Disclaimer: I don't own Stargate Atlanits
A/N: This short fic is dedicated to my sister and Admiral Lily who have repeatedly told me that I am not crazy about what I am seeing in the newer episodes. This is my first fic on Stargate Atlantis and my first about Teyla my favorite character. I hope you like it.
A Constant Battle
When I opened my eyes he was leaning over me.
Why did my heart beat so fast?
Why was he leaning so close?
A million thoughts were running through my head but I had to stay focused as a leader always should.
I ask him where Colonel Sheppard is and he tells me that he has gone looking for Ellia. Colonel Sheppard may not be foolish but he should no better than to go alone.
I tell him to leave, and he says John told him to stay. I'm worried for John so I tell him there are times when we must make a decision to help.
"And who makes these decisions?" He asks me.
"We do."
"Good enough for me." He says, and he runs off, to find the Colonel.
He is gone, only then does my focus fail and my mind drifts to places it should not go.
Why did he take orders now? He never usually does.
I will not allow myself to believe that he would care for my concern.
But my heart doesn't listen.
He is a brute, and as unpredictable as the wind. He cares for no one but himself and yet I find I wished he cared for me.
Colonel Sheppard would be a much better choice I remind myself, but I have seen the way he looks at Dr. Weir and I have seen her look back. And my heart is not saddened by this.
And my foolish heart is filled with hope.
Hope that when I turn to see Ronan it is not mere chance that he is staring back.
Hope that I try to extinguish.
You are the leader of the Athosians, you cannot allow yourself such thoughts, you can do so much better."
I know I could, but yet I don't want to.
I am in a constant battle with my heart and my mind. I don't know which one will win.
And yet I do, when I see him smile, and remember how gentle he can be. I know that eventually...
My heart will win.
A/N: Review, please pour water on all flames.
