Titanic a Mr Murdoch story.

Will ran like he had never ran before, he only had one thing on his mind and it wasn't how cold he was. A million thoughts tried to release them selves through his mouth but he couldn't find the words to say his exact feelings.

Searching for the carpenter Murdoch rounded the corner and saw him dead ahead, calling his name the carpenter stopped and Murdoch tried to catch his breath slurring his words as he lent over breathing hard.

"Are you ok sir?" He questioned and placed a hand on his back. Will stood up and looked him dead in the eye and told him about what was going on and what his orders are. The carpenter looked at him as if Will had told him the world was ending and he ran off to do his duty, just as soon as he left Lightoller rounded the corner and walked up to Murdoch putting a hand on his shoulder

"Will the captains having an emergency meeting we should go too" he said as kindly as he could, for all he knew Murdoch had done what any of them would have done; he tried to save lives and that's what Lightoller admired most about him that even through all this he would still do his job to the very end believing what he did was right. Murdoch on the other hand could see straight through Lightoller and he could see the disappointment in his eyes 'I'm a failure' he thought and followed in Lightoller's footsteps towards their destination.

Back in the decks of the glorious Titanic Elizabeth had been awoken by the rumbling of the ship and had dressed quickly as orders to be up on deck came flooding through banging doors.

"Melissa what in gods name is going on? What was that rumble?" Elizabeth shouted from the bathroom trying to put on her work outfit as quickly as she could. Walking back in to the bedroom she saw Melissa close the door slowly and slip down it curling her knees up in front of her, worried Elizabeth walked over and knelt in front of her

"What's wrong?" She asked slowly and stared into her eyes. Melissa shook her head and looked down as the tears started forming in her eyes and spilling down her cheeks. After a few minuets of sobbing she looked up at Elizabeth and stuttered

"They…They are saying we hit an iceberg and that we are all going to die on this ship" She choked and broken down again mumbling words about how she didn't want to die and how it wasn't her time, Elizabeth knew if what she was saying was true that neither her self or Melissa would be leaving the ship as they were mere slaves and even the lower class passengers ranked over them. Elizabeth wasn't stupid she knew just as well as any other half minded person who had done the maths; that their wasn't enough life boats on board for everybody and some people would have to die. She instantly thought of Will and remembered him saying he had to be on duty tonight 'he must know the truth behind this mess' she thought to her self as she cuddled Melissa.

"Mel I don't want you to worry ok! I'm going to go speak to Will and find out the truth I bet they are just making up rumours to scare you, look we are going to have to get up on deck now you go and cover for me I'll go find Will and find out!" Elizabeth said helping her up and walking out the door, she went one way and Melissa wiped her eyes running off in the other direction.

Walking into the room behind his captain Will stood a bit back as the horrible truths came out. Just as he was searching his mind trying to look for some way to get him self to feel less guilty the captain asked him a question one that made him question all his beliefs in a god.

"How many people on board Mr Murdoch?" The captain asked solemnly

"Two thousand two hundred souls on board sir" He could barely utter another word as the orders were given out by Wilde, but he didn't need orders he knew what he had to do and he was going to do everything it took to save as many lives as possible. Not listening to Wilde Murdoch drifted from the group and walked down the stairs to the deck leaning over the side he rested his head on his hands when someone grabbed his arm. It was her, he had totally forgotten about her and then it hit him and she said his name, he needed to make sure she got off alive even if he didn't he couldn't bare to think of her all alone on this ship waiting for the inevitable. He turned to her as she said his name again placing a hand gently on his cheek

"Will what's going on? What has happened I'm worried" she said honestly she wasn't going to pretend to be strong anymore she could see something bad had happened just by looking in to his red eyes. Taking her hand he kissed it gently and brought her to him for a passionate kiss to which she responded and wrapped her arm around his waist as he turned to look back out to the sea.

He contemplated telling her the truth and lying, he then thought about how she would react if he told her it was his fault he couldn't bare to for her to be against him he couldn't bare to tell her what he had done and to face the shame he would see in her eyes.

