Stop Saying You Love Me

Disclaimer: I don't own anything cept the plot n' the oc =) ya... please RR! Thanks.

(Harry & gang are in their 7th year).

Warning: THIS IS A DARK FIC. IT HAS CHILD ABUSE, RAPE, BEATING AND OTHERS. IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE ABOUT THESE THINGS, PLEASE LEAVE NOW. IT IS RATED R.

I have school and a lot of homework...so I might not be able to update that fast...--' ya. I'll work on this...Mondays n' Wednesdays n' sometimes Saturday n' Sunday...so don't expect me to update really fast. --'

(BTW, Draco is a Veela in my story, but none of those "looking for his mate" in my story =D but they are pretty good stories...go check 'em out)

Sorry if my story is sorta...err...AU...--' and sorry for the unlikely things that's happening...--'

I was figuring out the plot and I realized that Harry is going to be tortured until the very end...--' I'm sorry...and I guess this story is gunna be longer than I thought.

[Merry Christmas]

If you were to set out on a journey

When that day comes

Let's begin there together

Those times when it seems like you're about to reach the goal you aimed for

Have you noticed that it's still far away?

Exactly how far are we supposed to go

And what should we do with these endless days?

-- Depend on You – Ayumi Hamasaki.

DON'T MIND THE "dbdb" THEY WON'T LET ME USE THE LINES ANYMORE (WONDER WHY) SO THAT WILL BE MY BREAK FOR THE TIME BEING.

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Dec. 24

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"What is it?" Remus looked at him sadly.

"Harry was attacked."

Draco froze at that and his heart started beating faster and faster. Narcissa stared wide-eyed at first, then looked worriedly at Draco. He had his fist clenched on the table and there was a furious look on his face. He stormed up, causing the chair to fall back, and reached into the fire place. He snatched up Remus' shirt collar and started shaking him.

"WHO DID IT?! WHAT HAPPENED!? WHY DID YOU LET IT HAPPEN?! IS HE OKAY!?!?!?!" His face was turning red and fear clutched his heart. Narcissa yelled in fright and was trying to make Draco let go, but Draco held on. Remus' face was calm and allowed Draco to shake him. This shook Draco up even more.

"TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED DAMMIT!!" Angry tears were coming now and Remus' face was still impassive although you could see a little sadness in his eyes. Narcissa got to Draco and tried to tear his arms away.

"Draco! Stop!" At his mother's voice Draco loosened his hold, but he was still panting. He then suddenly shot up and ran into the other room. After a few second he came back with a handful of floo powder.

"Get out of the fire place." Draco said to Remus, "I'm going to floo there." Some of the powder was flowing to the ground from Draco's clutched hand. Remus looked at Draco with worry and sadness. Draco's eyes flared.

"NOW YOU BASTARD!" Remus' head nodded at Narcissa and disappeared from the fire place. Draco stepped in and said his goodbye to his mother. He threw his powder yelling out, "Hogwarts" and in a flash of green fire, he was gone.

Narcissa looked at the empty fire place and sighed.

"Good luck Draco, Harry." She was unaware of a shadow behind her. When she turned around, her eyes widened and let out a shrill scream. A crash and then a thump were heard. Then, all was silent in the manor.

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Draco came out of the fire and into Dumbledore's office. With one glance at the Headmaster, he tore out of the room and ran for the infirmary. Dumbledore had his hand up and mouth open, ready to calm the miserable Slytherin down. But then he realized that Draco was gone and the door was ajar. He closed his mouth, sat down, started to chew on a lemon drop, and was in deep thought. (A/N: if this was anime, I would have added a sweatdrop =D)

Draco ran, never stopping until he saw the doors to the infirmary. Sliding a few feet before coming to a complete stop, Draco quietly opened to door so not to disturb Harry. The infirmary was quiet and Draco slid in. Looking around, Draco spotted Harry at the farthest bed. Making his way there, he gasped when he saw Harry looking beaten and torn. He was still naked and dried blood was all over his chest and stomach. But something carved into his stomach was what caught his eyes.

'Mine.'

Draco could practically hear the wind whisper it and his stomach felt a little queasy. He felt a chill go down his back. Pomfrey made her way to the shaken boy and put a hand on his shoulder, making him jump a mile. Draco turned around and stared at the nurse.

"What happened? Why didn't you heal him?" He asked quietly. Madam Pomfrey looked at the boy on the bed.

