Things take a dramatic turn in the Lane-Kent household.
Suddenly a death silence was laying over the house after Jonathan's scream.
Clark was not able to hide his shame and his guilt. He knew that he was busted. But instead of doing the right thing and confessing it, what would calm down the situation, Clark worsened it.
"What do you mean?" Clark bit on his tongue after that sentence.
"YOU LIE! I only told that to… Oh… OH MY GOD… OH MY GOD…" Jonathan screamed. His face turning red.
"What happened?" Lois asked. Jordan meanwhile tried to not to freak out. He knew the reason, too.
"Okay, Jon… I know that sounds bad but…" Clark began.
"BAD! HOW MUCH DID YOU HEAR?" Jon screamed. "AWW… OH MY GOD… YOU HEARD EVERYTHING!"
"I swear I didn't do it on purpose. But you were so mad, and then I heard you puke! And Timmy was so…"
"He has nothing to do with this! But at least he listened to me when I needed to talk to someone." Jon cried.
"Wait… Timmy?" now Lois was shocked. "Timmy as in Timmy Tanner? What about him?"
"Ask your husband, as he knows everything already!" Jon yelled.
"Jon, please let me explain. I know it was wrong…"
"But you did it anyway!" Jon yelled.
"I was so worried about you and when you told everything to Timmy, I only wanted to…"
"To know how to handle me! Is that the reason I suddenly got driving-lessons and got to see Jor-El. To appease me? Is anything I got even true?"
"You told everything to Timmy?" Lois asked. "The family-secret?"
"Lois, please! And Jonathan let us talk about it…"
"WHAT IS THERE TO TALK ABOUT? YOU DID IT AGAIN!" Jon said walking up and down in pure fury.
"Clark, you listened again?" Lois asked shocked. Clark lowered his head ashamed and nodded. "And you Jonathan, you told Timmy that your father is Superman…"
"I told him everything yeah! That he is an alien, that he is proud of my alien brother, that I gave up everything so he and Jordan can play Superman and Superboy, that I had to endure everything just for you guys to do your thing and watch myself getting beaten up, standing worthless on the sideline and watching everyone being brave and strong. And I! AS SOON AS LARA TOLD YOU THAT I GET POWERS YOU PRETENDED AGAIN THAT EVERYTHING IS OKAY BETWEEN US!"
"Jonathan, listen I know this sounds bad but…" Lois began.
"YOU KNEW HOW I FELT, MOM!" Jon yelled. "When they flew away, you just said that we have at least a radio! I asked you why I don't get to meet my own grandfather. I told you that I fear that Jor-El does not want to see a human. But you always said… it's good for your brother! It's good for your brother!"
"Bad choice of words!" Lois confessed.
"Extraordinary humans! That is the most stupid thing I ever heard! You agreed to those people who attacked me on election-night. The day I got caught with the X-K you told dad that I didn't try to explain myself. Every time I tried to help you told me to hide behind Jordan! When I needed something all of you never cared…"
"We cared about you! I swear…" Lois cried. "You're a good son! You have always been a good son! I am sorry that I lied to your father that evening. I am sorry that I tried to soothe you with a radio when your father didn't want to take you your grandfather. I just didn't expect that your father is ashamed of a human…"
"MOM, SHUT UP!" Jordan yelled. Lois realized that it was a terrible sentence. "It's worse enough that he thought he got switched at birth! And you don't make it better."
"YOU… YOU SPIED ON ME, TOO!" Jon yelled shocked.
"What… oh… ehm…" suddenly Jordan remembered that the only person Jon ever talked about this matter was Timmy. "I… I was worried and when I heard you puke…"
"Aww… you selfish bastard! Every time you screwed me up, you got flying lessons and time with dad. When I told you how bad I feel, you came up with 'I think I can fly'! After you broke my arm and Eliza left me, you spied on me…"
"I never wanted to use my powers against you! I never wanted those powers anyway! You said you were fine with me having powers…"
"I HATE YOUR POWERS! I HATED THEM FROM THE FIRST DAY!" Jonathan yelled his brother directly into the face and pushed him away violently, so Jordan stumbled onto the couch.
Jordan looked on his brother and was shocked about the revelation. Jonathan, who always supported him and encouraged him in his development. Who helped him and who… who was humiliated by his powerlessness. Who was reminded every day how it is to be weak… Jordan realized he was not better than his parents.
"You were wailing all the time about being only 1 % like dad and about telling Sarah. But you got everything you wanted since we moved here! You got a father! You got flights And I got? What did I get? A flat mate! Nothing else! You two always left to do your thing while I lied for you, I gave up everything for you and got every time another reminder of how unimportant I am!"