"I…I…I need you to promise me something Elizabeth" he said turning to her and taking both of her hands in his

"Anything Will" she promised and gripped his hands tight staring in to the soul of this torn apart man. She could see he was hurting and she just wanted to comfort him and tell him it would all be ok, but the truth was she couldn't even convince her self of that not after seeing him like this. He stared back at her and began to speak

"I need you to make sure you're happy; don't ever let anyone put you down or make you feel like your not worth you weight in gold, you made me feel brand new and made feel like I could lift the world on my shoulders. I'm so grateful to you and I want you to know that I love you in every way that a man could love a woman…" Taking away one of his hands, he reached inside his pocket and pulled out the gold ring slipping it on her finger

"If not for marriage, then for hope and love." She was stunned here he was proposing to her, or was he she didn't understand but she knew if they got off this ship alive she wanted to spend the rest of her life with him by her side. Leaning towards him she kissed his cheek and a tear slipped down her cheek

"What happened Will?" She pleaded but he pressed his fingers to her lips and took her hand as he walked around the edge of the boat ushering her to one side

"When the boats start leaving I want you on one, I need you to be on one promise me…" He trailed off as he saw Mr Wilde walking towards him before she could say anything he left walking after Wilde towards the life boats.

Glancing down at the ring on her finger she burst in to a sob and hushed her self as crew ran by. Walking around to the starboard side of the ship she watched as the crew started unbuckling the life boats and getting them ready people started appearing but quickly went back inside as the cold night air hit them. She had a duty to do too no matter what Will said she couldn't just leave Melissa to cope on her own and she made her way back inside to find her.

Will barked out orders and when some of the life boats where positioned the first class started arriving and the women and children where ushered to get in the life boats. Will grabbed the women and children not caring they were first class and crammed them in to the boats making sure they were full to the brim before he let them leave the ship.

As he was looking around he kept his eye out for Elizabeth he wanted her to be here so she could make sure she was on a life boat but as he turned his head back he saw something that disgusted him, there sat Mr Ismay in Collapsible C, he couldn't believe his eyes; he wanted to just rip him out of it and tell him to be a man but it wouldn't do any good and now was not the time to be arguing he had work to do.

"Take them down" Murdoch shouted to his crew lowering the boat

"Steady men" He told them and he watched the look on Ismay's face as he went down with the boat. After the boat had lowed and had gone Murdoch ran further up the deck he could tell the ship was sinking for sure now the water was coming up the stairwell he pleaded with god for his life in his mind but he pleaded with god for the lives of the people who where still on board the ship.

Elizabeth eventually round Melissa and told her what had happened with Will, if she was scared before she was terrified now Melissa had had enough and she took Elizabeth to one side

"Please Melissa calm down look come with me and I'll get you on to a life boat please…" she trailed off and took Melissa's hand leading her out on to the deck and rounding the corner she saw people screaming all trying to get on the boat, she recognised Wilde straight the way and ran through the crowd barging past people Melissa in tow still gripped to her hand, as she reached the front Wilde was pointing and waving a gun telling everyone to back off.

Elizabeth grabbed Wilde's hand to get his attention and he looked at her knowing exactly who she was as he had seen her with Will earlier that evening. She had been the one Will couldn't get his mind off and who Wilde was mocking Will about a few days earlier, he looked at her and told her to get aboard the life boat but she shook her head and pulled on Melissa's hand to bring her forward

"She needs to go, I'm not leaving without Will" She shouted over the noise and he grabbed Melissa from Elizabeth and planted her in the boat. The boat soon left and the water was now rising, she knew nobody would care if she was there or not any more every man for him self she thought. As she watched the boat leave she looked up the deck and saw him…It was Will she needed to get to him she wanted to be with him till the final minuet she ran closer as the boat fell off the roof and hit the floor everyone trying to scramble aboard as the water started getting closer. She shouted his name and he looked up to see her, he couldn't believe she was still on board he ran through the crowd but a man barged passed him and knocked him back so he was now leaning against the cabin he looked over at her and saw her worried face he then saw a massive wave heading this way and he tried to move but his foot was caught up in the rope and he couldn't move. She then leaping in to action ran towards him and she fell in to his arms

"WILL COME ON!" She shouted and pulled on his hand but he pulled back and she fell into his arms again, he kissed her passionately and smoothed her face with his fingers

"I love you" He whispered and smiled; his hand still on her cheek. She smiled back and whispered

"I love you too Will but we need to go now come on…" She held his hand but he didn't move and she looked at him, she could see the passion in his eyes and he mouthed to her 'I'm sorry', she stared in wonder as he shouted to his fellow officer

"Get her away from here now!" An officer complied and grabbed her round the waist running away with her on his shoulder she looked at him as her hand left his, as she got further down the ship and as she saw the massive wave hit that part of the deck full force. Murdoch stared out as he saw the wave coming; he smiled and ran his fingers across his lips still tasting her scent on his fingers, closing his eyes for a second he felt the people run past him as they saw it coming, he opened his eyes and his whole life flashed before his eyes. As soon as the images came they left, he opened his eyes and breathed his last breath as her image left the imprint on his mind and the water opened its arms and took his life.

