Le Livre d'Amour Chapter 5- Passions Turmoil

By Miyu6

'Calm down Kagome...he's just a guy. He'll be leaving soon anyway.'

"Speaking of which, I still haven't asked him what happened...maybe it's so traumatic he'll throw up or something." Kagome shuddered. "I'll wait till he's done eating."

"Mew?"

Bouyo, who had just walked out of the room, walked towards Kagome and rubbed against her legs, purring contentedly.

"You weren't supposed to get attached Bouyo. You know he can't stay forever. He doesn't live here."

Bouyo's ears seemed to droop slightly and he looked sad. Was that possible?

"We'll just see how things turn out okay? Obviously we'll have to make a stop by his house later tonight, if he doesn't decide to go home anyway, because...well..."

Kagome picked Bouyo up and cradled him in her arms, whispering into his ear as it twitched.

"I don't have any fresh underwear for him..."


Inuyasha had finished eating and was, quite simply, just enjoying the silence that blanketed him. But with all the quiet...he was left to think of things that, while sleeping, he had almost forgotten.

'She's going to ask me eventually. Now's a good a time as ever to explain what happened.'

"Hey. Kagome?"

Kagome, who had been standing just outside the room all along, walked in quickly, as if she were a maid waiting for orders.

"Yes?"

Inuyasha's eyes seemed to be looking everywhere BUT Kagome's face.

"Is there something you needed to tell me?" Kagome continued.

Inuyasha sighed as his eyes finally met hers. Though she looked a bit ruffled from running around all morning, she still looked so--

"Beautiful..."

"Excuse me?"

"Ah! I mean the FLOWERS...in the WINDOWSIL! Yeah...that's it..."

'Why can't I think straight? I have GOT to learn to stop thinking out loud.'

"Well Inuyasha. It's nice to see you're in touch with your feminine side but...There aren't any flowers in the windowsill. It's almost winter and besides that...everything I touch dies."

"I hope you mean flowers." He quickly said, inching away from her a bit and trying to make her forget what he'd said previously.

Kagome glared at him momentarily then regained her composure and took a seat next to the bed.

"Can you sit up?" she asked softly as she gently touched his shoulder.

"I'm fine." He replied almost harshly as he hit her hand away.

He hadn't meant to hit as hard as he did but Kagome didn't seem to be hurt by it.

"Alright then." She said calmly, "Tell me what happened."

"It was Naraku."

"Naraku as in...the one that took your girlfriend home that night?

Inuyasha nodded as Kagome fidgeted nervously in her seat. Something just didn't seem right about it.

"But...I thought--"

"You thought wrong." He said, his face adopting a solemn expression. "We both did. It was a trap. Kikyo was there."

"Kikyo?"

"She...she helped him. If it had been one on one...I would have slaughtered them. They had to ambush me."

Inuyasha's hands clenched into fists and Kagome moved her hand towards his face to comfort him. But he hit it away. His amber eyes seemed pained as he stared at the wall opposite of the bed.

"I don't want OR need your sympathy."

"I'm sorry."

"Stop it!"

Inuyasha's eyes seemed to be flaming. He hated when people pitied him...when they...felt BAD for him. It was sickening. So many times people had been so nice to him, ever since he was little. He'd been an orphan for so long...

"Why do you have to be like this?" Kagome asked.

"I'm going home."

"In what?! Your underwear? You're not well enough! I'll drive you."

Kagome was about to leave the room to get her keys when Inuyasha grabbed her wrist.

"I'm going alone."

"What are you...nuts?"

"There's no way you could understand! I'm sick of people helping me. Sure. I found my way here and you took care of me in my most critical stage. But I'm not like you. I'm grateful but I don't want your help any more."

"Inuyasha..."

'Can't you see Kagome? I can't get close to you any more. Anyone that gets near me suffers...that's why...I can't love you. I don't want you to become my weakness...'

"Fine. Take your pants at least. They were the only item of clothing you had on that wasn't all mauled and bloody so I washed them."

Kagome reluctantly handed him his clothing and he put it on under the sheets. It was hard though because just one nights sleep clearly wasn't enough to heal his wounds properly. They may not have healed completely but they did look miraculously better due, not only to Kagome's care but to Inuyasha's good blood.