"I gave him a potion to heal his internal wounds. If I heal him, it'll react badly with the potion. I have to wait until the potion is done before I am able to heal him." Pomfrey sighed, "He was suffering from blood loss and broken ribs. And it was very clear that he was...violated. By something...umm...very big...?" Pomfrey blushed. She never actually talked to anyone about this and she was confused, "because no one's...err...thing was THAT big...he was stretched...a lot." Pomfrey looked down at Harry and sighed. She had never had a patient like this before. She decided that when Harry woke up, she'll let Draco deal with him. She has no idea what to do with a raped and panicking person.

Draco stared in shock, taking big deep breaths to calm down. He made his way to Harry's bed and pulled up a chair, sitting down with him. Madam Pomfrey left him with his thoughts.

Draco buried his head into his hands. He had a good idea about who did this. And once Harry was better, he'll rip the flesh off that person's body with his own bare hands...

He looked up, and stared at his boyfriend's bruised face.

'What a great way to spend Christmas Eve...'

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Dec. 25

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It was 12 in the morning and Christmas finally came. Draco had laid his head on the bed and had fallen asleep. Being the light sleeper he was, he was woken up by muttering. He looked up and saw Harry rolling around, whimpering. Draco knew it was a nightmare and grabbed Harry's hand. It turned out that it was a bad idea because Harry's eyes snapped open and started screaming.

"Harry! Harry! Wake up! It's just a nightmare." But Harry wouldn't calm down. He was shaking his head and fear was in his eyes. Tears rolled down his face and he was muttering under his breath.

Draco squeezed his hand and with his free hand, cupped Harry's cheek.

"Harry! Please, Harry...Wake up..." Draco started panicking. Harry isn't waking up this time.

"HARRY!" Draco screamed loudly and shook Harry a little. Harry's face finally snapped to Draco and he had finally woken up.

"Dr-Draco?" He asked wearily. (A/N: Did I use it right this time...okay...I broke the mood. --')

Draco sighed in relief.

"Harry. Thank God..." Draco wrapped his arms around the smaller man's frame and buried his head in the crook of Harry's neck. Harry stiffened but immediately relaxed.

"You're alright. Thank God you're alright." Harry leaned into Draco and sighed.

"I'm glad you're here Draco." Harry whispered, blinking back the tears that were threatening to come out.

"Me too...me too...oh yea...Merry Christmas Harry."

Harry couldn't help but smile.

"Merry Christmas Draco..."

Then Harry frowned, 'But I can't exactly say it's merry...'

---- (A/N: sigh...I make them cry too much......hnnn...sorry...I'll TRY to stop...but I dunno...I might not be able to...--')

Draco Malfoy was still staying next to Harry's bed. Harry was sleeping and Draco was watching Harry's chest go up and down. Then he pushed back from the bed and got up. He brushed some of Harry's hair away from his face, admiring the innocent roundness of it...even when it's covered in blood.

'I should go get my Christmas present for Harry.' As he turned around, someone tugged on his shirt sleeve. It was Harry.

"Don't leave me..." Harry whispered quietly, his eyebrows scrunched up. Draco sighed.

"I'll be back soon. I'm going to get something in the Slytherin Dungeons, okay?" Harry studied him for a while before nodding and turning around with his back towards Draco. Draco sighed again. He bend down and kissed Harry on the cheek.

"I'll be back very soon, Harry. I promise." He turned to the door and left. Harry's hand made its way to his cheek, and he smiled.

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As Draco walked down to the Slytherin Dungeons, Draco wondered what did this to Harry. Sure, he thought it was Blaise...I mean...who else would have done it? But...the nurse said something about it being very...big? This was what Draco couldn't understand.

He headed into his room and opened a drawer. Inside was a present wrapped in red and silver. Then he walked out and crashed into none other than Blaise. At first they just stared at each other. Blaise was thinking about how bad his luck was and Draco was turning red with all the anger boiling inside of him. Then, without warning, Blaise flung out his fist and tried to hit Draco, but he ducked just in time. Draco first punched Blaise as hard as possible, then he pulled out his wand and cast a full-body bind on Blaise. Blaise's limbs snapped together and fell to the floor face first. Now he was 100% sure that it was Blaise that hurt Harry.

Draco felt the anger finally reach it's peak and he started to punch Blaise into a bloody pulp. Anger powered each blow. Blaise couldn't do anything because of the body-bind, but his mouth could still cry out in pain.