As she saw the water settle and disperse she looked for him but she couldn't see him, neither the boat. The officer dropped her and ran on his way she was tempted to go back to see if he was still there under water holding his breath with any hope. She did so for her now nothing else mattered.

Murdoch's eyes fluttered open as he saw the light that was engulfing him he felt so warm and cosy he was at peace with him self. Whispers came out of the light and they were telling him things he couldn't understand

"I don't understand" he whispered back and he looked down to see him self floating in mid air, tiny balls of light that looked like fire now entered his body and he suddenly felt an urgency to return back to wherever he was before this. He was overwhelmed and pictures of what had been happening to him aboard the Titanic flashed in his mind, the whole seeing the event before it had happened. He smiled and whispered again

"I know what I need to do…" and a light brighter than ever before engulfed him leaving him standing on board the Titanic behind a certain young woman who was hovering over the place where Murdoch had just been engulfed.

"Elizabeth…" His voice… she thought to her self and turned around looking at him glowing in a ball of light. He reached out for her hand and she took it tears now running down her cheeks.

"Will…Your…" She trailed unable to say the words… he simply nodded and he held her as the ship started to crumple and sink around them. As it started to go down she could no longer hold on to him and he watched as she fell down to the water. She kicked as hard as she could and she felt as if something pushed her to the surface. As she did so she looked around at the people…so many people in the water, she grabbed a hold of a piece of wood floating near by and held on to it half of her body now resting on the wood. Shutting her eyes she opened hem again to see him right in front of her he was just standing in the water.

"Will…" She smiled reaching out her hand to take his, he smiled and leaned down to kiss her cheek.

"Will…I'm so cold…" She said not feeling the need to argue about his recent death…

"Be strong, be your self and most of all remember that I love you and always will, thank you Elizabeth thank you for giving me back my life and for making me a stronger person…" he said gently and let go of her hand as he started to fade

"Will don't leave me! Please Will please!" She begged but he was gone and her heart felt as if it had been broken in two all over again. Looking down she played with her ring and wiped away the frozen tears on her cheeks, looking up at the stars she whispered

"I love you too…"

50 years later…

Elizabeth sat out on the porch her husband sat beside her reading the paper watching the small black and white TV as it featured a documentary about the Titanic. Elizabeth smiled as her grand children said their good nights and headed up the stairs to bed staring at the TV Elizabeth felt like she reliving that night over and over in her head and she tried to remember him, wishing sometime he was here rather than the man who sat there now. She remembered how young and innocent she was and how he made her feel more like a woman than any other man ever. The narrator told them about the bridge and then he began to talk about 'that night' and what had happened on the bridge…she had waited 50 years for this…

"Mr Murdoch was in command of the bridge that night, as he did so he the officers in the crows nest rang down to the bridge only to be answered by Mr Moody who was told about the iceberg and informed Murdoch, Murdoch in turn told the quartermaster hard to port, following orders he did so and he then rang down to the engine room for full astern all he could do next was wait and pray that the ship didn't hit, unfortunately for everyone on board it did and a lot of people blame him for their loss although here we believe him to be a true hero, Murdoch got a lot of people off that ship and he saved a lot of lives Murdoch was believed to have died whilst trying to release Collapsible A when a wave hit and took him to the sea. Murdoch's body was never found..." A few pictures of him danced across the screen and they moved on to the design of the Titanic.

Tears now rolled down her cheeks as a sudden realisation of why he wouldn't tell her hit her just as strong as that wave must have hit him…looking up at the stars she spoke loud and clear

"I could have never blamed you, I loved you" was all she said and she looked back down at the TV and turned it over to a family game show.

Murdoch smiled and walked back inside the house disappearing in to a ball of light.

Well guys that's it I finally finished it I'm sooooooooooooooo sorry it took so long but thank you so much for all of the reviews I loved them all and I hope you liked this story and let me know your feedback love to ya all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx