Chapter-7
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In this chapter, Damon is back to caring in season 8 and plans to bring back Stefan too. He is reflecting on the past few months when he was under the mind control of Sybil.
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(This chapter takes place in season 8 after Damon's switch is turned back on and he is reflecting on the past few months and writing an account of the same to Elena.)
Dear Elena,
Hey. I don't even know where or how to start.
That's right, the snark-filled, smart mouth is finally speechless. Well it's not like it's the first time I've been rendered speechless, but all the other times I remember being struck with awe as it was mostly your love confessions, your good morning kisses or all the times we promised each other forever and I plan to do good on that.
I don't know whose diary you'll be reading first, I'll just brief you on your gallant cavalier's but doltish actions! Your very knight went off the rails for a very fucking long time only because he was foolish enough to fall into the devil's trap and believe that you were in some cave and needed saving.
Being the knight that I am, I couldn't take it and all logic went down the rabbit hole and I got stuck with scheming sirens who guess what? Worked for the devil!
Further on, the siren called Sibyl made Enzo and I her personal puppets and used some perverse mind-control to make us commit horrid deeds. I'm leaving the details to the others trusting they'll fill you in on my sins abundantly.
So, I flipped my switch, held on to you, Sybil found out, tried very inelegantly to erase you, I sold my brother's very soul along with mine to save myself from hell because get this, I was spooked and haunted by the horrid details of a hell- like vision that siren showed me and I, submitted.
Then after too many efforts and holding onto my last shred of humanity that is you, btw, I am back.
Stefan's still working for the devil but trust me, I'll get us out of this. So, enough about me, how are you? Kidding, kidding, I am pretty sure by the time you are reading this, you'd be well sated and tingly from our weeks of love-making!
Oh don't Damon me, you know you want me! .Time. Fine, fine, I'll stop. Trust me on this baby, you are not going to be reading these diaries for a long time after you return because I am gonna kidnap you and take you some place so far away that none of our minions can reach, and then, I won't ever let you leave my arms.
I have some qualms about what would happen when you get to know all this. I mean, I apologized to Bon, she's fine with me but I wouldn't hold you back if you decide to not forgive me this time.
I know I wouldn't, haven't, couldn't!
I wish I could say that things are starting to look up but I can't, because they aren't.
I have no clue how to fight the devil himself and honestly, I don't even know if this would be my last entry or not!
I see no win right now but there's one thing that I will always hold onto. Hope. Hope, to see you again, Hope, to have a quiet, ordinary and mundane human life with you, Hope, to bring my brother back, Hope, to see you walking down the altar at our wedding and hooting and whistling loudly, knowing I get to marry the love of my life. I have Hope now and I am not letting that go! God, I miss you every day and every moment and just thinking about you is a bittersweet feeling baby.
I tried, I tried very hard to do right by the people I love but I failed again, miserably. I won't fail again. I won't abandon them again.
It's nice just to write this down to you. Feels like you are listening to my blabbering and oh just the thought of that is peaceful.
Who would've thought that the big bad vampire would turn out to be such a corny believer? Don't worry though, I know heaven won't reserve a seat for me but I need to destroy the hell that has us all damned on this earth.
It's gonna be a big fight, whenever it happens and hey, you know me, never one to back down from a good fight.
Little did I know those sirens held the fatal attraction kinda effect but don't worry, I held my own against her, only, I couldn't fight the orders they gave.
Sometimes I surrendered way too willingly and I felt like a loser while Enzo, fought against the compulsion. Ever the weakling huh.
They made us hollow shells, with no free will, just actions performed for our owners. Oh I also allowed the murder of the last circulating Salvatore, tragic… I think it befalls upon us to pop out the next one, if you'd still want me.
Anyway, after months of puppetting us around, Blondie gave me your necklace and nursed me back to my insane, impulsive self from my insane, follow-your-orders-till-you-want-me-to self!
I'd keep coming back to you, asking your light to help me fight and save the last of my humanity and you did it babe, you helped me. So, thank you!
Mystic Falls is ever the lively town, where half the town remains oblivious to the supernatural world of Buffys and teen-wolves, while half the town still whittles stakes to kill one.
The connectivity has improved between Fells church, Mystic Falls and Richmond and I know how much you love junk food, so I keep noting down exquisite diners serving the best cheesy fries and burgers, but I don't think they'll still be here to fill the void in your tummy by the time you are back.
It gives me hope. I have become some hoarder here. I keep planning on all the stuff I'd do with you, and to you once you're back. It helps me through the day!
I was thinking of helping out Ric too with the munchkins, after all, I did put their life in jeopardy with the devil, I owe him big!
Although he did kill me for the same so I am a long way ahead!
To be honest, I miss my brother. I don't know if he'd ever forgive me for doing what I did. He shouldn't. Some big brother I am to sell his freaking life to pardon mine.
God what wouldn't I give to take it all back! To not have entered that dungeon-like cavern and listened to the voice of reason rather than the dummy mind telling me it was possible that you were awake and needed me.
I think about it every moment since I got my humanity back. All the destruction that could have been prevented, all the severed ties… Ric, Stef, I don't know how to undo it, I just, I don't know right now.
Stefan-the Ripper is tied in our basement and I have a long way to try and bring his humanity back. Guess what Blondie thinks? She thinks it's only me who can bring him back but how can that be? Wouldn't he hate me? Be mad at me for ruining his life? If anything, he'd keep it off, to spite me, because right now, he's incapable of caring!
Come back to me, just come back to me and tell me what to do! I know by the time you'll be reading this, it'll be a pointless load of crap but I need something, just something, even false hope, telling me that you could listen, that I can try to think like you and do right by our people. I miss you Elena.
Forever yours Love,
Damon.
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