"Sayonara Kagome." He muttered as he walked past her out of the room, not even turning his head to acknowledge her.

"S-Sayonara? That's it?" she inquired, following him out angrily.

"No, 'thanks Kagome' or anything? Why do you have to be so stubborn?!"

"I dunno. Why do YOU have to be so loud?"

Kagome's temper boiled. How dare he call her loud.

"I'm not loud!" she yelled.

Inuyasha brushed the comment aside with his hand.

"Feh. I rest my case."

Kagome's fists clenched as she fought the urge to just chuck him out the door. Or at least...give him a shove...

"I don't even know why I bothered with you..." she muttered.

"Neither do I." He replied almost sadly as he stepped out the door.

Immediately Kagome regretted saying it. Did he really feel that way? After stopping momentarily to lock the front door to her house, Kagome caught up to Inuyasha who was, slowly but surely, making his way down the black-paved driveway.

"How are you expecting to get home?" she asked softly, feeling bad for saying what she had said just moments before.

"I'll walk."

"Please...I want to take you...it's the least I can do."

"Fine."

"What?"

She was surprised that he had agreed. It was too easy...way too easy.

"I said FINE. But hurry up."

Obviously, patience was NOT with Inuyasha. Kagome nodded and unlocked her car, throwing her purse in then opening the passenger-side door for Inuyasha.

'He MUST be brain damaged. That's the only explanation unless he's just really hot-headed. Keh. Thinking he could walk home on his own...I just don't understand him.'

Inuyasha was silent the whole time as he just watched what went by on the outside of the car. He seemed to be thinking about something. Maybe he was remembering the happenings of the previous night. His pale, tired, face reflected in the window so, even though he wasn't facing her, Kagome at a glance could still see him. Every once in a while he would give her a direction or two but other than that they didn't talk.

"You really do hate me. Don't you?"

Even that didn't get an answer. They were driving through a city now. Granted, it was no Tokyo but it was still pretty big. Kagome had expected to see more street signs than she did but considering how run-down most of the city was, she wasn't exactly surprised.

'They must have been vandalized.' She thought to herself.

Then she sighed.

"I miss Tokyo already. I wonder how far I've driven tonight."

She was surprised to see at least 25 miles added onto her car meter when they pulled up to the apartment.

"A-And you were gonna walk that?!"

Inuyasha, still silent, opened the car door and got out. He had started to walk when Kagome got out and began to follow him. He was unsteady, she knew. There was just no way he could brush off the damage that easily, even if he did have good blood. It began to show when he tripped the first time but caught himself.

Then he tripped again, and all before he even reached the building. The third time he wasn't even lucky enough to catch himself before falling on the pavement. He winced painfully as he lifted one of his knees that now had hot crimson liquid flowing down it. The blood was on the pavement and other knee as well. Kagome immediately ran over and knelt down on the ground, putting her arm under his and supporting his weight with her own. It wouldn't have done any good to help him earlier because she knew he would have just pushed her away. Now he had no choice.

"You...you're pushing yourself too hard..."

"I'm fine."

"Inuyasha...you're bleeding...just--"

"Didn't you hear me? I'm fine."

Inuyasha stood and at last he and Kagome finally reached the outside door that lead to the stairs. Obviously the apartment was too cheap for an elevator. Kagome gazed up at the many stair cases.

"You have GOT to be kidding me..."

"You can go home now." Inuyasha stated as he pulled away from Kagome and latched on to one of the railings, gripping it tightly as he started to scale the staircase.

"But--"

"Good NIGHT...Kagome."

"But I...Fine! Just--"

Inuyasha continued up the stairs.

"Just...take care of yourself okay?!"

Inuyasha's eyes widened but before he could even turn around he heard the door shut and Kagome was gone.


Well...now that I know you guys aren't mad at me I figured I'd update again. Hope you enjoyed it and don't forget to review like you always do. I can't believe how much people like this story. And I thought everyone would hate it...heh. Love you guys! Cookies for everyone! hands out some chocolate chip, macadamia nut, peanut butter, sugar, oatmeal, oatmeal raisin, and sprinkle cookies ---Miyu