"This...Is...What...You...Get...For...Hurting...Harry...You...Fucking...Filthy...Bastard...!" Draco said in between punches. He was blinded by his anger and he couldn't think anymore. All he could see is Harry's broken and bruised body. He wanted to make Blaise feel the pain Harry felt. He wanted to kill Blaise, to torture him. He wanted revenge for Harry. He whipped out his wand again and at the tip of his tongue was a certain unforgivable curse his father taught him.

'Harry wouldn't want you to be a killer.' Draco snapped back to reality when he heard that. He stared at Blaise. He was barley conscious and this body was bloody and bruised. He had a horrified look on his face. Blaise wished he had stayed in Hogsmead, but it was cold and he left his coat in the common room. (A/N: 't think of any other reason...yes...very lame...--')

"Well, Zabini, I have a feeling that a certain 150 year old bee would like to see you." Draco sneered as he levitated Blaise's body out and head towards the Headmaster's office.

When he reached the gargoyle, he said the password ('chocolate frogs') and walked into the room. Inside were the Professors that didn't leave for the holiday. First, Draco looked around the room. Then he dropped Blaise's frozen body with a heavy thump and left without a word.

Dumbledore stared at Blaise's bloody and horrified face, and then he stood up.

"Severus, if you will please get some of your recently brewed veritaserum. Thank you."

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Draco made his way to the infirmary when he noticed that his pocket was empty. Checking everywhere, he couldn't find his present.

'I must have dropped it in the Common Room when I saw Blaise.' He doubled back and towards the dungeons said the password. He looked around for a while and saw it lying on the ground in front of his room. Picking it up, he sprinted back to the infirmary.

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Harry watched Draco leave the infirmary, and when he was sure Draco was well out of hearing range, he wrapped one arm around his knee and the other pulling at his hair. His eyes were scrunched up in pain and he gritted his teeth to stop the coming scream. Angry tears made down his face, his hand tearing at his hair. But he made no notice as he let out all the pain he felt right there.

'How could I let Blaise do that to me again? Why? I'm so weak. What does Draco think of me? Always making him worry about me...I'm not good enough for him.' He was so absorbed in his thoughts that he didn't even notice someone coming in. When a warm hand landed on his shoulder, he nearly jumped of the bed, but caught himself just in time. He turned around and was face to face with Madam Pomfrey. Then he realized his face was soaked with tears. He hastily dried his face and looked at Pomfrey again. She seemed to know what Harry was thinking about. She gathered Harry into a hug and rubbed soothing circles on his back.

"Mr. Malfoy will always be at your side, no matter what. So don't you worry about it." She pulled away from him and looked into his eyes.

"I know who did this to you. I'm going to tell Headmaster Dumbledor, ok?" Harry was scared that the teachers will look down on him. He was the one who defeated Voldemort, but he can even defend himself from a boy his age. He told the nurse this. She looked surprised.

"No, Harry," (Harry was surprised because this is the first time she used his first name) "They would never do that. They care for you and they worry about you, they would never look down on you. Never...well...with the exception of Professor Snape...but that's not the point. Trust me on this. I'm going to tell them okay?" Harry looked down at his hands and finally nodded. Madam Pomfrey patted Harry on the head and went out the door to the Headmaster's office.

Harry then realized that Draco should have been back a while ago.

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Draco quietly opened the door and stepped in. He made his way towards Harry's bed and saw that he was shaking.

"Harry? Are you ok?" Harry's head snapped towards Draco and immediately pulled him into a hug. Draco was caught off in surprise but recovered and hugged Harry back.

"What's wrong?" He asked, patting Harry on the back. Harry buried his head in Draco's neck, acting as though embarrassed.

"You were gone for a long time...I was...worried..." Harry mumbled. Draco smiled and hugged Harry closer to him.

"I brought your Christmas present. Do you want it now?" Draco pulled away from Harry and took it out of his pocket. He waved it in front of Harry's face. Harry's face brightened up immediately.

"Ok. I have a present for you too, but it's in the Gryffindor Common Room." He said taking to present into his hand.

"Don't worry, you can get it when you get out of here, ok?" Harry nodded. He un-wrapped the box and opened it. He reached inside and took out a thin piece of green rock attached to a chain.

"It has charms on it. I have one too, see," He pulled out a blue one exactly like Harry's out of his shirt, "I put some protection charms on it, but I don't think they are powerful...and we are suppose to be connected by these stones, but I don't know how..." When Harry didn't say anything and was just looking at the rock; Draco looked down at his shoes.

"Ididn'tknowwhattogiveyouandthiswasinthefamilyand—" He was suddenly cut off when soft lips descended onto his, quieting him. Draco felt his eyes flutter close. He lifted his hands and cupped Harry's cheek, pulling him closer. They finally pulled apart and Harry stared into Draco's eyes.