Tears ran down Jonathan's face when he yelled.
"I am sorry!"
"Safe your sorrys. I have heard enough of that!"
Clark went closer, trying to comfort him.
"Jonathan, I know it was not right from me to treat you differently. I never meant to give you the feeling that I prefer one of you! I am not mad about that you told Timmy. I understand that you needed someone to talk. I told Lana, your brother told Sarah, your mom told it Crissy… you were right. We will find a solution…"
"Every time you say that you prove me that you don't care. The last time you left for hours to go flying with Jordan. Just because Mrs. Cushing was mad." Jon said before turning to Jordan and scream on him. "AWWW… I WISH YOU WOULD HAD CRASHED ON THE GROUND THAT DAY!"
Jordan began to cry after that sentence. He really wished he never went flying with their father. He really wished he had remembered Clark about Jon who was home alone and waiting for them. He really wished that he had seen it before.
"Jonathan, please… I made a mistake, yes! I was a terrible father to you. Please tell me what I can do to make it up…"
"STOP IT! I CAN'T HEAR IT ANYMORE! My whole life I am hearing your promises. Do you have any clue how it is? How it is to have you as a father? How it is to feel alone? ALL ALONE!"
Clark was shocked. He knew that feeling very well! He knew how it is to be alone! He was alone with his secret and his powers his whole life. His parents tried everything to fill the void, but it was not that he knew about where he came from or what his powers meant, or how to control them correctly. Clark could feel the tears running down his face.
"Alone!" was everything Clark was able to murmur. Jon was able to see that he said something that really upset his father. But he was still too furious to forget that his father listened in to the whole conversation.
"YES! Alone! Ever since we moved out here you left me alone with my problems. Every time Jordan's powers were more important for you! So sorry that I am a genetic failure like Zeta-Rho said. Sorry that I couldn't fly or shoot out lasers. So, stop pretending that I mean something to you and just tell me in my face that you don't actually want me!"
Jonathan cried even harder after yelling these words into his father's face. Clark cried, too.
"That burden you must feel has to be terrible. I… really don't know it. And after Jon-El and… ehm…"
"I stood out there on the porch, watching him and Jordan fight, while I stood uselessly on the side. And after that you even cared more about him! You visited him in his cell! You gave him pep-talks! You spent more time with him than with me!"
"Jonathan, please… your father was only looking for a way to convince him to change sides. We never planned to replace you with him!"
"Wait a sec… I only… wrote it… You… You read it!" Jon accused her.
Lois only became pale. Now she was busted. She read it in Jon's diary and Jon realized that.
"NO! NO NO NO…" Jon yelled and looked up to the ceiling, using his vision to check the attic. There were so many boxes. Jon was not able to see which one was the one he hid his diary in.
In fear he ran upstairs to look for himself.
"Jonathan, wait…" Lois yelled, pushing Clark and Jordan aside to follow Jon. Knowing what he was going to check in the attic. "…please…"
But it was too late. She could already hear the squeaking of the ladder when Jon opened the hatch to the attic and was already upstairs when she arrived. And when she climbed upstairs, she found him kneeling in front of the box.
When she brought the box upstairs again she didn't put it back on the place where she found it. And Jordan only threw the diary in in panic. Jonathan could see that it was opened. It was laying on the top of the other stuff and not below it, where he hid it three days before he got knocked out. Lois came up and went closer to Jon.
"Jonathan… I…"
"You read it! YOU READ IT, DIDN'T YOU!" Jon screamed angrily and found a long brown hair in the diary. "This is too long too be from Jordan. So he listened to me… AND YOU READ IT!"
A hair. Lois held her head in shock. Jonathan is a smart guy. He always had an eye for the details and was good in recognize connections. Obviously, a trait he got from her, too. It was without doubt a hair from her, that he found in his diary.
"Jonathan, I swear it was an accident…"
"An accident? AN ACCIDENT?" Jon starts to scream again. "Your hair got accidentally on this page… Oh my god… not this page… why this page…"
Jon was embarrassed. This was a very embarrassing entry for him. And to worse everything, his father and his brother came floating up threw the hatch watching him now…
In shame and fear, Jon shied away and into a corner.
"So, this is it… This my life! No respect, no own will, no privacy, parents that need to spy me out to know what I really need and a brother who first got everything and pretends to know how I feel but in truth is not better."
