it!'he almost screamed.
Preview Chapter 12: Angels go back were they belong…
'Inuyasha,let me go!I SAID LET ME GOOOO!' Sesshoumaru screamed.
Inuyasha was almost crying.
'No…I promised her….you will be ok…'he said looking in the ground.
Then they looked at the mountain,were the castle was.The barrier was almost destroyed and they saw a fade shape appearing in front of them.Two silver-violet eyes were looking at Sesshoumaru.
'Hotaru…..'he whispered.
'Sesshoumaru…..'
Then she turned to Inuyasha.
'Hotaru…'
'I think you'll need this…'she said and in her hands the Shikon appeared.The entire Shikon.They were surprised.When did Kouga gaved his shards?Inuaysha felt the Shikon in his hand soon.
'Hotaru,this…'
'Enjoy your second chance and choose wise…'
'What about you?"
'For me…there is no second chance…I have to go now….'she said and looked at Sesshoumaru.
Inuyasha tooked the others and let them alone.Sesshoumaru camed to her and was at limit.He soon would loose his calm.
'You understand,don't you?'
That was all she asked.But he looked at her and at her beauty.She really loved her.She was so kind…she would sacrifice for all…again…He wanted to touch her cheek but he couldn't.She wasn't really there.Her body was trapped into Naraku's barrier.She smilled and touched his ahnd.He felt coldness and shivered.
'I want you to have this….'she whispered before she disappeared.Forever.
I knowwwwwwwwwww,it was short,but I was in a hurry….sorry!Next one will be bigger!
