Do I Know You 5

Disclaimer- I own nothing… nothing is mine! I just put the characters lives into some twisted reality… or whatever!

And the winner of the game is the one and only and crazy and purple KIKI! (And just so everyone is cleared I did NOT tell her!) Line: "You've been hurt so you just cry", Movie: Princess Diaries, Who (which she didn't say): Helen (Mia's mom)… so… yea!

Kiki- I dunno! I'm just used to writing you little notes… I forget… and that thing DOES happen (URGH!) "These things do happen?"

Marie Terensky- I think you and Kiki are the only two keeping up with the story! Lol! Thanks for your reviews!

So… -list of random objects/sayings/jokes- me too lazy to name them all cuz it would be longer than the story… READ!


Chaper 5- Life Sucks

I have never experienced so much silence in the past two weeks than I have in my whole life (and I have my memory back to prove it)!

Maybe that is the reason everyone is so quiet with me… my memory is back… but that's not a reason to not talk to me. I know, know for a fact that Brynn and Charlie aren't my real parents, Dane, Sarah and Katie are not my real siblings and 'Freya' isn't my real name. But I don't want to lose this life. I mean it sucked when I lost my 'Hermione' life… I just feel like I know my 'Freya' life better and that has only been for three years.

And I thought that since I lost my memory those three years ago, I had no idea who I was… now this! Am I Freya or Hermione? The way I saw it, I was happy… in my 'Hermione' life that is… but it was just… oh, I don't know how you put it! This feeling I have right now, what is it? It's a complicated emotion.

I never did see who put the memory charm on me… but whoever it was, damn him or her to hell! I mean… no one should go through a life with no memory; your memory is part of you. Kind of reminds me of a Dementor's Kiss… it's worse than dying, sucking out your soul. Just like oblivating someone's memory. But I'm not sure if your soul or memory is a more powerful part of you.

(A/N- Ok, I'm like MONDO tired when I'm writing this… I'm suppose to be babysitting at the moment but the kids are still sleeping, I hardly for any sleep last night, I got really pissed at my loser brother… hell I even thought I was gonna lose two of my friends! The only reason why I'm writing is cuz I got nothing better to do, I want to get this story posted, I'm bored and I'm not saying this is a last resort or anything but… I just feel shitty at the moment! So if I'm not making any sense, blame anyone that pissed me off… and I got NO sleep last night! Damn life!)

I didn't know if I should go home (Hermione home) or stay home (Freya home)… in fact Freya-home doesn't feel like home anymore, not that I really ever knew what 'home' felt like. Hardly anyone talks to me. Every time I now enter a room, it is just quiet. I mean the silence is so loud it would wake the dead and drive a mime insane! But I don't want to go Hermione-home because it wouldn't be fair to the people at Freya-home… but staying at Freya-home isn't making it fair to the people at Hermione-home.

Maybe I should just run away… to like France or something! But than that would make the Freya-everyone worried… but (once again) staying at Freya-home would get Hermione-everyone worried…er.

This whole thigh isn't fair! Not to Freya's life, not to Hermione's life, and whoever the hell I am, it isn't fair to me either! Man, I thought it was hard when I first lost my memory but now this is hard and pressuring!

Life isn't fair! Why can't it be fair? Why can't they say something like 'life isn't easy'? Well, life isn't easy and I know from experience!

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade (that sounds good now… off topic!) and when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. Well I'm not really 'going' anywhere… not that I have a place to go.

Why give out all these 'lessons' on life, but nothing on losing your memory? I mean (from what I know) it's worse to live a life with no memory. I mean, I wouldn't know if it is hard to live a life with something you don't want to remember, like something you regret, I wouldn't know. Maybe that is where the 'life sucks' saying comes into play.

Speaking of life sucks I got fired at work! Can you believe it? Mr. Scott says I have been slacking too much. I'm not slacking, I'm just thinking… and killing several brain cells in the process of it too! Anyway… I have just been out of it lately so I guess me getting fired wasn't a complete shock of me.

I hate this! I don't think that there is a worse feeling than the feeling that I have right now… whatever that feeling is! I'm lost, confused, pressured, hurt, upset, angry, tired, sick, worried… alone. I don't know who to turn to, don't know who I am, where to go, what to do; I'm angry because I have to keep all this crap locked inside of me and the pressure level is raising to maximum point and then everything will blow up in my face… not that it already has, but still.

If only one person, ONE PERSON, could see all this shit from my point of view and just try to understand, I'd be fine. But right now, that I know of, no one has seen it from my point of view or even tried to understand anything, then that someone should let me know!

All I can say is my head is spinning, I'm feeling sick to my stomach, it hurts to breathe, and LIFE SUCKS!


Ok… so I get WAY too emotional there, don't you think so? I just realized I'm trying to express my (me as in Freya, dracosbaby07, the author) as I wrote what she (Hermione) was feeling… I myself am hurt, lost, alone and confused… but I'm better now! Did you like the chaper? This is one of my favorite ones yet!

Hey Brynn… when I was writing this chaper I saw some geese and they were flying and honking… kinda reminds you about Polk Trivia!

So… I'm pissed at myself cuz I have a plan for the next two chapers (well three chapers) cuz I did something to someone and that someone is cool but I'm just pissed at myself for it! GRR ME! DAMN ME! So… I'm not going to tell you what it is and if Kiki tells you… damn her! But Kiki isn't here at the moment cuz she went on a trip so she won't be here for a while! –cries- me miss her! So… I'm just mad!-

So… review! Thanks!


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