"Jon please, I know it sounds bad but…"
"LIARS!" Jon yelled angrily. And then it happened…
He felt the heat raging up in his head and wandering to his eyes. It was the same he felt when his eyes glowed when Jordan confronted him. And now it happened again. In front of everyone… his eyes glowed…
His family looked on him with big eyes. While Jon rubbed his eyes in shock, trying to turn it off again he realized that he was busted.
"You have powers!" his brother said. A smile appearing.
"You didn't want to tell us, right! You feared that we only…" Clark realized. He knew about Jonathan's fear that they only love him if he has powers or that they would accuse him of taking X-K again.
"LEAVE ME ALONE!" Jon yelled, before it got really nasty.
Suddenly his eyes start to glow again. Clark speeded towards his son. He suddenly realized that Jon's heat-vision was going to burst out and Jon was not able to keep it in anymore.
"Let it out! Into my hand…" Clark said shocked when he tried to convince his son to open his eyes. "Don't let it in… let it out… let it…"
"BE!" Jon yelled when he opened his eyes and lasered his father directly into the chest…
Clark roared in pain and surprise when his son's laser-vision hit him at full force and threw him down through the open hatch, where he got caught by Jordan. Lois screamed in horror when everything around her seemed to light up in flames and a heavy gust of wind broke the shelve next to her and threw boxes and other stuff wildly around.
"WHY I EVEN RETURNED TO THIS FUCKING PLACE?" Jon screamed in pain.
"Jon!" Jordan's voice yelled in fear. But it was over.
Lois could feel the heat raging around her. Fire! The attic was on fire! But suddenly it became cold…
Jordan acted quick-witted and used his ice-breath to extinguish the flames before they could cause any serious damage. But was not able to prevent Jon from jumping out threw the hatch and running away…
Jonathan just ran! He ran and ran and ran! Away from the farm. Away from those awful people, he is forced to call his family. He only wanted to get away…
The world seemed to be a blur. Jon had no clue where he was, or how fast he was. Everything just passed him in a blur while he cried waterfalls and thought about never ever going back to his awful family. He runs away, ghosts them… he rather lives in foster care, or in an orphanage, or under a bridge than with them in the same house…
But suddenly something happened…
His ears began to burn as if they were on fire. A terrible pain shoot in his head like a bullet. In shock Jonathan held his ears while suddenly a loud terrible noise mix of voices, sounds, music, traffic-noise, and other stuff shoot in his ears like a tidal wave. His super hearing suddenly broke through like yesterday…
Jon let out a loud scream, he starts to stumble. His head felt as if it is going to blow up again. And then everything became black…
The last thing Jon remembered was that he fell. He stumbled over his own feet and must have hit something. Something hard! But also, something that shattered when his body hit it. Jon had no time to react or to realize what happened with him. But whatever it was, Jon knew it was terrible.
When he opened his eyes, everything was white. He was alone… and definitely not in Kansas anymore!
"Hello!" Jon yelled. His voice echoing threw the big white void.
Suddenly he was in a room. Their old living-room in Metropolis.
"How did I get here?" Jon asked confused.
"You are where you want to be!" suddenly a warm, familiar voice said. A voice, Jonathan thought he will never ever hear again.
"Oh, my poor grandson!" another very familiar voice said.
In shock he turned to the couch. And there they sat: Martha and Lara. Smiling warmly to him.
"Grandma? Noe'mys?" Jon asked shocked in English and Kryptonese.
"Come, sit with us!" Martha said, putting her hand on the free space between them.
"Let's talk!" Lara added.
Jon wanted to jump towards them and hug them. Instead he was carefully floating towards them and was suddenly sitting between them. Both leaned towards him.
Something was not correct. Martha wore a white Kryptonian dress and Lara was dressed like a human, but also all in white… both leaned closer to him and comforted him. Jon was so sad.
"I am the greatest fool on Earth. Everyone just continues lying to me!"
"They are worried about you!" Martha said. "Your father made mistakes. Some of them are not easy to be forgiven. And believe me, I am very disappointed in your father, too. But he is willing to do everything to make up for it."
"Everything is just shitty since you're gone. Nobody even asked me how I am when you passed away. Nobody ever cared for me since we moved. And if I am honest to myself, you were the only person in the world caring for me my entire life."
"Come to me…" Martha said and hugged Jon. "You are wonderful, Jon. Yes, your parents made mistakes. But they are also worried about you. You need to be more open, too. You always think about others first. And not about you. That is a habit you definitely got from your father. And like your father you need to learn to seek for help when you are alone and in need."