"I love it." Harry put the necklace around his neck and smiled. You could practically see sparkles glittering around to him. Draco blushed, "I'm glad." He said, smiling a genuine happy smile.

Suddenly, Harry's eyes snapped open and his jaws dropped to the ground; it looked like as if he was about to faint.

"Harry? What's wrong?" He could practically see Harry's eyes bulging out.

"You...s-smiled..." Draco was confused.

"Haven't I always smiled???" Harry finally picked his jaw up from the ground and he reached out and touched Draco's lips.

"That was the best smile I have ever seen you give; so beautiful." Harry chuckled. A scowl landed on Draco's face.

"Oh yea? You like teasing me??" Draco huffed, "Then I can just take back this VERY expensive necklace, right?"

"Draco, you are so...cute!" Harry started cracking up and Draco's jaw was the one to fall to the ground this time.

"Cute? CUTE?? No Malfoy will ever be called cute! Hot, sexy, and to-die-for might be more accurate you know!" He crossed his arms and turned away from Harry. Harry smiled at Draco's back and wrapped his arms around him, resting his head on Draco's shoulder.

"You are my hot, sexy, and to-die-for boyfriend. You are mine." Right when Harry said that Draco's eyes widened and abruptly turned around and stared at Harry's blanket covered stomach. Ripping away the blanket, Draco saw the words carved onto Harry's stomach.

'Mine'

Harry looked at Draco, then looked down at his stomach. His eyes widened at the word. He looked back up and was caught in Draco's eyes.

"Draco...I-I...I...I'm sorry...b-but I couldn't stop him...I-I tried to b-but..." But he was cut off by Draco.

"Shh...it's ok...nothing to worry about. I'm not mad." Harry leaned against Draco and he felt the warmth of Draco's arms around him. Feeling content, he slowly fell asleep.

Sigh...I personally don't like this chapter...--' dunno why...T-T...

I'm in a pretty bad mood today...dunno why...so I guess this chapter was bad...T-T

---- (Ch. 10 Teaser: Blab la bla...go to the A/N up n' down...ya...do I really need to say this? Sigh...)

Draco opened his eyes and looked at the eagle owl on his arm. Then he jumped a little when he saw the snake slither up his arm towards the bird. Finally, he looked at the dragon statue and was marveled by it.

"Harry, you gave me so many things and I only got you a stupid necklace." Harry smiled.

"Well, you deserve the best. Plus, the snake is also mine. You can choose a name for it since I'm not so good at choosing names." Draco stared at the snake for a while.

"She is beautiful. I'll name her Nymphroel, Nym for short. And this owl reminds me of my mothers. I'll name her Avis." Harry smiled and leaned onto Draco.

"I like it." Harry said, snuggling into Draco's arms.

You could practically see the eyes of the animals rolling.

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To Miss Lesley: Thanks for telling me all this...I'm sorry I couldn't make things more believable.--' I think Blaise getting Harry at Hogsmead probably would have been better, it's just that I didn't think of that. Sorry. And about the magical signature, it's in this chapter as you see. My mind works really slow...And I'll change it a little and make him use a condom...--' but I'll do that later.

Ya...and I've been depressed lately and my family isn't helping. My dad just recently admitted that a ladder is more important to him than me. Ya...I know he wasn't serious but if he says these kinds of things to you 24/7, it kinda gets on your nerves. And, as I said, I mind works very slow and I'm stupid (as my family likes to remind me every 5 mins.) Ya...so I'm a little depressed, but all these excuses don't make up for it. The real reason is that I'm a beginner in writing and I guess I'll get better. So bare with me .

And about the Voldie and Blaise thing. Voldemort didn't rape Harry...even though many people died, that drove him to kill Voldemort so people wouldn't get hurt anymore. But Blaise isn't hurting anyone but him and he feels...weak since this hasn't happened to him before. Usually, a person, when raped, breaks and feels violated. So when it first happened to him with Vernon, Blaise reminded him of his uncle and he felt useless and gives up. People who get raped tend to get raped again because they don't care anymore. They draw into themselves more and more, and then they get use to being by themselves. (They also feel as if they are alone because no one was there to help them.) They feel alone, abandoned, and they don't care anymore, so they might go insane or suicide.

Sorry again and I hope that my other chapters will be more...err...believable...--' Thank you for pointing those out for me, I'll try to write better =D.

Cassie