"You are not alone, Jon-El my dear grandson." Lara added and joined the hug. "I am on your side to guide you! Tell your parents when you feel miserable and when you think that they treat you poorly. Only you can make a change."
"I am alone ever since we moved to Smallville. I feel so lost… so out of place…"
"I am so sorry. Smallville isn't the same place I helped to flourish once." Martha said. "You gave up so much and I wish I would had been there to help you adapting better. And to remember your father to involve you better in everything."
"But the past is something nobody, not even your father with all his powers, can change. All we can do is look forward and make the best of being alive." Lara explained warmly.
"Now that we talk about it: Am I dead?" Jon realized that he was talking to two dead grandmothers.
"No. But you will be soon if you don't stop bottling up everything negative and allow yourself to be more open. You want your parents to love you for who you am. And not for putting off your humanity and becoming Kryptonian. I understand that!" Lara said. "But believe me: You're not losing your humanity just because you develop powers. Your father should had prepared you better for it. You were born the way you were born. This is you… and no matter if you are human or Kryptonian, we accept you just the way you are."
"She is right, Jonathan! Your fears that your family does not accept you for being human are terrible. And they did nothing to help you with your issues. But you have the power to make a change." Martha said giving him another hug. "Can you do me a favor!"
"Everything!" Jon responded.
"I want you tell your father, that he should think about the day he yelled on you for taking X-K and then on the morning of May 3rd, 1991!"
"What happened back then?"
"Something that will remind your father what kind of idiot he was!" Martha said. "Oh, Jonathan… you shouldn't be here… your time hasn't come yet… wake up please!"
"Yes!" Lara continued. "Wake up!"
"Wake up?" Jon asked.
"Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!" Lara and Martha both said in unison while everything around him became white again. His grandmother's faded away and suddenly everything was black again…
"What? I don't…" Jon said but suddenly he heard his father's voice.
"Wake up! Wake up! Oh, I am begging you… wake up!"
Jonathan opened his eyes and could see the sky. His face and his whole body were aching terribly. And he was in someone's arms. Then he realized that his father held him tightly. He was crying and totally devastated. Jon was barely able to see anything. Or to say. His face… it felt odd. Like it was swollen terribly and full of dirt. Blood! His face was covered in blood. And it was definitely looking very terrible.
"Jonathan!" his father whispered in despair and relieve at the same time when he saw that he opened his eyes. "I am here! Everything will be okay! I am sorry! I am so so sorry!"
"What… happened…" Jon was able to wail out, but it hurt in his throat when he talked.
"All is good… all is good… nobody got hurt!" his father said and lift him from the ground.
That was the moment Jonathan could see that they were in a populated area. People were around them. One filmed them with his smartphone. The sirens of police cars and other emergency vehicles got closer. Jon tried to turn his head to see a building. A building with a big hole in the wall…
"Wha… where…"
"Ssshhhh… Everything will be okay!" Clark cried, holding his son tightly and departed into the air. "I get you to your grandma. I'll be there for you! I am so sorry! I don't have a favorite child. I love you both equally. And I am so terribly sorry that you felt alone. I was alone, too. I know how it is. Please believe me. Everything will be okay! Nobody is mad on you!"
"How… is mom?" Jon suddenly remembered that he light up the attic.
"Nobody got hurt!" Clark lied. In truth, Jonathan burned Clark's chest terribly, Lois got a terrible shock and Jordan had a strained shoulder. Jonathan had terrible injuries in his face, which was the reason none of the many witnesses here, 21 miles away from Smallville, would ever be able to recognize his face. But even Clark was terrified when he saw his son's terribly deformed face. "I bring you to your grandmother…"
Jon could indeed feel that they were flying. He couldn't see where they were but they where already high and fast.
"Grandma… Grandma told me… remember… the day… you yelled on me for taking X-K and… remember May 3rd… 1991!"
Clark shrieked… he remembered that day very well… it woke up so many emotions. And let him burst out in tears. Nobody knew about it. He never told anyone. Not even Lois. And Martha took it into the grave…
"Oh, Jonathan… forgive me! Forgive me, please…"
Jonathan had no clue what happened that day. But somehow it breaks his father. And so, Jonathan closed his eyes again, and lost his consciousness again…
Please review and keep well!
I realized Jon's life became bad after Martha died. She was more important to Jonathan than the series shows. Loosing her, let him loose his luck, his spirit and his self-confidence. So, I hope Lara fills that void and is a great guardian for Jon in the next season. And in the following seasons, too. I hope they don't cancel after season 3! Don't dare TheCW! Following up: the Epilogue!
